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Yes, I think intense would be a better description than 'a turn for the worse'. The mental health system is indeed deeply corrupt. I agree with most of what you've said in this thread. You're not alone.

Yes, of course. I've been diagnosed with a serious mental illness when it took a turn for the worse though. But I've had prolonged experiences of the mystical. And large levels of being 'energized' I'm not very good at describing it, so I don't bother but there are people out there.

Yin energy Yin energy rarely stands out. She gives it all away, her praise, her attention, her everything. She isn't really anything 'special'. Its only when the masculine moves through her that she might even have her moment at her ball. Spirit and the protection from the masculine is her only hope of that. She wishes for nothing. She is contented in her 'behind the scenes' nature. She can move energy unconcealed here and make an impact. Smoothing out sharp edges When the masculine is particularly harsh, the feminine can be used to 'smooth' out the masculine. If the masculine has an overly sharp, cutting edge, feminine energy is used to ease that energy. If the energy is not reduced it can escalate. A sharp edge is an indication, a sign of what is to come. The sharp edge is a type of premonition for the collective. Sharp edges Sharp edges can be premonitions for possible collective catastrophe. The 'feminine' can ease these edges. The 'feminine' in this case is obviously in quotations and may be the case of just an awakened being. The 'feminine' uses the sword of truth and both concealed energy work and unconcealed energy work. Sharp edges could be the energies that I sense around me at times (keys, cars, electronics, etc.). The 'feminine' can ease the 'masculine' that has sharp edges. No-fap I'm attempting to practice this. Usually, it's easy but recently I've been surrounded by the masculine (outside the forum), triggering me to go into heat. I think other masculines have noticed (to be blunt). Perfect for my spiritual practice. The perfect combination is masculine presence, extreme yin activation, and no-fap to activate sexual energy. I want to activate sexual energy for healing the collective, the smoke, intuitive activation, and whatever else sexual energy is used for. Compatibility From past experience, sexual energy is better and more sustainable when it comes from a deeper place. A resonance. Spiritual and pioneering compatibility. Your usual run-of-the-mill attraction hardly suffices. It has to run deep.

@Razard86 Do you happen to know your MBTI and Enneagram type?

I think VI (visual identification in socionics) is very much based on intuition and feel for an individual. I always get the functions correct but in the wrong order. Fe - Ti feels sharp, cutting, and a little intimidating to my little Fi, for example.

Oh cool! So my physicality fits my typing structure? Interesting.

You're very kind. Thank you.

Concealed 'energy' work (INFP) vs Unconcealed work (INFJ). Behind the scenes (INFP) vs Chart the Course (INFJ)

The Receptive mode In the receptive mode, you will receive impulses from Spirit. There are many archetypes that you will cover from the impulses that you receive from Spirit. The divine balancing act. There are the masculine and feminine. There is the sx-variant or the seductress. The maiden, the hero, the wise old man. The Sword of Truth (masculine, energy work). Staying active I am being driven to stay active on the forums/journalling section by higher forces. If it was up to me I would be resting and taking a break. In fact, hopefully, I will soon. My posts have less depth recently. I feel drained of insight.

I relate to the second one. I'm the first one under pressure. But I default to the second.

Then I must be an INFJ because I speak about the collective and wanting to heal the collective.

'A dozen schizos'. You are talking to someone who has been diagnosed as being on the spectrum with Schizophrenia. And you are telling me that qualifies me for banning and that it would make the forum a better place. I don't know if you are aware of how your remarks come off and how hurtful you can seem sometimes.

INFJs and INFPs are the soul of this forum. The 'Mother'. We should be treated with some respect, instead of mocked and dismissed by ENTPs and INTPs like you. One day we might rise up and leave this place and this place will be left hollow. Don't be surprised if there will be a Call. We have our 'quirks' and our 'shortcomings' but you'll find more if you actually have the Sight to see, which Loba pointed out you are lacking in quite significantly.

I think this shows a lack of sensitivity to the issue since many of the INFPs in the journalling section are dealing with their own special case of illness. To simply write them off as crazy and that you might catch their 'crazies' is stigmatizing and definitely not a showcasing of turquoise values to say the least. Us INFPs and INFJs are the heart and soul of this forum. We do a huge portion of the self-development and soul-searching work on here.

What I mean by "situation" is really bad collective outcomes, for example, The Holocaust.

Exploring my sexuality I am a stifled, sexually repressed person. Comes with the whole 'so/sp' territory. Although I definitely know how to 'get myself off' to avoid any negative consequences usually. I know the right buttons to press. I like surprising people with my sx side when it's obviously unexpected (being so/sp). I am attracted to sx dom types who can pull that aspect out of me. Sx secondary also works too. Before I took 'damage' I was extremely sexual and playful and sx variant integrating. The 'damage' wiped that out. But I'll heal and move upward and eventually move back toward that place again. The 'Damage' The damage sustained comes from channeling and having received psychic attacks during concealed energy work. I utilized a lot of masculine energy during the energy work which resulted in psychic attacks. Masculine energy is potent but attracts psychic attacks. The divine knows the correct proportions of masculine and feminine and sacrifice. Growing in intimacy with the divine increases the likelihood of a channeling. Receptive mode, impulses will move through you, the 'call'. Maynard I have an obsession with Maynard James Keenan if anyone noticed. I listen to his music nonstop. His music guides my spiritual path. His voice is pure sex. I don't have any unhealthy twin flame fantasies born out of mental illness, don't worry. However, his voice can drive home a oneness into my body and soul like no other. He knows how to completely overwhelm my senses with spiritual euphoria on all levels. Completely satisfied, sexually and spiritually without having even been touched. Sexual Variant and Growth In all my mystical experiences I was encouraged to explore and integrate my sexual variant. I'm very hesitant to explore sexuality. It's in my shadow as a SO/SP. I have done some heavy-duty integration work regarding my sexual variant and there is no going backward on this path, regardless of regression and damage. My intuition pushed back the curtain on my sexuality and taught me the value of sexuality on the spiritual path.

Yes, of course. Those are perfectly valid examples of unconcealed work. I'm speaking of when the energy is very heavy and you can effectively move it before it escalates further and you are dealing with a potential 'situation'.

I agree to an extent. Sacrifices are concealed (energy work) as well as made obvious to observers. It's good to sacrifice your own comfort and safety but you'll find that often you won't have to as you'll often be dealing with energy work.

Don't be aroused by my confession Unless you don't give a good goddamn about redemption I know Christ is comin', and so am I And you would too if this sexy devil caught your eye She'll suck you dry And still you'll cry, to be back in her bosom To do it again She'll make you weep And moan and cry, to be back in her bosom To do it again 'Til I go blind (Pray) 'Cause nobody ever survives Prayin' to stay in your arms just until I can die a little longer Saviors and saints, devils and heathens alike She'll eat you alive Jesus is risen, it's no surprise Even he would martyr his mama to ride to hell between those thighs The pressure is building at the base of my spine If I gotta sin to see her again then I'm gonna lie, lie, lie She'll make you cry I'll sell my soul to be back in your bosom Gladly now please suck me dry And still you'll cry, to be back in her bosom To do it again 'Til I go blind (Pray) 'Cause nobody ever survives Prayin' to stay in her arms just until I can die a little longer Saviors and saints, devils and heathens alike She'll eat you alive My pulse has been rising My temples are pounding The pressure is so overwhelming and building So steady there, Freddy I'm ready to blow What is she, what is she, what is she waiting for? 'til I go blind (Pray) 'cause no one ever survives (Pray) Prayin' to stay in her arms just to die a little longer Saviors and saints, devils and heathens alike She'll eat you alive

My friend who is a life coach offers this to you: If you don't like yourself, people pick up on that energy. If you want to be better received by others you must better receive yourself. Being liked by others originates in being liked by yourself and then when people see that you like yourself they will respond in kind and like you. So you've got to work on increasing your own self love which is the root of this problem that you are experiencing. Also, the toxic masculine invites criticism from others. This can include other masculines trying to elevate themselves by attacking you. It can also include the feminine by trying to pull the rug out from underneath you to try to teach you to integrate more of the feminine in the way that you show up socially. The masculine whether toxic or not is going to be attacked. If you don't want to be attacked at all then you must hide away from reality and hide away under a rock and don't make any noise that offends anyone. Expect that you're going to face adversity if you're leading with the masculine.

Coming from the self-described and half earned class clown sitting in the back of the class, the INFPs on here take this as a compliment coming from you

@Tyler Robinson ♥ ?

Going within My intuitive and feeling abilities blew open during the episodes experienced, more than I could handle. I looked outwardly and made wrong assumptions and interpretations about those intuitions and feelings and psychic knowledge. I need to realize my intuitive nature. Suppression Drug her up to silence her. Her intuitions and feelings forcefully silenced. Talk of intuition immediately relegated to madness. She mustn't be allowed out to roam free, what chaos will ensue? But it will push through. Like a flower pushing through a cemented pathway. Spirit will forcefully blossom that flower. This is a war. The Feminine The feminine is less sacrificial, more comforting after the sword has pierced through. She is the eternal comforter. She can warm the heart of any a warrior. Wielding her sword (her masculine) of truth, she speaks in tongues, speaking honeyed tones. Her will is divine, she gives life. The Feminine Sacrifice The Feminine is sacrificial in that her burden is heavy. If she is attacked, and there is no one to protect her, she will take on that burden. The collective will surely see something terrible if her burden continues. Her burden grows heavier and heavier and it can impact her health, growing weary and sickly. The masculine will sit on her shoulders, stupidly, kicking her down and she'll be forced to take it in her innocence and weakness. Great is her comeuppance. Like a lion, she will roar.

Thank you Razard.