PurpleTree

It‘s the absolute appearing as lover, enemy, dog, frustration, friend, anger, sadness, fear, constriction …

i feel like my ego is suffering a lot because it wants that others see that i‘m suffering because of them, so that then they feel bad and give me what i want or that they then suffer because they did me „wrong“ but it‘s a horrible misguided strategy and has basically never worked aside from early childhood maybe.

The ego is exhausting and exhausted from all this fear, clinging, hoping, seeking, comparing, lack…

I‘m not really thinking about it seriously yet. I‘m always looking for ways to decrease anxiety and improve confidence though. Also less fatigue. Has any body successfully done for better mental health and more energy?

Wear what you like bro

I tested a few yrs ago. Not sure about the numbers but the doc said he expected testo to be lower. Maybe i should test again. Stress definitely is an issue but i think it‘s some kind of adrenal fatigue, overactive amygdala etc. Not sure how to heal that and i still have to function in the world.

I mostly stopped exercising because of chronic fatigue and post exercise malaise. Started doing some yoga recently though. i eat enough carbs sleep often isn‘t great. I‘m a light sleeper and often find it hard to go to sleep

Even though i have many present moments my ego seems extremely disfunctional, lots of anxieties about abandonment, fear that people don‘t like me, trust issues etc so i always get triggered so i do have to heal parts of my ego too otherwise it doesn‘t work and i just get triggered constantly

Which colours the perception of the individual? i felt like yesterday when i had fever/covid and took a thc gummy i could turn the filter on and off

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Well thanks for your input. Inhave normal libido and don‘t cry often. Inwas listening to some psyched substance episodes and it seems it helped him the trt. He was even less anxious while tripping on acid. About the „get good sleep“ that‘s easy to tell somebody who‘s not a great sleeper like me ??

Just let her rant it‘s something like a mental disorder of course that‘s easier said than done

I think we all knew that. Even the bhagavad gita spoke about that thousands of years ago. thanks for your insights though

I also want to talk to some enlightos

Maybe try creatine (i‘m just writing that because i want to try it again for energy etc)

Maybe because the word doesn‘t make much sense anymore. Nobody gets enlightened

more like covid + gummy

Only 10mgs ( my first ever thc gummy). just lot’s of input. i’ve also been listening to a lot of nonduality talks, today for example these https://youtu.be/X6A5a_FZPak hope it’s no psychosis ?

What makes you think that?

I‘ve taken mdma quite often at parties like 10 yrs ago. but always mixed with alcohol and just to party and haven‘t take it since. best way to take it for healing etc. any ideas?

Only the old testament and some of the new. Like 15 years ago though

Yea it‘s in the bible right? also in the bible god sent bears to munch on children etc

I was listening to this podcast once and this guy said he went to a healer, she touched his heart ( just as a greeting not even in the healing session) and it dissolved a heavyness/blockage there. i often feel contractions around heart, plexus, belly even/especially when i’m very “conscious”

~All this is, is Magic~ ~time isn‘t real~ i think this was too much vitamin k ?

There’s no kingdom if there’s just one “thing”