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I wanna find some. Time to book a vacation to Canada (easier to deal with than alien hell doesn't mean easy )

I thought I sucked at pickup , but really it was all about location I went to places with cliquey vibes in my work/college town and generally got nowhere. As soon as I went to a tourist club in my hometown, the year of work I've put in began to show off. Then when I got home , I listened to some emotional acoustic music, because I realized I'll never see the girl I met last night again. What I really want is a long term relationship. But I didn't know that until last night. So right now I'm looking for a place to do pickup with the intention of getting in a serious relationship . I could do pretty well on dating apps but it wouldn't satisfy my urge to experience the real world and have actual conversations. The kava bar is okay but so far it's very much like a family, with the same regulars always coming.

Weed addiction To raise my self esteem To stop being ambivalent To kill my self To have profound insights To stop existing To experience another dimension To have a separate personality To take ownership To stop being ambivalent To do something productive To be creative To write To go for the things I want To feel like a god To become god To merge with infinite consciousness To live in a privately defined world Cons Ending up in hell Solipsism Telepathy Thought broadcasting Feeling like god around others Alien hell , telepathic meaaages They Know Paranoid delusions Being torn apart by infinite information Nodes of consciousness overwhelm all my senses and I become omniscient toward human beings connecting to a telepathic superhighway

I think going straight to God would be easier than alien hell. Again, haven't done it. But you don't know what my mushroom trips, or my weed trips are like. They're utterly horrifying.

I've never done capsules. Tea can be quite nice.

It's been the most insightful chemical I've done. But I sure don't look forward to doing it. It dismantled materialism and revealed solipsism in the most unambiguous way possible. Being in your parents basement and realizing you imagined them is freaky beyond belief. Way beyond the entities, which are also part of it. I haven't done 5 meo dmt, but it honestly sounds like a cakewalk compared to nn dmt, mushrooms and weed. Those chemicals are tricksters for real.

Maybe you need a really bad trip to snap you out of it. Then again, hundreds a bad cannabis trips didn't snap me out of it, going to rehab did

The worst trips of my life have been from weed. Telepathy is real. People respond to my inner monologue. Not in a positive way. They're watching me

I didn't mean to come across as an ass , or disrespect mushrooms. Just somewhat sarcastically responding to ego. I need it too, a good friend of mine called me out big time the other day.

not at all. I just don't understand the desire to trip as hard as possible. so I suggested pharmahuasca, if that doesn't get you where you want to be , there are other chemicals that will last multiple days My weakness is I want to party with models on a yacht

If you drink 100 mg of dmt with an maoi you'll trip harder and longer than any stupid mushroom. (This is somewhat facetious. Mushrooms are intense, but if pure intensity is really what you're after, this is the way) I see. Well that just sounds like you eat when you're hungry, so I don't understand what you're getting pretentious about. Sounds like common sense

What does lifetime fasting mean? You gotta take care of your body bro. but by all means, do a 3 day fast once a month, and take some dmt when you do.

It's almost impossible to be a 20 something and not have a massive ego. My 30 year old rave buddy told me that straight up . He said "you want to fuck and have a relationship, but your walls are up. You think you're better than these people because you're an engineer, you're smart, and you're into spirituality. Drop that shit. People are stupid, people are morons, people suck. But you're not better than them. As soon as you realize that you'll get as many girls as you want."

IMO a consistent calorie deficit is negative and unsustaiable. But a dedicated fast can be alright

You're God, but you don't know yourself, nor can you. So praying to God, specifically asking for God's help to be happy and know God's will, is hugely beneficial.

1. NN-DMT 2. Spiritual autolysis (contemplation by writing) 3. Vipassana meditation 4. listening to Nisargadatta Maharaj, Leo, and a few other exceptional teachers 5. Masturbation and loving, intimate sex bonus: raves and ecstatic dance, without the drugs, and doing pickup at these events , self-love, prayer, asking God for help

Did you go to inner engineering in-person or online ?

Leo when you said that meditating for 20 minutes a day won't do anything for you, I meditated for 20 or less the last couple months and it gave me a lot of benefits. Calmer, less interested in chasing women. it also put me in what Daniel Ingram describes as a dark knight. It seemed like it started when I had a dmt flashback while meditating (a&p?) Maybe because I've done a lot of psychedelics too?

A Christian mystic I met at a kava bar told me that if you fast for 7 days you'll see God.

Would you agree that knowledge is an appearance within consciousness? And that because it is an appearance it can't adequately describe the consciousness it appears within?

As someone who vapes , I completely agree with Leo vaping is stupid, pointless. It doesn't even get me buzzed anymore I vape because if I don't I get withdrawls. And I started because I wanted to maintain my oral fixation after quitting weed.

Ultimate truth is whatever is arising in the present that being said, there's a whole other aspect to truth which is discovering more of what is arising in the present so untruth, which is actually still truth, is not understanding what is arising, and you already experience that (at the same time that you experience absolute truth of course) Im pretty sure if materialism were true there would be no possibility of consciousness, so there would be no experience. Reality would be physical, not mental

It's very easy to test psychic phenomena with programming

Obviously you can never escape all suffering , but so much of it is pointless mind chatter I'd rather fall into one of these traps than the other . And they are both traps.

Not checking the forum for a month was very nice Ive done more socializing Learning how to dj Got a fulltime job as a software engineer Now I understand why people start their own business