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Yes, send help How am supposed to feed my addiction

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Being vs beliefs Sometimes you have to make a decision between belief systems that weigh you down and feel heavy vs Being. Even if you LOVE models like me. To simply say I'm infinite and this is what I want rather than place yourself on a finite spectrum. You are more than where you place yourself on a model. (This journal entry was inspired by @Nahm)

@Nahm Fine I'll let go of it. I prefer Being to silly beliefs anyway. I put intellect, reading and philosophy in my vortex instead.

@Nahm Hm. Maybe. But you won't see an animal or someone with a 'developmental disorder' that involves intellect (who are animal like) sitting like the Buddha answering questions on reality with perfect sense. There are limits. A kangaroo can't stop being a kangaroo.

@Nahm I guess so. Also just the knowledge of your capacity. Intellect has an impact on realization. Animals can't self realize.

@HypnoticMagician Wow. Okay. Women excel in virtues that often get overlooked (big 5 - agreeableness [empathy, compassion], enthusiasm [happiness, cheerfulness]) It would be a cold, gloomy place without the cheerful, loving nature of females. How can you say they are inferior?

It's not necessarily silly. There are people who are on different places on the path and it can impact their capacity. To acknowledge that and the larger picture in which you sit can be fruitful as you stop beating yourself up.

@Jakuchu @Nahm

@gettoefl ❤️

Exactly. And maybe one day I can have that fancy realization and I'll be with the beloved all along the way.

Poor genetics and awakening A part of me suffers for it and another part of me is like, who cares? If I can awaken enough to where pain and suffering no longer have me hostage and everything is beautiful then who cares if I can't be up to these people's level. I know I have limitations (my Dad has a very low IQ) but at the end of the day I'm not here to have some fancy understanding I can never reach due to poor genetics

I understand the feeling. I feel similarly. But a part of me is like, who cares? If I can awaken enough to where pain and suffering no longer have me hostage and everything is beautiful then who cares if I can't be up to these people's level. I know I have limitations (my Dad has a very low IQ) but at the end of the day I'm not here to have some fancy understanding I can never reach due to poor genetics

On pain and pleasure It's possible to 'turn on' and 'turn off' pain. It's not like a rejection, it's a deep love. You fall in love with it. You don't want any thought to tamper with it, including 'pain', 'pleasure', 'difference'. You want it raw. (To describe it to you) Do it with pain and aversion and you can do it with anything else.

It's possible to 'turn on' and 'turn off' pain. It's not like a rejection, it's a deep love. You fall in love with it. You don't want any thought to tamper with it, including 'pain', 'pleasure', 'difference'. You want it raw. (To describe it to you) Do it with pain and aversion and you can do it with anything else.

@Raptorsin7 Are you in love with reality? Do you love pain just as much as you do pleasure? I mean, deep down.

I'm surprised I have no warning points yet. I basically told Leo he was a fraud today (I <3 you @Leo Gura). The Gods have mercy.

Lol. How did you manage that?

Cool. Gotta meditate like that more often then.

So when I sat and meditated on my chronic pain until I had no preference in that area that was/is God working through me?

@gettoefl Hm...Truth is the way. I feel like my embodiment's root comes from a deep love of truth (only I'm limited). God told me I had a love of truth. And I thanked him for being 'a sword of truth in the darkness'

There's something about personalizing it that makes embodiment more likely I sense. I'm still trying to crack the code of why I have embodiment (with little understanding) so I can help others.

I've been through hell in this lifetime (still going through hell), mostly in survival mode. It was because I reached out to God and acted in goodness that I have the relationship I have. I stay true, married to him, through thick and thin. Christians seem to understand something when they talk about a 'relationship with God'.

Matthew 7:16 NMV “By their deeds you will know them." Beauty calls forth fruits, and fruit calls forth Beauty. It's not like it is separated. The eightfoldpath is entwined, not hierarchical and separated.

Why people do evil acts I personally believe people do evil acts because they are deeply depressed. They've forgotten how every thing you do and don't do (right action etc.) has a deep impact on your connection to source. On your capacity to see Beauty.