Thestarguitarist14

It’s between these two insights. That the past are stories that we tell ourselves. That you will never be able to see anyone for who they truly are. Only the version that exists for you.

The hero killed the clown.

I think what it is that you develop of a love for all of humanity and realize that all relationships are tumultuous in nature and do not offer any intrinsic value.

Takes more than one swipe to get laid on those apps unless your a Chad Michael Michael.

Yup, we have all been lied to.

Teal Swan. I did her self love experiment for a year and it opened my mind big time.

A lot of people’s lives completely change after their kundalini and heart center awakening. My life did. You will drop all kinds of people, places and things that do not serve your highest good.

Basically she likes you, but you have displayed too many res flags for her. You did not get her pussy wet. She is also not looking for a relationship. If you desire a relationship, then she is not the one for you This will help you. In a month or so, you won’t even want her. No. You being needy and having low self esteem is not you being yourself. That is you identifying with states of being that you have been conditioned to believe. Please, go listen to psycho cybernetics as well as the six pillars of self esteem: All she did was shine a light on your issues. She forced you to reconcile them. She has done nothing for you. Don’t give her that much credit. You are the one who is allowing yourself to change. This is the issue that most people have. They get into their minds that this other person is healing them and they believe that they need them. Has it ever occurred to you that perhaps anything that she has done that has helped you was just happenstance? That she has had no intention of doing anything to help you. To me, it is clear that she is solely out for herself.

@Dodo Tou clearly do not have an actual grasp on how the law of attraction works. So instead of just spouting your mouth, read up on it. You know, there is are lyrics from this Elliott Smith song, Everybody cares, Everybody understands, that sum this up: You say you mean well, you don't know what you mean Fucking ought to stay the hell away from things you know nothing about

First off. Bullshit. Secondly, then visualize yourself holding her in your arms. It’s up to you. The way you are going, you will never go towards anyone who actually cares about you. What I mean by that is your self esteem is so low that you will always be attracting/going for women that you need to earn their approval from and ignore women who accept you as is. You have probably done this already. Stop worrying about her. She rejected you. Fuck her. Those guys who are assholes are living low conscious lives. Do you really desire that just to have sexual with this woman? You really need to check your priorities here. Start valuing yourself. If you did, you would not even be in this situation in the first place.

You saying that law of attraction is not truth is why you have not had success with it. Whatever is currently in your life, good or bad, you have attracted it to you.

Try searching on YouTube. Also it is under eft tapping.

The bipolar guy probably did not come across as needy. Funny, a lot of people with mental illnesses are very attractive. Do that meditation that I told you about where you think about her for ten minutes a day, including half that about having sex with her. This will allow for your inner child to indulge and allow gut you to emotionally detach. The thing with the suicide hotline is that those people are usually socially awkward and can’t even help. Well, now is the time for a deep dive! Get to know who you are. Create a living, healing relationship...with yourself.

@tsuki I never saw the show, but the style is definitely anime. Got dragged to the shitty M Night Shalyman move though. @nistake Death Note is amazing. The first anime series that I finished as an adult. The manga is a great read too. One of the deepest shows out there. @Verg0 Great list, though a lot of those shows aren’t really spiritual haha. I forgot to add Ergo Proxy, that is one hell of a series. Welcome to the NHK was great. Serial Experiments Lain was wonderfully weird and rather deep. It predicted social media too. Monster was one of the first anime shows that I watched as an adult and was amazed by its realism and great storytelling. I love Shinsekai Yori and that show is criminally underrated. I have not finished Haibane Renmei, but I dig it. Kino’s journey is great. Both versions are top notch. Satoshi Kon’s films were all great. My favorite of his was Millennium actress. Paprika, Perfect Blue and Tokyo Godfathers were great too. I’d recommend if you haven’t seen these shows Elfen Lied Darker Than Black Your Lie In April Noir Gunslinger Girl Kokoro Connect Parastye @Max_V It really is a masterpiece. Such a contemplative show.

Here’s the thing, you are always using the law of attraction. Either unconsciously or consciously. The universe as it were picks up on your most dominant emotion. I can sense doubt from your post. So you are only going to attract more doubt.

And he said that the virus had ran its course. Big OOF indeed.

I am starting to feel this way too. Now, I am getting to the point where I feel no desire to pursue women.

Last night I revisited some videos by this monk. I like how he speaks about relationships. How there is no logical reason to be in one, how we all have bad in us (shadow self) and monks have found out that it is better to not bother with them. That we have been sold a lie about getting love from other people and that fulfilling us and things like that. Though he does say how it is more about your reaction to the relationship than the relationship itself and if you are in one, to be conscious. It’s interesting. My parents never hammered in the idea of getting into relationships when I was growing up. In middle school and high school I would only get into relationships because I thought that was the only logical move. After a break up and a bad first date when I was 20 I went into pick up and did that for two years, had some fun and learned a ton. After that I have been more into my career and just have dated/hooked up when I can. I got into a long distance tho g once, but I was not into it. Then I tried to get into something more serious again and got entangled with a straight narcissist and another woman who was at least narcissistic. Both had that twin flame energy to them, so makes sense as I have changed a ton since dealing with them. When I got away from the last one, a trip on shrooms and month later I began to feel happy again. I realized that I am happier without those women in my life than I am with them. While I have become more active with online dating (sexual desire is a bitch) I have already laid out that I only am looking for hook ups and short term non monogamous dating at best. I guess I want to know for guys who are still looking to get into relationships, why? What do you expect to get out of them? It seems like the only legit reasons for a guy to get into a relationship is sex, domestic needs met or kids when they get into relationships. My big aversion to getting into relationships or even serious dating again are the constant games and shit tests that women play. Add that in with emotional attachment and it can become a narcissistic/codependent thing so quickly.

Because when you have sex, make millions of dollars, win a race, win a super bowl, etc you just end up wanting more. You are never satisfied.

It’s that mentality that will repel her. Also, she already rejected you. Want to attract that girl you really want? Stop caring about whether you will get her or not. Get healthy and work on your life purpose for yourself. Not for some chick who rejected you. I promise you, she will start taking you more seriously. Also, you’ll attract other women.

Why should you want any other when you’re a world within a world?

Ask yourself this question: “Why am I trying so hard to fit in?” On this journey, friends are a luxury. I’m 28 and this year I got so deep into spirituality (had my kundalini and heart center awakening) and cut all my friends out of my life. Have not made a single friend since. I also cut off this terrible narcissist and cut off another narcissistic woman. Not to mention I quit smoking weed and drinking. As you progress you realize that there is no intrinsic value in pleasure. This will make you not crave to party and not want to chase women (if you want to go there).

Here is a monk talking about porn addiction:

Well, hate to say it, but that should come as no surprise. At least she was mature enough to let you down easy. Most women ghost nowadays. It is not so much that being yourself repulses people. It’s you being needy and trying to be a dick that does. That is what repelled her. Also, you are identifying with your negative traits. You are not your porn addiction. You are not your dating history. You are not anything that you have done ever. That is your false self. This is why I have been suggesting for you to go inwards. You have a ton of inner work to do. You are way too attached to what women think of you and having success with women. That is what keeps you from getting what you desire. See this as a blessing. Now you can do the real work, heal yourself and not self sabotage when you meet someone who you are truly into.

Okay. Figure out what it is in IT that you want to do and focus on that. Thus will give you so much confidence. It is better to gain confidence without it, but you will start to feel better.