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@Never_give_up My dad is 5 foot 1 and he never had trouble back in the day either haha other men will make you worry about your height, women are not arsed and if they are then they aren't worth your time.

My tallest partner was 6 foot 5 lol if anything, I was more unattracted by her height than she was of mine. Instead of worrying about your height being a problem, be more concerned about other factors high value women find attractive instead.

I'm 5 foot 5 and have never had a gf or sexual partner that isn't hot by my standards or in general. My last actual relationship was with an Iranian model who was taller than me. I'm not particularly good looking in a conventional sense either. Height is all in your head, soon as you let it go life gets much easier and funnier due to how it offends guys who only have being tall going for them and nothing else.

Exactly why the idea of open contact happening anytime soon is the most asinine mindset going haha

The fact I have only gone galaxy brain mode once versus countless cessation experiences and I still say that the one experience is more profound than any of my cessation put together says a lot. If I experience cessation nowadays, it feels very shallow by comparison. Still profound, but astonishingly shallow compared to the peak of that type of consciousness I was in.

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Db7VN12u4xX/?stkn=enMzcTB1M3hkbjQz What do you think of Bashar's perspective on "other" people? @Leo Gura

More than I can count. Cessation was fuck all compared to becoming an alien hive-mind, galaxy brain thing. I still dunno wtf it even was.

You learn something new everyday. Now I know why I failed maths 🥸.

I dunno what Leo's exact experience of alien consciousness was, but I experienced becoming an alien hive mind on an overdose of 4-aco-dmt and that was exponentially deeper than my experiences of the typical Buddhist no-self/no-mind. It lingers with me everyday, the Buddhist states of consciousness felt like realizing the sandpit was part of the playpark, not isolated. But the alien hive mind experience, felt like the entirety of the playpark and 3D space itself surrounding it, was the imagination of an alien-God. My life's never been the same since, I've been integrating it for 4 years.

Regression and progression of one's mind is not always linear. The model is framed as a spiral for a very good reason.

Since when was it a numbers game? (Quality trumps quantity imo anyway)

I don't have any thoughts 90% of the time. It's a weird feeling to describe. I'm not as enlightened as this guy, but I can relate to that.

So, so much of nutrition/supplement culture and discourse online is pure bollocks.

I live in hell (the North of England) and am surrounded by selfishness and the temptations of the devil everytime I leave the house. Instead of seeing this as something miserable, I used it to train my own mind. Being in the belly of the whale is spiritual amplification fuel imo.

Only thing you can do 🙏 ✌️

Agree with all of this 👌

The main person I have always judged in life is myself 💔

In terms of organ damage, milk thistle and NAC might have helped (main supplements to aid recovery) but that was just an added bonus on top of staying clean. Most K cramps feel like you are dying and you feel that you have done irreversible damage in the moment, but the body bounces back surprisingly quickly after a few weeks of total abstinence. Consistent spurts of K cramps while using the drug, with no efforts to aid healing/mitigate damage, will absolutely incur permanent damage to your gallbladder and liver though. Most people only know about ketamines affect on the bladder (I never experienced any bladder problems at all during my addiction, goes to show it affects people's bodies differently and that some of us a predisposed to protection in one organ and susceptible to damage in the others it damages) so going through the gallbladder and liver pains was interesting albeit fucking horrific.

The only real healing that came about in Japan was the detoxification and direct confrontation with complete abstinence from ketamine. I meditated at temples, experienced companionship with people of other cultures and did extensive on foot tavelling but this was all flavour, I walk loads, meditate, have great relationships and eat clean at home. Japan had nothing to do with my healing, it was me facing my demons in another part of the world heavily removed from the UK for an extended period that did the actual legwork.