Proserpina

Everything working against me, to try to harden my heart.

The path isnt all sunshine and roses. All I take very seriously is being a good person despite everything working against me. Doing the work is similar to a basic bodily need at this point. Other than being perception, there isn't a lot I get out of doing this work. I do it because not doing it is very uncomfortable and decreases my quality of life.

Yeah. The path isnt all sunshine and roses. All I take very seriously is being a good person despite everything working against me.

Seems to me that you're saying here that you believe that the finite self is an illusion.

Haha. I sound so jaded.

Doing the work is similar to a basic bodily need at this point. Other than being perception, there isn't a lot I get out of doing this work. I do it because not doing it is very uncomfortable and decreases my quality of life.

So based on these notes I can say there is a way that the finite self is benefited by alignment with the divine, namely ego self actualization. Beautiful self concept means both True Self and ego self actualization. I also was at service to the highest good (part of beautiful self concept) Contrast was resonances being activated and recognized. Also movements that would serve the highest good.

Is there a better way to communicate this?

@Leo Gura Haha, way to humble me.

Beautiful <3 I hope one day I can understand at your level.

Most of it is nonsense and not very detailed at all: Follow your bliss actions align with beautiful self concept Positive contrast Beautiful self concept The specifics don't matter The self concept/ energy matters, harmony matters. The specifics fill in with whatever Imagination is real No need to cling, can be relaxed from unconditional love ..... Warmth Bond Unconditional love Natural Complementing energies Can feel safe to be myself No awkwardness Forgiveness Mirroring Safety in separation Oneness, completion Challenging, accelerated learning ...... Desensitized No fear, no filter Brutally honest .... Affect others Bored Amused Void Desire Spoilt child Secure Exhausted Satisfied ..... Laying down in spirit. Becoming one. Peace between spirits. Laying down. ...... Innocence, Being, unconditional love + The Devil = warmth, Gratitude, Compassion, selflessness Balance ...... Shallowness + depth = warmth ......... Confident, Carefree, Secure, Sure, Lower dopamine, Lying down; do nothing, Soft heart Dislikes: being overrided, restricted, heavily influenced Likes: security, freedom, safety, independence, spontaniety, confidence, identity ........ Enjoy the contrast between spirits ....... There is only me here, we dissolves ...... Create beautiful concept for others ....... Keep reaching for something satisfying, satisfying relief Spirituality is high levels Visions will feel like next logical step in satisfaction, relief Meaning will feel like next logical step ...... General sexual energy + affirmations + meditation = warmth ........ Movement Affirmations Sexual energy Breathing

Going to go through my old notes I took during my mystical experience that would describe my channeling. Will post here.

Sure you're not channeling? This is almost the exact message God gave me. Man, I'm so numbed out from the antipsychotics (not taking them anymore but still) God has to straight up slap me in the face with messages so I recieve anything. Thankfully being vulnerable is my forte, so I can offer something.

@Leo Gura Do you think you are the finite self or do you think the finite self is an illusion? Does God include the finite self?

Law of attraction people believe that properly aligning with source will lead to the finite self being benefited. I tend to agree with this stance.

@Matthew85 You seem to be making a much less dualistic distinction between the finite and Absolute self than Leo is.

@Leo Gura If I am God and everything that is happening is of my will why couldn't the Absolute will to benefit the finite self?

A part of me is psyched that I potentially get to skip a major evolutionary step filled with misery, another part of me is miffed that I can never be a teacher as a result of that. Instead of animal allowing to human asking to allowing, it's animal allowing to allowing.

You have to be deeply human in order to teach. If you are part beast (autism) and not human it can be difficult to understand where others are coming from and to correct their path.

Thank you. Peace would be connected to deep contentment. Love the acrostic <3

Of course don't expect but how can you say that Beauty has no impact on how you treat others and the finite self and the resulting affects of that?

Losing interest in traumas, limitations, insecurities, fear. To reveal God waiting underneath it all. This. Can fuck you up.

Signs of channeling/ impending channeling: Deep boredom Playfulness ('troll' like energy, except positive) Losing interest in traumas, limitations, insecurities, fear. To reveal God waiting underneath it all. Constant amusement Secure (wealthy, abundant vibrationally, often mistaken as a 'rich girl') Deep Contentment Challenging others Confident Embrace sexuality Sensual Giving others my whole energy and attention

When to teach With the right karma, the right density level. If you can 'talk the talk' apparently you can teach, doesn't matter your character. People will swallow it up. ..... I can't consider myself a teacher this lifetime as I simply don't have the karma and density level required. I can't 'talk the talk'. If you can, it will take you far.