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I've been sticking to earning a living through what Leo refers to as a "cashflow" business. As in, it may not be my Life Purpose but it paid the bills and allowed me the time to turn within, read some books, meditate, get some skills I'll need later on and attend events and retreats. I'm now "awake" perhaps not yet "enlightened" and now allowing my Life Purpose to show up. Because I need to do something with all the knowledge and experience I've gained and there's still a lot of life left. It is not either or, Life Purpose or Enlightenment, it is both indeed. Yet only you can answer if leaving your current job/career for a more exciting experience at this time is something that's calling you. Yet, with enlightenment also, the more you chase it the further it gets away before you realize you have absolutely no control over it. In such cases, I like to look into the potential choices, and check which one has "fear" attached to it. Does it connect at all that your current thought whether to stay or go really comes from "fear of missing out" vs "oh my, I'm so excited and can't wait to see what's behind that next door for me!"?

I know this dearly as it has been my main motivation for ‘self-improvement’. I’ve spent much time and money on looking for solutions and below is what I found to be the most effective for me, other than get over it and hit the gym ? First, I liked how it was laid out at depressiontrafficlights.com - when you’re in red, do not attempt to read self improvement book or try to go workout as that just not going to work, in red you just cope and try to get to yellow and up. From there what has really worked for me along with meditation and Kriya Yoga... Spiritual/energetic There could be all kinds of funky energy things going on that are causing all this, could be self-created, could be from books/movies/events/porn/unseen and others that need to be addressed. All kinds of energy healing modalities could be helpful here, the one that worked for me calls himself a Master Spirit Healer and got a program at selfhealingmastery.net which was the start of the ‘awakening’ process for me. Emotional Even with all kinds of healing modalities out there, if we do not have our thoughts and emotions figured out, we can put energetic blocks right back in there. For emotional, best for me was the Surrender Experiment, Power vs Force and Letting Go books, along with what’s called Heart Imagery from theschooloftheheart.com. Mental Along with surrender and fact that depression and suffering is really caused by wanting things different than what they are (job, money, health, relationship, advancement, environment, anything), what really helped was looking at Subconscious Beliefs and transforming them. Here EFT tapping (can find free stuff online) and a process called PSYCH-K® I found about from Bruce Lipton videos, can find sessions or really a weekend training at psych-k.com. Physical Although this was the first area I started with trying to heal my own depression, it ended up being the last tip of the ice berg really. The Change Your Brain Change Your Life book by Dr Daniel Amen describes 6 causes of depression from looking at the brain as an organ perspective and each has its own recommended protocol. All include meditation, exercise, food and various supplements, along with some neuro feedback training. I had my brain scanned and was told I’m too low on serotonin (one of 6 potential causes looking strictly at the physical brain side of things), and was given a standard vitamin supplementation program with all the regular A, B, C, D vitamins and 5HTP. Later I also looked at some of the gut conditions that is said to be main source of serotonin - applicable in my case, yours may be different. Since then I’ve invested in red light therapy kit (from platinumtherapylights.com or Joovv), and a 10k lumens light therapy lamp for winter periods that I found to be quite effective. Since last year I’ve also come across a practice of Sho-Tai, which combines iridology, Chinese medicine, herbology and others into a simple and effective supplementation program to restore functions of all the major glands and organs. But really, in the end, the whole process lead me to spiritual studies and ‘enlightenment’ whatever that means for you, as all suffering is created because of the illusion of separation, and for this you’re in the right place here. Best next step? Feel into what may resonate from any of the above and take it one step at a time...

This whole discussion is mind created that’s limited in itself in trying to understand how the whole thing works as it was never created to understand how it all works in the first place. If you go high enough there is Nothing, so yes there is no ego and no choice. When you go down levels into individual expression as a soul there is indeed illusion of choosing the lifetime and parents and environment to have the experience and habits. Down further the illusion of ego and illusion of choice allows for the experience of it. If it is experienced, is it not real? ? Fun thread and topic nonetheless, allows me to think that it doesn’t matter what I choose for breakfast as there is no choice, yet also allows for me to enjoy the process of choosing! Mmm, omelette du fromage ?