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You are amazing and I am sincere...

Hi Everyone, My wife died suddenly on this 10/28. I am left with our 6 year old daughter. Mainly, I wonder what everyone thinks about handling these extremely intense terrible emotions. What I do is just try to be as keenly mindful as possible when it is happening. I try to just observe them and feel them as energy fields. When it happens though you get pulled into the mind and thoughts arise. This is unbelievably difficult. Thank you for your comments and for reading this.

Thank you, Emerald!

I feel exactly the same as you. Leo has a video about self-actualizing and how lonely it is. Everyone I run into is totally asleep unconscious. I feel like this forum is the only place to talk to Awakening people. Thank you for putting this out there.

Hi Leo, Hi everyone! I used to have a guided meditation that Leo made for us on my phone, it was almost like an app, you just click on it. It was from around summer of 2016. Is this still available somewhere I gotta have it Thank you!!!

Looking for advice. Last time with wife was around mid-May 2018. I have had several conversations with her about this. The first few attempts she became angry and stormed out of the room saying that sex is all I think about and that I want it 10 times a day... The next few attempts she became irritated and said that is all I ever bring up. The last attempt we finally had a productive talk. She said she has zero drive, swore that it was not me at all. (We have been through all of that, me telling her it appears that she is through with the relationship, she strongly denies it). This sexless trend has been in the making for 3 years. Just got less and less frequent to the now dead state. We left it at that but she will not do anything to try to change her lack of desire and I have given up trying to try to get her in the mood, even leaving her alone for weeks at a time. *Disclaimer, she is menopausal, has seen a doctor but refuses to go get the blood work that was directed, drinks too much alcohol. These may be factors of course but c'mon, zero intimacy??? I even tried to get her to agree to a 10 second makeout session once a day just to try to bridge the gap a little. She made it one day. I am very in shape, good looking, successful, etc. (...not smelly, as Leo refers to, lol). We have a house together and a 5 year old daughter. I feel like she has left me with no choice but to wait, and suffer, leave and destroy everything, or cheat. What would you do? Thank you anyone who reads this! P.S. I am Awakening since fall 2015 after my Mom's death and it coincided with the finding of Leo. THANK YOU FOREVER LEO!!! (It is very lonely Awakening as you know because everyone else is totally unconscious, asleep...).

Do not get married unless you are prepared to at some point in a few years or so hardly ever to have sex again. Also, when/if you have a child or children, it will be even worse. Really imagine this because it's probably a 50/50% or greater chance that this will be your experience.

Thank you very much, perlita!

Hello, Anyone else out there experiencing many obstacles due to having a young child to raise and a wife or spouse that is reluctant or unconscious I should say? I am definitely in the awakening process (since around fall of 2015, right after my Mother died which I believe started it through massive suffering) however, it is challenging to say the least having all of the distractions and turbulence of a young child and the above. I would like to say how sincerely thankful I am for Leo because my awakening coincided with finding Actualized.org and it has been a tremendous source of teachings.

Thank you, Leo! My awakening cannot be stopped and I will continue on this path regardless of any challenges. It is impossible to say how much I look up to you and am inspired by you and so much more. I am sticking with the program and following you. Gradual Enlightenment for me it seems... (Please add the guided meditation you once had, unless I cannot find it on the site). Thank you so much!

Thank you for this.

Does anyone have the same experience? I am unable to discuss anything that Leo shares with us with other people. They are completely unconscious and even offended when you attempt to talk about anything even remotely related to anything on Actualized.org.

I've been told..."just be a [bee]...", i.e. just be..............................................................

When I have spoken about Truth and other topics, some of the closest people in my life see me as "above them", arrogant. Never meant it that way at all, it was their reaction. So, again, I think it is best to say nothing to anyone.

Well said. I will let everything and everyone just be.

I will say nothing to anyone.

Thank you. It is a lonely road...but for who/whom? The nearly Enlightened? Man, everyone I meet is completely trapped in mind patterns, totally lost...

Wow... that is wondrously stated... thank you

Leo, I am experiencing periods of heightened awareness more frequently and can more easily catch myself when I slip back unconscious and then focus back on awareness. You mentioned that you would create episodes on the stages of awareness. Please consider doing these soon and if you can include some type of guide to measure your progress (even though that is almost a paradox or counter-intuitive; but yet as you mentioned "coming into the matrix" to communicate to us can help those of us in the unresolved state). Cannot thank you enough for everything. My life has dramatically changed and continues to transform in amazing ways. "You" are phenomenal!

"Do You Have To Have An Enlightenment Experience To Become Enlightened?" No. It can just happen to you suddenly or gradually.

I have been into self help on and off for years. I would experience success and back slide (per Leo's explanation in the back sliding video - homeostasis, etc.). However, when I found Leo's videos and this site, I am completely blown away. This is a true breakthrough for me. He is a phenomenon and he is amazing. His videos are truly incredible and life changing. I have submersed myself back into the self actualizing world. I watch several of his videos repeatedly and am particularly drawn to the Awareness and Enlightenment topics. In fact, after watching the Enlightenment videos, his video "What to do next after learning about Enlightenment" was so accurate and like medicine to overcome the shock. My challenge is that I have a 3 year old daughter, a marriage, and busy career. This is frequently difficult to manage on the self actualization path. There must be many experiencing this situation. I wonder if Leo would film an episode focused on how parents can balance all of this and still work on self actualizing full-on and even approach the most important topics of Awareness and Enlightenment. Thank you!

Sorry about that, favorite Leo video, I meant: Spiritual Enlightenment - Part 2 - Understanding The Conceptualized Self

You notice progress when you become aware that you were just unaware and then you pop back into awareness. That is how it started for me. You will find yourself throughout the day oscillating back and forth from conscious awareness to unawareness. Over time, you will be aware for longer periods and most interesting also in my experience is watching others as they are totally asleep unconscious. The more frequently you catch this, then that is great progress. You will also become highly aware of your pain body and the pain body in others. This is huge progress. Leo's videos are amazing and he got me started and keeps me going like a coach so to speak. But you should also watch Eckhart Tolle videos, in particular watch the Omega Institute 2001 vids below part 2 and 5: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=37b6-C2QUdg&list=FLikm9G5fvSF9B4vaA-xB_Og&index=5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1kwBuEr7y4&list=FLikm9G5fvSF9B4vaA-xB_Og&index=6 My favorite Leo vid (I have watched this one probably 15 times and printed the transcripts): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1kwBuEr7y4&list=FLikm9G5fvSF9B4vaA-xB_Og&index=6 I am only about 6 months into the awakening process. In the beginning I experienced a lot of anxiety attacks so if that happens don't worry, fear and getting scared is normal. It should go away in time. Also, read this book below or listen to the audio: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAFHr1wL35o&index=1&list=FLikm9G5fvSF9B4vaA-xB_Og Good luck to you! (Sorry, I could not post the links properly you will have to copy/paste).

I am a huge supporter and follower of Leo. When I share the topic of enlightenment (or I should say, attempt to share it, due to the extremely radical and nearly incomprehensible nature of this topic) with others, they think I am insane. Please share your thoughts and comments because this must be not only common but normal. My wife and close friends think I am crazy. Only one person I have shared this with is openminded enough to discuss it. (By the way, many friends and even my wife have mocked self-help. Maybe these aren't the right people for me to have in my life).

Well said. That is what I was told..."be the light" or in other words, just be, don't talk about it. Others will just notice or not and that does not matter anyway.