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Exactly. Yeah people live in their bubbles, they repulse me too but it's not healthy for me.

What a woman says means absolutely nothing as you just saw. It only ever applies to the present moment. Don't look at what a woman says, look at her actions.

This is basically all I see over here. Ugly ass mullet wokies with hot girlfriends. It doesn't matter what you're fighting for, as long as you have a mission women will think you're important and then chase you. Women don't think as deep about what they get themselves into, they're unconsciously steered by their emotions, which is why it's so easy to manipulate them.

Since you're asking about her on a forum you've already lost unfortunately.

@ted73104 Most of the time I suppress them to get through the day. But I've started to welcome conflict, it's a big relief to unleash all the darkness on others...kinda fun to see how most people are just barking dogs. If I fully wanted to let it all out I'd need some serious gear, but I'm not gonna go down that road. @puporing I don't even want to awaken, it has only brought nothing but shit in my life. Life ist just endless suffering/awakening/suffering/letting go/suffering/getting knowcked on the ground/suffering/isolation. I'm starting to think the path to awakening is just one big hoax, so far it has done absolutely nothing for me or my personal direct experience. Worked my ass off for nothing again.

@Giulio Bevilacqua Will look into it, thanks. @puporing Thank you. Yeah, maybe way more. They told me I'm not part of their family anymore when I got out this group years ago, it's similar to mormons and JW. I just can't mentally cope with cutting off even more people right now, it seems to never end. I've been working my ass off the past seven years, worked on building social circles, friendships, relationships only to feel more isolated, lonely and depressed than ever today. Life so far wasn't worth it at all. I've pretty much watched all the dark triad videos, they helped with some other situations I got myself in. @Ajay0 The present moment hasn't been worth it so far tbh. I can access it way better these days, it just never actually pays off. Maybe in several decades or whatever. I can't meditate the classic way, I was was made to pray in tongues every day for many years. I usually smoke weed and contemplate. Plus I'm doing IFS sessions with a therapist regularly. @Yousif Switzerland is a shit hole. People only know how to work and burn out. Sex isn't really doing much, sometimes for a little bit but gets old fast after a while, plus I can't just get it whenever I need currently. Only way to channel my anger is doing extreme sports where I'm closest to death. I know it sounds fucked up. @Buck Edwards Thanks bro, I appreciate your offer. It's difficult being kind with myself.

Insecurity

I imagine you to look like Homer Simpson.

INFP

@ZenAlex What about starting off with online sessions? There's heaps of spots left. I got into it with a practitioner, sometimes do sessions alone too, but I don't think I would have made this much progress without any guidance first.

Ok ban the words. Much respect if you can pull this off while black people are still fighting racism and the N-word is more present than ever. This is your problem, you'd rather be in your comfort zone banning words, which is impossible. You need to grow thicker skin you know?

I was asking how this helps him not hating himself.

Nobody is going to ban the N-word from my vocabulary, I use it as I see fit, I don't care. If someone can't stand the sound or meaning of a word it's their own issue. How about you stand up for the men you think are unrightfully called toxic and creepy? Here you got something to fight for instead of making your life easier by banning words (which is wokeist illusion).

I agree it would make it easier if you got an explanation as to why so you can decide whether it was an insult or actually some truth behind it. Unfortunately most people have no interest in making your life easier. Unlike people on the forum that are hard to come by in real life.

Girls getting taken advantage of by creeps and toxic men won't have a better life. You just can't accept the fact that you're a creep. So what? I'm a creep too. So is every human being. Have you ever seen a real person? They're creepy as fuck when you think about it. Just accept your creepiness so you can move on.

@Reciprocality I used to kinda feel the same, now I feel more and more comfortable around large groups of people e.g. in cities, train stations, airports etc. It's hard to explain certain triggers to other people without making them think your speech is off. But you're right, just because the environment has always been safe doesn't mean it's always gonna stay this way. Maybe these people have already lived through a lot of danger and are now less intimidated by their surroundings than others. Or they live in an illusion where danger doesn't even cross their minds. Or they simply don't care and trust the universe. Could be hundreds of reasons why. I'd look into why those people repulse you and you might get the key to unlock a deeper layer of your inner world.

Thanks man 🙏

They will get what they deserve eventually.

How does this help him not hating himself? Telling men that they're wrong all the time does no good.

Nobody here can tell you what's gonna work for you, you gotta make your own decisions. It would be best if you found a person you can trust, e.g. a therapist or life coach.

Alright. Let's appreciate that women are more caring and empathetic than men. The most empathetic man is still just on an average female spectrum probably. We also don't appreciate enough how hard it is to stay sane when you're on a roller coaster ride of emotions all the time.

@Husseinisdoingfine Yup.

dead or in jail

I agree.

It filters bad vibes.