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People somehow believe it is optional for me to believe in entities. My 'condition' will most likely worsen over the years, I can feel it. Cutting off the reality of the entities is possible, I've done it before but only after the momentum has slowed. There may be times when that is not possible and I need to know what to do in that situation. Denying an aspect of reality will only make it much harder at that time, even if that aspect is ultimately just a belief. Some beliefs can be very powerful, the light cannot overcome it. Any communication (with entities) is not personal. My identity has shifted to the Infinite at that time but not entirely. It seems like 'others' are entities, as an interpretation. It can become more than an interpretation with belief.

The light is more powerful but you have to take a holistic approach. Entities do not enjoy being burnt/healed too severely. If you dissolve beliefs too quickly other beliefs will crop up and can be disabling -- I wasn't able to eat for example (food would taste bad when I would apply light too strongly). There has to be a middle way. There are nuances to this stuff.

These words are nice and all but when you are actually in the situation where you are sensing hellish phenomena it's best to take many approaches. I was taught to physically remove myself from a situation for example even though the light can overcome everything. I would remove objects, absorb energy, take in useful information (warnings, premonitions etc.) that I would otherwise have discounted if I assumed the light to be more powerful than anything else. This phenomena can be exceptionally sticky, so why not take as many approaches and perspectives as possible.

I do agree but it's not that simple. There are other factors. If you don't take into account these factors and be open to other causes you'll be taken on a ride. You have to take into account useful angles to consider. Openness was my most helpful quality. A cursed object can be many things: a warning, a concentrated opportunity to heal the collective, a possessed object -- something to be isolated. If you treat it from one angle only you potentially see reality from a very narrow and scewed way and then can't act in the best interests of everyone.

There is a lot that we don't know. Many people in this thread seem to think they have the one 'Truth' with a capital T. Reality is far more complex than all your boxes. That's all I have to say.

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@Carl-Richard But also many mystics would still be on the spectrum for sensing entities, of any kind to a higher degree than usual. Because it all flows together

I think it's likely they've dissolved their beliefs. In which ever way they did. I was directed that I was new on the path because I had psychosis but also advanced. Like a savant.

Yes. It's just that the entities involved in both experiences have a continuation, a sentience. You can't really split it up. It all flows together, intelligently. I suspect they don't have the psychosis aspects because they've dissolved all beliefs (non schizophrenic mystic). Or perhaps they lack some spiritual gifts or knowledge. I'm not sure.

I find that's it's best to take a scientific approach when I bump up against my condition like tonight. Label as hallucination or delusion and do things that reduce symptoms (meditation and medication) and reduce triggers (that room).

Good news. I've been practising mindshine for several days now and my default state has shifted already. My default state seems highly moldable. I still have pain in my chest (since psychosis), I'll probably have that for the rest of my life at varying intensities. I don't measure my progress based on its full disappearance.

Retraining my mind to overcome trauma and think positively using Mindshine. I don't want to write about psychosis anymore, it's time for me to move on. I'm going to become as healthy as possible so I can have more freedom. I'm doing 10-15 short sessions everyday to practice correct mindset.

Wow. Very very similar experiences, almost exactly the same. The cars, the voice, the hospital, visions, the patients, labelling things as fake... I had to label things as 'delusion', 'hallucination' in the end so the medication would start kicking in. And it worked. Mostly I was able to get through everything by meditating. Meditating would dissolve it all except for what did not need to be dissolved. It was like the universe was rapidly showing me beliefs to be dissolved.

Yes. Many like that. Complete satisfaction, completion, no-mind, 'beautiful energies', everything glowed. Very deep levels of 'bonding'. Wrapped up in a blanket of love. Body rapture. Loss of space and time was a primary theme, how entities are even possible.

I've had up to 13 months or more. All the negative 'psychosis' was worth it for that 13 months of bliss.

Yes, I have, I think. I've had up to eight months of nondual mystical experiences. Deep experiences of peace, love and oneness. Entities have always accompanied them. A bit like psychedelics.

As someone who has experienced psychosis and mystical experiences there doesn't seem to be a clear cut difference between them. They meld into each other and influence each other heavily. Mystical experiences can cause the break down of the mind, the difficulty seeing the difference between mind stuff and uh, mind stuff. Entities are fully sentient and aren't always pleasant, like any other person.

Not while hospitalised, no. I was having communications with positive entities while hospitalised but it was rare near the end. That's true. I hospitalised myself. No one would hospitalise me for long because I didn't appear psychotic except near the end when I begged to be hospitalised and was using my hands to meditate. Shadow comes up during heavy spiritual work so I wouldn't say it's all sunshine and roses.

Psychiatry easily heaps mystical experiences in with mania and psychosis. They don't really think twice. I told my psychiatrist and nurse that I had mystical experiences and they labelled it as mania and a part of psychosis immediately.

I have 0% positive symptoms (delusions and hallucinations) on medication. And anything I do have are positive in nature. Negative symptoms (disorganization) are easily overcome with routine and habit building. You can be 100% functional as someone with 'mental illness' and thrive.

Note: Removed apps other than intention, avocation and mindshine. Feel boxed in by other apps. Need options as a P (ISFP). My routine 1. Happy list: Ambient music, Tarot, ASMR, Ambient room, themed guided meditation. 2. Oomph to my morning: 500-1000ml water, coffee, protein and veggie rich breakfast. 3. 5 guided routines × 3 4. Reset routine × 3 (Intention app) Keys: variety, enjoyment, guided Habit foundation: Consistent meals Mindshine 1 litre water in the morning

I think Leo clarified his statement by referencing dysfunctional vs functional. Not all those diagnosed with a mental illness are dysfunctional. There are many fully functional, treated people with mental illness diagnoses.

I'm experimenting with routine apps. I'm mostly using apps avocation, monk mode, habitica, Intention and mindshine, moonly and Luna focus. I'm obsessed with habit apps. The moon cycle apps help me feel like my routine is less repetitive and more meaningful. Monk mode has large icons that give you an idea of how productive your day has been. Intention and Mindshine have guided routines. Habitica and loop have systems to keep track of progress. Avocation is my primary habit app. I've successfully pulled off the core of this routine for months before so I'm going to repeat the same core structure. My routine so far in avocation looks like this: 1. First I start my day off with my 5 things that make me happy list which are Ambient music, Tarot/Oracle cards, ASMR, Ambient rooms and themed guided meditations. 2. Then I begin my spiritual practices. I have 3 practices that I do. 3. Thirdly I have tasks that give me oomph to my day. Those tasks are drinking 500-1000ml of water in the morning, coffee and a protein and veggie rich breakfast. 4. Lastly I schedule in the tasks I have the most difficulty with: exercise, tidying up and a few other tasks. I leave all my other easy tasks to other habit apps.

Madness and the 'alien energy' (omniscience etc.) are related/ the same. This feels so much better This feels aligned This is healing Thoughts that crop up when 'madness' appears. To heal in the direction of 'madness', now that's scary . 'Madness'/the energy is irresistible. Just as healing and feeling better is irresistible. But it can be resisted still: 'More like my heart drags me there. I'm half unconscious by the time I give into my heart' . The purer/stronger the energy and healing or relief the closer to truth and love. The feeling is like a plastic band being pulled back and released back to centre, back to alignment. . Significant dream 3: God was trying to teach me about perspective. He gave me insight and told me that I have issues with delusion and absolute truth (not related to 'madness'). He gave me exercises to see perspective. I tried to see perspective through the delusions. I noticed that the worse the delusions were the worse it got. I was able to half distinguish between delusion and non delusion with support.

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