PurpleTree

Some men get a bit of exhaustion or depressive like mood after ejaculation. Me i do get some symptoms sometimes as i’m already a bit chronically fatigued, it also messes with my sleep sometimes. But after about a week of no ejaculation i start to feel weird and sleep also deteriorates. But who knows what’s going on theres also placebo etc

I read this quote “only the phony won’t get enlightened” i’m not sure how honest i am with myself. i often have conflicting thoughts, ideas and beliefs how do i know which one is true for me? also especially for example when it comes to sex and women because i think most men would like to have sex with most decent looking normal women, so how can you be fully honest there. how to get fully painfully honest with yourself?

4.5 was already too much for me I think First made a tea then ate the rest. Got me a week of paranoia.

Buddha said life is suffering. Maybe we’ll have to suffer a bit more. Suffering is the greatest teacher some say. Can you talk about the scam more?

I mean why not just try it. i tried it and it wasn’t for me.

I also like Gangaji and Suzanne

I hate unnecessary shame and psychological and some physical illnesses and chronic fatigue. I like most other things

Thanks bro wish you too

No

Who am I (or would i be) without self doubt

theres nothing to do nowhere to go

Fear of abandonment fear of rejection fear of being ridiculed fear going crazy fear of my mothers death

Like repressed anger, shame, anxiety.

This moment is holy

Do i want to be respected or do i want to be free? Do i want to be respected by this specific person or do I want to be free? Do i want to be ready or do i want to be free? Do I want to be safe and protected or do i want to be free? Do i want to control how people view me or do I want to be free? Would i rather nobody ever laughs at me or would i rather be free? Do i want to have a pretty face or do I want to be free? Would i rather be suave and constricted or embarrassing and free? Would i rather be cool or would i rather be free?

I just want to be left alone ? by my ego ? noooo leave alone noooo ? go hihi

chipping away at my ego chip chip chip ???

What is this (constriction/the egoic structure) with it’s mechanisms shame, anxiety, constriction etc. trying to protect me from?

there’s nothing to wait for your so called « better » future will never come it doesn’t exist stop waiting for something Also There’s nothing to seek or find not in your mind not on your phone not on tinder not on google or forums just be if you seek you lose this even though it can’t be really lost

Rat rice is delicious

Let’s talk about it what are your thoughts on it?

I took laxative salts on my past few water fasts. They work but are very disgisting.

Don’t forget the laxatives

stop