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@Leo Gura Thank God I'm not the only one who wishes that was what the Alien movies explored hahah so much untapped potential.

@Leo Gura It's funny cause I literally can't even imagine it being possible 😂

@Leo Gura It's inevitable 👁

Great move Leo. I would love to get involved one day once I have worked through the wrinkles in my psyche that need addressing on a material level, I am also UK based so if it comes to Europe that would be more feasible. I have had glimpses of God-realization but not the full shebang, I don't think I am ready right now but if the stars align and the retreat comes to Europe in a few years then I should be in a prime mental state to undertake this. I understand the urge to get more involved with in person psychedelic healing/teachings. With my YouTube I am often helping people on the daily with their spiritual journeys through a screen which I imagine is great for the recipient but for myself it is very immaterial and I can find it hard to grasp the tangibility of the advice I provide for psychonauts. So yeah I fully get the allure of doing something like this, I think this is the natural evolution of Actualized.org. It is also inspiring to see for me, as I have been asked to get involved in the UK psychedelic society seminars at Manchester University and as an introverted teacher type personality like yourself, seeing you engage with the public is an encouragement for me to follow suit and to get more involved with the wider community. Hope all goes well with the first retreat, I'm sure it will!

No amount of ketamine can "cure" depression I can tell you that much. It is more of a super effective relief from that state of mind, but you inevitably fall back into your sober state once it wears off. It really is a great respite if you're suffering, but a depression cure it is not. Can be helpful in having insights into a life beyond your depression though, there is certainly healthy integration that can come with deep ketamine experiences. Problem is with ket is that it can become like psychedelic heroin for a depressed mind, I was in the same boat and got addicted to the stuff for 3 years. Only just got clean a few months ago. It made my depression worse in the long run, but that was because I abused it.

I was surprised by how much I enjoyed that film when it came out. I still remember it vividly even after only seeing it once in the cinema. There's some brilliantly tense moments throughout and I actually gave a shit about the characters cause they didn't feel 2 dimensional.

The minute that Tool song (which I love) came on I knew this show was gonna be a total vibe trainwreck from here on out

I mean, I totally agree haha that's why I'm consistently consuming those sorts of films from the past 😅

@Leo Gura I'm glad I stopped watching it. Could tell it was going South by episode 3. Wish someone would do something new & creative in the genre of sci-fi rather than failing to inject life into dead IP.

The writing is pretty wack ngl. I don't care about any of the characters so far and the special effects look cheap af (when they're not practical). I'm literally just watching it to see Xenomorph action cause I just love the design of thay creature so much. I feel like since Disney now owns the Alien and Predator franchise, that the new stuff post acquisition feels very Disney-fied and nowhere near as good as the first two alien movies in terms of characterization and world-building. I can't see myself finishing it unless it starts to get really engaging.

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@Gidiot Glad they resonate with you mate!

@LoneWonderer Thank you for the feature, I appreciate you, Leo and everyone else in this awesome community. I'm happy to be of service and strive to make my content even more insightful and in-depth going forward. I wish I could genuinely do more, but in a strange twist of fate I am suffering from health problems akin to Leo's that prevents me from really putting my all into the channel. I am glad what I am doing at this current point in time regardless of my own self-critique is worthy of recognition though, I hope the stuff I make helps any of you guys and the wider world towards pursuing God, truth and love :-)

I dunno if I'm some extreme edge case or if it's where I live but I've met plenty of women who are God-realized. Some have only scratched the surface for sure, but there is one amongst them who I am deeply close to that definitely knows they are God. We have tripped together and it is blatantly evident when we talk that we recognise the God within eachother. She is an exceptionally gifted human being. Meeting a truly God-realized woman is remarkably profound, I couldn't even begin to describe the depth of conversation that is possible between a God-realized man & woman. Our talks are legitimately transcendental. Fascinating stuff, it's surreal. One of the craziest experiences in life for me is speaking to someone in person that recognises that they are You. My best mate (male) is God-realized, we have had many strange and wonderful telepathic communications over the course of our friendship and they only continue to deepen over time. I am very blessed to know these people within my slither of reality.

It was ugly then and it's ugly now.

@Basman I'm not a boomer by any means, but I can happily jump on and enjoy Morrowind & the classic Fallout games without any mods. I prefer their aesthetic ofc, but that's not what makes them so amazing to experience, the gameplay is just so much more in-depth and nuanced than anything being made today imo. The level of ingenuity in terms of choice making, combat, writing, world building atmosphere and the various gameplay systems struck a chord with me after allowing myself to get lost in the games. I think maybe people today can't get into Morrowind and other CRPG's of that calibre and era is because most gamers have been trained to expect dopamine surging gameplay mechanics within the first few minutes of play, whereas Morrowind and Fallout 1 & 2 require way more patience to reap some form of long term deeper pleasure out of the experience. I didn't even play these games when they came out either, I just delved into them in my teens out of curiosity and fell in love with everything they were doing. Modded Morrowind is cool and all but the base game has never gotten old for me. Every minute of Oblivion Remastered that I play right now just makes me appreciate Morrowind's intricacies more and more. Honestly the only reason I'm still playing Oblivion is because I like to shatter my rose tinted glasses with these nostalgia trip type rereleases to sort of prove to myself that they really are as middling as I remember them being.

Bro I'd eat that up like mad hahaha please do

Happy birthday mate!

No remake of the Lost Spires for this remastered edition then? 😉 @Leo Gura

Despite all my gripes with Oblivion being a Morrowind fan boi, the artistic vision on display here from the devs is refreshing to see, especially in contrast to modern game development.

@Leo Gura Fully agreed that Bethesda has lost their spark. I'm playing the Oblivion remastered right now for a nostalgia trip, but I'm very cognizant of how utterly flat and lifeless most of the world building is. I didn't know that as a kid of course, but now it's blatantly obvious how shallow the game is. In fact, playing this remake only makes me appreciate the magic of Morrowind even more. I know there will never be a remake of that game, because gamers today would have to have Morrowind's gameplay systems, quest design etc. tailor fitted to the modern gamer brain, a brain that has no idea how to interface with a game world that isn't littered with objective markers and other hand holding bs, which morrowind was the antithesis of. I don't think Bethesda is callous enough to step on Morrowind and remake it in that fashion, they know that it was a thinking man's video game and that is not their target audience anymore and hasn't been for a very long time. Oblivion was the beginning of the end for Bethesda.

@Leo Gura Duly noted mate!