Rosie
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I think you must find the balance between being social and simply stupid. My grandma always used to say: surround yourself with people who can't teach you every single day something. Even a hippie or a depressed person can teach you something, especially if they have different views than you do, you simply need to be open for the possibilities. It does not mean that you need to be social 24/7, but you need to be alert for possibilities. Maybe self help videos, podcasts can teach you many things sometimes more than humans, but I think thats just book knowledge. you must practice it in real life.
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Thanks guys for all the useful messages. Today I won my social media break again and it bothers me less and less every day. As the addiction was not as strong as i believed or found different activities,,,
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My general goals: I did very very good today Let the past and the pain of the past go Updating this journal on a daily basis, till I go back to the ship, then update it on weekly basis Start to work out on daily basis Enjoy my free time without computer, technic and TV series Quit my porn addiction as it promotes creates an unhealthy picture of sex and makes real sex less enjoyable. Start to visualise my future goals and create goals what I can achieve Read more books on self-actualisation. Daily Goals Wake up at latest 10 am--> DONE, woke up around 9 to be exact Workout-->DONE + an hour walk in the city.. Taking care of my body--> As soon I woke up, I got out of bed, made my hair , put mask on, nice makeup and left the house To read self-help books-->I watched videos, read books, did everything Socialise with people.--> Done, meeting new people this week ad socialised with stepmom. Do not contact my ex.--> Did not, he is a dickhead in fact. was luckier to have me, than i was to have him. just realised it today. Eat healthy--> Big tomato soup, and chinese food. all made by Rosie Vitamines--> done Very productive day today....
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I feel very much similar unfortunately:( I feel as people would use this forum mainly to get positive feedback on their weird/ bad behaviours to make themselves feel better about it....
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I truly believe that the most important thing you must learn that you do not do anything wrong. New goals always take time. You may not have meditated 7 days a week but you did 4 times Which is great. Many people do not do as much as you do right now. You must let go the feelings of anger. You must first learn about your own feelings before you can learn about relationships in depth. You must love yourself. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUmIWUO-oHqQIPFbwDfTjWA Also Take baby steps. Do not expect yourself to do everything at once. Start to do 10 minutes of programming every day. When you start it will be only 10 minutes, but then it will become 20, 30,40 and so on. You are on the right journey you only need some self respect and love to achieve your goals
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A small note before it goes out of my mind: This morning I had a bath after I woke up. When I started to change i stepped in front of my closet to chose a shirt and as I have a mirror on my closet I have seen myself without makeup, in just a simple underwear, nothing lacey or silk or fancy. Did not even match the bra and the panties, but for a minute I realised how sexy I am. My diet seems to work, I have no celluitis, have not much extra weight at all 1-2 kilos but that's rather for myself than actual issue, I look healthy and extremely hot. I have a very nice ass. In 25 years since I live, I always had problems with my body or face or all together and never been happy about it up until today. Today I looked it and for that minute I realised if this body would be in a magazine then no one would complain. Of course you could photoshop it to be paper perfect, But at the moment I am damn pleased with my self. After that moment I started to find small imperfections but then I realised as well, that I am the one who is LOOKING and seeking for a problem. The problem does not exist up until I look for it and find it. That also means that the only person can create a problem is me. Something to think about today...
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@Emily I absolutely agree, I just been to Brazil, Rio de Janeiro all alone, in on of the most dangerous places in the world and nothing bad happened, except I have met so many interesting people and situations it's unbelievable. Travelling alone is amazing as you can decide about your own rhythm and you can learn many things you never believed would be possible. Amazing confidence booster.
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@The Alchemist I do not think that was all nonsense, but anyways. YOU GO BOY!!!!!! and kick ass in mario, you really deserve it. I have my goals for the time I am back on my next contract.
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I did not use any social media today. I kept myself busy all day and even left my phone home on purpose. Everyone who wanted managed to reach me on other ways. Feeling great today.
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My general goals: Let the past and the pain of the past go- visited my parents in the cemetery and said it out loud that i forgive them. This made me feel better. Updating this journal on a daily basis, till I go back to the ship, then update it on weekly basis Start to work out on daily basis Enjoy my free time without computer, technic and TV series Quit my porn addiction as it promotes creates an unhealthy picture of sex and makes real sex less enjoyable. Start to visualise my future goals and create goals what I can achieve spent a good amount of time on this today Read more books on self-actualisation. Daily Goals Wake up at latest 10 am--> I did not plan to do this today as I am sick, I woke up around 2 pm which is weird as I am never able to sleep so long. When I woke up i felt much better, had no fever and my cough was almost totally gone. I think maybe I needed this extra rest. I feel so so so much better today Workout--> I walked a lot today and i did a few sessions planking, sit ups and other exercises. Not too much but more than nothing. Taking care of my body--> As soon as I woke up, i had a bath put myself together to go out and just now i put on a facemark. I plan to give myself a manicure and pedicure this evening. To read self-help books--> plan to do later on tonight. I had a busy day. Socialise with people.-->A friend of mine called to complain a bit about his life. I met with him and did something unusual. I listened and did not judge. I tried to give him useful advices, and tried to work as a life coach instead of a friend. After this we went for a movie. The movie was just a simple minded comedy still it was nice that someone needs me. Do not contact my ex.--> did not contact him at all but thinking of him too much. I will watch again Leo's how to get over a break up video. I need to hear: DO NOT GET BACK TOGETHER WITH YOU EX sentence a couple of more times. Eat healthy--> I only had a healthy soup and an unsweetened coffee today. Maybe I should make something. Have vitamins and herbal teas through the day -->done I had a good day, and made plenty of plans for tomorrow. I feel that I am becoming much more productive and positive. I am getting out from this damp. I feel so much better that now my illness seems to be gone a bit. Next week I plan to go for a trip. The friend who asked me out yesterday went on and on all night that he has feelings for me. I do not know how to handle the situation. I told him I do not feel the same way. Today he wrote me a message: 'I want you babe" what should I do with this???
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@The Alchemist I am basically your neighbour ( netherlands) i am planning to make a small trip, any day now somewhere so meeting up would never be a problem. Also My ship is staying in June about 3 weeks straight in Hamburg. Easy to meet up:) And not sure if the too much is the trouble. I rather feel that this goddamn coughing is the real issue
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Hey all. I was pretty good today. Up until today even if i have no wifi i open the application every 5-10 minutes automatically. Today I did not use none of these apps. Instead i started to learn data analysis and french and downloaded many educational apps. In the evening i had a 5 minutes cheat on messenger as a friend messaged me if i wanted to meet up. Apart from that I have been a good girl. Downside is that i watched much mercerise today. But I am sick, so it might be because of that as well.
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My general goals: Let the past and the pain of the past go Updating this journal on a daily basis, till I go back to the ship, then update it on weekly basis Start to work out on daily basis Enjoy my free time without computer, technic and TV series Quit my porn addiction as it promotes creates an unhealthy picture of sex and makes real sex less enjoyable. Start to visualise my future goals and create goals what I can achieve Read more books on self-actualisation. Daily Goals Wake up at latest 10 am--> Absolutely failed. Yesterday i could not relax my mind till about 3 am any no matter what I tried I could not fall asleep. I tried lemongrass tea and camomile and even sleep hypnosis but nothing helped. Also I am pretty sick the last couple of weeks. Today I only got worse. I woke up at 11.30... I really do not get why I can not sleep and wake up. On the ship I never have these issues. Workout--> Failed. I had massive fever, head ache and could not stop coughing all day. My head is killing me.... Taking care of my body--> As soon I woke up, I got out of bed, made my hear and instead of homie, comfy clothed I dressed up as I was leaving the house. It made me feel much better To read self-help books-->I watched a few self help videos, but kept falling asleep. Had issues on concentrating on anything today. To replace my addiction with something what actually helps me--> I downloaded educational apps on my phone and instead of Facebook I used those. I did 3 times as much on duelling as the daily ultimate target and I started to learn data analysis. Socialise with people.--> I wrote to 3 girls who wrote online in a woman magazine that they are looking for friends in my area. Tomorrow I should meet with one of the girls for a movie and lunch. One of my older friends asked me out on a date... He thinks I am an amazing girl... Let's see how will that work out. He is a bit moody and has a difficult personality, so I do not think i should go down on that path just to get a date... Do not contact my ex.--> Did not, but could not stop thinking about him and I feel depressed all day. I miss him but did not contact him all day. Eat healthy--> I had a big bowl of fresh garden vegetable soup what I made, and I made a diff from some potato, zucchini, mushroom and broccoli. Fully vegan meal. After dinner my stepmom made an extremely sweet pancake cake, with chocolate sauce. I ate a tiny bit from it to not hurt her feeling but my tooth wrenching after it was so sweet. I do not like sweet stuff. The end of the day I eat only once a day so this should be okay. Have vitamins and herbal teas through the day -->done In other news. I did not watch porn for a few days now...I do not miss it much, I guess was not that addicted. Also on ship i can never watch so this is not too big of a challenge. No porn no fap is fine by me as it turns out. I know today was not turning out so perfect, but I am sick and I am afraid if I pressure myself doing things when I have fever and i am weak then it will backfire on me. I started no social media month but this seems to backfire a bit as well as I ended up watching more series.... But it might be because I could not do much more. I try to keep myself occupied, but obviously I need much much more improvement.
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Self help is an addiction. I realised that myself. But is that a problem if you get addicted on how to feel amazing about yourself, how to be your better self? The part of this process of learning that you are not perfect. Do things you like to do that's how you relax:) Learn new habits which are building, Or if you like to watch movies, there is no problem with that as long as your day is not constantly watching movies and you do not get addicted to it. I think self help is a path like any other. Its never straight. There are ups and downs and mistakes. This is how it should be, just accept it and enjoy the amazing journey:)
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You go boy! keep it up and enjoy a bit of break next week!
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i am also on the same route as everyone else here. i gave away a lot of clothes and try to only have the important ones. stopped buying shoes . threw away a lot of material stuff.its much easier even if it seems hard at the beggining.also easier to clean
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My general goals: Let the past and the pain of the past go Updating this journal on a daily basis, till I go back to the ship, then update it on weekly basis Start to work out on daily basis Enjoy my free time without computer, technic and TV series Quit my porn addiction as it promotes creates an unhealthy picture of sex and makes real sex less enjoyable. Start to visualise my future goals and create goals what I can achieve Read more books on self-actualisation. Daily Goals Wake up at latest 10 am--> failed, woke up at 11.05 without an alarm as I snoozed my alarm at 9.45. Funny thing is that I never have trouble waking up on time, when I must work. But now that it's about my free time i am failing. Will try again tomorrow. Workout--> had no time for general meaning of work out, but I was out of my bed right after I woke up and I was in the city strictly walking between 1pm to 6 pm. No sitting just walking around Taking care of my body--> right after I woke up, I put on a hair mask, had a long and relaxing bath, and dried my hair. Usually I fail to do all of these things. I am too lazy for these things. Quick shower and letting my hair to just dry by the air, which makes it fizzy and ugly and it annoys me hell of a lot. I also bought today some face masks. To read self-help books--> bought 2 psychology books. One about how to reach happiness and one about negative habits and addictions. To replace my addiction with something what actually helps me--> I bought a book in english which is obviously not my first language. Life of Pi, also Did not use internet between 12.30pm and 7.pm at all, and till 8 pm hardly at all. Did not watch series or porn all day. Socialise with people.--> was spending my whole day with my stepmom without watching my phone. I was talking and listening to her. Also I offered this morning on Couchsurfing random help for random people, who are coming to my city to see if they want me to show them around. Also I created A public trip in my city so others know I am here and have not much friends, so I am happy to hang out with anyone. Do not contact my ex.--> did not contact him at all over a week ago and even then he contacted me and I just simply answered. Eat healthy--> had a huge veggie gyros what I made from cauliflower with fresh veggies. Prior to that I had a couple of hours that a deep fried thing, but only half of it. I usually do not eat unhealthy stuff at all, so I think it's good that i moved out from my own comfort zone. Im obsessed with being healthy so I take it as it was a good thing. During dinner I had a glass of whiskey coke as me and my dad used to drink together this and my stepmom tried to surprise me with it. Had no heart to say no for it. Have vitamins and herbal teas through the day -->done All in all I feel that my day was successful. Tomorrow is weekend let's see if I can keep it up.
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As per my opinion, you are tired because of your negative thinking. It's like the circe of devil. You feel tired because your meals and life is poorly. You feel negative and tired from your lifestyle. Here you think you found the solution but you can't afford it, so that makes you sad and feel that you can't get out from your situation. At the same time you would like fix your money problems but you can not find the energy for it. I will say, you can afford the healthier food. Maybe not bio, and super healthy stuff, but I can tell that looking into your finances, moving around 1-2 bits you can improve your lifestyle on a level what would allow you better food. After you took the firs step you will see that your energy level will raise simply from therapy and good feelings. Then we can look into that with your situation all in one you can start to look for certain jobs and possibilities to raise your income. sooner or later you will be able to afford all kinds of foods or blood examples. If you need any help with the above stated things, please do not hesitate to message me, I Did this for plenty of people and I would be more than happy to help you find the root of the situation. It would not cost a penny but could change your situation.
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i am on the same journey and i think there are many people on the same journey. im only 25 but Im feeling as sex became meaningless and not satisfying as it's too easy to get it. in my work environemet sex is just a way to destress as we have to work 7days a week for at least 6 months with no stop. as a crew member alcohol is cheap and leads to many decision involving meaningless sex. i want to change my life and my future. thats why i give up sex and porn all in all for a while.
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Hey Guys, As a seaman, I literally travelled so far all over the world. Just now I came home from Brasil and Joining again in Hong Kong. I work as concierge so I have endless informations on almost any destination. If you need any help or recommendation then please send me a private message and I'll be more than happy to help
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Hi all, I have an issue. I tried to be a vegan and loose weight at the same time. Im 160 cm and 60 kilos but my weight disturbs me so much that i decided to have only one meal a day. only good stuff. As i am working on cruise ship and working extremely hard it's a task big enough but I thought it would be easier on my vacation. I am on holiday now for 6 weeks with would be enough time to pick up a new habit like that, but my stepdad has on overeating disorder. He sees all answers in food. I think we are so opposite, and after every fight he tries to show me his love with making me huge meals from stuff i don't even eat. If I say no, then he gets extremely offended and he takes it personally as I overly criticise him and nothing is good for me ( I never told him I only eat a meal day as he would go on and on about how unhealthy it is and I still don't hear the end of the fact that I need meat and milk in my life.but he sees it just decided to not care) I don't really know how to not et into fights and do what I want with my body and health. Any suggestions?
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Thank you so much:)
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Rosie replied to Galyna's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
no do not worry, maybe my answer was a bit sharp. i think everyone lives a different experience:) -
Rosie replied to Galyna's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
i was in aa brutal car crash where why whole family died except me. TBH I have no memories what so ever. I remember only for my own scared scream, but nothing more. apparently after he fire fighters had to cut the car to get me out i just started to walk away and i told them that i gotta walk home before I collapsed. after this for weeks i have no memories at all, and never came back the past 3 years.