Ivan Dimi

My First Experience with Ayahuasca & Bufo Alvarius / One of the most intense, terrifying, and eye-opening experiences of my life Some months ago, I tried psychedelics for the very first time: Ayahuasca and Bufo Alvarius. Two substances, two ceremonies, two completely different realities. There was honestly zero similarity between them—like comparing Earth and another dimension. And yet, both opened something deep in me. Ayahuasca — The High-Tech Healing Lab of Consciousness We began with Ayahuasca at night. It came on slowly—almost nothing at first. But when it hit, it hit hard. I found myself in what felt like a futuristic healing lab in a higher dimension. I wasn’t alone—beings, or higher intelligences, were working on me. Numbers moved in patterns, like they were cracking some code in my consciousness. Oddly, I felt safe—like I was in good hands. That part was powerful, almost beautiful. Then came the purging—a lot of vomiting. My body was cleansing deeply, but my psyche remained intact. In the second session, it went deeper—more emotional, more heart-centered. I saw a timeline of my family tree stretching back generations. And the only word I could say, again and again, was: “Love. Love. Love.” It wasn’t mental or cliché—it came from forgiveness and flowed into pure love. One of the most beautiful things I’ve ever experienced. But the room was packed—over 20 people, body to body. And the energy of the girl next to me overwhelmed me. Her pain entered me. That part was rough and taught me: I need more space and safety in ceremonies like this. Still, Ayahuasca gave me something deeply healing. I know I’ll return. Bufo Alvarius — The Atomic Bomb of the Soul And then came Bufo. Wow. I expected it to be different—but thought it might still resemble Ayahuasca. It didn’t. Not at all. I smoked deeply—twice. And the moment it hit, it was like a nuclear blast in my consciousness. It started with beauty… then turned into the most terrifying, overwhelming experience of my life. My self, my beliefs, my ego—gone. My consciousness felt like an onion being violently peeled. My ego panicked. I knew: “I’m dying.” The fear hit like a tsunami. I doubted everything—even the shaman. I thought, “Is this even safe / wtf am I doing here?” Full-on ego death terror. The medicine demanded total surrender. Not partial—everything. Even my breath. And that was the one thing I couldn’t let go of. So I got stuck—between worlds. Not dead, not alive. Just fear. Somehow the trip went in my mind slowly over and I was going back. On the way back, a moment of clarity broke through: The root of suffering is resistance. Not fear itself, but our refusal to allow what is. Our judgment—this is good, this is bad, I want this, I don’t want that—that’s what creates hell. When I stopped resisting, even slightly, everything softened. I saw how everything—positive, negative—is just experience. When you let go of judgment, everything becomes light. A spiral of energy moved through me. Something would happen—and I’d let go. Again and again. It was so simple: Don’t resist. Don’t judge. Nothing. And then… peace. Conclusion I will definitely return to Ayahuasca one day. It’s a deep, loving teacher. Bufo Alvarius? I’m not sure. Maybe one day, far in the future. It was too intense. Too violent... To radical... But also… the most profound thing I’ve ever experienced... I didn’t dissolve into “God” or say “I am One.” But I know now: When we die, we dissolve into infinity. Before the Bufo ceremony, the shaman told us something that stuck deeply in my heart: “The depth of your trip depends on how much love you are ready to receive.” Incredible words. And after the experience, I realized something painful and honest: At that moment, I wasn’t fully ready to surrender into that infinite love. But maybe one day, I will be.

Hello everyone! As I run a creative business, I often face the challenge of balancing creativity with the everyday tasks of running a company. I've found that these two worlds often contradict and even work against each other. To manage both, it's almost as if you have to be two different people. Nonetheless, I want to share my insights on how I create a creative atmosphere for myself, even when it's not always easy: The elusive source of inspiration, the Muse, cannot be forced. On the contrary, the more we try to force it, the more mechanical our ideas become and the Muse moves further away. To foster creative flow, we should create optimal conditions for the Muse to feel welcome. A creative "bubble", a space without stress, material motivation, and distractions, is the ideal environment for the Muse to arrive. In this almost spiritual, timeless, and meditative "flow" state, we merge with our work and enter a world beyond the boundaries of the familiar. There is no foolproof recipe for attracting the Muse. Instead, we should focus on avoiding conditions that repel it. These include material fears, greed, egocentric values, everyday stress and worries, and dealing with negative people. Another aspect I've discovered is the role of social media as creativity killers. The algorithms of social media reduce our consciousness to an almost animalistic level and awaken existential fears. The next generation may laugh at us for the impact we've had on the general consciousness of our civilization through social media. For me personally, this is one of the greatest disasters of consciousness ever. Creating a creative atmosphere among creative people promotes the presence of the Muse. Inspirational places such as university libraries, lively cafes, or working on a train, where you can feel the dynamism of the world, can help. Personally, I find working at night to be the most creative. My mental state during the night is extremely calm, without any fears. It feels almost as if I am a different person at night. I believe this is because society is less active at night, and I feel less burden and energy from trivial societal problems. The night is, at least for me personally, an absolute creativity booster. It's about elevating our consciousness beyond the trivial. There are various methods for this: Change places and atmosphere - work in a library, be on a train, or travel to other countries. Adjust your surroundings - avoid negative people, even if they are good friends or close relatives. Physical challenges - long meditations, hikes in nature, or cold exposure (e.g., cold baths, showers, the Wim Hof Method) can shake up our consciousness and invite the Muse. Although I haven't tried any psychedelic substances yet, I can imagine that their responsible use could also raise consciousness and create an environment for creativity. In conclusion, creativity, insights, and brilliant ideas cannot be forced. By creating the conditions that attract the Muse and avoiding those that repel it, we can unfold our creative potential and succeed in our creative business. This also means distancing ourselves consciously from harmful influences such as social media and focusing on inspiring environments. By taking the time to work into the night and enjoy the silence and tranquility, we can create an atmosphere where creativity thrives, and we can unleash our full potential.

You’re welcome ☺️ Yeah, brutal conversation. It fells like tripping just listening to it And the podcast form is for me even more impactful.

This conversation is pure gold! For some reason it resonates with me even more deeply than the monologue type of Leo's videos.

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@Leo Gura Besides the very biased article, one thing is for sure & Leo himself recognized it already by taking down his latest video: Leo's teachings are obviously not for everybody and maybe dangerous for the majority. For me there is only one responsible way to continue by strictly separating mainstream & advanced stuff: - The mainstream Youtube-Chanel should be only about mainstream self-help. A perfect example: The series of videos: Advises for young people etc. - The advanced teachings should be only for some kind of closed very small circle of psychologically proofed & spiritually advanced people (a kind of master course attended by proofed students) It is comparable with learning martial arts. A white belt beginner should not compete with a black belt, he can literally die!!! A white belt should start competing with white belts and gradually after years and only when committed he can graduate into the next level... PS: For me as a relatively (at least in the materialistic sense) successful 35 year old male with healthy psyche, good relationships, friends etc. I've never felt any harm / negativity whatsoever, but nowadays there is an epidemic of very very fragile kids out there... it is pretty terrible, I personally know two 20ish young fellow suffering seriously from depression.

Not sure nether if this interview is legit. But even so, it wasn't solely the decision of USA! All those countries (of the ex. east block) willingly decided to join NATO (it was the highest priority for them besides joining the EU!). This new 'west orientation' of all these ex. Russian partner countries was not forced whatsoever, it was a more the result of truth realisation of how corrupt and non functional the sovjet / communistic system was.

Wich influence? Of what? Again economically Russia is a third world country, they are not producing any kind of cutting edge technology whatsoever, The only thing what they are doing is selling gas and investing in hacker farms to spread misinformation. This country is basally a house of cards with a middle edge macho dictator using the whole propaganda machine to serve him. Most of the Russians try to emigrate in West Europe to have a better life. Putin is absolutely delusional and not surpassingly... after all this years of literally owning the biggest country in the world ones brain get completely fucked up (again ''Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely'')

Putin is out of his mind. Hi is probably the best example how to much power can fuck you brain to the point of no return ''Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely''

it is 100% bullying. If Ukraine was part of NATO they would never attack, because it would be a lets say a fair fight. But now attacking a much smaller county with much smaller army... of course. typical bully In wich way?! I don't get it? Because if Ukraine become part of NATO, NATO would attack RUSSIA and start deliberately WW3.. that is ridiculous assumption, there is zero sense and logic in that fear. Nobody would ever attack Russia or any other atom power country, because of the obvious reason. and again there are already lots of NATO Countries neighbours with Russia? I didn't see Russia attacking any of them?!

Why would be that bad and reason for war? All other eastern europe countries incl. Turkey are already in NATO! Common, it is obvious they are looking for conflict... look at the history... Hitler started the WW2 exactly the same way...

of course they are some reasons for the sicko to attack. But from the outside neutral perspective there are zero real real reasons for war, It is an act of bulling in its highest form.