Radament

Hi guys/girls, this is my first post ever here but I had to ask somewhere for advice coz I am going slightly crazy. It all started when I was a boy with a needle like uncomfortable pain in my spine (I actually thought I was neurologically sick when it first started). As years and time passed this feeling grew to something I could actively control and was no more uncomfortable in slightest makin it pass trough my body like a surge.....even to a point i could actually fell as if I had wings attached to my back. Egyptian/Oriental music was allways something that acted as some sort of booster or activator. This feeling as it passed left me feeling rejuvenated, revitalized, regenerated.....it stoped my Anxiety problems (which I have years long) in matter of litteral seconds...better than any Valium or Xanax, Alchocol or similar. For 2 years I was exposed to an enormous amount of Stres. At this moment I am gone from this work and that location. But during those years my "powers hehehe" waned and waned to the point where now I cant manifest the surge anymore stronge enough to feel those "wings....or whatever they are"... i can come to a point where I feel the energy but never fully to "wings" phase anymore. Does anyone have any ideas..... And also does anyone has any ideas...what exactly I am or what am I actually able to do...what is this energy surge....coz I also never got a straight answer to that question.

Ty for your generous insight. If Anyone has anything more I would be grateful. Right now it feels as if I lost part of myself....and its not pleasing in the slightest. For me as it seems my Kundalini (if that rly is Kundalini and not something else) awakened spontaneous at least partially when I was just a boy and I "nurtured" it from childhood. Now that I lost it or is somehow blocked....I am really no expert on how to get it back.

Kundalini Meditation...not Yoga is actually something I practiced for a short amount of time. It was said to me that it is amazingly risky and even dangerous to practice it without a guide so I kinda stopped. It never accured to me that some parts of it rly maybe actually worked in so short time.