Eternal Unity

2 month break from the forum (mostly), just commenting here and there, not much. A friend of mine broke up with his girlfriend last week and he said he started to write a journal, as in hand-written one, and I remembered my entries here, so I decided to check in. Not doing much in my life, at the moment. Kind of hiatus.

Last night I slept soundly and barely moved my body for hours on end. Then, this morning I went to work and was very active with my body. Right now I am writing this post and my mind and intuitive centers are very active. Inside of the flow of time, I might think that I am one person who sequentially goes through these three different states of being. But from outside of time, it might seem as if I am one being who also holds three other coexistent beings inside his consciousness. Possibly we would call these other three beings, Sleepingman, Workingman and Writingman. But I can see, of course, that Sleepingman, Workingman and Writingman are each just aspects of me. And, in just that same way, the ONE is one being, but has within Its beingness an infinite number of different aspects.

Absolute Infinity - Part I What is Death? What is Reality?

The truth deserves to be spoken.

I started my spiritual path somewhere in 2007/2008 but i wasn't really serious about it until I started studying philosophy at university in late 2010. In December of 2010, after reading Spinoza's Ethics, I had my first mystical experience. I, of course, didn't know what it was. I had an extreme emotional upheaval. An existential crisis. I didn't sleep for over 72 hours, I was dehydrated and had a fever of 105. I had a near death experience on Dec 21st, 2010. I didn't care about all of this ; just wanted to read philosophy and deepen my understandings because I felt I discovered the truth. My mother noticed a change in my behavior and i tried to explain to her all the knowledge I came upon. Pretty soon she called a doctor. A psychiatrist. The meet with him was highly disturbing for me. He diagnosed me with a psychotic attack and recommended a willful hospitalization in a psychiatric hospital in which he worked. We agreed. I was hospitalized on Dec 23rd, 2010. For the next few days I received a high dose of anti psychotic medication and in my interviews with the medical staff I went on and on about how I am an eternal being, that I discovered The True God, that all of reality is One. They took notes and said: "Yes. of course you are" 3 weeks later, my condition worsened. I was totally detached from reality, according to my doctors. I had to be moved to a closed ward. And so I did. I hardly remember much from that time, being hazy from the meds. I spent 12 days there. At a certain point i realized who was there with me: murderers, sex offenders and terrorists. All of whom declared incompetent on the basis of insanity. I literally walked through the valley of the shadow of death but I feared no evil for I knew God is with me every step of the way. "You'll get throught this, Greg. You must! The world has to know what you now know." God told me. it was my 23rd birthday. "Endure these thoughts most impure, these pitch black insights. For this is the forging of a master." Somehow I survived. My condition improved and I was returned to the open ward. I integrated my soul for another three months with careful and gentle accompaniment of a female doctor. I also met a girl. a fellow patient. She was 19 and dark skinned. She tried to commit suicide by swallowing sleeping pills with vodka. We got close, helped each other through the hard times we were in and she was my first kiss My state of consciousness returned to normal and on April 27th, 2011 I was released. I found a job 3 months later (My academy philosophy study came to an end. They wouldn't accept me back after missing 4 months). My mother and I thought it was for the best. I started a healthy research into the nature of consciousness but it wasn't a smooth ride. I wasn't hospitalized again but had a psychosis on 2 other occasions. Last year I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. A rare condition that has elements of both Schizophrenia and Bi-Polar Disorder. I continue to take medication. But my story is not so bleak. I had awakenings, as well. Positive ones. Eight of them. Some into the nature of love, wisdom and time. After over 10 years of mental, conscious and mystical experiences I have a unique insight into some of the darkest experiences it is possible to endure as a human being and into some of the most blissful. I had it all along the spectrum This is the first time I am sharing these details to anyone other than my therapists, doctors, social workers, coaches and mentors. Thanks for reading ? It means a lot! Greg

Feeling at peace. Nice feeling, indeed.

Don't quit until the awakening is complete.

Agreed!

Sometimes, silence is life's greatest blessing.

Going through light depression. I'm experiecing it as it is. I learn how to respond to life circumstances as they come. Freedom is mine how to feel.

@OBEler A female friend of mine took it and ended up in a hospital. She was not ready...

5 months - alcohol and pills clean.

Eternal Lover! I like that High truth, indeed!

The Latin English dictionary has arrived. Stephen King book is on hold, at the moment. Translated wall street document. English to Hebrew. The client did a presentation at work with my help. It took me 30 mins = 150$

This is a brand new Job I scored on November 15th, 2022. The following will be an account of my personal projects. Strictly professional Journal. It will include details about how to maintain self supporting business, how to exchange international money, legal contracts and discussion about global economy. *You CAN and I'll even say that you are ENCOURAGED to participate in this particular journal by commenting, offer advice and wisdom from your experiences on the financial path. Thank you all, good luck and Godspeed! Languages: English Hebrew Russian Latin Gregory Margolis, February 8th, 2023.

Tal is getting more beautiful everyday. She's with someone, at the moment. We remain friends.

As I sit down to write this I find myself in a most interesting stage of my life. In fact, it doesn’t even feel like a stage of my life – it feels more like an hiatus between two entirely different lives. I feel like it's time to be born into a whole new life. The new life that I am getting ready to begin is that of a creator.

Important subject. I follow.

Whoever doesn't want to live forever is depressed and really wants to get it over with. They distract themselves with momentary pleasures and say: my life sucks anyway, give at least that cigarette... or icecream... or porn...

I won't.

Those who think they understand everything but actually don't know anything are called Jokers. They are dangerous. Avoid them until they are ready. Then, teach them.

Mine: "Am I Leo Gura?" What's yours? Greg

God is godhead awareness manifested as masters. Krishna is an example. I read the Bhagavad Gita again today and went deeper into understanding and on the path to realization. I actually achieved a moment of Self Realization. But, for real. As in Babaji style realization ? I am a little into the fifth stage of the ox herding pictures, Taming The Ox

A match made by God is the perfect match. Twin Flame. A match made by those who love you is a good match. Soul Mate. A bad match is the one you choose by yourself by means of pick up, temptation and when you're driven by lust. When the dick thinks and the brain shits. Yes, it can be solved by communication. Greg

Dozens of fatalities. 3:15 AM Serious damage. Hudreds of missing individuals.