Oppositionless

@Ramasta9 that's a great idea . I'm not gonna take down the posts I've made, but I'm going to acknowledge that the extent and ferocity to which I shared may have actually made me sicker .

Nondual Breathwork Routine (updated) Stage 1) Charging ⚡️ (Energize and Cleanse) Holotropic Breathing (6-10) minutes laying down. Rest (6-10) minutes in shivasana. Stage 2) Directing 🌟 (Raise Prana) Kriya Pranayama 6-12-18 rounds Meditation 10-20 minutes "Do Nothing / Absorption " Stage 3) Balancing ⚖️ Nadi Shodhana (Alternate nostril breathing) ~4+ minutes Maha Mudra 1-2-3 rounds (optional) kneeling meditation ~2+ minutes (optional) legs up the wall ~2+ minutes Go for a walk these practices are 1) a way to awaken quickly 2) a way to feel super sexy

God isn't a person but all persons. When you pray to God as if he's a person this has value , just keep in mind the person who will answer your prayer won't be the "totality" but a very big, very loving placeholder, like the avatars in Hindu mythology. This isn't a bad thing , if God was strictly speaking a person he would be limited, what you want if you want human connection with God is for an avatar to answer your prayer.

Not hiding the posts you think deserve to be hidden .

@LambdaDelta I think you're on to something . I can't make sense of love with my mind because I think how can God accept evil and suffering.

Theres also power in just letting it ride ❤️.

I'm vulnerable to a fault on this forum, haven't decided if it's a good or bad thing lol. I can't always tell whether it's helpful because my OCD involves a lot of checking and reassurance seeking, so if I make a vulnerable post and I realize I'm posting for reassurance I hide it.

I touched on this briefly in my OCD thread but I've been experimenting with humiliation practice. This is a somewhat unconventional practice but it's semi common among zen monks. Having my profile as a woman picture was a pretty extreme version, I opted out of the full month I planned because I realized there's a fine line between this type of work and self-harm. What I'm doing now is gentler, I'm just doing spiritual practices in public. It started with alternate nostril breathing at work, next will be meditating in a public park when lots of people are around. I anticipate massive resistance but not the obsessive spiraling that occured with the previous experiment.

Despite having awakenings to love I can't explain it. Consciousness fits in my theory , intelligence and imagination fit in my theory, love doesn't, it doesn't respect my mind at all, it consumes it.

Metta (loving kindness meditation) did that for me. Or listening to a really romantic song 💗

Okay nothing crazy , I'm just gonna meditate in a public place.

See even posting in this is a form a mental checking . It's always about explaining , over explaining. But underneath there is simply silence.

This channel has a certain type of wisdom, not awakening wisdom but street wisdom .

At the risk of derailing this journal I'll say that, for me, physical exercise and in particular pushing my body to its absolute limit is a spiritual practice. I find lifting weights in the normal "body builder" way really boring and not very challenging . Im not consistent, not because it's too hard but because its too easy. Makes sense as my background is high school cross country , track (800, 400) and wrestling. When I started doing hatha yoga , particularly vinayasa, I got like 80% of the burn I got from my high school sports , in addition to boosting my meditation. Hardcore meditation retreats, such as vipassana or zen sesshin, are another way , a different type of physical exhaustion but exhaustion nonetheless. I like doing things in a group because it's so easy to chicken out by myself . I intend to return to the monastery sometime this year for another sesshin. I would say, for physical practices it's good to push through discomfort (not sharp pain). For energy practices don't push through discomfort , it'll fuck you up.

Until I know for sure that I'm awake I'm going to assume I'm not. I've previously said I know I'm God, which is true , but that doesn't mean I'm awake, awakening is way deeper than just realizing you're God at some level, it's the total embodiment of that realization and the end of identifying with the body or the mind .

If you experience dizziness or strong kundalini activity (ie uncomfortable jolts up the spine) , take a break . Pushing through discomfort is associated with destabilization , anxiety and rebound depression , in my experience.

@Oppositionless this is a two to three day a week practice for me. I'm super sensitive to breathwork and kriya so I don't do it nearly as much as Leo advocates . On off days I'm just doing basic vipassana and hatha yoga, maybe just like 6 rounds of pranayama before meditating.

Awakening is contingent on material conditions, that ruffles a lot of feathers but it's true. Reality isn't dependent but understanding reality certainly is.

@Happy Lizard I don't think he was able to fully let go in is 5 meo trip, he talks about it in his book. It's honestly so strange to me that he even tried it at all lol, I would never have done 5 meo if I wasn't highly experienced with psychedelics / meditation . Even though it wasn't super deep, I thoroughly enjoyed How to Change Your Mind , it was very comforting.

I distinctly remember being a socially outcast (in my head , really wasn't quite true) 13 year old and experiencing the purest joy playing halo 4 (I was really good, unlike at COD which I played with friends).

Well not everyone considers Smash a fighting game but... yes

Nondual Breathwork Routine Stage 1) Charging ⚡️ (Energize and Cleanse) Holotropic Breathing (10-12) minutes laying down. Rest (10-12) minutes in shivasana. Stage 2) Directing 🌟 (Raise Prana) Kriya Pranayama 6-12-16 rounds Meditation 10-20 minutes "Do Nothing / Absorption " Stage 3) Balancing ⚖️ Nadi Shodhana (Alternate nostril breathing) ~6 minutes Go for a walk

Damn all these cool games you guys mentioned and I've been stuck playing smash bros since like 2019. It started with Ultimate but has migrated to Project Plus.

I thought this video had to be a parody until I looked at the rest of the channel. I feel like if you wanted to give yourself schizophrenia you could just watch all the videos on this channel.