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@Random witch Yeah I think I will tell them I want to be honest I'm tired of pretending to be ok and normal it's just too draining and if they leave it means they're not true friends and I'm sure I'll find people who will embrace me and be there for me thanks

@Federico del pueblo I'm afraid it's a form of self sabotage .. I don't to keep sabotaging my relationships . I don't know if this is good idea or not at the same time I feel like this will relieve the constant stress of me always trying to explain myself like " I just needed some space" or constantly wearing a mask of being "normal" I don't want them to interpret my behaviours and actions in a wrong way. One of my friends called me today multiple times I'm so stressed out , I feel ashamed for not being underdeveloped and not being able to connect with others like normal people I feel I'm very dysfunctional even simple things in life takes allot from me more than other people who doesn't suffer from cptsd I feel sad because it's my birthday and I'm alone and it's because of me I don't fear or hate being alone but I know connection and friendships is an important need for me

I feel hopeless and discouraged , there's so many to heal I feel I'm extremely dysfunctional person and I will never be healed\normal my childhood was an absolute disaster all kinds of abuse , neglect and abandonment, also sexual abuse ,I carry allot of traumas I took a break from everything to heal them I felt hopeless I don't even know where to start , I've waisted 3 days doing nothing I tried to look online for self healing practices but I feel numb disconnected from myself I have a lot of resistance because I feel there is so many to face .. I'm starting to give up in life and started to have suicidal thoughts

it's hard for me to believe that I'll ever change I tried to convince myself that It will get better but Its only getting worse when I look behind all I see is pain , suffering and failure I tried going to therapy didn't work I'm really tired of trying and I've been going through a severe depression because of this , I've really hit rock bottom every aspect of life is broken and the issue is me I'm really fucked up

Should I trust people who're selling psychedelics via social media? they're illegal in my country but they said they can ship it to illegal countries and how do I know it's high quality ,can you guys share guide\resource I can trust for buying psychedelics Thanks

I realized that I have fear of intimacy but I've been deceiving myself the whole time I've been avoiding entering a relationships either because I make excuses \prioritising other things in my life or I get attracted to unavailable men ..I have certain needs that I was suppressing\dismissing and I feel unfulfilled on this aspect of my life how can I meet those needs without waiting for a partner to meet them for me? Advice

Yes or no ? Advice This person said I've helped him a lot and he stoped having suicidal thoughts ( but still have his downs ) We love each other allot but I don't want let my emotions blinds me to do whats right for me I don't know what to do .. should I leave?

@Danioover9000 What If that person said he will seek help and work on himself? Would you take on his word

No I don't think I have that yet : (

@AriSujan !!! Thanks for the reply though

@AriSujan But what If I impacted this person in a good way and helped him seek help and fix himself I know I can't fix anyone and I don't want to fix him too but he said that I inspired him to work on himself Do you think this is passible or he will just depend on me and he's telling me this just to convince me to enter a relationship with him

We both into each other a lot but I have a lot of wounds and insecurities to heal .. I feel it would turn into toxic one and I will through out my emotional trash I don't want to hurt this person what the best thing to do ? I tried to explain but didn't workout , I don't want to be blind by my attraction I want to do whats right Advice

I got ghosted because of how I look , after sending my picture everything ended I feel deep grief I've tried to work on this limiting belief a lot , it's really crippling and its effecting my quality of life on all aspects not just relationships .. I did everything I could to improve how I look I can't change how I look its out of my control I feel sad very sad I can't get stuff I want because of something I truly can't control. I'm not playing victim I'm truly ready to do whatever I could , I have fit body and I take care of myself How can have a relationship despite being ugly , how can I change this limiting belief about myself and truly not let it effect my life anymore ? stories are welcomed it can help me feel I'm not alone please share if you have one . Thanks in advance

Wow never thought it this way

@Chew211 But I'll keep repeating the same patterns I'm tired of that .. I don't want to create more suffering in my life I was really scared so I rejected this person.. right now I feel regret\sad

@Parththakkar12 I guess you're right that's what I thought I will do but I already feel grief and regret I have doubts about what If I'm wrong \what if this could turn into something great

I tried to go on a diet and get shredded while I was going through a stressful time I was in chronic stress both physically and emotionally I wasn't able to sleep well and I was constantly stressed and as results, my stomach acidity has decreased a lot and now I'm unable to digest food probably and I'm experiencing acid reflux \ gastritis I eat very healthy and I train 6 days a week after I decided to stop the cut and increase my food intake and started to eat like normal and introduce more variety of healthy food I started to feel these symptoms especially vegetable \ fats. I feel so bad when I consume veggies and fats like coconut oil, nuts, etc, now I'm only consuming rice and chicken and eggs but I didn't get better I feel very fatigued and I can't focus on anything. I tried to take Hyaluronic Acid but I felt a burning sensation then I switched to apple cider vinegar and it's a lot better and I can endure the pain. it decreases my acid reflux but I still have gastritis .. any tips on how can I heal gastritis? I signed up with the heal your gut guy but he was recommending consuming dairies like yogurt and other weird stuff.

Right now I don't have the energy to do that, working on my emotions is so draining

I had a really bad childhood..I started my healing journey when I was 19 now I'm 22 and I'm still struggling every time I work on myself I feel good for weeks but then I feel the negative emotions again I'm so tired I want to feel good I forgot how to enjoy my life I'm losing hope How can I speed up this process more, I already invested 3 years I always sabotage myself, I recently had a great opportunity but I lost it because of my emotions and likewise in relationships also If you went through this period it would be helpful if you share your experience

This part was so helpful I guess that's what I wasn't able to see, thanks for sharing your experience

I never suffered from eating healthy I've always been disciplined with my diet but in the last months I started to get bored of my food and stopped eating veggies and cook my own food I just eat what's on the fridge and most of it is junk sugary food also I started to consume gluten and dairy my digestion is fucked up as a result of that now I need to heal my gut again and I'm really unmotivated to do that Advice on how can I make myself enjoy eating healthy food again and How can I break this cycle and find balance with my diet I don't want to restrict myself like I used to

live in the middle east and I have the same problem too

I didn't remember this until I turned 20 my entire life I was dealing with low self-esteem and chronic shame because of that, I worked on myself a lot and I'm better now but I can't forgive my sister I tried but I feel like I'm lying to myself advice?

@Nahm if she was molested then I'd be able to forgive her but I'm sure she wasn't do you think it's a good idea if I confront her