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Sure but a little more awareness can reduce the amount drastically . You could have 15 years of normal up and down or 15 years of cancer.

So you're defining attractive as Victoria secret model and complaining that no attractive women are developed. Do you see the self deception going on? To me attractive is about how my body feels around them, that's all that matters .

You can get a deep Kensho in a week of hardcore practice the only flex is if it's permanent , 99% of people who say they've permanently dissolved the self are wrong it only happens by grace. Most people wouldn't benefit from permanently dissolving the self they would go crazy .

People with moral scrupulousity ocd (like me) often have a fundamental feeling that they are bad, flawed or undeserving. But when a helpful person tries to really drill into WHY they're bad, the person with ocd often can't give a straight answer. They might say something like "I just have a bad personality" or "I'm just bad." This is NOT consistent with *just* low self esteem hence why positivity often does NOT WORK for moral scrupulosity. For so long I thought that I was bad. All day every day you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad its complete bullshit .

@Miguel1 what do you mean by top tier girl? If you think these top tier girls aren't developed then why are they top tier? You're probably right about hitting on women at yoga studios . But I still think you're being too much of a doomer.

@Hojo it fills the room. When I heard them they told me someone was coming to the door and I went to the door. Another time they warned me about the goons I was hanging out with.

Can I ask what the core fear is? For me it was, if they're right, then I'm wrong, and if I'm wrong that makes me a bad person.

Atheists used to fill me with terror I had to spend 12 hours a day mentally arguing with them. Notice the feeling and choose not to react . Notice a reaction can be physical but it can also be mental.

My friends and I love road trip gummies . I've seen the brand you mentioned too, wonder how they are .

I believe you have a core personality and a fake personality . It's a question of how derived , how neurotic it is. The deeper the level of construction the deeper the neurosis.

First you remove the construction then you wake up to what's true. Although for awhile I believed I'd awoken to no self and no doer permanently, turns out it was just my ocd combined with dissociation. So it can be muddy sometimes. In my experience with them zen masters all experience love they just don't talk about it.

Is zen awakening different from normal awakening? I'm confused. The technique you're using is apt to have an influence on your experience. You're more likely to awaken to love by doing Metta, you're more likely to turn the physical world into vibrating energy doing Vipassana, etc. No self is the throughline in all of them .

Other people’s opinions do not matter — at all. God loves you. It’s okay to be a little cringe.

Do basic concentration meditation. A lot of it, over the course of a few days.

This is the goal. Eventually the mind can rest. This comes after realization . And sometimes it can be a rough journey .