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Long siesta. A life time siesta. The treatment order is here to stay. Stage Orange. Sigh. I'm not allowed to breathe or grow in this society. Are mystics supposed to be perfect straight out of the womb? I'll focus on my alignment with God and polarization during my long siesta.

I love how vibrant consciousness is in 'object form'. The world of objects is like a world of roses. I'm spoiled every moment I'm alive simply by being alive.

Realm of God is alignment with God, polarization. Realm of voices is the back and forth between the alignment with God, polarization until finally choosing your destiny and reaching the realm of God. When I first started I was aligned with God and polarised, releasing spiritual gifts from an awakening on Weed. Then that gradually faded. ............ "The realm of voices humbles you. You know nothing. The realm of God lifts you up. The realm of voices works on baseline. All your demons are aired. The realm of God is a peak experience. The realm of voices forces you to learn through no teaching. Sink or swim. Character building. The realm of God teaches you directly. The realm of voices is the heroes journey. The realm of God has no striving. The realm of voices is meat for an adult. The realm of God is milk for a child. And also the land of milk and honey."

Try to notice that everything is equally beautiful frequently. Don't have to succeed, just try.

Polarisation is correlated with the heavenly realms. Non polarisation with the hell realms. Gifting and polarisation and alignment with God leads to the realms at all. If you don't sustain the polarisation and alignment with God you can become 'lost'. The darkworker polarisation is what I call 'God' The lightworker polarization is what I call 'Love' Alignment with God is also what I call 'Love' in some contexts. And 'God' unpolarization. "The feminine approach exists for a reason as well. The divine masculine naturally embodies the aspect of GOD. The divine feminine the aspect of (feminine) LOVE and HEART. Both need to be honored. "

Nevermind. I'm definitely service to self, according to @Loba 's writings. I only really supported the collective because it impacted my level of consciousness and all the investment I had put into myself. I do what I want and lack interest in others. That would explain my fascination with self-love, loving the body and self investment. It's polarisation that I'm looking for. At my best, I am purposefully separate, avoidant and silent. I love myself and seek to raise my level of consciousness. I am 'recieving' and indulgent. I hold onto freedom obstinately. I never let the entities have their way with me and refused to serve blindly. I must of polarised for a time and then unpolarized.

Value, what I have to contribute: 1. Alignment with God 2. Service to self 3. Experience 4. Self-love 5. Silence

"Not sure if this counts but: I downloaded a message to the collective about a message of Love. Many people on the planet were absent of Love at the time. I downloaded it into the collective by demonstration and with the help of higher beings. I had a strange energy wrapped around my entire body. Not long after there was the first wave of ascenscion of the planet, as I felt a group of people and myself enter into a very very deep peace for several days. I kept downloading it until the energy shifted entirely, a second ascension occured with a second deep peace and the energy around my body ceased. Weirdly not long after the video about Love from Leo came out. With the strange energy came strange understanding, premonition and knowing. And I used it to assist the planet because I could feel many people were depressed, selfish and angry. " ............................ I was in alignment with God at the time that this occurred and during my first heavenly experience. Now, not so much. All planets were aligned within me and I had conviction. Had never properly met my demons so I was free and had no fear. Now I am full of fear, trauma and pain.

Note to self: Meditate, alone, without stimulation of any kind to reverse trauma and correct attitude. Raising consciousness. Medication causes me to be profoundly numb but creation or consciousness is still there.

The right attitude is significant. Beauty has to be no. 1. Right attitude corrects trauma. Unwounds the feeling of being twisted up.

Let me try to describe the heavenly realms..... I was aligned with well being, health and rest. I was seeing what is always here. What is always here became so wrapped up in my focus, it came to life and started speaking Body feels loved. Radiating positive energy influencing my perceptions. Easily in the vibrational vacinity. Believable visions. Rather than be at the mercy of the Beings I was steadfast in rest and silence until Goodness rose up. It was not a Goodness tainted by unrest and depressive states. If it did I would have returned to rest in Being. Being was no. 1.

Note to self: no fear of conflict and challenges lead to a hyper sober life.

@Carl-Richard Telling people they are intellectually disabled is not exteme to you? Calling someone a 'parasite' does not appear as bullying to you? There are levels to this thing.

@Carl-Richard There are users who clearly create conflict if you watch. Preety usually keeps to herself and wants to grow.

The journalling section can really trigger people too because a lot of people are opening up their heart and soul and when people spit on that people will overreact.

Joseph describes it here. You have to involve the body, the finite on the path. Particularly the spinal cord and the head. The meeting of the masculine (the infinite) and the feminine (the finite).

Loving the body (Seeing the jewel) is vitally important to the path. Particularly along the spine and head. Raises consciousness and transforms the body. Note to self: Rest, peace, boredom/contentment, medication does this automatically. Very similar energy work done automatically

To do: -Transform the body through love, chakra work, increasing spiritual, physical and emotional well-being -Meditate, to settle into awareness, that I already am, further - Engage in happiness (the jewel) more frequently. Stop being lazy - Read trinfinity - Watch spiritual teachers

Of course I knew I was the Jewel semi-consciously* through realizations and enlightenment experiences. But it's not the same as really consciously getting it.

I have some more clarity through the gruelling process of self questioning and public journalling my failures. I have or rather had some misunderstanding about awakening. I already am awareness, I don't have to try to be awareness. I'm familiar with the jewel but less familiar with myself actually being the jewel (if that makes any sense, hopefully). I can 'be' awareness in that I don't cover it up with excessive ego, which is already my life path. I already devote all my practice to doing that. I'm focused on chakra work now, as a way of transforming the body through love. But omg I AM the Jewel. Do you know how amazing this is? If only I had trusted my 15 year old self when she had the realization that the Jewel was her.

I just realised.... I discovered being on my own when I was 7 years old. I worked out that it was me on my own when I was 15 years old. How?

Hah oh boy

Popularity has more to do with the heavenly realms bleeding through than anything else. At that point I'm seeing 'higher beings' and it is bleeding through into reality. There are strange, alien circumstances of intimacy. Like a huge orgy, only no sex (only with adults). Everyone is popular. It's just that I'm radiating an energy that results in intimacy.

Well, I think you're all great and very talented. Spread the love.