Breakingthewall

You choose it when it happens, same than someone choose being a toxic narcissist, it happens. It's the drive of what you are. Maybe for you 5 meo is nothing, worthless. It depends of your psychological structure. Seems that yours is low density, natural for spirituality. That's why your intuition detects the mistakes without a lot of mental analysis. For most of people that's impossible, they believe what sounds safe for their ego and they integrate that structure in their psyche. Imo the real problem in spirituality is that the teachers aren't accurate, all of them make mistakes that trap the minds About 5 meo what I was seeking is the act of disintegrating my psyche and its subsequent reintegration, over and over again. I wasn't looking to see God or anything like that; I was looking to completely break down my psychological structure and gradually understand what it was, so I could be free, able to dissolve its barriers at will. The psyche is not just thoughts, are energetic structures that make you being yourself, it's very difficult to understand from inside, 5 meo gives the possibility of seeing from outside

I like to contrast view with anyone interested in spirituality, but some people are unbearable, only ego, too narrow mind. Anyway it's interesting to see the psychology of people that is involved in this topic. Any interaction shows new nuances

I shouldn't answer , you are like a kid. Last answer.

Then shut up and be

Exactly, the only possibile knowledge is being. You always are, but humans are closed by fear and by the inherent structure subject object that happens by the fact of a conscious organism. Dissolving the separation and open yourself to the unlimited implies being the unlimited, that is, dissolving any limits

Limitless being is not grandiosity because "being" is not an entity, is a fact. It's not big or small, it's just limitless. The infinite does things then, like recognitions? And now it knows that there is not self and that means enlightenment? So before the infinity wasn't enlightened? Maybe it's more simple, you are a human with a self, and that self can be open or closed. That self is a real evolutive structure that is happening. Maybe it's not permanent, but it's real now.

Was a drive of conquest, or better liberation. I felt myself prisoner from fear and was absolutely unbearable, better death than trapped life. I felt it from I was a kid. I never doubted about doing those things because there was no choice. Same than doing a lot of psychedelics, like doing 5meo dmt like 100 times in a year. It was necessary, nothing to negotiate, my intuition was absolute. I had to break the wall without possible choice. If there is no choice everything become simple. I knew that Martin Ball had horrible deadly insomnia after those practices, 5 meo touches deep your energetic configuration, but my feeling was direct without doubt, then nothing to do to avoid it, I can't control myself, I do what I want, then I don't try to control. Now I do 5meo and I feel it very bad, toxic, even in low doses, so I never do anymore

There is not formless awareness, any awareness is awareness of relative change. That's the mistake of non duality, they affirm that there is something, the consciousness, that is the foundation of reality. Consciousness is just an arising that happens in reality because it's possible

There is a process happening in the reality, or the reality in the form of a complex process, called Wilhelm that has the drive of self preservation inherited from the origins of life and that has also the expansive drive proper of the reality itself

That's wrong and this is the obvious mistake of all spirituality kind Tolle, Ralston, etc. The ego is built upon real evolutionary structures, neural pathways created in deep time. For example, if your parents reject you, your system creates a persistent structure that translates into suffering. Why? If a tuna is rejected by its parents, it doesn't matter, nor does a severely autistic child. They don't even grasp the idea. The entire ego is a edifice built upon evolutionary pillars created for group cohesion. And the suffering that occurs because of this is real: your cortisol levels rise, your defenses weaken, cognitive functions are blocked. You can even die. Psychological suffering is not an illusion, that's very simplistic vision. Suffering is suffering, and it's always a signal to produce movement, change.

If you do a little research on physics and how the physicists arrived at their conclusions through mathematical logic, you see how strange it is that the human mind can understand the laws and equations that define reality, but then you realize that everything that exists is relational, and mathematical logic is relation. The human mind evolved for hunting in groups and all that; the brain of a scientist is the same as that of a Paleolithic guy, and this mind can accurately understand quantum superposition, for example.

Science never claims that they know what the reality ultimately is. They try to understand how the reality works in this universe, but any serious scientist would admit that they don't know nothing, just some properties of this universe The point is that when you start to understand how this reality works , relativity, quantum physics, you start to perceive the pattern, the intelligence that any relationship intrinsic is. It's not that intelligence creates relationships, but rather that relationships are intelligence.

What is magic? What we don't understand? I would recommend you some serious research and study about physics. Relativity and quantum physics as deep as you can. As you seem seriously interested in the reality, you would find it amazing. Using the IA is let's say, not an absolute mess. You can start with relativity, then Emmy norther, plank, Feynman, Maxwell, etc. The fields theory and how the retardation, the time, arises from the mass. How the relativity is essential for distinctions , and how an universe is a mathematical equation. I would recommend reading also Tegmark theories and Penrose is also amazing, very elegant

What I'm pointing is that non duality is essentially mistaken. Mistaken means that closes the mind and doesn't allow or help to the openess to the absolute. How is mistaken? Denying what is real and affirming what is an idea. Maybe you don't understand what I'm pointing But the point would be: Is your mind and your heart open to the absolute?

And? What appears are local excitations of the fields of reality ruled by laws that are the framework of the universe, creating local patterns of increasing complexity within an ocean of entropy. Physics describes it quite well.

How could be an illusion? Physics describes the equation that this universe is. The logical relationship that makes reality existing as we see. Where is the illusion?

Form is not a drop in the ocean; it is the ocean in a drop, you know the famous phrase. This is because there isn't an ocean formed by many drops, but rather each drop is the ocean in the form of a drop. Put another way, form is not an illusion but the inevitable manifestation of being. Denying its reality and defining it as an illusion closes you off, and what we seek is to open us up.

Unlimited being is the fact of being because there are not limits, affirmative drive without opposite. Calling it "nothingness" is just confusion because it is. It's not a mystery, it's obvious, it's the inevitable consequence of no restrictions and we are that. Any name that we could give has the sole purpose of allowing ourselves to being open to this reality, and nothingness is a term that implies exclusion and closure.

Of course, also physical suffering, less better because we are humans. The problem is defining it as false and the absolute as absence of suffering when we see that suffering is. This is not self help, this is the real opening to the unlimited. Spirituality tells you: extinguish your candle to find the truth. Imo that's not the truth, it's just anesthesia

To say that the essence of reality is nothingness is the quintessential Buddhist evasion. The essence of reality is, obviously, unlimited being. Unlimited being is the inevitable consequence of limitlessness or absence of restrictions, and being unlimited has no opposite, such as non-being or nothingness. Nothingness is merely an idea; it is impossible since it would require being contained, limited by something . Being is absolute, because non being don't is. Quite simple imo

Liberation? Where can we find that liberation? Our Master himself has joyfully taken upon himself the bonds of creation; he is bound with us forever. Tagore. In other words: Buddha, stop being a pussy scaping from suffering because suffering is the reality.

Stop singing and counting your accounts. Whom do you worship in that dark, lonely corner of your temple, with all the doors closed? Open your eyes and see: Your God is not before you! “He is there, where the farmer digs the hard earth and where the stonecutter breaks the stones. He is with them under the sun and the rain, his garment covered in dust. Take off your sacred mantle and, like Him, go down into the mud of the earth!” Tagore

To say that reality is dreamlike implies that there is a dreamer, a mind that creates reality. The very word "reality" implies that there cannot be a higher level than it; nothing creates reality, since that creator would be "reality," and reality would be unreal. This is a flawed formulation. Try this: reality is unlimited being, and its inevitable quality or manifestation is unlimited dynamism. Manifestation and essence are one, there is not substance without form, no form without substance. Forms are absolutely real, because they are the reality. Defining them as "love" is condescendence. Is putting yourself, a manifested form, above the reality naming it, like if the reality is a fool kid to be defined but here you are "essential peace sublime full of love" (in Sanskrit) to forgive the reality and defining it from inside that reality, in exchange of being idolized

The permanent cessation of the separate self is unnecessary and a myth. It is enough to completely dissolve separation in meditation and, in daily life, perceive the transparency of separation. But separation exists; it is real. All those non-dualistic teachers who go to the forest do so because their mothers feed them. Without their mothers and their bottles, they would face the reality of life. All that would be absolutely legitimate if they would admit the reality of separation of the form and the intelligence of the reality finding the optimal possibility, but no, they affirm that everything is illusion Then we could say: there is no separate self if others who work hard feed me, since I deserve it and they are unconscious fools. Then, since nothing matters, I give lectures and write books to earn millions and be idolized. I do this work because I don't care. Ah, from now on call me "primordial peace of the morning full of spring dew". In Indian, please.

What is perfection is the fact of being, not the form from the human perspective . Both are compatible. Perfection of being, suffering of human form. Suffering is just another arising, but feels bad being human. "Feels bad" is an arising, same than any other.