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I think of these individuals as early mystics, young souls. I compare them to an early carry or ADC in an MMO - carries are weak early game, strong late game. It overwhelms your system and you end up running around. I say I didn’t act crazy but I damaged my feet from running around, homeless, no functionality, meditating with my hands, barefoot, losing and breaking everything. I would sit in the Japanese gardens as instructed by the spirits and Meditate but I couldn’t help but follow that white rabbit and get into all sorts of trouble - the spirits would compare me to an overly excited puppy in a new environment. I kept receiving door slam warnings that they were going to leave if I didn’t stop. Anyways, so yeah, there are definitely young mystics out there. Mystic signs can be quite odd depending on the kind of dimensions that are being dealt with. You’ll find there is a logic and there are laws in that unique universe that may not apply to ours. It’s like moving around in different universes that have their own own logic and laws no less valid than our own like dreams but that logic can still be useful to our universe. It can be frightening being grounded in mystic ability (which I am not) because you are in other universes with alien beings that can be threatening. Your alien logic and understanding is helpful but at what cost? You lose a part of your humanity, and safety moving rapidly through different dreams. Reality is more fluid for those with schizophrenia. You can call it different universes or dreams. It really is like that. Moving through different dreams with their own logic and laws. The darkness was acute around my second mystical experience. At one point it was booming from the sky. It reminded me of world war 2 and I believe it was related, hence my expressing the idea of a holocaust and mentioning Hitler. It was due to too much narcissism on the planet and not enough Breath (Love). World shifts and higher being assistance probably go hand in hand with vast negative energy (as Covid is a manifestation of) and I couldn’t stabilise in one dream maybe. Just a thought. Sorry for prolonging this conversation, I enjoy speaking to you. Definitely spiritual compatibility is tops for friendship, same for my partner.

Some of the mentally ill are like carries without a support or carries in infancy in an MMO. Just wait until their soul has the opportunities and resources and maturity they need to flourish. They will carry the whole team at the end when their soul matures.

So then was the whole mental and spiritual thing untrue? At that level of consciousness (whether it was lower or higher, my state has changed recently) it was accurate. There are progressions of truth on the path as you evolve and shift up and down in consciousness. It depends when my depot is due, my consciousness tends to raise later in the month with symptoms (sychronicity, negative energy). Also the feminine cycles. My truth right now is that I wasn't crazy and it did happen. I have a lot of understanding for those who are ‘crazy’ and ‘mentally ill’. I’m not sure why they allow the system to push them around. Many, many are not in fact crazy. Suffering, yes. Not crazy. I was recently weaned off my mood stabiliser and I didn’t take my new medication for two days. That might be why.

The two reasons I lost my freedom, was placed on an order and lost my spiritual gifts: 1. Walking on the road (did this once) I had spent the night in complete agony and madness, without any family support, homeless, lost my keys, wallet. The darkness was making sounds so I huddled up near a street light near the side of the road. After many long hours of this, stuck in contemplation, I finally had the insight to lean into the darkness and madness. It all flees when you lean in. I laid down on the road and stared at a brick. Then I gathered up more courage to face the cars head on that were rattling with negative energy and threatening to kill me. So I began walking on the roads. There was a giant graffiti on the side of the road that said ‘voluntary suicide’ and that’s what I called it, voluntary suicide. The spirits/signs congratulated me on my courage but after the police caught me and sent me to the hospital they recommended I practice with birds and off of the roads. 2. Inappropriate sexual conduct in hospital Sexuality is the fastest way to shift energy (a nightmare at the very end of psychosis taught me that, where I had sex with Satan with a drill in the background - drills symbolised death). And I was in the worst experience of my entire life. I genuinely thought I was going to be raped and murdered because of a core major belief in the Unification. The unification was the major belief that the whole planet was awakening and unifying on all levels, including sexually. But that in some spheres sexuality had become corrupted and the need to unify had turned into rape. I thought perhaps if I committed ‘voluntary suicide’ by offering myself up I would be spared the rape. After that they forcefully jabbed me and placed me on an order. The frightening thing is, I predicted the jab. The jab was a part of what the darkness threatened to do to me. Paralyse me then rape me. I still think sometimes that if I hadn’t offered myself/shifted the energy that the jab would have paralysed me instead of saved me and I would have been raped on another plane of existence. “It was what got me through a hellish experience but no one will believe me of course and everything shifted to where it never happened. Sexuality has a way of shifting higher dimensions. So I did that. Strange men in black who I didn't know but apparently knew me took me so it resulted in that. "Extreme times call for extreme measures" It was like a ritual. ” . Spider is going to get you first paralyse you then wrap you up and feast on you . Okay. I genuinely don’t know if I was mad or had delusions or not. I didn’t act crazy except for meditating with my hands ( fos ro dah! ). That’s the point when you’re crazy, you don’t know. Now that might be because crazy doesn’t exist and we’ve been gaslit, after all consciousness can pretty much do anything. My heart won’t tell me, it keeps flip flopping.

I feel like a lot of my ‘disabilities’/difficulties exist since I was a child in order to be transmuted. I have difficulties inherited from my father. I see transmutation as deep absorption by a pure being and then purification from within, surfacing the qualities through the filter and lense of a pure being, impacting the energy of the collective.

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Advice for channeling self love (no 1.) await an imbalance Body awareness Chakra work, spinal work unconditional love (not to get get anything or anywhere) You need a pure heart to be utilised by the collective/higher forces. Only then can you prove that you can transmute. You have to prove yourself. Let your heart be pure, think not ill of your brethren. Forgiveness. . You give off an ‘energy’ that others pick up on and which feeds the madness. A perfect combination of actual hell and madness. Current reality is still bordering on completely off the rails and dire concerning the world at large. I can sense that, the energies. That is separate from the crucifixion and it might have been a part of the second half of my second experience and the third experience when the energies became really severe. Dealing with two new possibilities: crucifixion energy of the planet . Actually what loba said got me thinking perhaps I did/do make an agreement to take on the suffering of the world or the like and so I am aware of the energy unlike others. Maybe it was predestined. I know a pure heart is directly related to the ability to see negative energy. You are more sensitive. A pure heart always rang as self sacrificing to me. Your body takes on the brunt of the self sacrifice and can become sick. Negative energies are there for me to absorb and transmute and transform. The smell of death I was told is also negative energy. Everything vibrates with negative energy - cars, keys, electronics, birds, people. I remember trying to meditate it all away constantly but really there was no need. . I think there is nothing I’m more passionate about than moving energy.

I'm beginning to think perhaps the crucifixion was prolonged, with a mixture of madness (although hard to tell). And perhaps it will continue to be prolonged and it is a part of my path. Crucifixion is many things. It's the egoic backlash from the collective, it is the natural pain and madness (consequence) of coming up against dark forces, it is your ugliness suddenly on display in the presence of shallow and dark forces and being mocked and ridiculed for that. The Great Peace does not completely irradicate the darkness, only makes it manageable and once you lose your strength after the great peace you are vulnerable and the dark forces lay prey to you. The suffering isn't necessarily something you take onto yourself, it sort of just happens inadvertently. I'm not sure if I'm a mystic. I'm definitely blinded on this medication to my full potential. Thank you for the kind words. I feel the same way about you c: Complete 180 from how we first met as Artaemis haha. But you really are such a kind hearted and wise person. I admire you and your work a lot.

“They say that for some people, they act as a balance, that they can take the collective suffering and move that wave into one individual to be transmuted” this rings true if I’m understanding you correctly. There is normally a cost to a great peace. Either there was actually a crucifixion with a timeline shift or a descent into madness or both. But there’s usually a self sacrificing element to all of this and terrible suffering and loss. It got so bad the smell of death was all over the whole planet and I almost died several times and my mum got sick at the exact time with a horrendous illness. I swear I brought myself back from the dead by deep meditation. I’ve done everything I can to transmute this all. They are normally forced to take action to mitigate the energy similar to Jonah or they lose their gifting/peace.

How timeline shifts work A great negative energy to be shifted becomes apparent, as well as a calling by the collective and the person is given a choice whether or not to lift the energy by either pointing it out (as the prophets did) or speaking the truth or pushing the collective to integrate both yin and yang. Normally this individual may just have a gift of speaking the energy away, without having to say anything in particular. Once the energy shifts a GREAT peace comes and there is no doubt that outside resources and solutions are found. I suspect book of revelations were shifts not only visions. But yeah, mostly deals with significant energies Also there is a literal timeline shift that goes with the energy. People forget events. I think the prophet remains aware because he is just more conscious. . On Crucifixion and self sacrifice I'm beginning to think perhaps the crucifixion was prolonged, with a mixture of madness (although hard to tell). And perhaps it will continue to be prolonged and it is a part of my path. Crucifixion is many things. It's the egoic backlash from the collective, it is the natural pain and madness (consequence) of coming up against dark forces, it is your ugliness suddenly on display in the presence of shallow and dark forces and being mocked and ridiculed for that. The Great Peace does not completely irradicate the darkness, only makes it manageable and once you lose your strength after the great peace you are vulnerable and the dark forces lay prey to you. The suffering isn't necessarily something you take onto yourself, it sort of just happens inadvertently.

A great negative energy to be shifted becomes apparent, as well as a calling by the collective and the person is given a choice whether or not to lift the energy by either pointing it out (as the prophets did) or speaking the truth or pushing the collective to integrate both yin and yang. Normally this individual may just have a gift of speaking the energy away, without having to say anything in particular. Once the energy shifts a GREAT peace comes and there is no doubt that outside resources and solutions are found. I suspect book of revelations were shifts not only visions. But yeah, mostly deals with significant energies. Also there is a literal timeline shift that goes with the energy. People forget events. I think the prophet remains aware because he is just more conscious.

Things I want to explore: The collective subconscious Timeline shifts/dream shifts (my very first hypothesis/observation- who am I to question my original hypothesis?) Synchronicity (causing madness and false ideas?) Maybe I'm becoming more unwell since I want to explore these ideas. Or maybe I'm becoming more well. Even if I'm contradicting myself and have false understanding I'm fleshing out something and learning new concepts along the way. I feel like maybe there never were 'entities' to begin with but timeline shifts (and a combination of the above three). Even if I sound totally insane. That's how I genuinely feel. . Those three don’t completely explain my second half and third experience. Basically in retrospect and with deep perspective I realise I went mad (possibly due to the dream shifts). I’m ready to own that. . First experience: dream shift First half of second experience: dream shift Second half of second experience: ‘entities’ (mental plane/madness) Third experience: ‘entities’ (mental plane/madness)

The end times and the fluidity of the universe I think as well the universe is very fluid and open and forgiving imo. If a group or even one individual is able to break a part the energy at the root even when all others are blind by teaching the importance of love and self love then it can all be effectively reversed even if it seemingly doesn’t make sense for that to be the case. A time line shift can occur. Higher forces give way as the Truth is given primary importance in the population subconsciously and a timeline shift occurs. Surprisingly people really care about the truth and balancing out the yin and yang forces subconsciously when the situation begins to slowly slip, acting in unison. This is my experience. It is quite profound to watch.

@Loba Great post. I think as well the universe is very fluid and open and forgiving imo. If a group or even one individual is able to break a part the energy at the root even when all others are blind by teaching the importance of love and self love then it can all be effectively reversed even if it seemingly doesn’t make sense for that to be the case. A time line shift can occur. Higher forces give way as the Truth is given primary importance in the population subconsciously and a timeline shift occurs. Surprisingly people really care about the truth and balancing out the yin and yang forces subconsciously when the situation begins to slowly slip, acting in unison. This is my experience. It is quite profound to watch.

Just an update as to what I've been doing. Today I was practising tuning into the angelic consciousness -Breath- on the mental plane (at least that's what it tells me, that it's a reflection) by noting all words around me. All words are now embedded with angelic consciousness, Breath. I'm hoping by tuning in I can increase my self love and therefore increase life energy. Synchronicity increases with contact. I think synchronicity means increased communication with mental plane, specifically angelic consciousness. I'm hoping it will spread from words to other things, like people. It seemed to be doing so today. Update: Yes it does spread to other things, it spreads like wildfire. This might be a solution to my sometimes depressive state. Angelic consciousness is the true self of the cognitive entities in my psyche. It is the spiritual plane peaking through, since all is Breath and angelic consciousness is Breath. They are awakened aspects within me reflected back to me. The mental and spiritual plane cross over. Techniquely angelic consciousness is on the spiritual plane since it is Breath and Breath is Love and ‘experiences of love and oneness’ are under the spiritual plane. However I receive information that they are reflections and simultaneously on the mental plane.

Spiritual plane Mental plane

My primary mode and experience is in the mental plane. However I am deeply connected to the spiritual, but not in terms of channeling but in terms of accountability. If something is wrong in the energy, I act quickly. I can’t read energy very well though. . Body awareness seems to increase life energy. I’m fundamentally interested in increasing life energy. Self-love is the fastest way to increase it.

@Tyler Robinson Why are you leaving? We’ll all miss you….

I have a lot of difficulty discerning between the two layers of mental and spiritual. Mental: speaking one on one ‘entities’ assistance /angels spiritual: experiences of love and oneness intuition premonitions correction of imbalance yin and yang coincides with mental usually The mental and spiritual planes are not so separated and unique. They can influence each other. Spiritual plane deals with yin and yang energies/entities and other similar energies. It’s more in line with the heart and intuition than the head. Far more subtle. I’ve channeled/was aware of spirits but the moment it got really personal then it entered into the mental planes. Mental plane: Fantasy A shallowness Detailed Personal Mirroring ( can mirror the gifts of its host, as in the case with angels and assisting beings) The mental plane is extraordinarily fun and fantastical if you are a spiritual person and can separate reality from the mental plane. Its an amusement park for the spiritual person. Wrote this just after leaving a major trance. “She’ll move heaven and earth to protect her child” - heaven is mental plane. Utilising mental plane and angels. “The embodiment/realization due to events/preferences was always within her” - the mental plane was always there

Breath or the unmanifested means embodiment of true love in this instance.

I think the mouse might have something to do with life energy. When I experienced an alien consciousness and experienced the same childlike, playful, joyful energy my life energy was high. Life energy is brought about by the unmanifested. Life energy (Yang) and the unmanifested (Yin) are two sides of one whole, just like Shakti and Shiva. There is no Shakti without Shiva and there is no Shiva without Shakti.

I think the mouse might have something to do with life energy. When I experienced an alien consciousness and experienced the same childlike, playful, joyful energy my life energy was high. Life energy is brought about by the unmanifested. Life energy (Yang) and the unmanifested (Yin) are two sides of one whole, just like Shakti and Shiva. There is no Shakti without Shiva and there is no Shiva without Shakti.

@Leo Gura Has your opinion shifted at all on psychosis and schizophrenia? Or is it mostly the same? I know I experienced insanity around the same time I experienced awakening. Awakening, alien consciousness and insanity went hand in hand.

@Leo Gura Are you going to make a video going into more detail about the awakening?

There isn't an enormous separation in my experience. Insanity came with the territory of deep spiritual awakening. I remember insanity and foreign, alien territory went hand in hand. And you either decided to take the leap into the foreign territory of consciousness and awakening and oneness and love or you stayed where it was safe and sane.