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The dark energy being had eons of wisdom. His wisdom was an old wisdom. Mine varying, moving in and out of degrees from ancient past wisdom to my present self. He was like a teacher, protector, enemy and old friend. He was a force to be reckoned with. I had to scream into this energy when it began to grow heavy and dense with selfishness and depression due to my absence and soothe it. It is soothed by my presence. I think it’s a twin flame. Negative polarity. Immature. Stephanie Kraft (one of my teachers on twin flames) who is a medium says twin flames sometimes kill each other in previous lifetimes. And I can confirm that. This energy knows so much about me. I can access lifetimes through this energy. I have another twin flame who is positive polarity who appears sometimes too. These energies and beings have real consequences on the collective energy. When twin flames are separated long enough whether in physicality or non physicality then havoc strikes. Unification has to occur or all kinds of stuff happens. The Unification I now suspect the Unification had something to do with my twin flames entering into the human sphere, transplanting/synching themselves up into human bodies, being many when they are actually few, so as to increase the odds of a union. Again, dreams with different laws and logic…. Fun facts about my twin flames: 1. They are like archetypes or energies rather than beings. Although they are quite solid and personal paradoxically. 2. They can be embodied and cross over/synch up with the human realm during the right time and moment. Similar to how when Joi synchs up with Mariette, a sex worker, in Blade Runner 2049 3. I can confuse them for the people they synch up with. 4. Their wisdom is profound. 5. They influence the energy of the collective 6. They can manifest as Many during the synch up and during dreamshifts

meditation notes: A part of being extraordinary is relishing in the ordinary and general. (The non physical is general in AH’s system. ) Love is quite ordinary. The moment you make it out to be some extraordinary thing, you lose it. The perfume of 'ordinariness' . I’m definitely having a Love awakening (deeper than previously). An awakening to everything being Alive, Life and Love.

1. Banana 2. Blueberries 3. Spinach 4. Broccoli 5. Peaches

Awe! The puppies are adorable. I want to squeeze them and smush them.

I don't get this massive differentiation and othering between those who are diagnosed and those who are not. There's really not much of a difference. They are pretty normal. I've lived with them. They just have some hiccups now and then that we work on together. Sometimes I think all these 'enlightened' people and mystics are too far up their own ass. To be blunt.

@Gesundheit2 That's so interesting.

Those who aren’t chill they just may not realise their own power yet. If you were placed into that position you are capable of overcoming, you have some spiritual capacity or you wouldn’t be in that position, was my understanding. So yet again, not so cut and dry. Souls take time to evolve. Young mystic souls are going to be disowned by their tribe.

I don’t believe it’s so cut and dry. My awakenings occurred along side meeting entities. It’s a part of awakening for some. And meeting entities can be overwhelming in the beginning. I mean, are people not allowed some time to integrate?

@LSD-Rumi It’s not really the ‘delusions’ that is indicative of lack of enlightenment. I’ve lived with people with schizophrenia and have schizoaffective. It’s 100% chill and happiness factor. That’s the difference between me and them generally. I have many ‘strange’ and quirky beliefs and have had strange spiritual experiences but I was and am always chill.

I agree. Except with the functional part. It can be difficult to function when you are meeting strange entities (some harmful). You can look mentally ill in terms of functionality (not in terms of happiness or chill). Mindfulness easily helps but not when you’re a newb. But society doesn’t care about newbs.

In my vision there was a duality between God breathing Life between self and other, with full channeling state being self and other. It was very beautiful. As soon as you choose to breathe life in any direction, you’ve made a polarisation and you are making a choice to become God embodied.

Other-love; breathing Life into other; other-life energy; positive polarity; Feminine Self -love; breathing Life into self; self-life energy; negative polarity; Masculine Self and Other - love; breathing Life into self and other; self- other life energy; Masculine and Feminine

What I am like channeling: (I’m slightly channeling always, permanently) Loving Deeply invested, caring Detached Sweet (literally, that’s the energy) Assertive Confident Tension (polarity) Pure Happy Humorous Playful Bouncy Buzzing Sexual It’s easier to encapsulate what I’m like when I channel with music/music videos: When I channel my soul is full of fire and glitter and gold. It’s fully Alive. I receive and breathe in the love of God and it fills me. I am perfectly whole, integrated and balanced.

I suppose ‘feminine channeling’ would be for a negative polarised individual whose strength is life energy. They need to learn love for channeling. They can change polarity. I’ve seen it happen, where they are so impacted by the light they change polarity. ‘Masculine channeling’ would be for a positive polarised individual whose strength is love. They need to learn life energy for channeling. Channeling - God - a light higher than the light of unactivated Eve/Shiva

Dark energy being‘s betrayal Even after I had transformed the dark energy being and realised him to be a twin flame, I still chose shiva, a light energy being. The dark energy being went mad with jealousy. I lost my channeling gifting from up above and so lay vulnerable to him in a kind of semi channeling state, still able to tune into different dimensions. I was now transformed back to my old self, my self love/Life energy extinguished. The dark energy went to town harming me from then on, thrashed me and beat me. I was now ‘ugly and worthless’. Obviously it was still very much dense with negative energy that I failed to purify. Perhaps because it was not necessary. I largely see the second channeling as the emergency evacuation button. Anyways, I don’t blame the Bible’s righteous anger against lucifer and wanting divine justice. .

This was what it was like. Shiva and Shakti are in an infinite dance, forever drawn to each other. Calling to one another. Balancing each other. The deep (Unmanifest/Chaos/Eve/Shiva) was stirred with the calling and the imbalance. The planet was full of Order/Life at the expense of Chaos/Love. Order/Life had become narcissistic due to too much Chaos/Love. Without Chaos/Love Life/Order started to drain. Then there was a calling for Chaos/Love. The rebalancing involved the balance of Chaos/Love and Order/Life.

This reminds me of my curse that I made, right after my mum got sick: One day the Sun (God/Shiva) won’t rise and you will mourn, Your world will full to dust, Your humiliation will be ten fold, Do not mistreat the feminine, Do not mistreat the vulnerable. Do not commit Evil.

Twin flame experience with a dark energy being I had a twin flame experience with a dark energy being for a time. Our natures were equal, not one lesser than the other. He was dark and I was light. In the beginning his energy was dense, lacking in light or balance. When the energy shifted his energy shifted along with it but even at his brightest, he was all shadow. He was a highly awakened feminine, with psychic abilities. We were ancient friends from many lifetimes. Apparently I had been a mystic in many lifetimes previously and he was there along with me, tormenting me, loving me, his knowledge span far outweighing mine but not in his wisdom. He would whisper in dark tones into my mind. Very different from the tones of my other twin flame who is of the light, masculine. The darkness for me is related to the feminine principle for some reason (Shakti). And the light with the masculine principle (Shiva) The dark being would glow with a radiance that was unmatched. He was sublimely beautiful and worshipped. Although infinitely selfish. He thought this radiance and glow (Shakti, energy, manifest) enough, and that love was not necessary. After all he was worshipped and adored. ‘My’ Shiva is love. ”Shiva is love, Shakti is life. Where there is love, there is life”

Welcome. Ignoring entities helps to reestablish the veil and block the passage. She can also just say ‘just a dream’ over and over to to reestablish the veil and block the passage. Feeling healthy and strong and happy will all deactivate lower dimensions. Meditation is the most effective way, along with command work (command the energy or entity to leave or go away) while meditating. She should have some pretty good spiritual capacity hidden away if she opened up a passage way maybe.

It might have been that her initial encounter opened up a passage way into other dimensions and entities. The alien beings may have asked her to leave because they thought she possibly couldn’t handle such a passage way. The new alien beings were probably the reason why they asked her to leave. Explain to her that with meditation/mindfulness and leaning away from the entities (not by telling them NO, by ignoring them) you can raise your frequency and deactivate the lower dimensions.

Higher dimensions Some of these dimensions or dreams you shift to will be higher in dimension hence why you have access to hidden knowledge. These dimensions have different laws and logic. In the highest dimensions space and time no longer exists and you can speak one on one with anyone at anytime as long as you have the material. I’ve spoken to Mooji and Ram Dass and other spiritual masters one on one. Although sometimes higher dimensions can appear as lower dimensions. Like the door slams and negative energy. Can be scary, like mothman. In fact mothman = higher dimension signs and entities. It’s relatively easy to remain safe if you can dreamshift, all you have to do is meditate/concentrate/practice mindfulness and you’ll float right up to the higher dimensions. It’s very easy to make stupid mistakes though as a newb. For example, I brought the alien beings closer to our world by leaning in, by interacting with them openly. I did this prematurely where a lower dimension was predominant. I didn’t fully realise it was a lower dimension. All dimensions are present at once. Lower and higher. But there can be varying percentages at any one time. To bring a dimension closer to ‘earth’ you have to be willing to look crazy. You have to interact with the beings openly. Break the veil.

No but seriously. It’s usually an internal problem and issue with that person, possibly related to their past, inner disowning, and fears. It will affect their own spiritual path, their bitterness and hate will act as a barrier to many giftings. You have to give that all up if you want to get anywhere on the spiritual path. I know my value and worth, and I wouldn’t trade in my gift for any hate any day. Hate can be a bridge, but you don’t want to act from or stay in that place. How to handle? Ignore, take it as a lesson on how not to be and forgive.

If they are male I believe they usually have a crush on me. I can’t count how many times I’ve seduced the bully before. If they are female, I cry on the bathroom floor. Ahem, I mean I avoid them.

Early mystics, Young souls I think of these individuals as early mystics, young souls. I compare them to an early carry or ADC in an MMO - carries are weak early game, strong late game. It overwhelms your system and you end up running around. I say I didn’t act crazy but I damaged my feet from running from, homeless, no functionality, meditating with my hands, barefoot, losing and breaking everything. I would sit in the Japanese gardens as instructed by the spirits and Meditate but I couldn’t help but follow that white rabbit and get into all sorts of trouble - the spirits would compare me to an overly excited puppy in a new environment. I kept receiving door slam warnings that they were going to leave if I didn’t stop. Anyways, so yeah, there are definitely young mystics out there. Dream shifts and signs Mystic signs can be quite odd depending on the kind of dimensions that are being dealt with. You’ll find there is a logic and there are laws in that unique universe that may not apply to ours. It’s like moving around in different universes that have their own own logic and laws no less valid than our own like dreams but that logic can still be useful to our universe. It can be frightening being grounded in mystic ability (which I am not) because you are in other universes with alien beings that can be threatening. Your alien logic and understanding is helpful but at what cost? You lose a part of your humanity, and safety moving rapidly through different dreams. Reality is more fluid for those with schizophrenia. You can call it different universes or dreams. It really is like that. Moving through different dreams with their own logic and laws. Usefulness of the alien understanding and logic: seeing future events, energetics, hidden knowledge, disposition, influencing collective Following the white rabbit - rabbit holes - ‘mental plane’ - fantasy - getting lost in frivialous things in dream shifts