Proserpina

I don't understand why you are being so defensive and evasive on this SOUL? In this whole discussion you've done nothing to clarify. I find it disappointing and evasive that all you've done is attack. You're not trying to meet me half way at all in any kind of substantive dialogue. Please clarify what you meant by those words because I'm not sure you understand what you meant.

Active imagination Similar to active imagination:

I still think this is an overly dismissive reaction from my perspective. How willing are you to listen to other people? It shocked me that you haven't given an inch at all in terms of working to understand me. My language is clear on its face. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to divine what my words meant. You chose to take a red herring route rather than to engage with me in a communication in service of wellbeing that you often say on here. I think this is an eye opener for you for how you are recieving information from other people on this forum.

How much effort are you making to understand another person? Are you open to a dialogue to attempt to clarify the issues that you claim here that you don't understand? Isn't this exemplary of the way the feminine is treated by the masculine often? Disposably. The feminine perspective is being disposed before it's even heard.

I would appreciate a response on the merits of what I said rather than a sort of casual dismissal. The feminine is often not heard by the masculine in this manner.

Sometimes the softer touch is needed in conjunction with the masculine mind to have a fully well-rounded sense of "wellbeing" that you always talk about.

So are we now snubbing the feminine? Leo said in the video that the feminine is generally 'less intelligent'. No one has said anything about that. Normal female communication is being labelled as 'artificial sweetener' happy feeling.

I can't help but think there is a major part missing from the story. Only God knows if I can piece it together though. A highly evolved species would be tapped into this missing piece though. Why aren't we trying a little harder as a collective to piece it together? I imagine it's terrible karma not to understand. It's like people are completely oblivious to it.

Partner says I'm directive rather than informative. I'm really pushy in real life. So that means IxFJ

@Razard86 Don't worry about it. You have a very loving energy that I appreciate. I mean that sincerely, not being fake. This forum is cool. The people on this forum are cool, including the people who sometimes trigger me with their bluntness and masculine energy.

I can feel something coming, like something is about to pop. I’m not sure what it is. I have a feeling I’m going to be dragged through the dirt for a long time yet though. Until I figure something out. Right now I’m floundering in the waters. This is bigger than before, the waves are much bigger. I’m slowly learning how to swim in these waters, it might be related to why I can feel something coming. I’ll hold onto my ‘curse’ I made after my mother got sick right after I went into the deepest depths: ”One day the sun won’t rise and you will mourn. Your world will fall to dust, your humiliation will be ten fold. Do not mistreat the feminine, do not mistreat the vulnerable. Do not commit evil.” “If you have to wait for it to roar out of you then wait, patiently “

TEMPLARS TEMPLARS seek to make people better. They are interested in others’ well-being and strengthening their character. Templars require freedom to make their own choices and find their own way in life. They teach, mentor, and counsel. They forgive and help people heal, yet they can also ghost people who refuse to take responsibility for themselves or who betray them. PHILOSOPHERS are studious and academic. Faith, belief,ideas,and prestige are all important. They are drawn to civic duty, charity, and politics. Philosophers live their lives committed to doing the right thing. They also seek to create rules and guidelines for others to follow. They are focused on their own happiness and comfort over that of others.

CS Joseph typing system: Responding vs initiating - responding Fire and wind (Ni/Se) vs earth and water (Ne/Si) - Fire and wind (Ni/Se) Affiliative vs pragmatic - Affiliative Templar vs Wayfarer vs philosopher - Templar = INFJ (introspective)

I wouldn’t personally. But I think it’s sweet. I would prefer a reality like this than typical pick up artistry.

Oops. I mean tantric sex, not vanilla.

I’m interested in anything but vanilla sex. But during my major awakening lasting many months (kundalini awakening) intimate, vanilla sex became fascinating to me and replaced all my fetishes. Then it left when I eventually returned to normal.

Socialisation and community is great for schizoaffective as it forces you to take a hard look at delusions. It grounds you.

The beings I create in my mind. One day I’ll get them back.

Admitting to difficulties puts you at an advantage and sets you up in the right frame for spiritual and developmental growth. It’s like a type of lifestyle or ‘religion’, following it will lead you in the right direction despite the discomfort. I do think my ability to say I have this or that condition is an indicator of no ego, despite my difficulties. It takes a certain level of no ego to admit to faults, flaws and weaknesses. Admitting when you’re wrong. Sometimes it’s okay to acknowledge that and then get back to work.

I dislike having such high standards for myself and never being able to meet them. Cursed with a brilliant mother and a not so brilliant (and cruel) father.

This is actually exceptionally helpful to my development since it forces me to become organised in my thoughts and in my words, while still giving me that space to be spontaneous in my tone and expression. I need notes but I’m lazy.

I’m coming to accept that much of my delusions were inside my head (which is significant in and of itself - the beings I met were stunning ) and not of an external reality. Although detaching did come as a consequence of delusions, which fed into itself. Detaching resulted in beautiful outcomes, beautiful outcomes resulted in detaching. Some of my arguments seem clueless because actually it’s detaching at the root, a result of my condition. I benefitted from something that just ‘happened to me’. in many ways, aside from that, I’m clueless and it shows through. I should practice silence more but of course I don’t because I’m in pain. I could really do with some silence.

I experienced a situation where I was being bullied and I was able to completely turn the situation around by accepting my different nature. But I did have to be detached and mindful of which season I was in. . I think they should have to change to an extent but sometimes they simply can’t. They are too different, they can’t bridge the gap, nor do they want to. They want to be themselves. That doesn’t mean they don’t try, for instance I practiced many aspects of social calibration (including looksmaxing) and I’ve had multiple relationships. I haven’t felt real loneliness for 10 years since I’ve tried to change. BUT I am so different there’s no getting around that, I can only change it so much. So I practice accepting myself instead of being hard on myself.

I was just curious why I'm attracted to that symbology. I once performed a spell dedicated to the goddess Persephone with my own blood asking for a relationship in exchange that she may have my soul. Or something like that. Now every relationship I've been in has gone south for 6 months of the year. . Winter and autumn is time for hibernation, solitude, silence and contemplation. Enlightenment work during the valley. Spring and summer is a time of manifestation, empowerment, celebration, love. "Spring has traditionally been the symbol of love, joy, spirituality, youth and melancholy and most importantly beginning of a new life for a person after suffering at the hands of the 'cold world of autumn'."

@Zeroguy Yes. I do.