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Not only for validation. But love(; You feel drained cause you sacrifice yourself for codependency love. You do this cause you either want to or feel that you have to be their savior. They will then when you do this give you " needy love" as a thank you and than you feel important ( aka loved) which is what your ego craves. Glad I could help! (the same pattern is in my life btw)

Could you define clairaudience?

Might be the case. I don't know though, it's pretty weird that it especially comes and becomes louder after I have meditated. If it is, that's fine. I will continue my research into it!

So weird right. Still waiting for some mystical experiences though! Maybe some dmt aliens can explain to me what this is in the future lmao

Awsome! Yeah it's gone now but I debated if I should go see a doctor or something before. Here?

To be honest, if it's a spiritual thing and comes and goes I can have it but if it's always there as it has been for over 2 weeks, I would not want it.( untill yesterady that is, cause I haven't heard it since I wrote this post) I was kind of scared that it wouldn't go away to be honest but now it's gone again so Idk. Weird!

Bro I love this so much man! I will check out your music and your writing. You seem super chill! It's so true it's a process and I'm still super young ( 19 years old). Thanks for your input. You inspire me!

I have just finished the LP Course and It has been life transforming. I have discovered my zone of genius which is that I give people deep insights about themselves and the world intuitivly when I talk and discuss with them. I don't want to be a byrocratic life coach though, I want to be a public speaker who can answer peoples questions about this stuff really fucking good. I love my L.P and I am also great at it but here is the thing - that's not the only thing that I love. I have beside this also discovered that I have a deep passion to play, sing and create music aswell. Like, I can sit for hours playing guitar and creating songs and it feels sometimes even more fun and creative than talking to people. I am for the record good at this aswell, but probably not as gifted as I am in my other ability. I am unsure and somewhat confused about what I should do. Maybe I can combine it, but how can I give intuitive insights to people through music? And am I even good enough at this for it to be my zone of genius cause I am really fucking good at understanding people intuitivly. Like really good. Can I really have 2 zone of geniuses?? My impact statement is to give people hope through wisdom ( insights) and that can be done both by playing and creating music and by being a public speaker who can give people insights on the fly. Any thoughts or ideas what I should do? What are your recommendations? More research? Small best? Patience? Thanks for all your help and advice!@Leo Gura

100% love this. Super true. Hopefully no aliens will come and steal our DMT tho

Yeah I get it. Go follow your ❤ @Siba If you have any cool art that can give people insights about themselves that you would like to share, shoot me a PM. I would love to see them!

Yeah that's true. I'm good at this aswell and it's also super fun. This is also a super interesting thing to learn more about! To understand organizations, society, the world aka the collective ego.

Yeah I get it, it's hard when you're a creative motherfucker There are so many ideas, plans, interests and things that one can do. It's hard to chose. Cool to hear that someone else also also loves the thrill of understanding people to their soul Did you see this pattern If you look back to when you first completed the LP course? ( Signs that giving people insights was your main LP and gift?

Yeah man. Thanks for giving me what I wanted to hear lmao. This has honestly been my plan all along but it's still hard to commit to it. Sometimes it feels unrealistic and like I don't have the time to master both, which is kind of true in a way - but at the same time, it doesn't exclude the other one. I will go for my main LP and than have this as a secondary one and see it as a hobby LP which can help me Express the other side of me aswell. Thanks for your perspective man!

Super true! I love that. Thanks for your perspective! That's what my music intends to give people actually, and I think it can succeed in that. My lyrics is very deep and get to the bottom of a lot of feelings but a lot deeper than people usually go. My music reflects my LP in other words.

It should but fuck man, my intuition is telling me to do both. It switches, one day I'm all in music and one day I'm all in intuitive insights to people. It depends on what I do. Another factor is that I forget how much I love giving people insights cause I don't socialize at all and create more music. It's a confusing, but at the same time kind of fun beautiful situation. I love both things. I think both is the answer

True but It's hard to do it intuitively.

Nope, one usually attracts a partner which needs the opposite of what you need. This happens because you can both give and get something. Needy Acceptance and love but in two different ways. One with a lot of self confidence but lack of self esteem ( strong ego) will therefor attract a person who have a lot of trauma and is depressed or something along that line. This because this person will be what you want you subconsciously want your lover to be.. someone who is super dependent on you cause you're so so important for this person. The person who is depressed and in need will than in return attract someone who will save them, and someone who wants to save them. And that's why you see this pattern. You get attracted to these girls cause they need you and you need them. You attract codependency cause that makes your ego feel loved. The same goes for the other girls. If I were you, I would start practicing self love and keep doing personal development. Keep meditating, keep learning, keep growing... but also start loving. Both yourself and other people. Start to find ways accept yourself and your feelings more. Don't fall for the trap of toxic relationships. It's not worth it, eventhough your ego is desperate for it.

All of the 3 is a practice. Google around and see what you can find. You need to reprogram your subconscious mind and together with this expand your conciousness. GL

I have thought about that aswell but than again. That's a completely different life purpose than talking to people and giving them insights on the fly! Thanks for the suggestion tho

True! Hmmm, maybe. But I'm not sure if it can be like that. What I'm great at exactly is talking to people like you for example and than understanding and getting intuitive deep insights about you and the world which I than can share.

Sounds like repression and projection. I think you're trying to avoid thinking thoughts related to this and than when you do it you beat yourself up and get angry at yourself. This anger is than projected outwards towards those who are gay which is more convenient for your self image. In other words you interpreted this thought as a proof/ or danger of you being gay or something related which you subconsciously or consciously obviously is scared to be. That's why you immediately after solved the issue by the" I'm not gay" thought. You got angry cause your thought felt like an attack on your self image, aka your ego. Hope this insight helps, also look into self compassion, shadow work and forgiveness, it will help you.

Honestly I haven't done a lot of It. I like to talk and inspire people and have done that in school but to be fair, I don't know If that is my ideal niche. All I know is that I don't want to get locked up in a byrocratic system and that life coaching doesn't feel right. I want to do something else.

Bro. The time is worth it. It can change your life if you put in the time. Not saying what you should do, but man - If I was you I would do it even if it took 2 years to complete the course. That's how valuable the process was for me, but than again - it's your life, your choices and your responsibility. Only you can decide and know what's best for you right now. Good luck! All the best

Got it bro. One insight that have helped me a lot is that when you feel self hatred you're scared of feeling feelings that are linked to that. ( shame and low self esteem). In other words you try to control your emotional state and repress your emotions instead of allowing them to be a part of your experience. With not allowing them I mean that you try to find explanations to them and rationalization as to why you're in reality is not X and or trying to avoid the feeling/ destract yourself from the feeling and or avoid a scenario where you feel self hatred in the future. Think of it like this. If I where to drop an apple on the kitchen floor a lot of people would still dare to eat it while some people who are hypochondrics for example wouldn't dare to do it. The people who wouldn't eat it makes this decision because of the fear of what might happen if they did eat it - while the person who would eat it may be aware of the potential risk but has accepted that fact and scenario and not created a narrative around what would happen. The same goes for you but with your repressed emotions. You are scared of the feeling self hatred because you have created a story about what the feeling means. You have not accepted your feelings, why? Because if you in your eyes would accept your emotions you would be " fucked" because that would mean that your feared scenario of you being a person who hates themselves would become true. Don't make a big deal out of feelings, they are just feelings - and don't mean anything. Ponder this question. If someone close to you where to say, it's okey to feel shame, hatred or anger, what would you tell them? Would you agree with them? Why and why not? Love