Oppositionless

When I go out, especially lately as I've been working on my inner game, there's a 50-50 chance that a woman will approach me. The last time I went out two very hot women were grinding on me. So that shows me that I have an innate seductive power. I guess I have two complaints with my game The first is that I rarely approach. I want to. I visualize approaching and I go out frequently, but the anxiety consistently convinces me to not approach. the second is closing. Those two beautiful women were grinding on me, but I couldnt bring myself to number close. I still have the programming that doesn't believe I'm attractive enough, I tell myself even if I get the number they'll just flake so there's no point.

consciousness exists as a kind of monad in an intimate relationship of an infinitely loving, intfinitely intelligent, infinitely complex organism consciousness can become infinitely more conscious of itself. awareness comes and goes and yet it only inhabits the single space and always arrives in exactly the same state

@Ulax your tips were helpful, I've been slowly working up the courage and making gains , starting with 1 second greetings, now doing minute long conversations @NoSelfSelf you pissed me off so bad I took action. I've approached a woman every day since I made the post Thanks guys

I'm at a coffee shop right now. There's a really cute girl at the other table, and I did a 0.5, meek hello at the counter . I feel pretty good. But I want to go over there and start a conversation.

Im trying . I listen to a guided affirmation religiously, multiple times a day. I felt like I had a break through today and complimented the woman on her bike. That was the most confident I've felt in awhile . I'm gonna try saying the affirmations from the video to myself when I'm out. noself completely destroyed my momentum though .

I told a woman she had a nice bike today . Therefore I can approach.

Is your only goal to make me feel like shit

God damn it

But how do you make yourself approach

Fine , I'm a disgusting loser, you're fucking right , any time a woman approaches me it's because she knows how disgusting a pitiful and easy to take advantage of I am

No

I'm not

Wow! That's a big perspective shift. I thought I was weird for not easily approaching... but I have ,in fact, done more than zero approaches in my lifetime. Guess that means I'm winning.

I don't know if you'll read this because this thread is already quite long but, just a few hours ago I was complaining that I wanted to kill myself because I can't cold approach. My situation is quite like yours, how you took calc 1 three times, I went out every week for months , and continue to go out, but... nothing, not a single approach. I even punched myself in the face as hard as I could to motivate myself to do it. I guess what I'm trying to say is, it's very difficult when you have an ideal for yourself and you don't live up to it. But life goes on, and maybe everything isn't in vain. I dunno. I would think so. There's probably no real sense in killing ourselves. There are still things to be happy about.

I'm sure Leo's 3 part series would be super helpful.... if I could actually do the thing. I got out a lot too. But I just.... cant.

I want to kill myself because I'm too weak to cold approach

I'm done with positivity. I'm focusing on negativity in the hope of willing my body to die. I can't cold approach , no matter how much I go out, so there's no point in being here.

I think so. Maybe one day I'll have a crazy solipsism awakening , but for now, I think of us all as monads. Eternal streams of consciousness that co-ordinate to manifest reality.

Fuck living. I'm a disgusting incel .

Food, sex and shelter that's about it

I like the book Many Lives, Many Masters

Life feels like a video game where you already know you're going to lose , so you want to respawn rather than waste time dragging out your current life I didn't even know the race started, and now it's too late , my time is too slow.

Lay off the cigarettes bro

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