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@Leo Gura I can relate with your experiences a bit. I was coerced several times to do homosexual activity multiple times with different boys at different occasions at around age 10. The boys were close in age however. And it was the same thing, not super traumatizing. But my inability to set boundaries is what was going on, because I was uncomfortable during the experiences, but I didn't set any boundaries. Setting boundaries is something I have to consciously train now. Anyways, these instances happened so much so that I basically got imprinted with a gay fetish (while being straight, and identifying as such). This is actually more common than people think, but it's rarely talked about because of how taboo it is, and people don't know how to name it to tame it. It makes sense that it didn't impact your sexuality much because of you being past the age of imprinting (8-12 I believe) and it being one experience. Personally, for my case, at this point, I'm just identifying as Pansexual. But it gets confusing as fuck because I only get turned on by the feminine. The way I dealt with it was progressively fapping to progressively homosexual material that was drawn until my disgust was dissolved. Basically rewiring my brain. And then later mixing in looking at real life humans, desensitizimg myself further. But still, I'm not turned on in the same way gay people are, it's odd. Still will be working this out. An urge to try out intercourse with a male is still there, to try at least once, but there's fear there. So basically I'll have to see if I can enjoy some experiences in person and move on from there. Also, with deconstructing the duality of gender and dissolving self-constructs has made a massive shift as well in my sexual identity. Psychedelics has made an impact too, as you may remember from one of my trip reports.

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@Hello from Russia thanks for the book suggestion. I love this kind of stuff. I really need to allow myself more time to absorb this content.

@Emrie I can hook you up with a based EMDR therapist. She's a master. Lemme know in the DMs if you're interested. She knows some of Leo's ideas as well.

Definetly would like to dip my toe in this

I for sure thought about using psychedelics to jump start where I am right now as an easy quick reset. But I went against it as I felt it was more valuable to me to learn how to get my shit together completely sober by implementing strong habits of self care like working out and having consistent sleep schedule as well as good routine.

Today I went for an interview to get a part time job serving my survival, while in the other hours I work on my life purpose full time. I really noticed that waking up early has been a core pillar in being productive, as well as using the Pomodoro Technique. I've been cold showering every day and for me it is great because it's a physical sensation that symbolizes me taking my life seriously. If I don't do it I know I'm not taking my life as seriously. I've done my Kettlebell exercises everyday for over 3 weeks now, I'm now moving up to 62lb kettlebell to exercise the simple and Sinister protocol by Pavel. My nutrition has been cleaner than ever, I'm just going to make some minor tweaks to it to make sure I'm getting proper levels of macronutrients as well as the micronutrients. I eat mostly raw plants. Today I'm also going to decide on what I want to contemplate deeply for several hours before I do a four gram mushroom trip on it. I found my best results with psychedelics is when I've done several hours of heavy lifting doing contemplation while sober beforehand.

@Average Investor To me I intuit a Provoked Urine Test.

When you test yourself a year from now after lets say 20 rounds of chelation, do you do a Provoked Urine Test or just Normal Urine Test?

Step one: Download / Screenshot image Step two: Fill in / Mark boxes Step three: Post results

Really good report! Thanks for sharing!

I like the idea of video reports. Like for example I completely destroyed one of my ideologies in an afternoon utilizing Leo's Worksheet on the video How ideology Works. I second this.

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@Realms of Wonder EMDR therapy.

This is a very interesting thread.

Definetly solidified in my mind to start with 5mg for me when I take my first dose.

The Trap of "Busy": telling yourself you're too busy to work on your life purpose because you're too overwhelmed with wage slavery, when in reality you could make it so you have at least an hour a day.

Lol guys

Probably one of the hamsters on their wheels were let loose again.

Looking forward to it!

Got any suggestions? Thanks for the list! For me, calling someone is always my go to. Beyond that Get down and do some burpees, get that physical movement. Create jokes and Laugh at the situation. Listen to my favorite song Dance to it

Wake up Take a shit Get out of bed For realz though, I got no routine as of right now because of my current wage slavery situation having me travel and bunk in with co-workers. But that will change in a couple months when I finally got my own place. But I can imagine my routine being like then when I'm moved out and got my own place. It's going to be some super deep work level shit. It'll start out like this. Wake up at an uncomfortably early time, get out of bed immediately, make bed, put clothes on that are set beside my bed. Quick 2 minute stretch and muscle warmup of the body 20 minutes of insane vigorous exercise. Cold shower just for a quick rinse off immediately after. (It won't be as bad because you just exercised like mad.) Start the first, most difficult task of the day. Which was preplanned the night before. Just work for the first 8 hours on what's important. Breaks in between. Additional Notes Have an exercise to change your state of consciousness o prime you to take on this day with full vigor. Listen to some inspirational music and visualize where you are headed, read quotes of inspiration, visualize, become empowered. Vow of silence. No talking for the first 12 hours in the day with anyone in the household. Off the radar. Make it impossible for people to get a hold of you for the first 12 hours of the day. Probably will work while fasting. And when I do eat, it's for the nutrition, not for the dopamine. Refer to image for Legendary Productivity Rules (credit to Robin Sharma in his free bonus chapters for his book: The Everyday Hero Manifesto.)

Gonna add these ones. CxDr - One Frozen Moment ft. AceEmoKid Cherax Destructor - 01 The Rescue

Hope you don't die of cringe from this post aha. Fluttershy (A Capella by Moon Shadow Yelling At Cats Hearts And Hooves feat Aviators Koroshi-Ya & Feather - Rainbow (Remastered - 1 Year Anniversary Edition) Lana Del Dre Tubby Wubby Pony Waifu

The ego is a necessary tool to survive. I suppose the art of living consciously and with the most happiness possible is to master your survival to the point where you don't need much attachment to keep yourself alive with ease.