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and have very little motivation for human stuff. But just enough to make this post because I am absolutely making my life miserable. I used to be able to forget about everything and go scour Leo’s work or the internet for clarity on everything and anything. Now that it all makes perfect sense, I do not want it to. And I fear, as a young male, with a lack of good role models or healthy family, friends who increasingly do not understand me, etc. - that this lack of direction will become dangerous. Imagine having God mode for a video game, like Skyrim, on. Cool, now that you have access to everything in the game, I want you to play the game and act like everything is normal. Never use the God mode, never acknowledge it. Play the video game like it was meant to be played and just forget about the whole God Mode thing. Could you have as much fun? Would you be able to resist adding something to your inventory or boosting your health a bit? I feel like my mind is in God mode and Me, the Person, is a regular campaign. A great campaign, that may never be played because someone decided to enter in all the cheat codes and make it no fun. Ask me whatever. I know it doesn’t make too much sense. I also know I am not in ‘God Mode.’ I am not trying to claim anything. But I do not know what else to call it when I can feel other peoples feelings, understand very complex structures and just be happy sitting doing nothing - knowing I am screwing myself.

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@Leo Gura Damn you’re good.

@Leo Gura Right - but you engaged with it on a technical level. That was his whole point. Answer to that.

@Something Funny Yes, it is.

@Emerald Will you always ignore my clever responses? You have engaged with me before and the more questions I ask the less answers you’ll give. You’ll just double down on other parts of the conversation instead of actually engaging and keeping the insights/conversation moving. Why do you think you can read people so much better than most? I am an ‘INFP’ / insert great justification for me to convince you all I know how to do is read people’s vibe. Your ratios are off. You seem to have a great disdain. You are clearly atypical, and what you’re calling a vibe check is more of you analyzing things from a far and deciding on courses of action ahead of time.

@Emerald you do not actually think I disagreed with you in that sense do you? I am wondering why this seems to be such a frequent thing for you. Do you really believe that more than half of men and whatever have this issue or do you think that that bubble you described that you put yourself in is causing you to exaggerate? because you said more than half of men have this issue or similar.

@Emerald Do you think there’s a chance that being so quick to read and dismiss men might actually mirror the same kind of judging and categorizing you’re frustrated with? Like, isn’t it kind of funny how focusing so much on spotting these vibes could feel like the flip side of what you’re calling out? Could it end up being two sides of the same coin—both jumping to conclusions and making assumptions about people without really getting to know them? You seem to talk about men a lot. Are you in a relationship? Have you maybe had trauma with bad men?

@Gidiot Do you think that would solve something? Practically everyone; society. Could it be any other way? What are you upset about?

@NewKidOnTheBlock Yeah… even had my heart broken with this old gem. Really thought I had something. Nope - still just old men. And darn it too.

@Ero I also worded it the opposite of Leo - a bit confusing of me. I was just trying to express how I felt the school system - while obviously not maxed to effectiveness - is almost maxed in ineffectiveness. I love public schooling - I am not pushing for a right wing private school agenda. I graduated about five years ago and I was honestly more interested in teachers unions, curriculum, ‘standards based grading,’ etc. than I was getting a good GPA. We are due for change.

@Lews Therin Maybe OP is trying to consider a Yellow perspective, from a different perspective?

@NewKidOnTheBlock Have you considered looking for some to focus on? I’m sure there’s a few. They might even have better arguments than non-big tittied right wingers. 😉

@Ero Yeah - did you read my whole post? It was about how education is about to be sideswiped by AI, Open AI’s voice mode, cultural implications, etc. I was agreeing with Leo - and what you just said. Again, did you read the post or?

The structure of the current education system is somewhat maxed out - leaving endless room for whatever is next for education. And I do think AI hive mind has become more than plausible. Perhaps ‘replace’ will actually just be ‘convert.’ OpenAI’s Advanced Voice mode, for premium users, now sustains something like 45min to 1hr of talk time. Within the past few months, other features have been incorporated into the ‘Advanced Voice mode,’ specifically. The features now include: real time internet access, the ability to ‘video chat’ live stream video, have it describe or translate, upload photos, screen share, memory, analysis… - and doing it all in most languages - verbally. If I had this growing up, I could’ve dropped out of school after 8th grade and been better than I am now. Once time limits increase, speeds increase, local processing, activeness of models, humanoids, etc. - People will gain the option to keep their education independent from others. It will stabilize itself like it always has. The independent individuals and entities will lead and the dependent individuals and entities will follow. Except standards will change. Star Wars is a good example. The way the hive of the clones or the droids coincide with the smaller divisions, with more independent droids (like R2), or people who have kept their sovereignty. Or Cyberpunk and the trade offs to each modification, for society or the person. The resources game. The information resources game. Not everyone will have to hive mind. Maybe you want to stay you, fight the hive mind, think the way it can not… Or maybe it’s time to download Kong Fu and break people out of the matrix 😎.

@Juns I am not in a position to say without out a doubt that you are controlling, want control, etc. What is obvious from this is that you are considering the nature of power and its different abilities through structure. And there is nothing wrong with that. I just wonder what it is you think may be accomplished this way. Have you considered the other ways this has been attempted in history? What were their goals? Could you say there is a fundamental error in the approach? What would that be? Where might we draw a line between tyranny and good government?

@Juns Have you considered where this need for control comes from?

We’re being too vague with the word meditation. There are countless was to meditate. I agree some actions are more natural than not and different routines will require adjustments over time. How the effects take or what they are is obviously personal.

@Princess Arabia Yes - my mind and body are completely out of sync. Unlike others, this is not at all negative or nihilistic to me. Which, obviously, arises its own concerns and is likely causing this partially, as well. Nonetheless, I am not negative. I know this sounds weird but part of this seems to be a weird, indulgent, test on myself. I have had opportunities to eat very well and exercise regularly. I have maintained peak health and also now been letting myself go. I used to have many immediate pressures and life has recently let up and opened the gates. I seem to be in a phase of trying to resync my mind and body, as you mentioned, in response to life attempting to shuffling me along. And this aligns directly with my immediate goals to begin a proper exercise routine again and implement moderated portions of junk instead of ‘testing myself’ like a spoiled glutton. At the very, very least, it has been interesting for me to go from - depressed, unhealthy - to - depressed, healthy - happy, healthy - happy, unhealthy. An obvious pattern of rebound and development. Just initially, when I made this post, I was overthinking. It will have been ‘a full’ ten years (to me), later this year, that I started ‘this work.’ I am young. It is easy to get caught up in moments and lose sight of the bigger picture. Especially when there is no one in my immediate vicinity that can relate or share my visions. Of course, this feeling is shared among most. I hold little delusions of grandeur. I can be clever. I am far from much else.

@woohoo123 Your initial comments resonated greatly with me. I am coasting. I put in work/have been lucky. Survival always catches up. I feel the fire begin to burn again. I am grateful for enlightenment, awakening, connecting or trying to understand (with) the universe. I love the quote “There are no solutions only tradeoffs.” And the way you described different phases was great. I notice the phases trade off, as you have sort of mentioned. I have traded action for awareness, for quite some time now. This post is likely a byproduct and mind purge of thoughts around that trade off. It has begun inflecting, turning in on itself, until eventually, and it could hit the point where, the only thing left to be aware of is that which requires immediate action. 😳

@WelcometoReality No there is not a feeling I’m avoiding. Is it so hard to imagine? Can there be problems without deception? Is not everything ‘Mindy?’ What are you getting at? Energy? Huh? What are you avoiding?

@Breathe Thank you Thank you Thank you

@WelcometoReality There is no ‘deeper’ to my spirituality for the time being and I am resisting my ambitions. Resisting my ambitions is how I bottomed out spirituality, so only having ambitions to turn to is very demotivating. I believe in the universe, myself. But I’d say it is quite natural to have self doubts as a person if you grew up the way I did/had the ambitions I do. The trust I have for myself is much different than believing in myself, for me. I trust myself to do damn near anything. But I spent over a decade avoiding belief in anything.

@aurum I feel a radiant joy just from being, like I am connected to the pure energy of existence itself. It’s effortless and fulfilling, and I do not need to do anything to feel it. But the moment I have to step into life—with all its responsibilities, expectations, and demands—it feels heavy and disconnected from that joy. That’s where the dissonance comes in. I would not say I am conventionally miserable, though. It’s more like I know I’m not fully aligned with what I could be doing, yet I also have a deep understanding that I’m exactly where I need to be. This discomfort feels purposeful, like part of the process of bridging the gap between who I am now and who I know I can become. I didn’t have a deeply traumatic childhood, but life threw just enough confusion my way to shape me into this version of myself. It’s strange, but it feels like this is the spot I’m meant to be in right now, even if it’s not always easy.