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Work on it! Leo has a fantastic course on it. 10/10 will do again. You have yet to understand how every action that is happening right now is maximizing the love of the universe in the biggest picture. This technique helps a lot more when you life Create a life purpose so clear, a vision so clear, that its clear where you are and aren't serving yourself. Vague visions produce vague results. Vague visions provide vague direction. If your direction isn't clear, then you have no map to make distinctions of the territory.

Holy shit.

Interesting. Good to know!

@Late Boomer take time to integrate the insights and ramifications so deeply that you actually learn how to love and appreciate reality as it manifests. If you can't appreciate something in reality, then you simply don't comprehend and understand it deeply enough. See Leo's video: "Comprehension has many degrees" where he lays out a model. Your lack of nuance in understanding the intelligence of the design of reality holds you back from loving reality as it is. I'm working on this stuff myself! <3

@Late Boomer yeah on mobile I cannot delete a quote box or an @user @Leo Guranot sure if you're aware of this problem. Maybe a "clear all" button? An "undo" button as a workaround? Maybe just fixing the root problem with the coding?

If you're not going "holy shit" with realizing the level of depth that the social matrix influences your perceptions, I'd argue you have a wake up call headed your way. Study how language alone, the words that you know and don't know, is what precisely allows you to think certain thoughts. If it's not in your vocabulary, you can't even THINK it. You can't even conceptualize it. It's 100% outside of your awareness, completely blind. This is apparently how North Korea controls their people: by limiting the WORDS they're allowed to use. Imagine banning all the words that would be used to cause a revolution up against you.

I love how when the guy on the phone is talking about God, it completely goes over the podcaster's head.

I'm pretty content with the bubble I've created. I will actively seek out new channels when I want to use the search bar.

Pick out a poorly placed assumption, and then overexaggerate a completely wrong interpretation under their assumption. Utilize recontextualization.

The Duality of you vs other. The point where you can't even tell the difference between what you call "you" and what you call "everything else". #### Well define for yourself what "sane" means, held by the collective population. When you finally realize what reality actually is, you'll gain touch with reality for the first time, but to the one that assumes that this collectively held matrix of illusions is reality, they'll say that YOU lost touch with reality. Calling YOU psychotic, calling YOU insane, but the deep irony is that it's precisely the other way around.

Sounds like a good time. I look forward to it.

@Leo Gura Yeah just to be clear I'm not making the assumption that you sleep with women that are like mega wasted, just making the assumption that you slept with women who've had one or two drinks, because as you said, it's a social convention. I'd just like to make that distinction. I guess I conflate the word "intoxicated" with having any amount of alcohol. I'll have to be more mindful that this word may mean "complete loss of control" for some people. Okay maybe for alcohol, but what about psychedelics? Surely a girl on something like LSD or shrooms would be an advantage, no? I'd be operating under that assumption if I was going to a burning man festival. Not that I'd chose someone who's completely inebriated, just one that's clearly already having a good time.

100% underrated thing to do here. You CANNOT let yourself be ignorant of the laws of the current Government you reside under. If something bad happens to someone on psyches and it can linked to YOU being responsible for supplying them, you're fucked beyond fucked. You would basically need a friend that's so tight that they maintain integrity to such a point that they rather go to prison than to fuck with your friendship. Yes, it's a pain in the ass to make sure they get their own supply because you may have wanted to trip "this weekend" or whatever. But that's what it takes to cover your ass. ### Also, have you ever tripped with someone before? Let alone a trip with focus on trauma? As someone who has actually guided someone's shadow work trips, I'm not sure if it's actually productive to be tripping at the same time. This is because your bias of wanting something out of YOUR trip will probably come into play. Also, if you're both tripping, what if that person goes into hell? Would you be able to not let that fuck with your mood as well? I've tripped with a friend before, and I was completely focused on me. Me me me me. Also, you've got to be incredibly honest with yourself and see if you have selfish intentions with this girl being in an altered state. YOU KNOW she will probably be tapped into a heightened state of love. Will your ego abuse that? Shit, I'VE been tempted to seduce women myself in this exact same way. And I have to check myself that whatever attraction may occur between us, I need to think, is this authentic? and not just blindside a girl with effects she doesn't know she's experiencing. I think people run into this Morality issue with Leo potentially picking up intoxicated girls for the same reason. But at the same time, these girls aren't fucking unknowingly roofed. You would operate under the assumption that they willingly intoxicated themself with alcohol, and KNOW the potential ramifications of the intoxicated state. Even if that ramification meant they'd sleep with a guy that they otherwise wouldn't sleep with. At the end of the day, just be conscious of the potential ramifications of your actions. Just some food for thought. Much love.

It's probably a book on how to understand reality. As well as how to live the good life. But like mega in depth. Basically a "Bible" of sorts, but updated with all the knowledge of the Traps mankind has fallen into. Because never before had we had such access to the stories of mankind falling into various traps. At least those are my thoughts and projections. It's an incredible challenge to write such a book. Because there's SO much interpretation. You would first need to deconstruct and correct the reader's lens. You also run into the problem of marketing consciousness to the masses of unconscious people.

@preventingdiabetes Turn inwards. See Leo's video on introspection. Also see the Paradox of developing self trust. If you don't have a crystal clear vision of your life and your life purpose, you NEED to develop more clarity on that. Have you done Leo's life Purpose Course? Ask yourself: Well this action maximize the love of the universe? Sometimes watching a TV show can inspire you, feed your muse, and inspire you to fall in love with reality more. On the flip side, it could be a reminder that you're not focusing enough on your self actualization, life purpose, and spiritual path. Only you will know how to surf this wave.

I'm excited for the book

Van life FTW!

LOL I can't wait till I live in my van conversion where I can move from one big city to another, start my pickup journey gaming all the time.

@King Merk Hell yeah imma pull women into the back of my van conversion. Not creepy at all I promise.

I know I am secure. I don't think this test takes into account the healing process. Also what is the black dot? Me? haha there's no way that's accurate. Disorganized / Fearful-Avoidant Score Mother/CG1: Anxiety: 1.00 | Avoidance: 1.00 Score Father/CG2: Anxiety: 3.00 | Avoidance: 6.17 Score Partner: Anxiety: 5.33 | Avoidance: 2.00

@PurpleTree Hmmm, What time are you taking it? You would need to verify for yourself if this a good idea, but I use melatonin to get to sleep.

@LSD-Rumi I have. Stay away from stimulants like these. They fuck your shit up. They make you depressed and even more unfocussed for days after. They tone down and mute your ability to experience emotions. You just become emotionally flat. They can make you depressed as a result of this as well. It's not worth it. Modafinil and Armodafinil are far superior. It's like the benefits of adderall without the bullshit that comes from adderall. And I believe it's way better for your brain and overall mental health. Also, make sure you have stapled down a healthy diet, sleep routine and exercise. These three pillars are MASSIVELY underestimated in fixing your life. Also use Leo's video on heavy metal detox. Use psychedelics to deconstruct your limiting beliefs around focus and have them inspire you to destroy your laziness. That is way better than taking something like ritalin/adderall.

December 18th 2021 LSD Trip 003 Beforehand I familiarized myself with several of Leo's teachings. Probably more than I name here: What is Consciousness? What is Actuality? What is Perception? What is Intelligence? What is Will? What Love? What is Death? Understanding Bias Guided exercise for realizing you are God? What is Fear? What is Reality? Integrating the lessons from building your existential vocabulary. Plus I have watched most of Leo's videos at least once. So I supposedly plugged around 75-80mcg And then supposedly took around 20mcg sublingually. (In total, only about 100mcg entered my body max.) So, if, theoretically, plugged doubles the dose, then I'm not at 75-100mcg But more like 150-200mcg >I totally forgot to set an classical focused intention. An intention such as: Contemplating what is consciousness. I just intuitively wanted to connect all my knowledge and go for ego death. I also wanted to see how far I could go into enlightenment work on just LSD, before pulling out the big guns of 5meo. In my mind, I figured that just a "simple ego death" was holding me back, and in theory that made sense, but what I am coming to learn is that the LEVEL of ego death required was more than just a simple fear wipe of questioning things like death. I really believe, there are different degrees of ego death. It's a spectrum. This also helps with understanding the idea of the degrees of awakening. Just what we call "ego death" or what we call "awakening" are just benchmarks into how deep your ego death/awakening is. >The intention I did have was a recipe for a rough trip, because in my mind I knew I was going to rub up against fear, so it was just a self fulfilling prophecy. >It came on so fast, so much faster than I was ready for. It freaked me out. Plus, I totally forgot what dose range I was in if plugging indeed doubled it. So I was thrown into a world of fear right away. It was super unepic. If I wasn't under the intention of consciousness work, then this hell I was about to enter would be demonized. But rather I later used my fear to understand what was going on as much as I could stomach. >At about 10 minutes in I already started to feel the effects kicking in. Visuals at 20 minutes Things are already moving at 24min All my plans are gone Like I forgot to set an intention. Growth happens a lot faster than you anticipate it. >The LSD came on so fast and so hard that it was mega anxiety inducing, like I felt I needed to explode! I NEEDED to die (ego death). That would be my only mercy. Which makes me ask exactly What an ego death is. Because I can cry and let go into the fear, and then the fear would be gone, but I know I could let go of my notion of physical perceived reality itself, and I would call that an even deeper ego death, a more true ego death I would say, where you actually let go of the notion that your body exists to begin with. >All the insights were interconnecting so much faster than I could stomach and handle. Like holy fuck this work is becoming REAL. >At one point while being super scared on the rough come-up, I think, for a brief moment, I became conscious of how I was imagining my skull. Later this fed deeper into my understanding in which how reality is held together with emotional glue. Your attachment is deeply intertwined with "physical" reality itself, which is WHY it's so goddamn terrifying to wipe away all these illusions and hallucinations that you as God has created for yourself. >A psychedelic, fundamentally, wipes away your imaginations holding reality together. Courage is walking while your feet are on fire. >When I wrote this I was mega scared, shit was fucked as fuck. I was walking into other rooms, changing my clothes, listening to different music, walking outside, walking inside, trying to change the environment, I was spiraling down more and more. I quickly learned that this was a loosing battle, and I had either the choice suffer, or go straight towards what I was fearing and kill my ego. My ONLY comfort was listening to Leo with his video: Guided Exercise for Realizing You are God. Trying desperately to ground myself by looking at my hand. Needless to say I may have taken too much. It was intense getting acclimatized to the new body load/higher vibration/whatever. LSD spirals you into the story you tell yourself. >Eventually I reached a point and I said, "I GIVE UP! I LET IT GO I LET IT GO, I LET IT GO! I LET IT ALL GO! >Then that eventually turned into crying and that was the BEST thing that happened on the trip. It felt AMAZING! Hooting and hollering, sitting on my kitchen floor. WAAAH! WAAAH! I wanted to cry louder but I was worried that the neighbours would hear and come and knock on my door. >My trip completely turned inside out from fear to bliss and calm. It was silent. I'm crying and crying I feels so good to cry At this point after the good cry, it was 2 hours and 30 minutes >I had my fear wiped away at this point. So it was easier to contemplate the tougher topics. I'm ready. What is death? I want to be able to look at my hand and then look at an object and not be able to tell the difference. >#Goals. Fear is the difference between what "should" be and what IS. Your stories, your attachments to what reality should be And what is. What is, is. I told a story to myself that the trip SHOULD come up X Fast, then it came faster, then I got scared. >The comeup was waaayyy too fast, super unexpected. Fear is feeling more of yourself. >You're just uncomfortable with feeling the parts of yourself that you fear. I was experiencing fear Then eventually I just let it all go because it drove me to tears, the pain. Then I was great. Then I'm coming down, and fear is setting in again. >I feel like I shed the fear that the ego created for me, and then the ego was clamping back down on me with more fear. The ego is encapsulated in a nest of fears to put it in a context. >Fears is what locks you into your paradigm. Death is the breaking apart of imagined boundaries. And there are emotions keeping them in place. Emotions are what reinforce the boundaries of reality. >I now see the role emotional mastery plays in awakening work. I need to read the book: Becoming Infinite. I'm thinking about how I need to shake loose the boundary between my emotions going in and out of death. In and out of the emotionally gated imagined boundaries. Like coming back down to earth so we speak, coming back down to earth is a process of fear. I think this is what can be described as the ego "clamping down" on you. That "clamping" mechanism is fears sneaking their way back into reality. And it's to FEEL deeply into the fear to get out of that clamping process. When talking about manifestation, manifesting a new reality, you must first lose your mind enough in order to consider the new possibility for a new reality to be created, then once that mind is open enough then you can actually make that the case. I'm starting to understand how rough it is to awaken. Consciousness work is some real manly shit. I would argue that it is more important to pay attention to the come up and the come down then the actual trip itself. Because it is in between you and the trip is where you want feel that very deeply to merge it with your actual reality. And in that merge is full of fear, is full of discomfort, is uncomfortable, makes you feel Fully Alive, makes you feel going insane, makes you scared, makes you psychotic. I understand why Leo says plugging is better with the slower come-up because you are able to understand what is happening to you. How to Merge with Enlightenment. Pay attention to that nothingness. Patiently keep yourself there as long as you can. Merge with it. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am imagining a reality I have to figure out in order to manipulate. Like I am imagining the boundaries between me and greater knowledge. I'm imagining a "physical" world that I have to "do science" in. I understand the idea of a spiritual emergency. You need to take it to the end for that release. I understand how you can scare yourself off of psychedelics for awhile, when to deconstruct too much, too fast for you to handle. Too fast for you to accept and come to terms with. Learning to draw is LITERALLY learning how to create illusion. Selling something of "value" is LITERALLY selling an illusion. Simply because everything in reality is illusory! Psychedelics just shake boundaries loose, and creates new connections. What is an ego death? What is a "ego death"? What's the difference between letting go of the fear of death, and dying? What's the difference between letting go of the fear of death, and letting go of the idea that your body exists? "Ego death" appears to be a spectrum. Like there are many facets of reality that you can deconstruct that will also kill parts of your perceived self. I have created an understanding between Fear and Funny Fear is merging with an idea that you're close minded with. Merging your consciousness with a unpleasant idea. You cry when you merge with it. Funny its merging with an idea that you're open minded with. Merging your consciousness with a pleasant idea. You laugh when you merge with it. They're both just emotions to express the difference between merging with parts of yourself. >I'm starting to understand the possibility of being able to look at reality as imagination manifested as "matter". I had a serious curiosity to ask about death to the people around me, and I wanted to feel it deeply. And when I did, I cried and then felt love. I MERGED with it. 12 hours in, still tripping, still having visuals. >I think for me, LSD lasts at least 16+ hours, no matter the ROA. I am really understanding the value of curiosity in this work. If you're not willing to experience fear, you have no fucking chance of getting enlightened. Post Trip I woke up and I am stepping into a new sensitive energy body of myself. I feel like I've expanded a part of my consciousness into new areas that I was previously too scared to entertain. My mind is open enough to much more comfortably visualize the pain and suffering that goes around physical death or loss of self. Like, for example, I can more comfortably imagine my dog's jaw being ripped off, and explore the feeling of the pain of loss, investigate my attachment to my dogs being okay. Or imagining what it would mean if I lost my left leg. Investigating that idea and the feelings and attachments that come with it. I can imagine what it would feel like to live with loosing the fingers from my hand. I have a deeper understanding with the correlation with death and merging with infinite love. I learned if I am having a bad trip, I just need to lean into the fear and go for an ego death, then the fear gets wiped away. I'm learning that my notions of ego is much more deeply interwoven with "physical" reality than I previously understood. To Do Study books on 5MeO. Questions How do you define ego death? How do you define ego? Thanks for reading!

Just wanted to share a quick 1 minute clip that gave me some serious insight/shock into just how much language plays a part in your reality. https://youtube.com/shorts/x1lcPLW8Cfs?feature=share The amount of devilry is insane! A couple of comments from that video: I'm going to take building my existential vocabulary a lot more seriously now...

I just asked my mom that's a therapist: The strongest indicator for successful outcome with a therapist is a strong emotional connection with your therapist. Feeling heard, and building trust, and not feeling judged are essential. Your therapists ability to connect is outside of designations. It cannot be taught easily. It's an implicit skillset.