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If this video contains a true story, I may need to readjust my perspective. Might have less green than I thought.

Almost positive he is a ENFP from Myers Briggs. For Spiral Dynamics he is for sure a very healthy orange, at least. It’s hard to tell how much green he has in him and how much of it is just marketing but he seems genuine. He probably has a good bit of green and potentially yellow. Idk exactly. I went through a ‘Gary V’ phase though. He’s a great and kind person. He gives great pragmatic advice and seems to balance it well with empathy and compassion.

I’m tired of being afraid of you guys ? I don’t mind Leo’s ‘backtracking’ at all. Some could be very spiritual, while not very pragmatic - or vice versa. It very much helps to get profound insights about reality while still improving this dream.

‘Love is the realization that there is no difference between anything.’ ’Consciousness can not be pointed to, because it holds all pointers.’

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@Max8 The feelings you hold about the ‘hollowness’ of self help are relatively justified. But you corrupt any legitimate critiques by your entitlement. Stop taking things for granted. ‘No tangible results.’ Lmao. I forgot to mention self help also completely changed the way I interact with money. Is that tangible enough for you? Because clearly relationships and eating habits weren’t real enough for you. What do you, exactly, define as tangible? Because you went from having some decent points to just being the dude who wants more more more.

Yeah, not everyone can make it. Does not mean it doesn’t work. Also doesn’t mean there are not people out there just trying to make money. Self-Help changed my life. Changed the way I think, eat, interact, approach things. I’m not perfect, at all, my I am sure way better off after finding the field of self help.

I can’t pick one thing besides everything. It wouldn’t be fair. Certainly as a human I have biases, but I know, ultimately, it’s everything I love.

I’ve noticed a blind spot I have. I really don’t understand certain aspects of materialism. One example is the idea that the physical components of our brain create the meta-physical. I don’t understand this at all. I can’t emphasize with it at all. I don’t really even know what it means. Or the idea that math is fundamental and not a construct. Huh? Or that we are somehow grounded in atoms or quarks. This is my blind spot. I think maybe it has to do with the fact that I sort of remember thinking this way in middle school, early high school but now that I do not maybe I’ve just repressed it. It could also simply be just that before, my thinking, didn’t make sense and now that, I’d say, it’s clearer - it’s just like how do explain something that never really made sense? I don’t know what causes this but it is rather annoying as I find myself somewhat unable to communicate with most people. I used to feel the urge to try and explain how I see things (Ex: maybe metaphysics are actually responsible for the physics) but recently I kinda just feel isolated. The world is very stage orange right now. I don’t know what I am but I know I don’t relate to the materialism. Any ideas on how to understand materialist s better and work with them? Or what might cause this blind spot? It seems almost essential to be able to communicate with what seems like the vast majority of people right now; at least in the U.S.

@Nahm Thank you. I do need to make a dream-board still. I think that would give me an anchor and direction I’ve never really had. I see what you mean then how people would change in context naturally. A lot of what you said rings softly in my head, and I know it, but I’m not it yet. It is nice to hear it from ‘somewhere else.’ I am slightly confused about what you said here though. Certainly I see the ego behind my need to be perpendicular with mankind, rather parallel, the pride of knowledge part hit home - -but I feel like I need to understand what you mean about the knowledge which is suffering.

@OneHandClap I really appreciate your response. It’s painfully simply. I can just be really pushy and sometimes that’s hard to get past. But you’re correct materialism is just another worldview and way of looking at things. I need to be way more appreciative and find that common ground instead constantly trying to push people to the next thought.

Why’d you put the “ “ around “hating” in the title? You know you love yourself. It was never really “hating.” What was it? Same thing with the word “attack.” Why write it like that, if not to imply it is not really the word you chose? What is the “hate” and “attacking” but Love? You love yourself, always have, and you’d like to be better; improve. How do you improve without “attacking” or “hating?” Improvement requires change. Change requires you to get rid of something - the process doesn’t feel good. But the prize, the prize.

I started using the app ‘You need a Budget,’ or YNAB, January 1st of this year and it has helped me immensely. I was horrible with money and needed to step up and help out my mom. I wasn’t paying for anything and every dollar that came in went out. YNAB has a philosophy that doesn’t allow you to budget money you don’t have. This, along with a clean Apple Style layout and other simple tools, helped me started paying for literally everything. Like I said I use to spend every dollar. Now I save money, I paid off my car, I pay for my health insurance my car insurance, all my food, clothes, gas, car repairs, a gym membership, etc etc. I didn’t know there was so much to pay for!!! But now I pay for 99% and all just within a few months. It was a big 180 for me; I love YNAB. PS: I think no matter what program or method you use - you’ll still always need a pen and paper to crunch out the details. That’s just me though.

I absolutely love the amount of information there is now. Of course, as Leo mentioned, there’s also quite a bit of disinformation - but, personally, this doesn’t really bother me. There is so much non-controversial information out there, for instance, on exercise, diet, cognitive training, animals, nature, cool technology, etc. It outweighs the disinformation in my eyes. Its just so damned useful.

Therapy didn’t work for me the way I imagined. It was nice to rant to someone but really I was just offered some basics on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and antidepressants and anti anxiety medications. I declined to the meds. I didn’t and don’t think I need them. To me, ‘happy pills’ wouldn’t help what I could clearly see was just an emotion reaction to my circumstances. I decided, ultimately, I need to get better at taking responsibility and helping myself. Its been a slow 2-4 years since I made that decision and quite therapy but I am glad I did. If you just have circumstances that are depressing or anxiety inducing but you're otherwise normal and aware that ‘if things were better’ ‘you’d be better’ - just work on getting things better. Maybe consider a few sessions and blow off some steam but be cautious about falling into a perpetual therapy trap or taking medications that - IMO - most people don’t need. Most people are better off meditating, eating better, exercising, using Cognitive behavioral therapy, using self talk, etc. than they are just taking pills or exporting their thoughts to someone else (and money for that matter). That being said IT IS VERY IMPORTANT that if the words I typed above do not resonate with you and you have a serious mental health problems, are suicidal, etc. You should certainly consider therapy and possibly medication. I know these things are not the worst - I am just weary of them. I didn’t like how abnormal they made me feel by offering me meds and such when I knew I didn’t have anything clinical. My parents where getting divorced, I wasn’t good at school, I was bullied, I was a bully, life’s just generally stressful as it is and I didn’t feel like that was the route for me. Sometimes there’s shitty things happening and depression and anxiety are normal reactions. So all in all, I hope you find what works for you. As you may be able to tell, I’m more in favor of holistic methods rather conventional therapy or medication. Nonetheless there’s a reason we have these things and there is no shame if you need them. Whatever makes you better makes us better.

Was it worth it? Yes? Sweet. No? Well feel enough guilt to reevaluate your spending habits but not enough that you slow yourself down over the past. What is bought is bought. What has not been bought has not yet been bought. Im glad that your decisions still leave you in a place of security and that despite some second guesses on these recent purchases you sound reasonably comfortable and safe, financially.

Goals are for people who need to score. My goal is to not need to score anymore.

Our opinions are based on our sense of reality.

“Ah Ha! Lovely, I hadn’t known. This is terrifying; I feel great.”

It’s not that there isn’t physical reality. There is a physical reality and it is just the way it is. The problem is most people do not realize where this physical reality comes from. Physical reality is simply imagined out of thin air. Knowing this doesn’t change the physics we currently perceive but it’s will 100% change the way we perceive them. Its mind blowing. Imagine being able to imagine anything into existence. BOOM - you imagine a house - its here. BOOM - an apple. BOOM - another apple. Well, this is possible. It’s how you’re here, it’s how anything is here - imaginatively.

I 2nd this! Host Defense is the best!

I always have a vpn on

I’m to guess ENFJ

Recently Leo saying ‘if you knew you were the devil you’d vomit’ has been echoing in my head. Why? Because for me that’s true. I’ve been vomiting in disgust of myself. Ive become isolated in disgust of myself.

@Leo Gura Practically shit my pants when Curt referred to my models models models comment around 2:07:15 in the 2nd video. Apologies for my nativity of the public nature of what you’re doing here and also to Curt for being so brash and seemingly narcissistic. I would hate for my comments to, at all, be taken foul to any work done. Nonetheless, I know when I pushed a button.