Well, I've realized that I chase beautiful woman to fill the void in me. Its like when I walk on street y see a beautiful women and I get anxious about never getting one of them beacuse I'm pretty bad with women. And the other anxiety its about trying to stop the feeling of lust, loneliness and pain that that causes me. I came to the sad and painfull truth that I am the one who f*ed up all my relationships and the seed of my problem is that I have a problem with women. Maybe is because my mother was very severe with me and beated me to much when I was a child or the tyranic insecure father I had . I just want to get my mind clear of woman so I can try to be happy with my life. I hope some of you could help me with my problem, and thanks for reading
Ps: sorry about my writting, I am not a native speaker
