Rosie
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Hey all, I decided that I will share this with everyone, maybe there is someone else in my shoes. I't turns out that i am allergic to milk products. As soon as I eat milk products, I start to have a massive breakout and skin rash. I looked into a bit of the acne problem, and it seems that in most cases adult acne is caused by milk products, then some cases it's gluten. The two evil. From today no milk products at all, So I am looking for good quality cheese replacements. Any brand you use and could recommend?
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this evening I've decided that I will go for 30 days with no social media. Including: Instagram Facebook Messenger To ensure that I can keep it, I deleted the apps and downloaded Duolingo instead and applied for a language exam in march to have something to concentrate on. Feel free to comment and/or doing it with me.
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Hi All, I've decided that I will start to do this journal, be completely honest to you and to my self and improve my life and future. Let's start with my past I've born in 1991, in Hungary. If I would want I could go on and on about my background but I've decided that Instead of being the victim, I will simply share the details what I find important points in life. I had 2 brothers and one sister growing up. My dad was working in bioenergy, therefore we had to move on a yearly basis from country to country depending on where he had to build out possibilities. We were moving around till I was about 14 years old. That means that I never been able to build real friendships, relationships. My family was my everything. As soon as we stopped moving around my parents divorced, and had a very ugly divorce as my mum had a narcissist, manipulative personality which was present since I can remember, slowly ruining my dad and the rest of my family with it. When they divorced I decided to stay with my dad, as we had a very strong relationship, and could not bear my mum's personality. After they divorced i started constant lying about my parents and life in the new environment. Small unimportant and sometimes bigger even huge lies, and mostly I believed in them. Once again I destroyed my relationships, could not hold on to friends. Big turn was in my life when 3 years ago I tried to sort my problems with my mum, the same day we had huge car crash, all my brothers, sister and um passed away and I survived thanks for the seatbelt. After 2 weeks, I realised that my life can't continue as it was before. ( I already finished 2 university degrees by this time) And Applied for a job on a huge cruise liner. A year later while I was working on the ship, my dad got a heart attack and died as well. Could not even go to his funeral because I was afraid to face with it alone. My parents were single kids both and because of the lifestyle we did not have too strong relations with people in general. Today After a my dad passed away a couple of months, I started a relationship with a nice guy on the ship. I thought I am cured from my depression as I developed an addict to my job. Of course I messed up the relationship as I needed all the time feedback and love to replace my family. At the same time I was really lovely to the guy, so I think we actually both messed up. I have serious fear of commitment, I am lazy and I have Internet and Tv series addiction, also porn addiction. Sometimes I do not do anything active during a day ( known my vacation so I do not have to work) At the same time when I am on board I work harder and better than any of my colleagues. I keep promising things to myself what I never keep. I am unsure If I became now addicted on loosing weight. I am 60 kilos, with 160 cm but I only eat specific foods and only once day even if I am starving. I completely stopped lying to myself and my environment since I am working on the ship Goals Let the past and the pain of the past go Updating this journal on a daily basis, till I go back to the ship, then update it on weekly basis Start to work out on daily basis Enjoy my free time without computer, technic and TV series Quit my porn addiction as it promotes creates an unhealthy picture of sex and makes real sex less enjoyable. Start to visualise my future goals and create goals what I can achieve Read more books on self-actualisation. Please feel free to comment or advice me:)
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@The Son sarcasm always entertains me.
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@The Son I read sarcasm
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I am listening to this song as it gives me so so so much inspiration Somehow the video and the whole song gives me strength
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Also I'm happy to translate: dutch, italian, french and englsh stuff if you need it.
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i kick many asses
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Title: Between clouds Ha felhők közt jársz álmod repít tovább Olyan régóta várom azt ki hasonlít rád Nem számit a múlt mert már veled vagyok Szemed örülten csillog szívem érted dobog Egyszer felhők közt jársz máskor végleg kiszállsz Tudod többé nem érzem már a szíved dalát Hozhat bármit a vég s közben tiéd lennék Hát döntsön az élet tudd meg kívánlak még If you walk between could, your dream makes you fly I'm waiting so long ago for someone like you, The past doesn't matter since I am with you, Your eyes are sparkling crazy, my heart beats for you Once you walk between between clouds, You know, I do not feel your heart's song anymore You can bring anything, while i am dying i would be yours, So let the life decide, You should know i still want you Ps sorry not good with rhyme translation
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the title of the song is in hungarian. i love speaking so many languages.. i love understanding them...oh not only the title... it's in hungarian...whoop whoop for second nationality
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Hey lovely people, I AM FLYING OUT IN 6 DAYS TO SIDNEY, maybe even less as my company changed my contract. I need to join 3 days prior. I started my juice fast. I did not eat anything solid, still after my news i had 2 glasses wine. Kick start to my juice fast. well, it's liquid..... Anyways new journey, new beginnings and i will kick ass.
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My dream body I was eating mainly healthy today, but more importantly I purchased a juicer today and like 15kg worth of veggies. From tomorrow I am on a 5 days juice cleanse to detox my body. Yes that's right. Apart from that i had a pretty much introverted day. We had some drama at home and a close friend of mine passed away today at work. Life is so short and fragile... unbelievable..
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I am a true capricorn but have ono idea about astrology at all.
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I love doing yoga at home. Having a nice green tea before concentrating on myself and connect with myself. I LOVE YOGA
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I really don't think masturbation causing acne for you. there might be an allergy or hormonal issue behind it or even bad diet.
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My dream body: I made an appointment to a medical centre where they will have a full check out to ensure that my metabolism, blood everything else is all right and what kind of allergies I have exactly. Hopefully this will give me some ideas, what kind of diet I need, what vitamins am I missing. I started to do the 30 day love handle challenge to get rid of that annoying lover back fat. I will try to find a good workout plan to ensure that I am working on that body, I work with sweat. My meals for the day: Water intake: 3l + 8dl in warm detox tea+ rice protein shake Meals: 1slice of white toast and some vegetarian spread on it+ half tomato with salt. 3 big teaspoon of cooked rice with green peas, mixed with a veggie stew, from broccoli and cauliflower, half plate of salad with iceberg lettuce, cabbage, tomato and cucumber and some peanuts and a spoon of mayo as dressing. also made a mug cake from 2 tbs of flour 1 spoon of sugar, some baking powder, coconut milk, and a teaspoon of peanut butter. yeah yeah i know calories but still okay.... Finding my partner in life to achieve this, I must love myself. So what I did today was to find thing what I love in my life, on my body. I watching videos on beauty and fitness theme and watched again Leo's videos in the theme. I started to write a list on what I like and do not like, because I tend to change my taste according to my partner's taste when I am in a serious relationship. I want to be a happy individual who doesn't depend on others but chooses to be with someone. Enjoy my life the fullest I was helping out in a children's home where they accepted me as an alternative children therapist. Instead of general therapy I will try to listen to the kids, let them vent cry and try to examine if they feel to have any solution for their problems and if so, what that would be. I have a room with full of toys and have the chance to talk to this kids one by one. They are very introverted because of their past, but as they enjoy playing if you do not pressure them they start to talk. It's amazing. I hope I can help them some way. Thats for me for today
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So I've decided that instead on concentrating on all aspects of my life, I will concentrate on individuals one to achieve my happiness. Aspect one: Having my dream body Why is this important? Because I am unhappy about the fact that people at work make jokes about my big butt, because I used to be a professional athlete, and I let myself down by gaining weight and because If i can have my kick ass body then I will be healthier, i will be true to myself and I will be an example instead of a follower. I want to work with kids and I want to educate them on a fuller way. I want to teach them how to be healthy inside and out. Also I want to be inspirational for all those woman out there who only have a couple extra pounds to loose but still it feels like hell and never happens till the day they have 30 pounds to loose or even more and they don't even dare to go the beach anymore. Me finding my partner in life Why is this important? Not because I want to have a trophy husband, not to someone else cause my happiness, but very simply because I love to care about others. I picture myself having kids and family and I picture myself supporting them. To achieve this, I will go to seminars, read books, learn about my feminism, cook, becoming an organised person and do everything in my power to be balanced and happy with myself before I get into any relationships. Im sure there is my lobster out there and I will find it in 2016. Im sure there are people out there who will say I am desperate, who will say I do not need an another person, but That's might be you, not me. So yeah I will find it, have it and master it. Enjoying my life the fullest Every single day I will do something to go out of my comfort zone, to do something I enjoy. Maybe it's a 5 minutes of dancing, a walk with my dogs or helping a random stranger, But I will bring some joy in this life. I Will use this journal to document my process, mistakes and fails. I hope you will enjoy it. Maybe my way is not the right way, but at least it's mine.
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amazing post:)
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Hey all, Im interested, what was the best material you used on relationships and dating? I'm trying to learn much about this theme but can't really find real good materials. How to date? How to find love? or even just general relationships. Any recommendation is highly appreciated, Next time I decide to get into a relationship I want to know what am I doing and how do I affect the other person. I would like to learn about human behaviour as much as posisible.
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Hi all, Lately I started to try self hypnosis and sleep hypnosis to see how do they work. I found on youtube several videos for several issues, Weight loss and letting past go, there are several other topics, but I started to use these. What do you think is it a good thing to use it additionally for my growing process or do I just try to take the easier path? Does hypnosis really work or is it the placebo effect what I am experiencing? What are your opinions on hypnosis?
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All my cores for the daycare done. Tomorrow I will raise my bet and remake my journal and goals. Have an ice evening all:)
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y general goals: Let the past and the pain of the past go Updating this journal on a daily basis, till I go back to the ship, then update it on weekly basis Start to work out on daily basis Enjoy my free time without computer, technic and TV series Quit my porn addiction as it promotes creates an unhealthy picture of sex and makes real sex less enjoyable. Start to visualise my future goals and create goals what I can achieve Read more books on self-actualisation. Daily Goals Wake up at latest 10 am--> Done again.--> woke up at 8 Workout-->Yoga Taking care of my body--> done To read self-help books-->I'm interested in reading Matthew Hussey's book: Get the guy, I was watching leo's videos and looked for psychological books. Socialise with people.-->i have 2 dates tomorrow:) Eat healthy-->done Vitamins--> done Yesterday I did not have the chance to update my journal, because in the evening I had some issues with my laptop cable--> my two beautiful doggie took it as a special chew toy. I replaced it just now, so I am back to business. It turns out that I am allergic to milk. I knew it before, but as I can become addicted to these, I decided that at least on my vacation, let me eat whatever I want. NO I CAN NOT. I look from milk products like a 15 years old little teenager with my skin rash. Not sexy... Anyways. Now 3 days of cleansing will help with a lot of green tea and much much much more raw based veggies. I am also looking a good milk replacement cheeses.
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I do not agree on this. I think learning this is absolutely possible. I do have relationships but i would like to better at them...
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Birth-control pills are the son of EVIL. When I got my first one, I had random breakdowns, I remember I was crying at work about A HAND SANITISER. Im not sure if you take the pills, but if you do not, then there is a hormone problem caused by something else.
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@A Lone Wanderer obviously, thats not what i meant. But I think sleeping after an exhausting day for an hour is normal. However sleeping 5 times a week in the afternoon. Well there is something not right. Anyways i think i might explained myself on the wrong way...