Breakingthewall

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  1. I think it depends of the person. Some are not disciplined, and when density is high any practice is a pain , then 5meo could be a great solvent. The problem is the creation of religious mental frames.
  2. I think that the main factor is your vector. Your life can be directed toward self-protection, self-importance, etc, or liberation. If it's directed toward liberation, every action points in that direction. Then 5meo can be an essential tool. It's not that simply doing 5meo will bring you permanent mystical liberation, but it will be a significant push in that direction.
  3. 5meo isn't a psychedelic you take to gain insight or confront your trauma, but rather to break down an energetic barrier that psychologically separates you from reality. Modern humans create an energetic capsule that keeps them detached from reality in exchange for an unreal sense of security. This capsule manifests as a constant stream of thoughts, but its "substance" is the fear of losing individuality, the need to be a cog in an alienating social group where connections are false. Each 5meo trip deactivates the default neural network that keeps this capsule active, and with each deactivation, your system gradually becomes accustomed to existing without it. The problem is that people confuse this with another superior mystic reality, and they become trapped in that idea of increasing your level of consciousness when the point is cleaning the mental veil. Seems equal, but it isn't. "Increasing" is endless, removing isn't
  4. "Narcissist" and "therapist" use to be synonyms. And "coach" is another level. Narcissist are fascinating, it's incredible how they can sustain their narratives. Contemplating their behavior is better than a documentary of national geographic. And it's absolutely, completely, totally impossible confronting them.
  5. There is another step. At a certain point, it is not you observing emptiness, but rather you are emptiness; the boundaries break and the totality manifests. Structure is zero; what exists is openness, and the openness is total, the absolute power of that which has no restriction.
  6. A wall will save me from that son of a bitch Attila the Hun, who's coming with his friends to sodomize me. Therefore, I must be extremely worried about building a very high wall, since building walls is a real drag, especially if they have to be 15 meters tall and made of stone. My concern must be extreme, obsessive; otherwise, instead of building the wall, I'll just lie in a hammock, and then Attila will arrive, and all will be complaints.
  7. What do you mean, no? That's precisely the key to human evolutionary success: creating a mental model of the individual and the group that evolves over time. So, you do things like build a wall, worrying that in the future a group of bloodthirsty killers might come and impale your entire family. This worries you, and you build the wall; otherwise, you wouldn't
  8. Just fight as your life depends on it. What's true btw. Maybe you won't die of hunger, but you could die of depression
  9. 😅😅Please don't trust anyone. Anyway, if you ask me, I would say yes, try it, but don't believe anything about God or dreams, just break your mind without mercy Pd: oh beginner in spirituality, you must know that this reign is the reign of narcissism, projection and self induced hallucinations. Is short, the reign of bullshits, so be smart and don't believe anyone
  10. Exactly, real things, not evasion
  11. What do you mean? For me 5 meo improved my brain dramatically
  12. I don't believe Nazism is a real ideology. The Jewish issue is merely an excuse to unite a depressed and almost psychotic population. The Jews are irrelevant to the Nazis; they're just a benchmark for comparison, a way for them to elevate themselves. It's basically a narcissistic strategy. Nazism is narcissism taken to an almost religious level, and like all narcissism, it stems from an unbearable feeling of inadequacy, in this case, from the defeat in the Great War and the subsequent humiliations.
  13. 5-MeO is a drug that affects the energy system; it's not a mental thing. A total liberation is a release of your energy blockages. I remember once vaping 15mg and there was no total release, and I felt pain in my hands and feet. Then, a muscle in one of my legs started vibrating periodically, quite annoying for two days. I wasn't sure if it was related. The second night, in bed, I was vibrating a lot, and I concentrated on releasing energy. I felt a very strong tremor throughout my body in several waves. I concentrated, and my body vibrated. I visualized energy leaving my body. Then there was a much more intense vibration, and the muscle tremor disappeared completely. 5meo done a lot of times will change your energetic configuration for ever. You need to understand that you have to let go everything, if not you could get sick.
  14. I'd say yes. I don't remember exactly if I used to see images clearly, but I read a lot of fiction before, and I'd say I did. What's certain is that after taking 2g of mushrooms, I saw incredibly realistic and vivid images, trees with phosphorescent leaves and things like that, and now I see absolutely nothing. Another detail is that before, on a Mensa-type test, I scored over 147, and I could get the Raven's Progressive Matrices in 20 minutes with only one mistake, and now I don't get past 120. But I haven't gotten any dumber; quite the opposite. Now I see human dynamics several levels deeper, my attention to reality is many orders of magnitude greater, but reading a novel seems impossible to me; I have no interest whatsoever (I used to read one a week). Watching a movie is the same. It's as if the mind shifts from the symbolic to the real, and with that, you lose your IQ for raw calculation and your ability to visualize objects in exchange for the dissolution of the barrier between the psyche and actual experience.
  15. Of course. I laugh at them so loud that they'd be right to ban me, or maybe they should just commit suicide. The reason they call myself a dangerous criminal is that, a few years ago, my business was growing weed. During the COVID lockdown, I'd drive along those empty, post-apocalyptic highways with the car loaded with weed, stopping at police checkpoints and showing them a certificate a friend had arranged for me stating that I was an ophthalmology laser technician working at a hospital. They'd wave me through, and I'd drive off laughing with evil laugh bwahahaha. I did that twice a week and made a good business The truth is, I loved that job, but the production ,and approached it like an engineer. Later I switched the whole operation over to CBD, which was completely legal and still profitable. Before that, I'd spent about seven years living on sailboats, sailing thousands and thousands of miles. My idea was always to learn enough to eventually build a business around it. At one point I sailed from Venezuela to Spain across the North Atlantic, about 50 days at open sea beginning spring, (stops in Jamaica, Cuba, etc but 20 days no stop from Bermuda) with my ex-girlfriend. She was already my ex by then; we'd broken up about two years earlier, we didn't have sex, we were simply friends. Apparently she didn't think I was psychotic, because on a very old boat, after spending two months repairing it in Venezuela before heading into the North Atlantic with 8 m waves and that, every mistake can easily turn into a funny situation . Before that I ran a dating platform, but entirely over the phone, talking . In reality, it was basically a top-tier telephone sexual fantasy pervert max level , no workers, all free perverts, but the money rained. (That's how I ended up spending seven years sailing) Alongside all of that, I was always deeply into rock climbing and hang gliding under demanding conditions, as a form of mental and physical training, same than serious boxing . But I also was too much into party, drugs, sex. My psyche was unbalanced, but I totally knew where I was from teen, and where I wanted to arrive Before that, I owned a small company installing call centers and office data networks, working with two technicians and an administrative assistant (I was 26) Before that I spent nine months as a salesman for a similar company. Before that I sold houses for four months . Before that I spent eight months in the army (wtf). Before that I worked nine months as a construction laborer. Before that I worked in the kitchen of an Italian restaurant. And before that I lived with my fifty-year-old alcoholic narcissist father and his thirty-five-year-old wealthy, depressed wife, who financially supported him. Before that I lived with my mother, who was Turkish, who didn't even know sex existed until she was 19 y.o but who was deep Now I want to go back to boats. CBD is fine, but you only live once. My plan is to find aluminum sailboats in very bad condition in the Caribbean, boats worth around $300,000 once restored, bring them back to Spain, give them a premium refit, and sell them to someone who's retired and wants to sail around the world. I've already bought and sold fourteen boats at a profit except 2 of them, cheap sailboats, max 30k. The only problem is that I need a hot girlfriend with whom I have an absolute deep connection to come with me. I've told the gods that I'm not going to have sex again until she appears. So maybe I'll end up as a monk. But this decision make my life much more clean, huge difference. Looking for sex is toxic. Then, the fact that my profoundly mentally retarded psychologist sister tells everyone I have paranoid psychosis, even though I gave her the opportunity to study psychology, and has spent years telling to the more or less thirty members of my family (conservative religious) that I'm a terrible criminal and that she's afraid I'll kill her (her narcissist ego maybe she meant), is for me an extraordinary exercise in observing attachment to the clan and the need for social acceptance (honestly was a big challenge very unbalancing) . I genuinely thank her for that. Maybe one day she'll recover from her vulnerable narcissism, and I'll be able to tell her. Until that, just the facts will talk. Freedom and life. Let's die with an open heart.
  16. Openness is undeniable, since it means absolutely nothing. It is the openness to what being is. Once this occurs, being replaces your psyche. Not completely, but as a gradual mutation within your psychic structure. This openness to totality accompanies you in everything; you see it in everything. Life begins to shine, your body's perception is one of pure energy, and your mind is empty without the slightest effort. Death is not seen as a boundary, not because the self will persist, but because being is total. The vector of your mind shifts from inward to outward, from hoarding to expanding, from fear to radiance.
  17. In my opinion, the goal of a psychedelic trip is the opening of your energetic structure, the breaking of the blockage in which every human lives. That love that flooded everything is a symptom of opening. The goal is total openness, and when it happens, there are no intellectual deductions like knowing that you are God, that you create reality, that you do it for certain reasons, but rather, at a given moment, you are total. Contraction within you is zero, nothing limits you, not the idea of God, not love, nothing. Total. In that state, your body vibrates and the hair on your head seems to be receiving an electric shock, the eyes of your mind are open 360 degrees, and there is only one thing you can know: you are. And what does being imply: Everything. There is nothing more to know; you are absolutely omniscient, since you know absolutely everything: you are. There is nothing more to know, since that is everything. The joy that floods you is absolutely perfect; all the twisted filaments of your psyche are absolutely straight, like lines of escape to infinity. Your brain is functioning at full capacity, shinning , but its content is completely unstructured. You are, period. And nothing, absolutely nothing, can be added to this. This is everything, and it is paradise, nirvana, the holy grail, the jack pot. Not even your wildest dreams or most unrestrained imagination can come close. It is total.
  18. Obviously, I don't know if this is true, but I intuitively see life as a mission. If I enjoy it, great, but the mission is the goal, not the enjoyment. I want to feel, at the moment of my death, that I gave what I could and that I tried my best. It's difficult to know which path to take at any given moment; you have to be able to read reality and intuit the right option. I believe that if you align yourself with reality, even if you're sick, life acquires meaning. It's essential to find meaning in human life, since human life is always hard. Spirituality tells you no, that you're here to be happy, just be now, but just being is never enough being human. Human system always need a vector.
  19. "Worrying" It's a function of the predictive mind that energizes the choice of possibilities. If it weren't, you wouldn't care whether you stored food for winter or not, and your whole family would starve. Evolutionarily, worrying about the future has been rewarded because it was more effective than not doing so. Worrying is not a belief, is a reality that happens for a reason
  20. No, I really can't watch a movie. It's not something that I do like a purpose , I literally hate watching the actors, same than I hate the effect of alcohol, but I like the effect of LSD for example. Just preferences. Anyway I like reading comic. I don't know exactly where is the difference but there is So except watching movies there is not anything else to do?
  21. I enjoy life a lot, that's why I don't lose time watching a movie, I found it absolutely crazy . You could do anything else that is constructive or contemplative but real, not that fast food
  22. I had a very serious psychological problem that I couldn't solve. My father was a real malignant narcissist; it's something extremely difficult to decipher. My parents died when I was a teenager, and I was left with a feeling of murderous hatred. I had to live with it all the time, so I was very addicted to intense things: extreme sports, sex, and drugs (always controlling the last fortunately) At one point, I realized I had to face my reality. I tried to talk to my family about it, but they forbide it and blocked me. My sister spread that I have paranoid psychosis and that I'm a criminal 😅. She lives in terror that I'm going to her city to kill her. She's a psychologist,. studied thanks my business (now you might be thinking: "Oh, right, he's a paranoid psychotic").I lived from my own business from very young and some of them were, let's say bit unusual, so my family labeled me and bye. In short, I decided to eliminate all external stimuli and face my reality without anesthesia. I spent about two or 3 years meditating for two or three hours every day, eliminating all distractions: novels, movies, socializing, alcohol, until absolutely nothing remained. I also took psychedelics in high doses hundreds of times. My focus was total. Little by little, with enormous effort, I delved deeper, and at a certain point, my mind shifted. The entire trauma was first fully perceived, then integrated, and went from being a barrier to an impulse. After that, I started meditating constantly, staring into the abyss of death. It was fascinating, like having a terrifying, unfathomable chasm before me. My past gliding in worse condition possible, climbing walls, and sailing in search of the most challenging situations helped me a lot. At a certain point, that abyss became attractive, and suddenly I wasn't looking at the abyss; I was the abyss. I had no limits, and all of reality was flowing, and I was that flow. Yes! Yessss!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Total. I can do that with a little time, and I have that state many times throughout each day, but that doesn't mean it doesn't generate enormous anxiety if my economy collapses or if the doctor tells me I have something strange. But in background there is not a wounded psyche, it's always the abyss, and the abyss smiles me all time, be one with it is the best possiblity possible, and the energy flows free. But you are still a human and a human has to fight and grow every single moment, because otherwise you sink. Nothing is static, so we have to move forward always, not for a reason but because it's the drive of reality