ZenSwift

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  1. In my experience, whenever I criticize something for not being something else it's because I do not yet understand it completely and therefore I'm not able to fully love and appreciate it for what it is. One must first learn how to understand something, to get to the truth of the matter, which also allows you to love and appreciate it for what it is, as itself. It is only then that your mind will be at peace and then you can move forward with the best decision for your next step.
  2. There's a lot of unintegrated healthy stage red a lot of people need. Creating inspirational examples of healthy stage red could be a fantastic pursuit of Art. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I'm getting the impression that you see stage red like something that's to be avoided. Whereas actually every stage needs to be integrated with a full healthy Pursuit. Maybe calling it "stage red cartoons" is the best way you can describe it right now, but maybe it's not stage red cartoons. It's actually cartoons that inspire and entertain. Think about this: How do you know what's actually useful for the world from the most holistic perspective??? What does the world actually need, that you can provide? The way I see it is doing something that will raise the consciousness of people. Raise the love in people's hearts. But then that just kicks the tin can down the road because then I ask, how do you know what's the best thing you can do to raise the consciousness of mankind on a holistic level? I personally intuit it has something to do with following love. Finding what that is for you is the challenge. Think about how that shaped who you are. Then there's me starting to watch My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic starting at age 16 lol. Have you looked around at what people are doing all day? Every day? We are CONSTANTLY consuming art and entertainment. This is not going away anytime soon. If you want to play a part in that process, that's perfectly fine. Just find where your heart is telling you to go and make sure you can contribute your zone of Genius wherever you go. Humans love stories. It's no accident why these animes are popular. Stories are what actually grounds our sense of reality. There's a reason why we create things like archetypes. Stories with archetype encourage us to pull meaning out of reality, and humans love to create meaning. Amazing stories help to evolve the Zeitgeist of our current culture and time. There's so many people that are inspired to take action their lives because of the stories they've seen in the anime/TV shows they've watched. https://youtube.com/c/ICEcoldJT this guy is a self-improvement channel and he's like obsessed with Eren Yeager from Attack on Titan. Think about the one punch man challenge. Don't even get me started on how much positive impact MLP:FiM has had on people's lives. It's a doozy. Ahem... Ultimately you have to do something that is a balance between what you really love and something you actually love the process of doing. For example: I really love amazing art but I actually hate the process of learning how to draw. Or the process of drawing itself. I freaking love music, but I'm not sure if I actually like the process of tinkering around with musical notes all day. I learned that I really love writing. I actually enjoy the process of writing a very detailed guide on something that answers all the potential questions someone may have. It seems that creating and running courses and seminars is where my zone genius lies. Have you done the life purpose course? It's basically a blueprint of how to live a high Consciousness life of positive contribution to the world. Feel free to reach out if you want to have a little voice chat conversation by the way.
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  4. @fopylo you've always been alive. It's just the YOU that is being talking about is not the body that you're experiencing. You are the Whole of your consciousness / Direct experience. That's the conceptual understanding I have of it.
  5. @Leo Gura What do you mean by this Leo? Do you think you have a complete understanding of what happens? Or are you just speculating, hence the "My position is". The way I understand it is that you'll just keep on dreaming new stuff and I'll be like starting over. Giving yourself basically amnesia in the process of imagining a new dream. Imagining yourself forgetting the "previous" one. (Even though something like "previous" is imagined) Which is pretty terrifying. Like actual insanity. But what else would I have to do here? I literally have nothing better to do but to Imagine this right here because I'm bored. Existence is pretty insane.
  6. When it came to stuff I had to study that I had a lot of resistance to, I would use the Pomodoro technique. (25 minutes studying with absolutely NO distractions and 5 minutes break) AND I would track my progress my moving physical objects like magnets, or objects in glass jars, that way my subconscious could see me making progress. I would also give myself big checkmarks on a Calander every day I put time in. Scheduling very specific times to get on it is very important too. This will mitigate procrastination. FORCE YOURSELF to set a goal, to set a time. Most of the resistance in just in starting the practice.
  7. I found that reading every single day is very important because you'll always be finding new opportunities to apply that knowledge and that way the knowledge would be a lot more integrated. (I have to take this advice myself lol)
  8. @Knowledge Hoarder Make sure you also pray to Leo five times a day on a DMT designed prayer mat, facing Las Vegas.
  9. It's a cookie that's always in your pocket. Literally you'd be less addicted if you just screwed it into the wall.
  10. @thisintegrated To add onto that, basically creating reference experiences. Psychedelics,shamanic Breathing, skydiving, cold showers/ice baths, running, lifting, dancing. Getting your body and mind into a different state of consciousness.
  11. Wes Watson has been a really good resource for me.
  12. Vision Logic Abstraction / Concrete vs Abstract - - (Part 2 of Implicit vs Explicit Understanding)
  13. Mushroom Trip Report 011 Nothing crazy here guys, but I did experience an amazing state of consciousness to where I felt like I could take over the world. I also wrote some stuff that may inspire you... March 5th 2022 Taking ginger to relieve nausea is Overpowered. It works really well. I'm expecting an Ego death could happen so I'm going to surrender to that. May contemplate, what is the self, what is death, what is Ego. To help the process. Main Question What is Consciousness? 3.5g of shrooms (vegan chocolate) Was told that this was super potent for Visuals. >It was not. Whatever strain it was, it was not. It was actually the LEAST significant visuals yet. Not like that is the main focus, but Visuals are nice. Ate this whole shroom chocolate bar at 10:09am Not going to lie, I wish I had just taken tea lol. It was a lot of chocolate for me. 30 minutes in, Noticing visuals. >I need to practice tripping, sitting in silence, doing nothing but meditating. Starting at a lower dose, just meditating for 5 hours straight. This feels like a a very serious trip. I feel fear, anxiety, etc. But I'm pretty sure that's just the comeup. I'm realizing that Consciousness work is incredibly serious. More serious than I imagined. You're fucking with the power of reality itself. Very powerful stuff. 40 minutes in, feeling incredibly tired, very dream like. Chewable Ginger tablets are really good, they completely obliterate nausea. How would God define himself? What I've noticed with fear is that it tricks you that's going to be a really long time but that's part of the deception. Once you face it, it's gone. It's not actually going to be that long. It's NOT FEAR. It's getting you to appreciate EVERYTHING I then go on a walk on this beautiful day with my mother, ahem, I mean my trip sitter. >By then I basically threw away my intention. I feel like it would be a lot more productive if I asked that question while on 5meo. I think also I'm just so wrapped up in survival as well, which is also a factor. Plus just my maturity. I still grow from these trips, just some trips are going to be more serious than others. Play this and continue reading... >So there I was, high as fuck, listening to my favourite song. Walking behind my trip sitter, walking the dogs. We were just in the ZONE vibing. Enjoying the shit out of the moment. The weather was PERFECT. Walking with a strut. Confident as fuck. Reality being beautiful as fuck, future looking bright. "THE WORLD HAS NO IDEA WHAT I'M MADE OF!" >Then when we hit a crossroads and we were like "This is it! THIS IS IT!" referring to the beauty of the environment we were in. And she says to be "It's your time." referring to its my time to take on the world. Then my song ends, she gives me the dogs and just bounces, leaving me alone while high as fuck. YOOO, it was the perfect metaphor of foreshadowing of when I'm moving out next month. I think about everything in my life, how this body is going to die, how my parents are going to die, how everybody around me is going to die, how all my favourite teachers are going to die, how reality is not even real, all of my problems, all my troubles, and I carry it all on my shoulders and I say I WANT IT ALL, I LOVE IT ALL. This is the cost of being conscious in this world. The cost of "being alive". >When I get home I just lay on the deck in the beautiful clear blue sky. Mind high, no Visuals. I've already lost my mind in a very fun chaotic way. You know there's a serious survival advantage to going insane. You stop caring about stuff that's not important and only work on the important shit, putting in the time. Not caring at all how you look towards others. Putting in insane amounts of hours and dedication. You're not afraid for it to get ugly. The joker was doing something right... I want to lose my mind loving the world. If there was no imperfection there would be nothing to love. >This was incredibly profound for me. Life is always there to challenge you. You're challenged to love it all. You know, I always imagined death to be like experiencing an infinite alone Blackness forever. That's kind of funny because there's always the assumption that there would be an experiencer to experience the nothingness forever. Like that awareness. I'm attached to awareness itself. Does my awareness ever actually disappear? I'm going to speak a lot about my mother. I want to like create motivational speeches around how much I love people. I need to be able to face the thickest layers of boredom. It is actually in thick layers of boredom does the greatest inspiration happen. I noticed this when I meditate for long periods of time. Practice saying who are you. Some of the most valuable conversations you need to have is just someone listening to your life story. You defining who you are and where you are headed. But we all don't get this opportunity. But don't let that stop you from doing this exercise. This is why the self authoring program is so useful! But just shy of that, talk to yourself about how you define yourself and how you define who you're becoming. >When I was much more sober, I continued to walk in the neighborhood, appreciating the gorgeous mountains all the way down to sunset. You should be excited to grow up. Be excited to grow up. Say no to the lottery. A lot of people have the mindset that they need the lottery to massively change their lives. But that Lottery is never going to come along. Learning how to give that gift to yourself is way more valuable anyways. Direct the movie, produce the movie, watch the movie. That's how you live live your life It it in the moments of solitude that you grow yourself. It is what you do when no one's watching is where you define yourself. This is where you find your character. It is in those moments where you're broken down from the hard work of the day and you still choose to do more. Where you have your vision connecting you to spirit, giving you the energy that you didn't know you had. Entertain ideas beyond you. Beyond what you think you can do, because if you only entertain ideas that you think you do, you stunt your growth. Stop shutting yourself down with ideas of "being realistic". NOBODY has done something great by being realistic. I rather be delusionally optimistic and MISS than pessimistic and HIT. Life will always be a rollercoaster going well. Stop betraying yourself. You're so beautiful that you need to routinely take pictures of yourself. I honestly cannot believe how beautiful I am. You need to think the same way about yourself. The freedom convoy was here a second time but it was quieter. And I was ready. I just didn't care because I knew what it was. Stand in a field alone and self-reflect about life. It is in the moments of solitude, where you very honestly make a decision. That is where growth happens. Those moments where you choose to do what's right for yourself. Environment change is king for personal growth. You should climb a tall ass mountain and enjoy the view. So tall it makes you go WOWWWW!! 5h45 minutes. I'm much more sober and my life even more enriched.
  14. I feel like an adult is someone who consciously suffers in their efforts to build their highest self. A real man gets shit done no matter what, no excuses, no hesitation. No backing down. They have a VISION, and they get to work on it every single day. Like a father puts his children's needs above his own, a good father will have himself starve before his child does. That kind of thing. The path to Success can be very boring, difficult work, day in and day out, and the adult accepts that. An adult is able to do some really, really hard stuff. There's also adulting emotionally, ego work, etc. 9 Stages of Ego development, Spiral Dynamics, etc. An adult takes responsibility for EVERYTHING in his life. It starts to get really interesting when you start interacting with people that are much older than you and they're developmentally younger than you. Happens to me ALL the time. It's crazy. Lots of people's development is just hindered by their lack of shadow work, never integrating any of the trauma they received in their lives. That's HUGE. Most people MASSIVELY underestimate how much shadow work they need to do.
  15. bro I can't WAIT for this level of insight. Goddamn! In time...
  16. I remember in one of his videos he said something along the lines of; "This relationship you think we have doesn't actually exist." and "One day I want you to get to a point where you drop actualized.org and you drop me." Hearing him say that felt like the punch I needed. Out of respect I will take away my unhealthy attachment to him and fangirling. I think I have a slightly different perspective on this as well, because I plan to place myself in a very similar position as to Leo; teaching self actualization, radically changing lives. A small part of me doesn't even want me to see Leo in a bad light because then his teachings will loose some potency, but in the end I needed to let go as that attachment will hold me back.
  17. LSD Trip 005 February 12th 2022 Imagine taking your most potent hit of acid and then when you're at your peak the world starts going into chaos and there's riots and shit outside. That's what I experienced. Like I was going for it hard in this trip. My Intentions were: So those were the intentions, basically self inquiry. Dosage: 100mcg Rectal administration. Definitely my favorite ROA because I don't get much body load. Putting one whole tab in rectally that's not cut up is A LOT easier to do because it's a nice big piece. Dropped at 10:28am 26 min. Nothing noticeable yet 30 minutes Very awkward and vibratory come-up. Very hungry, tired and a hint of nausea. 34 mins Visuals inbound. 1 hour in, feeling very conscious. Time to start doing the work. Seriously What if I'm God? What if I'm just a field of awareness that needed to create a body and an environment to fool that it is not itself? >So I just sat on the couch and tried to do some self inquiry, the best I could. YOOOOO Your mind is going to come with every excuse in the book to distract you from looking at truth, especially the absolute. If I was just a field of awareness in the room with nobody it wouldn't make any sense. Which is why I created the body. The body grounds my field of awareness in a context so I can fool myself that I am a "perceiver". And as long as "I perceive" I will have a body to back it up. What can I put my Awareness on to prove that I exist? I have no face. I created eyes as an excuse to "see". I'm so stoned that when I close my eyes, I hallucinate like I'm a camera in a different part of the world. Like I'm over at an assembly line of people or I'm literally just a drone flying somewhere. I need 5meo lol. >At this point I am thinking that it's pointless to try to get to the truth using LSD when I can just use 5meo, because I have access to it. This is literally the best stage of consciousness I've had in weeks and I'm just fucking chillin here on the bed... I'm SO DISTRACTED. I don't think I've been this bored while high. There is nothing that my mind doesn't do that is outside of my control. >Yet at the same time I control nothing... What is the substance of substance? What is the substance of substance of substance of....... >So there I was, staring at my reflection in the mirror, doing self-inquiry. Closing one eye, poking the the other eyeball as I observe my vision shift. Also thinking about how ugly I appear to be in that moment, you know, in a loving way, just chilling really, loving the moment. >Then out of nowhere, the ringing from the silence that was in my ears got louder, it got really REALLY loud. I heard it coming from somewhere. I opened the window of the bathroom I was standing in, I realize that I'm hearing honking, SO much honking. I thought some building was on fire. It was complete chaos. I had NO IDEA what was going on. I step outside and I see these people speeding down the streets with their loud as fuck horns and honking the horns of the cars. I swear someone had a war horn or something. Shit was loud as FUCK. The entire neighbourhood was screaming loud. It was really distressing. Instantly, the whole world was chaos, and I was basically in fight or flight mode, WHILE peaking on a very potent dose of LSD. I was like “YOO WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!?!” I was thinking like there's like a group of terrorists, extremists something. I was also laughing at the chaos. I asked people that were in the house what the fuck was that, and they didn't know! I felt like I was in the middle of WW3 or some shit lol. Like I was genuinely concerned if I needed to defend myself and the house. I only found out several hours later that it was this thing called “the freedom Convoy” that's been happening all across Canada. Dude what the fuck. I had ZERO idea of what this was. >So this basically threw my LSD trip off the rails. I eventually just gave up and used my LSD state to think about survival. This has basically been my fallback intentions anytime I can't focus on the more metaphysical stuff. >Side note, when you close one eye and poke your eye, (touching your eyelid, not the eyeball itself.) and your vision shifts that is literally changing reality as it absolutely is, isn't it? Using a perception to change a perception? It's like how a taking a psychedelic is a perception that changes reality, which is nothing but perceptions. So in this case instead of consuming a psychedelic, it is your finger poking your eyeball. Reality is the device that contains stories. The social matrix is a system to create a homeostasis around the loudest stories. Without the story of the freedom convoy, I would be very worried about what the fuck this group was up to. >Thinking about how I imagine everything in reality. I'm going to imagine the rest of my life. I'm going to imagine what it feels like to create myself. (Align with my life purpose) That is the gift I give myself. To be able for the first time, survive as this "being of consciousness" in this "given reality" to discover his place in the world that HE FUCKING IMAGINED. >We are the Director, the Producer, and the Viewer. We come into this world to create attachments, to grasp onto something, otherwise, it wouldn't mean anything if we realized we were just grasping sand. Here's a decent question: What would I have to do to fool myself that I am not GOD? Why you need to track your time: You need to sacrifice a bit of your time to keep track of the rest of it. If you can spend 10% of your time to make sure you're spending the other 90% really well, you're good. That's like 1-2 hours a day planning. That's plenty of time. >For many this is obvious, but for me this hit different. To construct a life purpose, you must know first how to deconstruct it. You must be the knower that you are the one that constructs all meaning, purpose and value. I really need to train my consciousness more. I need to set aside time to Meditate. My ability to focus is shit, and it's causing problems. Here's an interesting insight. States of consciousness. Creativity is a state of Consciousness. Inspiration is a state of consciousness. Motivation is a state of consciousness The mode when the ideas are flowing to you effortlessly IS a state of consciousness. Dude what the fuck! Success is LITERALLY just a state of consciousness. Feeling like you're going to be successful is a state of consciousness. Feeling like you're on the path is a state of consciousness. Being focused is a state of consciousness. Your state of consciousness determines your life. Having the motivation to turn your life around is a state of consciousness. And all of these states of consciousness can be induced manually. Being unfocused as I am is the gift I give myself. Because when I can figure out how to focus THIS DUDE, I'll know a lot about how I can train others. I want to write a really inspiring piece of poetry. Just like Prince EA. https://youtu.be/ja-n5qUNRi8 To have motivation, I need to put myself in the grip of life, I need to put myself in touch with death. I need to CAPTURE that state of consciousness. The one that doubts themselves the most can teach themselves to doubt themselves the least. How can I get myself into the state of consciousness so that I FEEL like I'm on the path. While knowing that I'm not fooling myself. A state of consciousness where you KNOW that you are giving it your all, where you are pushing yourself to constantly grow yourself. Stay in that state of consciousness long enough and you'll manifest the success you want. One of the greatest joys in life is to create something beautiful. One of the greatest gifts you can give yourself is to make your life a work of art. At the end of the day I proceeded to have a 5 hour conversation with my good friend, making plans to move out, talking about a bunch of motivational shit. >The following morning... So I had mega broken sleep for the entire night. I was basically trying to sleep while half high. So THAT was interesting. I kept constantly thinking about the ramifications of the conversation I had, and I think because I was still on acid, I actually programmed in some of that drive because this morning I am realizing just how real it's going to get when we are living together. I laid in bed for a significantly shorter amount of time and I got up, made my bed and got myself dressed and ready to work. I'll need to practice self inquiry sober for awhile before I get into doing it again on psychedelics. Gotta crack open the neti neti book. I need to practice the Enlightenment guides a lot more as well. But I'm also just going to see what 5meo can do for me as well. Sometime this year...
  18. So much mentioning about talk therapy in this thread, what about EMDR therapy, NLP, or Hypnotherapy? EMDR is super powerful if you have an actually competent therapist that knows what they're doing. Just wanted to drop this thought here.
  19. The one who loves their Craft the most Wins in their domain.
  20. This guy is my spirit animal. He's right up my alley of type of motivational speaking.
  21. Enlightement is just a maintained state of consciousness? Is Enlightement even a thing that can be very specifically pointed to?? Or is there just degrees of Awakening? Is Enlightement just a maintained state of consciousness? What's the difference between an Awakening and an Enlightement? What does the word "Enlightement" point to? For me it seems like enlightenment is when you are able to maintain a state of consciousness that you are conscious of absolute Truth. And then on the other end there is the several degrees, facets and depths of "Awakening"? Yes? I suppose I'm creating a distinction between Enlightement and Awakening. Where Enlightement is like a benchmark for progress in raising your consciousness, and the word Awakening is a more relativistic term. Awaken to what? Absolute Love? Absolute Truth? Infinite intelligence? Omniscience? God realization? The other infinite facets and depths of Awakening? Whereas the word "Enlightement" for me seems to point to a specific Awakening accomplishment. Like tapping into the absolute and meeting God for the first time. And being able to maintain that STATE of consciousness. Or being able to maintain at the state of consciousness of no self. Etc etc. Do you think this distinction between enlightenment and Awakening is necessary/useful? Do I have it all wrong? Am I just full of foolish speculation and mental masterbation? Let me know your thoughts.
  22. Man, imagine having a sustainable Awakening to that.
  23. I want to learn to dance, create music, teach, tell powerful stories, write powerful poetry, motivate, inspire. Create and speak powerful motivational speeches. Write powerful books. I want to learn how to hypnotize people into becoming incredibly driven. I'd love to cultivate the knowledge and abilities to create a massive catalyst in people's lives in a day or even as short as an hour. Which is why I also considered being a medicine man cuz psychedelics exist. I'm really into entertaining the idea of a very niche form of mentorship/ life coaching where you live with the person and mentor them all day. Similar to what David Goggins does. It would be an amazing opportunity to practice massive amounts of integrity. I possibly even at some point want to really learn how to draw photorealistic art, some mega surreal stuff, really powerful art. I consider directing music videos and film pieces that would spark an emotional change in people. I'm interested in going deep into lucid dreaming because I dream really deep and a whole lot. Would be really cool to self inquire in a lucid dream. I did it once by touching walls and saying "physical, PHYSICAL, physical". I'd also seriously consider learning how to channel. Channeling whatever really. 5th dimension entities, the dead, past lives, whatever. Something that requires a massive training of intuition. I also want to learn sign language - Learn to dance inbetween everything when a song comes on. Just start inventing shit and pay attention to flowing your body to the music. All skillsets are about the VOLUME of practice. I dance in the kitchen a lot. Look at a dance move or two online that you like and learn how to do it and incorporate it into your freestyle. Life is a lot of times lived in the moments inbetween. Gotta do a little samba baby! .. How I've reconciled all these passions is to devote all of my time to the most important ones. Especially the fundamental ones that will transfer over to others. Be willing to focus on one narrow domain and kill the rest. A specialist is always more impressive than a generalist, simply because all humans struggle with this one problem of focus and mastery. Especially in the west.
  24. I've been studying Leo more, rewatching video after video to go deeper into understanding the nuances. It has come to my awareness that the very mechanism of the mind IS denying truth, and this is what creates the illusion of reality itself. Can you just straight up deny the absolute? Isn't the only thing that's true is the absolute? What's right here in "my" current consciousness. I believe I did this at some level with my last mushroom trip report. But that makes me think, I probably didn't grasp the absolute nature of reality. >"I definitely wasn't penetrating anything super profound here." @Nahm said something that really made me think in a different direction. "Truth is self evident, the veil is believing thoughts." This really made me think of the value of a cessation... Pure awareness, no thought or projections. Direct access. I thought when you realize the absolute it becomes undeniable? But you need to notice it subtly? Which requires a massive raising of consciousness I assume, which is why 5meo would do the trick? I also believe I heard Leo say something about how truth can be a very subtle thing that can be easily overlooked, and it doesn't actually overwhelm your denial. Someone's probably going to say "yeah the truth is right here and you've been denying it your whole life". Any pointers is appreciated.