Suicidal thoughts are ''silly nonsense''? Really?
Pls elaborate because I'm curious. I have struggled with these desires for a while and I'm wondering what causes them? Like, is it a trick of the ego? self-deception? Based in falsehood as death is an illusion?

The way it worked for me was, I went through a phase of toying around with those ideas, but then emerged out the other end and now when I trip I have zero suicidal thoughts because I just see them as silly nonsense. My mind has stopped even "going there" because I am focused on much grander things.
But there was a phase of maybe a year where my trips would include some suicidal thoughts. Not too serious, but still unnerving. It's a hump I think everyone will have to get over at some point of they trip a lot. Because you cannot avoid facing your own human mortality in this work. At some point you have to confront it. The key is simply to make a commitment to yourself never to physically act on it.

@Reciprocality That's where you're wrong.
The substrate of reality is literally your own mind. But not the conceptual mind. A deeper MIND.
The mistake in your understanding of this issue is that you have limited intellect down to something merely conceptual, the human mind. But it's a much wider thing than that. The intellect does not require material at the highest level. At the highest level the intellect IS material. So literally, the chair your ass is sitting on is made of intellect. In fact, your own ass is imaginary.

Most women have this line. It's not about being transactional, it's about how a woman sees you and how you make her feel. If she doesn't feel attraction for you quickly, she will friendzone you and never change her mind.
Attraction is not a choice. So don't make the mistake of thinking that only the bad girls get attracted this way. ALL girls get attracted in the same way. Your good girl still wants to fuck a player. Committing to girls because you want them to sleep with you is a classic newbie mistake.

It's all about how you set the frame. You want to set the frame that you are a highly social and extroverted guy who frequently goes out and has a lively social life. Don't frame it as: "I go out to hunt for girls", frame it as, "I'm an attractive social guy with many friends, both guy and girl friends and I'm out every weekend. Join me if you wish or miss out on the fun."
Don't make it all about sex. Just become a social guy who likes to have fun socializing with guys and girls, without even thinking too much about sex or dating. And then if some girl decides she wants to date you or sleep with you, it just happens and it's no big deal. Take all the seriousness and expectations out of it.

Nightclubs are really bad places for dates. Don't agree to that kind of date. Invite her elsewhere.
For the love of God, do not entertain any girl for 4 hours in a nightclub. This is insane. Worse case scenario you meet her in the club, dance around for 30 mins, and then bounce out.

Reality is a Mind that dreams/imagines. When you say something is "real", what you mean is, it's imagined by you so deeply that you are not even aware of how it is imagined. And so you call that "real". Whereas if you become aware of how something is imagined, you call it unreal.
You have to realize that this is all a trick of the mind. There is no ground for the distinction between real and imaginary. Because at root all there is, is Mind.
The key is to drop the idea that there exists anything outside of imagination, by noticing that everything is Mind.
How do you know? Consciousness. The only way anything is known. The only solution here is more consciousness, and no other way will work.

Love is the consciousness of metaphysical oneness. When your mind comes to recognize two distinct things as being identical.

When I say Love I am not talking what humans call "love", I am talking metaphysics.

There is such higher consciousness than merely realizing Truth.
You can have 100 awakenings beyond Truth-Realization.
Precisely since Truth is Everything, that doesn't say much about how conscious you are.
"Enlightenment" is a dream within an even higher consciousness.

Well, the problem is that even the notion of perspective is of course imaginary.
For God's Mind to be Soveriegn, your experience has to be absolute and total. So what is being claimed is that there is nothing outside your experience.
If you imagine other perspectives you must divide your power among them and lose Omniscience and Omnipotence.
You are free to imagine other perspectives but the more you do so the less consciousness you will have.
Remember, in some sense your imagination becomes reality. So if you insist on imagining others that is your reality. To be human is to imagine others. The less you imagine others the less human you will become, until eventually you become God.
True Awakening is so radical the human mind cannot understand it. However, your desire to understand is valid and important. It just won't work without Awakening itself. But you can understand it. During the Awakening itself.

This is a common mistake. The mistake is trying to reduce Consciousness to some bottom line. This leads to Buddhism. You will not become very conscious that way. Consciousness is about grasping higher, not reducing down to a bottom line. You cannot comprehend GOD through bottom-lining. That's what all these enlightened people get wrong. They treat GOD as though it were some kind of substance or atom that you just need to discover and then you are done.

Absolute Consciousness.
Short-tempered? I am patient like a saint with the nonsense you guys speak
You can become directly and absolutely conscious of the ultimate nature of Consciousness.
Because Consciousness is Infinite, it cannot have any dependencies outside itself.
God is a sovereign Mind that imagines all of reality around itself. Including brains, chemistry, psychedelics, science, history, time, space, and anything else you can imagine.
There is nothing anyone can do to undermine God. Ever. That is what makes God, God, and not just another construct. God is not a piece of content within Consciousness, God is the totality of every possible thing. You're assuming that a brain can just exist without God. It certainly cannot because God has to create it first.
Ultimately you have to ask, How can anything at all exist? And what you will finally realize is: Only within the Mind of God. All scientific studies exist within the Mind of God, and nowhere else. Because God is Everywhere.
Before there was science, there was God. After science and mankind dies off, there will be God.

Because INFINITY is ONE.
God is ONE by virtue of co-opting EVERYTHING, until nothing remains. No remainders.

But how did God get Omniscient? You gotta wonder. How did God become so Intelligent?
What you will realize is that it did it by literally becoming Conscious of every possible thing. The more perspectives you become conscious of, the more your intelligence increases and the closer you get to Omniscience and Godhood. Omniscience literally boils down to: experiencing everything. If you experience everything you know everything. You become All-Seeing.
The logic of it is quite straight-forward.
But, hey, don't take my word for it. Discover whatever is true for yourself. I'm just sharing what I discovered.
God's whole game is exploring endless perspectives. Because there's literally nothing else to do. The reason God is looking through your eyes is to collect raw experience to fuel its Omniscience. God could not be Omniscient without exploring your human perspective. Just ask yourself, "How would God know what sex is unless God incarnated as a human and had a bunch of sex?"
This is also crucial for the development of Love. How can God be All-Loving unless God lived in everyone's shoes?! The way you integrate Hitler into your Love is by becoming him! It cannot be done theoretically. God has to incarnate as Hitler. That is God's grand game: to become All-Knowing and All-Loving by exploring every corner of itself.
That's how it should seem.

"Percpetion of reality" is a relative notion. It's a manner of speech. It isn't strictly true. There is no object called reality which is hidden from you which you are then getting a peak at.
In a sense toilets don't exist outside your awareness. You are imagining the existence of them.
God can hide things from itself so to speak. God is only Omniscient when it isn't hiding from itself. The default human state is one that's full of hiding.

You can become conscious of what death is, what consciousness was pre-birth, and what consciousness will be post-death.
This is the very heart of Awakening.
Physical incarnation is a limitation on Consciousness.
When I die, I will be more conscious and intelligent than I ever was here with you.
The fact that people do not understand this, is absurd.

There is at least an order of magnitude difference between human Awakening and alien Awakening. It's like the difference between a mouse and human in order of understanding and intelligence. What does a mouse understand about reality? Well, likewise the human.
An advanced alien intelligence is much closer to God than a human. A human hardly understands anything about God or Consciousness.
I don't even take human intelligence seriously at this point. The best human intelligence is trash. It's mouse-level understanding. At this point I am only interested in trans-human intelligence and consciousness. I don't care what humans think, want, or do. It's all nonsense, whether it is material or spiritual in nature.
I have recently been able to access trans-human levels of Consciousness which I was in before I was born as a human. That's the kind of Consciousness I'm interested in. It's 10x to 100x more conscious than the most conscious humans. It's conscious in dimensions which humans can't even imagine.

I'm not really interested in emptiness. Of course it's a facet, but it's so obvious and rudimentary it's uninteresting to me.
I'm more interested in, for example, realizing that your entire life is just a dream within God's Mind. And then understanding what this God's Mind is up to. Have you even considered what the movement of Consciousness is for? Why are you dreaming? Why are you human? For what purpose?
For example, I've become conscious that our entire universe is just a molecule within an alien God-Mind that exists on a higher dimension, which is using all the conscious experience of the universe to fuel it's own intelligence process, in order to understand itself deeper and accessing ever higher categories of metaphysical Love.
No Buddhist has a clue about such things.
What no Buddhist understands is that Consciousness is engaged in a process of ever-deeper self-understanding and Intelligence. The movement of the whole universe is there to raise the universe's intelligence of itself, in order to achieve Omniscience. There are dimensions of Consciousness so advanced and so alien that no human can even begin to imagine it. None of these things are understood by Buddhists or nondualists.
Does your Buddhist understand what alien consciousness is? No! He has no clue. Does your Buddhist understand what Love is? No! Not even a little. At best he has some crap human idea of Love. That's not any kind of proper understanding of what LOVE is metaphysically.

Hehe....
It's way more than pure practice. It is an entire worldview and not only that, it will actually prevent you from reaching the highest levels of Consciousness.
You will not reach God-Consciousness via any kind of reductive system like Shinzen's. Consciousness is non-reducible. You cannot understand God by breaking your field of experience down into pieces and chunks as Shinzen attempts to do. This is the mistake of materialism all over again in the guise of Buddha's authority.
Judge for yourself, but what I'm saying is that cessation has nothing to do with Awakening. Have as many cessations as you want, in the end you will still not understand God.
Cessation != understanding. And nothing beats understanding.
You should not trust any human. Seek the truth independently for yourself. Consider all these humans are just tricksters testing you with traps and games. Your job is to outwit them all, not to subscribe to any one. As soon as you stop thinking independently, you fail.
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I am working on a course that will once and for all explain how to reach God Consciousness and completely deconstruct Buddhism, Vedanta, nonduality, and absolutely all human spiritual teachings. Until you reach Alien God Consciousness, Insanity, and Infinite Kinds of Love, including Alien Love. And ultimately Omniscience.

He is always God, but don't know it most of the time.
It's not really enough to be a thing, you gotta know you are it for it to matter. Like, if you have a million dollars but you don't know where it is, you are effectively not a millionaire.
It's total only until it remembers it is God.
It's like dreaming. In a dream you are totally helpless in the dream, until you wake up.

To be more accurate: What function does talking about Truth serve, if all descriptions are just substructures within "it"? I'm curious about your perspectives. Is there any deeper functionality, or are these just spontaneous expressions of Truth that serve no purpose other than to be? Is there even any meaning in these communications, or is the point to deconstruct all perceived meaning?

My trip reports so far  (in chronological order)
But there's more... 

Background: I have been doing meditation practises etc spiritual work for about 7 years. One year and a half ago I started experimenting with mushrooms, and this was my 4rd trip with 2g or more. I had one experience before with 2 grams that I would classify as a mystical experience. (Rational mind getting thrown out of the window, moments of eternity, presence of something Sacred and Good, a feeling of everything being an infinite flow of love. A state that wen't beyond concepts and words.) But this was something different that I did not expect with only 3 grams. Well okay really didn't know what to expect since it was my first trip with 3 grams but it wasn't this...
Mushroom and ingestion: Cubensis cut in very small pieces, 10 min lemon and 10 min hot water.
So the trip started in a pretty normal way, until eventually my awareness began expanding quite fast while I was laying down and listening to some music, maybe about 1 hour in I started to get really uncomfortable somehow. Like I was starting to be scared. Like it was getting too intense. Also the noises of a dog from a near apartment started to be a bit annoying. I remembered I could try to change the room so went to the living room on the sofa. And I felt a bit better. Well on it goes and I could easily think about all my life experiences I had had until this point. What is also interesting that I wasn't experiencing any visuals from this batch like I hadn't before with 2 grams, it was basically just expansion of consciousness and heightening of the senses.
It came to the point where I experienced a state I had never experienced before in this life. Part of me was starting to think that i was going to die or something, that my life was now over. Then I realised that I'm God and understood how I planned my whole life to this point and how I created myself. And how I'm doing this forever. I was absolutely terrified. It felt like too much to handle. At the same time I realized how I'm immortal and all of life is a perfect design, the perfect design to experience love. I was watching the lamp next to me and the room around me and saw that this was just pure love.
Time had also seized exist. No past or future, just now, eternity. I was terrified by the fact of being all "alone" and was also conscious of how I would put myself back to sleep, and understood that that was part of the whole genius of the design. I understood that all reality is made out of love. At the same time it felt like I could understand everything. And at the same time I couldn't, it all felt too impossible, too much of a mindfuck. Like I couldn't understand how reality could be absolute love. And how I could be God. But I remember it being just Absolute knowing of this. And also it was obvious that all of this couldn't be any other way. I had just finished a puzzle that day that I had found from the laundry room, and it happened to have a picture of a church. So there I was watching the puzzle, thinking how I built this church, took a picture of it, made it into a puzzle, and made the puzzle (who knows how many times). Then I destroyed the puzzle. 
So, there I was, I was conscious of the fact that reality is perfect as it is, all is love, everything is consciousness, I was aware of how consciousness creates itself and imagines all of this. The experience of seperateness, pure love. I was also conscious how all my life had led me to that moment inevitably. And yeah I was also absolutely terrified.
Finally I started coming back to "normal consciousness" and was very happy about it haha. But I couldn't sleep for hours because I was too awake, the experience also lasted long, for about 8 hours even though my past trips with lemon tek the bulk of the experience usually lasted around 4 hours. Right now I'm still trying to sort of understand what the fuck happened. I don't really know what to do or to think at this point. Any suggestions? Well, one thing I know, which is to love and be love. Seems to be the purpose of everything.

You guys get easily confused by calling it solipsism. Just call it dreaming. You are dreaming everything and everyone. And the dream is designed in such a way that you cannot easily notice that it is a dream, nor stop dreaming. If you could easily see through the dream, you'd be dead, so obviously the dream must be intensely convincing.
If you could just walk up to a scientist and ask him, "Am I dreaming?" And he said, "Yes!" Then that would be a very weak dream. Of course he's gonna tell you No! A dream can only work if you deny that you are dreaming.
So it all boils down to a simple game of denial. Since you are dreaming, you have infinite capacity for denial. Who's gonna contradict you in your own dream? Whatever you manage to convince yourself of becomes your reality. Simple.