Oppositionless

I've never left my home town , even having spent 3 1/2 months living in a new city (Portland) working I came back because family is very important to me , but the lack of dating opportunites in my hometown is driving me crazy . id love to move to denver or boulder aside from the lack of dating , I suspect I'll never be able to quit the weed without an in person spiritual community . Most of my current friends including myself are addicted either to weed or to kratom thread is open for replies also I have my first video filmed but I'm not sure I wanna post it. It's like the most basic what is enlightenment 10 minute ramble . I want to make videos like Leo and Kehlan (Formscapes) -- not saying they're stylistically similar (they're not) and im not interested in copying anyone's style, just in terms of depth and length.

Not at all, I have a new sense of life purpose. I miss the crazy spiritual high of the first month though not gonna lie.

Mostly just wanted to show off that creepy ass video When I was in high school I briefly wanted to join nithyanandas organization

Found this on r/sadhgurutruth Inside Sadhguru cult empire Edit: I'm genuinely torn on sadhguru . He seems like a pretty well intentioned guy , but he's also a very clever businessman . The highlight has gotta be, according to this article Sadhguru (allegedly) asked two of his disciples for help murdering fellow guru niththyananda. Who if you don't know fled India after being charged with several crimes, and claims to be the leader of a fictional country called kailasa nithyananda :

Western esotericism reading list : The Gospel of John The Gospel of Thomas The Gospel of Judas The Gospel of Mary The Gospel of Truth The Enneads The Corpus hermeticum The timeaus I intend to read all these books over the next year , in addition to other books. I'm currently reading the Carlos Castaneda books

@Cred It's not just Buddhism this community hates on. I think Buddhism is a little stiff myself, but people here hate on any and all spiritual traditions. I'm a big fan of yoga and tantra. And western esotericism such as hermeticism and Neoplatonism

I get all my jeans and chinos (I don't wear shorts unless I'm at the gym, gross) from Old Navy.

Idk about longevity but following 5 meo I began my kriya yoga practice and had a kundalini awakening which led to a monthlong period of pretty intense destabilization. If you believe in chakras you might say 5 meo forcibly opens the crown chakra.

His name is Junior I had a dog too but I don't feel like crying rn

Her name is Fanta

Zen answer : there are no benefits to meditation , that's why you should do it 😂 my answer : meditation reveals the true self. Not just the nondual self but literally your authentic self.

These were the favorite shoes of my high school track team. Completely forgot they existed tbh, thanks for the reminder.

No. That's what regular yoga is for. Also qigong, which you already mentioned. I would reccomend combing the gym and heavy lifting with yoga, they complement each other and smooth out each other's limitations. Pro tip. If you don't have the energy for the gym, yoga classes will give you the boost you need, in my experience. I started lifting again spontaneously after starting vinyasa yoga classes. Kriya yoga could actually be bad for physical health. It's a serious practice and people have unpredictable reactions to it.

@Leo Gura or anyone else who does YouTube, what's the relationship between your script and what you say on camera? I just finished my first script but it's super academic. To me it's a way to organize my thoughts but I think it would be weird to just read it, especially because it's not very conversational . Also how much, if any, do you let AI help you with script writing? I wrote the entire thing myself but I was asking for feedback from Claude the whole time. Also I don't want my channel to rot in oblivion forever (although I accept it will be a grind to start), do you have any tips on making thumbnails / titles pop?

The irony is to realize immortality you have to give up the desire for it .

Nonduality is obviously correct, but it shouldn't ignore the Divine Attributes discovered by western mysticism. also @Azrael deeply understood psychedelics and how to use them in service of real liberation . The GOAT.

So your idea of awakening is a materialist's version death / nonexistence? Is that what you're saying?

@Dodo I feel awareness is only one aspect of God. In some sense it's the most important but it's not the totality. Theres also love, intelligence, imagination, will and others.

I don't do self inquiry until I'm in a deep meditation state, otherwise I find it doesn't work. If I do 20 minutes of kriya and then meditate another 10 minutes, thats when self inquiry makes sense.

@Natasha Tori Maru I'm so excited for spring and going outside and looking at flowers more @Joseph Maynor yeah I'm starting to chill out too. I did kriya yoga every day for ~7 weeks and realized this morning I didn't do it. Not was too lazy I just completely didn't remember.

first blog post is done. this was brutal (fun) lol https://oppositionless.substack.com/p/how-spirituality-prevented-me-from the goal is still one blog post and one youtube video a week. I'm excited for making it, what I'm dreading is marketing. I don't want to post links on my personal social media but I will.

Today I bought a pillow, face wash, moisturizing lotion, deodorant, and two journals. Let's fucking go!!! From my journal "It's not even close, this is the best I've felt in my entire life, all that's missing is spending more time outside with my shirt off." The last time I felt this good I spent all day outside with my shirt off, but that was pre-trauma hehe. first blog post is 90% finished. It should be posted by fairly early tomorrow. It's going to be on Substack and I'll drop the link. I need to get a haircut before I make my first YouTube video. Lol

You're speaking my language! I found starting doing spiritual practices every day helps. It will simultaneously make you less worried about understanding reality and raise your consciousness so you will understand more. Win-win!

yep, I think Leo's blog video he linked shows you that part. I feel you, I was too scared to vape it the first half dozen or so times. Vaping hits like a freight train.