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I used to be a daily stoner who got the contemporary recreational effects of THC that everyone knows about until I took 90 mg of 4-AcO-DMT (accidentally) and then after that trip my brain's relationship with cannabis changed forever and now whenever I have it I am thrust into a deeply profound existential state that I feel is similar to how many describe 5-MeO-DMT albeit without the sense of Love and more existential horror but with an undercurrent of divine profundity that once I'm done with the body load starts to feel deeply liberating. This trip single handedly destroyed my weed addiction which while being difficult to navigate as an ADHD person who used it for self-medication, ultimately led me to discovering my life purpose through my YouTube and kicking my arse into gear once I didn't have a dopamine surging crutch like weed to keep me satisfied with a boring life. I don't plan on ever exploring the THC realm of consciousness anymore as I find it physically uncomfortable to the point of feeling unhealthy but it has definitely prepared me for the more potential psychedelics.

Weird hearing these two talk about DMT entities through their warped perspectives https://www.instagram.com/reel/DP4qE3TDhFM/?igsh=Zmg2cmg2b2t2cnV6

@Leo Gura I think you would get a lot out of his perspective on UFO's

My mother insists she saw a UFO and the way she described it lined up with so many of the countless credible videos I've seen and descriptions I've read of from trusted sources. She had absolutely no prior knowledge of UFO's before her experience.

@Natasha Tori Maru what was your experience like? I'm all ears!

Just bought the book list and I'm already seeing lots of UFO books I've never heard of cheers bruv 🍻 looking forward to giving these a thorough dissection. I'm curious what your thoughts are on Jacque Vallee's work if you have read any of it such as passport to magonia? @Leo Gura

@Leo Gura it's not falling on deaf ears mate your blog posts inspired myself and my friends to start thinking critically about all of this. Massive respect to you for highlighting this stuff cause it really is life changing, I know becoming cognizant of the facts doesn't mean the alien boyos are gonna come down and collect me but the comprehension of the UFO reality is so important for me and many others, thanks for illuminating this facet of reality.

@Leo Gura I didn't know there were UFO books on your list, I'm definitely intrigued. I've read a good 10 or so but some are clearly worse than others and hard to discern what's more grounded in truth, I'm excited to buy the list and see what you picked and to see if any of them are the few I've consumed. I have always been conscious of alien/UFO existence but it wasn't until you posted on the blog about it a few years ago that I took a serious conscious effort to separate the wheat from the chaff and now I've got to a point where my contemplation research and experiences have coalesced to understand the phenomenon in a grounded manner that funnily enough is weirder than I could have ever imagined yet makes complete sense in my mind. Hard to articulate what my insights are but I'm sure we are on the same page. They been here for a long ass time, I'd be looking down on us if I were them, can't blame em, we're fascinating, much like how we're fascinated by ants crawling on the ground, unfortunately we have a tendency to pick up one of those ants and play with them because we simply can, hopefully the aliens are not like that, but I wouldn't blame them if they were.

@Leo Gura Thank God I'm not the only one who wishes that was what the Alien movies explored hahah so much untapped potential.

@Leo Gura It's funny cause I literally can't even imagine it being possible 😂

@Leo Gura It's inevitable 👁

Great move Leo. I would love to get involved one day once I have worked through the wrinkles in my psyche that need addressing on a material level, I am also UK based so if it comes to Europe that would be more feasible. I have had glimpses of God-realization but not the full shebang, I don't think I am ready right now but if the stars align and the retreat comes to Europe in a few years then I should be in a prime mental state to undertake this. I understand the urge to get more involved with in person psychedelic healing/teachings. With my YouTube I am often helping people on the daily with their spiritual journeys through a screen which I imagine is great for the recipient but for myself it is very immaterial and I can find it hard to grasp the tangibility of the advice I provide for psychonauts. So yeah I fully get the allure of doing something like this, I think this is the natural evolution of Actualized.org. It is also inspiring to see for me, as I have been asked to get involved in the UK psychedelic society seminars at Manchester University and as an introverted teacher type personality like yourself, seeing you engage with the public is an encouragement for me to follow suit and to get more involved with the wider community. Hope all goes well with the first retreat, I'm sure it will!

No amount of ketamine can "cure" depression I can tell you that much. It is more of a super effective relief from that state of mind, but you inevitably fall back into your sober state once it wears off. It really is a great respite if you're suffering, but a depression cure it is not. Can be helpful in having insights into a life beyond your depression though, there is certainly healthy integration that can come with deep ketamine experiences. Problem is with ket is that it can become like psychedelic heroin for a depressed mind, I was in the same boat and got addicted to the stuff for 3 years. Only just got clean a few months ago. It made my depression worse in the long run, but that was because I abused it.

I was surprised by how much I enjoyed that film when it came out. I still remember it vividly even after only seeing it once in the cinema. There's some brilliantly tense moments throughout and I actually gave a shit about the characters cause they didn't feel 2 dimensional.

The minute that Tool song (which I love) came on I knew this show was gonna be a total vibe trainwreck from here on out

I mean, I totally agree haha that's why I'm consistently consuming those sorts of films from the past 😅

@Leo Gura I'm glad I stopped watching it. Could tell it was going South by episode 3. Wish someone would do something new & creative in the genre of sci-fi rather than failing to inject life into dead IP.

The writing is pretty wack ngl. I don't care about any of the characters so far and the special effects look cheap af (when they're not practical). I'm literally just watching it to see Xenomorph action cause I just love the design of thay creature so much. I feel like since Disney now owns the Alien and Predator franchise, that the new stuff post acquisition feels very Disney-fied and nowhere near as good as the first two alien movies in terms of characterization and world-building. I can't see myself finishing it unless it starts to get really engaging.

https://youtu.be/fyX8V1XXmQM?si=2nZ48fScQF0bCsNZ

https://youtube.com/@jessemichels?si=4JF9P8FoA4nOyUBG

@Gidiot Glad they resonate with you mate!

@LoneWonderer Thank you for the feature, I appreciate you, Leo and everyone else in this awesome community. I'm happy to be of service and strive to make my content even more insightful and in-depth going forward. I wish I could genuinely do more, but in a strange twist of fate I am suffering from health problems akin to Leo's that prevents me from really putting my all into the channel. I am glad what I am doing at this current point in time regardless of my own self-critique is worthy of recognition though, I hope the stuff I make helps any of you guys and the wider world towards pursuing God, truth and love :-)

I dunno if I'm some extreme edge case or if it's where I live but I've met plenty of women who are God-realized. Some have only scratched the surface for sure, but there is one amongst them who I am deeply close to that definitely knows they are God. We have tripped together and it is blatantly evident when we talk that we recognise the God within eachother. She is an exceptionally gifted human being. Meeting a truly God-realized woman is remarkably profound, I couldn't even begin to describe the depth of conversation that is possible between a God-realized man & woman. Our talks are legitimately transcendental. Fascinating stuff, it's surreal. One of the craziest experiences in life for me is speaking to someone in person that recognises that they are You. My best mate (male) is God-realized, we have had many strange and wonderful telepathic communications over the course of our friendship and they only continue to deepen over time. I am very blessed to know these people within my slither of reality.