Hey guys my first post! So recently I've been going through some pretty drastic spiritual and inner changes and growth (obviously that's how I got here lol) and I lost my best and only friend of 9 years along the way. I have been wanting to dive into psychedelics for a pretty long time, but right now I don't have anyone I can trip with, and I'm terrified to take my first trip alone. I also currently live with my parents so tripping at home isn't an option, I don't think. I used to smoke weed heavily until I had a panic attack, convinced myself I was dying, and have now been sober for 3 months! I also have been longing for nature and...the earth. I want nothing more than to go explore national parks and trails and forests and mountains by myself, but my parents have kind of instilled this fear inside of me that if I go out on a hike by myself, or if I go travel by myself, that I'm going to get killed or kidnapped or something horrific is just going to happen if I do these things by myself. I just feel completely stuck and scared because I have no one to go do these things with, and I honestly want to experience life by myself, but I have this paranoia that's holding me back...Open to any kind of advice, or criticism, or stories from anyone who has experienced this or might be feeling this...<3
