blandana

besides my 3d work of course, I do have a profession planned out but that's besides the point, see my previous post (hopefully this forum doesn't have a rule against double posting or triple posting, I don't believe I'm spamming and I'm not homeless or asking for handouts)

I'm glad I could provide you something to respond to. If I continue using this message board you'll find that I have nothing left to prove. Everything you post is going to dig deeper into the mystery of my inner mind about which I have yet to truly understand. I do not need unicorns or rainbows, crime or altruism, etc, to feel good about myself. I'm not entirely sure what path I should take in life although I wish I could be a spiritual teacher above all things. Sad part is, you can't get paid for that easily. Especially if everyone thinks you're just a crackhead.

btw if I'm "god" and am not aware and if your'e inventing rocket physics or something from this train of thought you are just in a different parallel universe and that's the way your brian is. I have taken my route on 3d art to try and succeed and you have taken your route in science. I dont know what you're thinking but you have the same determination as I do to succeed. That's how I feel. Every person is a different parallel universe living on earth and has the ability to interact with every other parallel universe. Whether or not they are a part of me I have no idea.

dream characters are separate from at least a scientific standpoint. ..UNLESS everytime you dream you travel to another dimension. We could probably get into that more but I feel like I dont want to and you'd be forcing me to try and convince myself that people in my dreams are real when I believe they are not and feel they are not. Do you have proof that dream characters are real? if you don't it's best we not get into that conversation

My "best friend" which got me into psychedelics has now also passed away like my uncle although his passing involved a car accident. He was highly into psychedelics and I even believe I saw his ghost before I was aware that he had passed away. I was playing a videogame and I saw a "vapor" appear behind my computer screen and even typed in the chat I was a part of "I think I just saw a ghost" I"m hoping we are actually seperate beings. wouldn't that be awesome? I think so, especially if most of the people on this planet are actually good people instead of bad people who want to do bad things to other people

On a side note if you are made from me I believe you have some sort of consciousness although perhaps you are not entirely an individual depending on your thought process.

btw as a followup I am going to bed eventually but I guess Im not sure when. its like 4am here the "you" i am referring to in your question perhaps means yourself and why you consider yourself real. If you were to phrase the question what do i consider "me" you would receive a different answer.

You thought i was going to bed, and would not reply since you were so stern in your assumptions. perhaps this is a joke but I am typing with what I perceive as real fingers and a real mind. I only hope you are doing the same. btw I am going to bed soon I cant stay up for more than 24 hours usually but I thought I'd check up on this thread.

my cascade red fox plushie says wow wow thanks for participating in this discussion tonight

btw if you hate how bitcoin has been not that its spiritual, i can relate. Mostly in terms of things trying to get forced up constantly illegally against demand. I've called lawyers. This is not related but it affects a large portion of the population and I want to let you know that I care about when you sell. We have all gotten banned in the market message boards for expressing our opinions on the subject because criminals have taken over the internet and want to control what people say and do. Have done what I can. I am going to bed soon

that's good. Please consider looking at this miyazaki link. This is how I feel constantly about the world. If you can translate that into real human emotion you'll know what I mean. It's not because I might be poor or sick. It's because no one can relate and feels like they have to make fun of eachtoher. That is not how life is supposed to be.

before i go to sleep I'll post one more gif. although I did not make it, this one is mine it expresses everything my spiritual form wants to convey to the physical realm if I am aware of it yet everyone I have met is not able to appreciate. *cue miyazaki music* goodnight everyone

hashtag #supadeep

If you put yourself in the position of god as if you perceive that you are real you know what I mean. I'd like to think you are but I have no proof even if I can touch you knowing how "divine" "God" is. I'll believe you but to an extent but i can't believe you completely. I'm sorry. I just don't know how I can prove this kind of thing. Even if you have "real bones" in ur body. I probably shouldn't have started this topic but I'm glad I did. It lets people know if they are real what it's like to actually really look super deep into your mind.

If you would like to know Riles I am somewhat of an I'd be a good boss I'm sure. You wouldn't be fired if you worked for me because you just now expressed honesty. Thank you for your edit. Do not be embarassed to second guess your personal emotions and whether or not it is a good idea to become vocal about your first impulses or not whether or not its in person or the internet. Well done.

Im obviously not the only one posting if you are here. feel free to rephrase your response.

"the irony of this post" and "lmao" I felt like was derogatory, i apologize if i misunderstood. I felt like it was an insult. Maybe it wasn't

To riles also: if what it takes to make a person real is for me to believe in them then I'm not sure you're going down the right path, not that everyone gets along. If you feel like you are real I don't believe it's your time to make fun of me. I'm not a psychopath or a lunatic and I've thought long and hard about this subject. Most likely just as Leo has done.

when you stop caring and you start making fun of me is when I stop caring or believing in you my friend.

my uncle also (my favorite uncle) also had alzheimers which is a disease which kills you and I waited as long as I could and literally showed up to visit him 1 or two weeks before his death because I felt like I "had to" and "this was the time" and he then passed away shortly afterwards. granted that may be just statistics but I believe in spiritual life especially since that happened. He is no longer with us but my Uncle John is someone I still love. He was the smartest person I knew and was the president of "Tufts University" in Michigan. Mr. John Dibiaggio His face is all over google if you search that name. He's the only one that pops up on images and its the same guy.

When i was "tripping balz" i actually had a telepathic experience with a friend of mine who was also tripping and imagined that "super smash brothers" super power up floating around the room. this thing I did not mention it but I was thinking about it and at the same time he sort of started pointing it out as if I was talking about it. This happened in college and I was like "oh you saw it too huh?" It happened.

I don't hear your thoughts unless you are within 50 meters. And even then I can only perceive them due to your body language. Does that help? maybe Although I cannot get specific thoughts it's almost scary what I perceive and that's one reason why the world tries to put me down.

The one thing I dont understand is how you guys post when I am asleep, that could possibly prove that you are real. But then again, since I have lucid dreamt like that other guy it proves you can "be awake" even when sleeping. I feel like theres a lot more research to be done in this field. Just hoping everyone here isn't "Just a part of me"

What would God do if he doesn't have a friend? Even if I made you up? If i am perceiving you as a replication of myself to fulfil my desire of companionship its a psychological need due to my chemical composition at this state. Sad reality but I have no choice really if I feel like I have a need to make a conversation. If you are me everything is literally pointless and this is just entertainment but I'm sure it serves a purpose somehow.

I'm pretty sure I'm thinking too hard and that this world could actually be real. I'm hoping this is the case. I'll stop responding in about 2 hours probably. Thanks again for your responses