I feel really bad because I feel like I'm wasting my time, I literally do nothing except my daily habits, I don't even give my 100% attention to university I feel my life is pointless, empty and I live like a robot. before I go to sleep this feeling gets worse because I realize that I've wasted another day, but I will trust the process and continue doing the course I'm currently at mid of the first part and already feel positive about the process and I have the trust that I'll be able to find it.
this phase of my life is pretty tough I feel lonely and lost really lost the hardest part is that I can't rely on anyone and I don't even have someone to talk about what I'm going through, I'm completely isolated, I spend most of my time learning self-help stuff but I feel I need to take action towards my life especially my career, I've been stuck on learning without doing anything with my life
I have 2 more years before graduation and I already feel the pressure from my parents' expectations because they were supporting me and I don't want to disappoint them because I know I will end up with a totally different career than what I'm currently studying. I'm sure eventually they will understand. I'm kind of lucky to have very supportive and understanding parents but still, I feel bad for doing that, I know feeling guilty won't help the best thing I can do right now is to find my life purpose