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Active imagination - characters from psychosis Cruel leader/shadow animus Flowing love from the sky, radiant pure light calls to me, asking me to come to him a black spear falls from the sky toxic fumes spill everywhere he tells me to come question: why did you hurt me? ego backlash Why did you experience ego backlash? he turns away, lips pressed together but tells me to come to him this is a sudden weakness that wasn’t there before How can you experience ego backlash? he is a spirit/manifestation that can penetrate reality he is humanity (and my animus) The Angel/integrated animus The old vision I had is present (when my kundalini and heart chakra flew open) Our hands touch. We are one with two perspectives he inserts himself into me. I am taken back into the vision. we move as one and my heart is open. Beautiful energies are everywhere

Active imagination can give you an idea as to what you are attracting into your life. It’s very similar to dreaming, one of the last steps in LOA. If you can give space and be mindful of the darkness then it can transform, otherwise it may lay dormant and sneak up on you.

Active imagination - characters from psychosis Cruel leader/shadow animus My head severed from my body the ‘old’ leader appears before he turned extremely cruel Breathes life into me ( actually impacts my heart centre) Consumes the flesh of my head The Angel/integrated animus Hear: ‘It’s you, my darling’ ’everything will be alright. I’ve got you’ ’I want to stay with you’ ’strengthen what bonds us’ notes: dipped down into a dense shadow again and then dipped back up

Active imagination- asking questions Cruel leader/shadow animus Why did you hurt me? Power Lust, canabalism projection Pure shadow Why did you hurt me? Poor leadership Protection Lust, canabalism The Angel/integrated animus Why did you leave? I fell asleep inner corruption reflection how can I get back to you? Loyalty to beauty active imagination take what arises from active imagination seriously

Exploration of the Animus and shadow makes it much easier to access the Self. The Self shines through.

I have a dark animus that tormented me during my second half of my second psychosis. I’m working to integrate and transform him. The animus during my first and the first half of my second psychosis was highly evolved and integrated. I’m not sure why there was a sudden dip. Perhaps it was training wheels before then and my psyche felt safe enough to explore other parts of the masculine, darker sides, within me to integrate and transform. Generally, outside psychosis I would place myself at 4.

I have a dark animus that tormented me during my second half of my second psychosis. I’m working to integrate and transform him. The animus during my first and the first half of my second psychosis was highly evolved and integrated. I’m not sure why there was a sudden dip. Perhaps it was training wheels before then and my psyche felt safe enough to explore other parts of the masculine, darker sides, within me to integrate and transform. Generally, outside psychosis I would place myself at 4.

All Leo said was that he was groomed and molested at about 14 years of age by a criminal pedophile. He provided no additional facts as to the grooming or the molestation. We would need to know the details before properly commenting on this.

In other words first step in overcoming the anxious attachment is seeing it’s validity and worth, like empathy and love. Anxious attachment is notorious for being sticky and difficult to rid. Over attachment is suffering. It has to be appreciated.

Active imagination: Cruel leader/shadow animus: caresses my hair, tells me everything will be okay leads me to a room of people, his followers they seem friendly. They send me energy to awaken me. I’m led to a throne The Angel/integrated animus: He stands tall and erect. With a sword in his hands. On guard He turns his head, his eyes piercing into mine. He nods at me. He allows other archetypes to move through my psyche. He seems much more fluid, less overly protective He cuts me through with the sword and inside a shimmering liquid pours out notes: great improvement in the cruel leader/shadow animus I’m curious what kind of awakenings I could induce through active imagination.

@KH2 Are you sure you’re not projecting?

First step to leaning back when you are leaning too far forward is realising that there is nothing wrong with that. That it is a characteristic to even be proud of, rather than ashamed of even if it repels others. Being liked isn’t the end all, be all. Pros of leaning very far forward: Feminine polarity Suffering is catalyst Diamond, under high pressure Mystics are often this type Leaning very far forward feels like: literally leaning forward Deprivation femininity showering attention being taken for granted giving, giving, giving humility being talked down to Ugliness less than beauty (when combined with leaning back) Echo (empath) other love leaning very far back feels like: literally leaning back abundance masculinity recieving, recieving, recieving narcissus Self love leaning forward DESPITE flaws and difficulties = the more leaning forward . Describing the same energy- Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. 6Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. 7Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. 8Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. 9Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God. 10Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Although the higher part of me, the more conscious part of me feels like everything is fine. That we’ve simply spent too much time together and now we rub each other the wrong way. But we really do love each other. Deep down. We only need time a part to re-realise it.

I agree. Beautifully stated. Love your YouTube channel btw.

No, I don’t mind. I tell white lies frequently. And I lied about being behind the keyboard when it was my partner and when I was honest about it it came up to bite me (bf broke up with me). That’s what I mean. Not big, big lies.

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I have an issue with lying/being false and over-honesty and sometimes it comes up to bite me.

Haha...oh no

You seem very fair and understanding to me. Well wishes to you as well.

Just Eva here (not my partner). I originally wrote the post quoting you because I personally feel that normal female communication gets demonised as artificial, especially in Leo’s community and in terms of spiral dynamics and I thought your post was a good example of that. If you didn’t mean for that to be the case, then I appreciate that. I was only trying to make a point after Leo discredited the feminine by calling her less intelligent and then the community said nothing about it. I find it amusing that Joseph Maynor was so popular on here for his argumentative and confrontational style and yet in female form it’s called a dogma pile. Apparently he felt the same double standard.

Active imagination exploring characters from psychosis The cruel leader/shadow animus Smiles a sinister smile Stabs me straight through, my insides pouring out Holds me down to the floor and proceeds to molest me Removes my jaw The Angel/integrated animus Holds out a sword of truth Closes a box that holds all the evils of my mind Levitates in a meditative position and stares into my heart, awakening me Tells me ‘not to look’

Correction: I remember I had sexual fantasies now. Rape, bondage, wolf sex. It's just that it replaced my fantasies at the peak. All inclusion looked like exclusion.

I agree with Loba. What I stated was an observation. In no way do I believe those who have sexual fantasies (like me) are inferior or less developed. In tantra fantasy would crop up, sometimes more often than not and that was cool too. It is inclusive and allowing, not exclusive. I had sexual fantasies during my kundalini awakening. At times the full inclusion would look like exclusion. You can't really tell on the surface what is tantra and what is not. It is a depth to the experience.

You're still ignoring my several requests for clarification as to what you meant. Rather than dialoguing, you're dismissing. You don't want to be understood or even to discuss it, I'll leave it at that.