Proserpina

ISFPs are connected with nature and animals. Often nymphs and wood elves. I imagine ISFPs to be the embodiment of contentment and indulgence. Nymphs lazing contentedly. At their best they are warrior-like, practical and have high integrity.

My favourite fictional ISFP: The Beast from the Beauty and the Beast Legolas: Jon snow: Eowyn Eleven Cirilla

+ 2 hours Transmission/Pivot (M) (Rare candy app: nurse) (5 hrs total)

Here's a pretty picture I took a few months ago.

Last time I checked, God values diversity, low consciousness and high consciousness. Most of the 'crazies' are simply those who value transparency, vulnerability and honesty and freedom of expression, all high consciousness values. Wisdom around here looks like NTs congratulating themselves on their NT- ness. NTness that cares about spirituality that is and knows all the lingo off by heart.

Does ego and no ego attract? Masculine is 'egoic' according to Eckhart Tolle. Feminine is less egoic, and instead has a stronger painbody. Attraction based on differing strengths and weaknesses. No ego - agreeableness No Painbody - Low neuroticism I know for myself, working on myself spiritually attracts the masculine. . Masculine likes to dominate and determine the connection but attraction ultimately determines the connection in the end IF the feminine can withhold and stop giving all her charms away so easily like she does. Withhold, develop spiritually, withhold, develop spiritually, withhold. . I wonder because I'm pretty feminine and I'm attracted to....some questionable things. Most women can't help but be attracted to the calm asshole. Maybe that's not a developmental issue on her side but the way the feminine is made up, to be attracted to her opposite (ego + no painbody). I always imagine the ideal feminine to be without ego. And the ideal masculine to be without a painbody.

When I 'was crazy' or was in mystic state there were themes. I could not escape these themes. I could not outrun them. It was like a fractal, everywhere I turned, there they were. The themes were heavily tied to karma and right or wrong action. The lessons I was learning and what I had yet to learn. It was all a different angle of the same theme. Themes that were especially significant were lessons I kept repeating and would not learn. The consequences and theme became more and more severe as I failed to learn the lessons. Themes (I can remember): Allowing my father and mother to abuse me Hell- Being riddled in pain and rage for years instead of taking steps 'Imprisonment' by my parents. . Everyone was either my mother or father for example.

I think that gap may be at the root of my physical illness. And also The Room in my house that I currently own. It's all related. The darkness dissolves when the gap is resolved and vice versa. The psychological is the paranormal. I can't step foot into my own house I currently own because there are footsteps and because of The Room. Pathetic. Get a grip, Eva. There's a beautiful smell in my house too. I hear my mother's footsteps, the way she would put on her makeup. The house is haunted by her energy. At night in my dreams I resolve to relax and make love to the darkness. My fear feeds it. Appreciation and relaxation heals me.

@Loba Thank you. I make major mistakes within my journal writings and understanding. I have very high standards for myself as my recently deceased mother was a master and I feel can never reach her level, nor the people I'm drawn to naturally. There is a massive gap as Abraham Hicks might say. I come from a family of wide difference. My father and mother have vastly different intelligence. I also read your writings. You are quite an interesting person.

I saw another scene today of a van and a man working with drills as I was walking near by. It was like a cardboard cut out. Not real. A scene I had created in my mind and was being projected outward. I've been hearing sounds recently. Cars driving by, keys rattling, footsteps - all cartoonish, all digital like. Cardboard cut outs. A voice used to speak to me visually when I would see all the cardboard cut outs. It would explain that we were building together, constructing a world of our own. The voice went away with the medication. Maybe it'll come back one day. It would make me laugh. I don't know if they are 'entities' or if I have abilities. It could be law of attraction, maybe the voice is me. Idk, I'm just an ignorant little stage Green fool trying to make sense of the world. I don't have the turquoise brilliance and understanding I see so often on this forum. Keeping an open heart through my foolishness is difficult as hell. I would much rather be a cold, asshole like my Dad who suffers from a similar fate. I am not smart, and never will be, I'm not built that way. Being vulnerable and transparent when everything that comes out of my mouth is not smart is brutal. . Anyways I'm not here to be smart, I'm here to be practical. ISFP, afterall. Any theory is at service to the practical objective of healing and getting back on my feet and returning my independence (getting off the meds).

Path of mastery: an open heart I pursue an open heart at any and all costs. Why do I stay open at the cost of survival and heartbreak? Connection with reality. Primary. Beings with loving perception Love infusion . Primary service is to truth and reality. . To access and create with my own love when I am needy and hopeless.

Cool. I think ExxPs and IxxJs, ExxJs and IxxPs get along in general. Although I've yet to meet an ExxJ other than NT I get along with well. INTJs are easy to get along with. ISFP and INTJ are supposed to be compatible.

Yeah, I only get along with thinkers who have developed feeling or high compassion or who are considerably high up on the spiral. NFs, especially INFPs, are similarly majestic as NTs. They're like special little creatures I want to keep as a collection. Each unique and gifted. Not to be creepy.

I am attracting beings with loving perception. I am attracting beings with loving perception. I am attracting beings with loving perception. Etc. 55×5 times. Visualize a being with loving perception. Worked for me twice now. But you also want to do it everyday even if it's only for a few seconds. It technically works immediately but it takes time for it to stick and for it to not only be within imagination.

Summary: A being who leans forward can visualize a being leaning forward to trigger leaning back. Leaning back will trigger leaning forward in people in real life. 'Entities' = beings that lean forward Clean perception/ being perception - leaning forward, love 'God' - leaning back . Polarities: Paradox effect- teal swan Running- chasing masculine- feminine God- Love Narcissist- empath Detached- Attached Avoidant- Anxious Service to Self- Service to other Orange- Green . Progression: Green to yellow Empath to super empath Service to other to mature Service to other Anxious to Anxious- avoidant/ secure Love to God and Love Attached to attached-detached/ secure

I know it's true because I know, see and enjoy the process, even if I've lost some capacity (peak and valley lifetimes). I don't care if it's true or not because I enjoy the process of being surrounded by half angels (as a half angel), surrounded by love and infused with love. That's what I call magic, personally. But you have to be a loving individual to access your own love and create from your own love.

How does Magic work? I would say it has a lot to do with the mechanism of self love. Self love or healthy grandiosity in a spiritual individual will create 'magic'. 'Spiritual energy' can also build up without self love. When 'inactive' there is a build up and a release. It can take aeons for release or to peak, IF it ever does. You don't do it for the release. When there is a release stars align and 'magic' occurs. Also you can chase this phenomena down. The more magic you experience, the more you experience. However the more shoe mechanisms will activate. Hence why I said the crazy card was your card in. I'm aware of that when you activate it mechanisms are released called 'shoes' that make sure the current reality's solidity is maintained.

Sorry, I'm not sure how it works. All I'm aware of is that when you activate it mechanisms are released called 'shoes' that make sure the current reality's solidity is maintained. I would say it has a lot to do with the mechanism of self love. Self love or healthy grandiosity in a spiritual individual will create 'magic'. 'Spiritual energy' can also build up without self love. When 'inactive' there is a build up and a release. It can take aeons for release or to peak, IF it ever does. You don't do it for the release. When there is a release stars align and 'magic' occurs. Also you can chase this phenomena down. The more magic you experience, the more you experience. However the more shoe mechanisms will activate. Hence why I said the crazy card was your card in.

Yes, but you'll likely look crazy in the process unless you understand the mechanisms at work. Even then, chasing down may be necessary, and you'll have to ignore the mechanisms, resulting in you looking crazy. The crazy card is your card in. Anyone can essentially do it, no one is special.

He's just being playful.

What people don't realize is that the negatives of 'schizophrenia', for me atleast -- although I'm sure it's the same for many others, are relatively few and far between. I explore the negatives in this journal but to simply attribute 'schizophrenia' with psychosis is a gross exaggeration. I've had 13 months or more of non dual experiences (sometimes with entities) and only 4 months of psychosis. Psychosis is far less an experience for me than love and oneness. And I'm sure it's the same for many others like me. I sense 'mental illness' is now in the collective shadow of this community, hence why I feel uncomfortable, ever since Leo basically disowned us in his newest video. And of course the collective will follow.

Habits, meditation and spending time with my partner.

Being is infinitely more fascinating than all this entity stuff anyway. It's a distraction. In my first psychedelic awakening I realized that all of this was a distraction.

Transmission still happens, especially as time and space breaks down. It might not be just an interpretation, it might be that time and space has actually broken down. I don't know. All I know is I'm really uncomfortable talking about this. Too much stigma.

Commands work in dispelling some things. Using the light command the thing to 'be normal' or to stop. The only way I was able to eat again after I was 'cursed' was through commands. I tried everything else and it didn't work including prayer and meditation.