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@HypnoticMagician Could you elaborate more on "non-reactive meditation" and "silence/concentration meditation"? I would like to employ a practice routine to seriously sever my dopamine connections to certain things.

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Dang I needed to hear this.

- Complete and Total Shadow Work Healing (Clear all Trauma and fear, attachments, etc.) - Developing Complete Clarity (Especially including Life Purpose, Figuring out myself, what my strengths are, what I came here to be) - Self Mastery ([Dude, do not underestimate sleep, nutrition and exercise! The 3 Pillars!] Habits, addiction control, exercising will, control, focus, concentration, increasing tolerance for suffering, etc.) - Education (Contemplation too, especially. Independent verification of truths.) - Psychedelics

Same here. @Sempiternity@Adamq8 After I do 5 Meo myself a few times, I will bring it to the rest of my family, and by then I hope that my father will be taken along because of the reports of the amazing experience from the rest of my family.

Gene Keys is like a Life Purpose / Personality test. SUPER QUICK test! Takes less than a minute. All you gotta do is input the time of your birth, and the location of your birth. Post the link to your results. Tell me how accurate / insightful you find it! Personally I was pretty shocked with how accurate and insightful it was. Even using words that I plan to use in my branding for my life purpose. Here's the link to the quiz: https://genekeys.com/free-profile/ Bonus: If you have a life purpose statement, post it here as well and see how it compares to the Gene Keys Result! Here's my result: https://genekeys.com/free-profile/?key-0=30.5.7&key-1=29.5.7&key-2=63.6.3&key-3=60.5.2&key-4=17.2.1&key-5=3.5.4&key-6=34.2.1&key-7=20.2.1&key-8=16.5.2&key-9=57.2.2&key-10=60.2.7&key-11=42.6.6&key-12=24.6.1&key-13=13.1.1&date=18 Feb 2000&time=5:05am&city=Calgary&country=Canada&lang=&admin_division=Alberta&uname=ZenSwift My LP Statement: I Teach People How to Understand Themselves to Create a Peaceful Mind and a Passionate Life.

Noted. I'm actually going to start a document titled: "Wise shit Leo says about Pickup" Because I find myself constantly screenshotting information like this from Leo.

First of all, welcome to the forum! Second, I would really like a link to this vid. Third, I'd personally learn how to transform this experience into helping you learn what the ego is and having it aid in your ego deconstruction endeavours. And yeah, might be a Tulpa thing. Best of luck!

Our human/ape biology is outdated. This is exactly the struggle we as a species have to overcome to become more conscious. The collective has yet to feel the full impact of this slavery to quick hits of dopamine. Knowing what's going on is winning half the battle. Then designing your environment and life comes next. I'm actually writing my first book on this very topic, in regards to how to deal with it. Basically, do this: Design your life in such a way that you can't get any unearned dopamine. Such that you're only left with the majority of your possible actions for dopamine are doing high consciousness stuff like enlightenment work, contemplation, Life Purpose practice routines, reading, learning, exercise, etc. Easier said than done, lots of creativity is involved for a solution that fits you personally. But the authentic happiness that awaits you on the other side is worth it.

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There will never be a guarantee. Which is precisely why so few people pursue a path that is new. "Income school". ### @HarikrishnanThe cool thing about teaching self help is that what you bring to the table is your own personal experience, your personality and your perspective. There are plenty of people that ONLY YOU can reach, that Leo can't reach. Think about how difficult it is to get people to watch Leo's content, with it being very long, drawn out, in depth episodes, covering topics that easily close the mind. Think about all the ignorant people who have such a poor understanding of Epistemology that they'll believe some random kid on YouTube calling Leo a Cult leader,and then BAM, never will watch Leo. Just with the very nature of what content Leo teaches, it's a miracle he's gotten this far. It's difficult for me to imagine how much work is required to get at that level. As I'm trying to mimic it myself, to build myself to the point of cultivating that much knowledge, expertise and skill. It's a matter of taking your niche down to a fine point. Then mastering that more than anyone else. I say just pick the one that's the most you, and commit to hardcore mastery. If it's authentic, you'll enjoy the process a lot. If you choose your favorite niche correctly, it will feel like less of a grind, significantly less. Find that niche that suits you the most. If you've done Leo's Life Purpose Course, this will help you enormously.

@Spooney Spoonerson Keep up the good work! Also allow yourself to eventually trip in a safe manner alone by yourself. A trip with just yourself is way more powerful.

So I wrote this trip report as I experienced it. I also cut out sentences that I deemed were just pointless babble. >But text like this with the ">" behind it is my commentary on it after the fact. This trip was not taken very seriously, really it was me testing the difference between the strains of Golden Teacher and Penis Envy, so the added intention of ridding a negative belief was me putting at least some of the trip to good use. Hope it gives you a couple laughs! +++++++++++++++++++++++ Mushroom Trip Report 003 November 29th 2020 Soaked dat lemon tek for 20 mins Taken at 2:54pm There's probably a lot resistance and fear on this trip because last trip I had an ego death. But this one should be more positive. >Not sure if I actually experienced a full ego death, like a loss of sense of self, but I totally had my fear wiped away for a brief amount of time. Waiting for the floor to start moving lol Kinda late but whatever. Intention: Get to the bottom of my limiting belief: "I can't focus" 13 min in Feeling brain activation. 18 min Noticing small amounts of movement in the floor that is definitely the signature shroom movement. 21 min Noticing the pigment in the hands. Not nearly as much as on other trips. 24 min I'm pretty sure my learning ability just increased. Because learning is just creativity. 26 min Feeling Sensitive. Like if I were to be scared I would die right now. 30 min Getting pretty high. Really feel the emotional take over now. It's okay, it was always okay. Emotions heightened. 35min The human hand is really weird. Very alien and foreign. But that's okay because I am that. Feeling of slight nausea. That's mushroom nausea feeling right now. Floor is moving. Reality gets freaky, but I am the freaky. Reality is a great mystery that I must show myself for I am it. The biggest lesson that I have to always tell myself is to surrender and not take myself so seriously. I get way too much anxiety that is created from me trying to be some intense motherfucker when really, it's okay I can relax. I guess that's my fear: the fear of relaxation and in becoming complacent. 42 min Basically in it. Kind of funny, I feel weird cuz I think I feel all of my skin. Looking at the tapestry is Wild. The peak is yet to come. But then I get to slide down a very fun slide. Feeling tired. It must be activating because of my yawning. I am yawning. 47 min Feeling like a creature. I am now answering my questions from my busting limiting beliefs worksheet. I didn't think the Golden Teacher strain would be THIS potent. Yawning more. I feel so tired and fatigued. I also need to take the duct tape off the vent on the ceiling at some point. Sober me can you please do that? Thank you. >I did it while still high. 51 minutes. My body is feeling heavy. My entire body is able to relax. There is that feeling in my chest that was like anxiety but now it's spread to the whole body and now it has transformed itself into tiredness and relaxation. Yeah I'm pretty much knocked out on this floor. It is 54 minutes in and I've been lying on this floor because I'm so lazy. It's so fucked to write on a piece of paper where all the letters are moving. 59 mins I think we're at the Mountaintop because I am so fucking tired there's so much yawning. >Peak incoming 1h 8 mins Just staring at this tapestry and it's so illuminating and beautiful. Lying down on the floor. "Arts and crafts" while high is always funny >Had to fold some paper to get the tapestry back up, because it fell. 1h 13 min I just peaked 1h 18 min Another peak The best part is looking at something like a fractal while your vision blurs. You know you're peaking when your vision starts to blur. I'm going to allow myself. To enjoy this. Here is gone. How did that happen? Because I have finally emerged Enjoy this. >lol 1h 56 min High. Yeah I do fear that I'll be seduced by the mushrooms and just become a druggie. Just jerked off completely naked on my bed. Which is something I don't do often at all in my life, maybe two other times. We try to hide that part of reality so much. 2h 18 min I live in a dead world. The only things that are alive are the food that I eat. I need to trip in the middle of a forest what everything around me is alive. I feel like Terence McKenna when he has his glasses on. Just accept yourself. I'm a nerd in my craft. 2 hours and 27 minutes in The reason why I'm scared of looking at my face in the mirror is because I fear that I will see something else, and that's seeing of something else is the death of my self-image that I hold. When really I didn't exist in the first place, and so Fear is the mechanism is that preserves the self. Anxiety is a mechanism that preserves the self. When really the self wasn't there in the first place. And then the shrooms SHOW that to you ADHD people can Focus just fine. They're just saying ADHD people can't focus because of the way they think, they think differently. >The ADHD brain is the holistic brain. We think like a Christmas tree. That's just a different perception of reality. So instead of focusing on one thing, you focus on one thing with a Christmas tree around it. Existing is like being in a fish tank. Trapped. Confined to this one box. >That was fucking weird to experience. I am truly a curious creature. Gods perspective is all free and all loving. Yeah you're trying to learn how to focus, but you got to enjoy the journey. And listen to some Bob Marley music while you're treading. Enjoy the struggle. Patience is just enjoying the moment. Enjoy that suffering. That is life. What you call suffering is just a duality that you make up in your mind. Reality is fucked. Whoopsie. Did I just fuck with your reality, oops that's just reality! To try and preserve this perfect moment is to not live in the moment. Trying to remember things, is to not live in the moment. Whatever I fear is my ego trying to push fear forward because if I encounter the thing I feared than the ego is destroyed. If I stare at my face while peaking on shrooms, my ego will be destroyed. 3 hours in Still high. Eyes very dilated. Trying to remember something is to not live in the present. Experiencing short-term memory, but in a different way than THC. Shrooms: your ego is going to hate it, but your inner being is going to love it. It wouldn't be amazing otherwise. You need that duality to be there for it to work. Imagine living your life as Bob Marley where you just make music and enjoy the moment, and that is your life. That is life. Your life IS the moment. So much for getting to bed on time. Shrooms are silly like green toes and toejam and farts. And it'll step on your silly plans with its dirty feet. >Then I find myself talking to my mom again, lying on the bed staring at the ceiling and joking around. We are holding eachothers hands and such. We talk and just enjoy the moment. >Later, dad makes an amazing plate of nachos and as a family we watch "Christmas with the Kranks" together. 5h43min Sobering up 6h52min Sobering up more. Life is like a competition of who can be the most happy. >What I wrote in my Journal: ###START### Limiting Belief “I can't focus” It all started when I was a small boy diagnosed with ADHD at the same time I was diagnosed with asthma. Being several years on an ADHD medication does a toll on ya. This negative belief came from my childhood after years of taking ADHD medication. Reinforcing a limiting belief that I cannot focus without my medication. Holding this belief protects me like a baby blanket because it protects me from taking responsibility of my life. The ADHD medication IS the baby blanket. An alternative, equally valid interpretation of the facts is that I was already capable of this amount of focus that I desire. I was just given the medication to “behave”. I was always capable of Focus. Right from the start. Right from the start! Just look at other people that lived be without ADHD medication. ADHD medication is only new to the last 100 years, not even that. ADHD people before you were successful enough for you to be here today. I was always capable of the amount of focus that I desire. I was always able to focus. That limiting belief doesn't exist. It's okay, I love you. ###END### One of the coolest takeaways from my journaling was this: I was always capable of the focus I desired, I just was never given a chance to prove it to myself because I was given medication for so many years starting at such an early age. So it is through my actions now that I am showing myself that I have the ability to cultivate the focus that I desire. Post report: The week following I doubled my productivity from 3 hours a day to 6 hours of focused work per day.

What does that look like to you? @Leo Gura

YO that sounds very interesting! Cutting the tripping time in half is really appealing. @Username Thank you for sharing! Dang I'm going to have to try this for myself here where I compare oral vs rectal. Thanks! @karkaore Thanks for sharing! Will try this as well. So 3 ROAs to try out: Oral Rectal - Just the raw tab Rectal - Dissolving the blotter in a few drops of vinegar and water, and then plugging it.

Alright, let's talk about the build-up before I took my first dose of psilocybin. I believe I have done more research into psychedelics than any other 20 year old I know. I followed Leo's advice to the T on the research end, where I made sure I knew damn near everything I needed to know; where I made sure that there was no stone unturned and there was nothing that I didn't know. This level of research has also carried over into other areas of my life where it taught me how to be extremely thorough with my research, and it shows. While learning about psilocybin, I simultaneously taught myself how to research extremely deeply, more than most people. I studied Leo's videos on psychedelics, I read trip reports, I studied dosages, I studied how to consume the substance, how to aquire it, everything. Leo's guide on how to use psychedelics for personal development was perfect for guiding my research. I built myself my own personal document on everything I needed to know. At first just jotting down every piece of useful information I found, and then later organizing it and putting a structure to it. I spent a few solid weeks doing thorough research before I took my first dose.

I was talking to my brother about my interests in psychedelics for self-actualization purposes. And he said to smoke a bit of weed first so I can get used to losing control of my consciousness because it is something like none other. I was at first very close-minded to this idea because I was very against weed and using drugs for fun. I was dead serious about only using substances to grow myself and nothing else. But eventually, I took his advice and went to his house and took a hit of weed from a vapourizer and then was super high for 3 hours. This was a very positive experience. Some time after that in the future, I then ended up trying out a 2.5 mg THC gummy. It did nothing, and I was disappointed from the lack of experience. So naturally, the next dose for my next trip was FOUR times that. I jumped it all the way up to 10 mg, and I did it while floating down a river on a float with a bunch of other people having their rafts all tied together into one large party float thingy. This was a very unanticipated experience. My everything was high. My body was super high and my mind was insanely high. Here I quickly learned how sensitive I was two substances. I should have known with my previous experience with alcohol. Through this experience I had a crash course on letting go and just letting things happen because I had no control. I had such a body high that I felt like I was engulfed in a extremely high viscosity fluid, like honey or peanut butter. My mind high was so bad that I was forgetting who I was every three minutes and every three minutes felt like a new chapter. Time was so slow. But I wasn't THAT stupid because I at least made sure I had my big sister as my trip sitter to make sure I didn't die. ? At one point during that trip I remember having to pee so bad that I just hung my lower half of myself over in the water while floating down the river while holding onto someone's back. ? After that I think I did have another THC edible trip in a much safer setting at home. But the point of the story is this; as someone who was not experienced with anything but getting slightly drunk on alcohol, getting high on weed was definitely a great first stepping stone to help prepare me for what was coming with psilocybin.

Let me first talk about my mentality about drugs and experience with drugs right from the beginning before I took my first psychedelic. Growing up I was incredibly straight-edge to the point where even when I turned the legal age for drinking at age eighteen, I still heavily avoided alcohol and didn't even have my first drink until a couple years later. I prided myself in being super sober and straight-edge because I didn't see anything positive from anyting drug-related. When I was really young, I was indoctrinated to correlate any sort of substance use with evil and to the point where I actually freaked out and cried when I found out my brother smoked a little bit. Fast forward to a year ago when I was getting my mind opened a heck of a lot through Leo's lectures and listening to hundreds of hours of Leo over the course of a year or so. Every couple of months my reality was shifting significantly because of the amount of knowledge I was feeding into my consciousness. I started to see reality so differently because I had so many new maps to try on and put in place. Right away whenever Leo mentioned psychedelics I did not quite understand why he would talk about such a substance in such a way, but I didn't quite close my mind off to it altogether because of the way he presented it. Over time, I opened myself up more and more to the idea of using psychedelics as a tool. As I listened to Leo, I gained his trust and trusted his authority on the subject of self-actualization, so naturally, I started to trust what he said with regards to psychedelics. My mind really opened up to the idea of using psychedelics when Leo reinforced the point that you could be getting years worth of gains in a single psychedelic trip. Especially when Leo said that 95% of your self-actualization results are going to be coming from the practices. I believe this was communicated in his video the "65 core principles of living the good life". With psychedelics being one of the practice routines to try, and arguably one of the most powerful ones, I was sold on trying it out. So right away I was ready to do my research and get my hands on some magic mushrooms.

I would like to start this off by sharing one of the most inspirational if not THE most inspirational videos I've personally experienced to date. Having watched nearly all of Leo's content, this one hit me deep in the feels, and I cried. This video will inspire you to do 5MeO.

Oh Hell Yeah. I've been holding off watching part 1 because I want to watch part 2 as well. What a treat!

Man I can see how much I've grown now, this kind of stuff used to really bother me, now I just laugh.

My body is ready

Hey guys, I'm looking for some pointers that would help me with my investigations in realizing that the Brain Doesn't exist. Which I think is just basically riding the materialist paradigm. What questions could I contemplate? What books should I read? [I've purchased Leo's booklist btw, I'll probably read the book on materialism ] Maybe I should contemplate certain things on a certain psychedelic? Additional resources? Really would like to shake this one loose. Thanks.

"The map is not the territory. But also it is." Sounds strange loopy I will sit on this to try and understand what you said.

@Leo Gura Thanks! If I understand you correctly, then that also means everything that is 2nd order, (not direct experience) doesn't exist as well. Which makes sense when you ask questions like: "How can you know that 5 minutes ago happened?", only coming to the logical conclusion that you ONLY have the present. I figure I'll realize this one deeply when I do 5meo.