Breakingthewall

I suppose you know that you're frying the emotional circuits of your mind on a thousands-of-watt electric grill, and that there's a tipping point where your system is fried and everything can easily turns let's say horrible

I never would do this and I think it's very dangerous. You don't know how will you react to 5meo . Some people have very strong defenses, it could be a really horrible experience and you could die.

I exist. If you doubt it I challenge you to a trial by combat. The one who lives is who exist. Choose your weapons. Logical weapons if you want

If that's true solipsism is false, and if there are another gods no one is a god because any creation would be limited by the other gods.

Any conceptual description in this context serves the purpose of not acting as a barrier to openness to absolute being. For this to happen, the essential element is the complete absence of contradiction or closure. Every description must be open. For example: reality exists, and what appears is reality existing, a possibility in being. This leaves room for openness in all directions; it is unnecessary to define anything as dream, unreal, or empty. The point is that your conceptual frame let's you to open yourself to the absolute being. This is not a knowledge or a realization, it's a movement that happens now that opens yourself to the absolute dimension of being.

Why? I think things are much simpler. They are what they seem: possibilities unfolding, not dreams. The goal isn't to define experience differently, but rather for experience to be open to its essential nature, not focused entirely on survival conditioning, that includes the social inevitable conditioning

The ego is the absolute appearing as an ego. In meditation you can collapse the selfs structure, it doesn't mean that there isn't a self but that self can exist a while without structure, then the nature of this self is revealed. Then the self sees itself as happening and it's substance as being. So self and no self, a stone for example, are the same substance, even the stone doesn't know that it is and the self does

10 mg is not small, maybe you didn't vaporize all, it's not so easy. When you exhaled, did a large cloud of smoke come out, or at least a clearly visible amount? In theory, a 5-MeO breakthrough is that reality completely breaks down and the sense of centeredness and boundaries disappears. You perceive yourself as nothing definable, but the experience remains, and this lack of structure is perceived as alive, a source, existence. This doesn't imply that reality is that, but rather that when you vape 5-MeO, this experience occurs. For me, the most valuable thing was, first, having the sensation of a diaphanous existence without my ego full of shit filtering it, and then perceiving how the psyche breaks down and reforms itself in seconds. It's like seeing a mechanism that is otherwise impossible to see because you're inside it. 5-MeO places you outside. Yes that's a good point. It's not become more self aware but change of dimension. You could become more and more conscious, like an intergalactic being, a self-aware god creating realities, yet still perceiving yourself in the dimension of form. The point is to shift to the dimension of being. It makes no difference whether you're a god or a fly; there are no levels. What reality is is the affirmative fact of being that arises from limitlessness, or rather, that limitlessness is. If you can set aside the dimension of form for a while, not as nonexistent, but as irrelevant, and open yourself completely to the dimension of being without absolutely any structure, that's it; there is nothing more. "More" is structure in that reality; it neither adds nor subtracts; it is form, and we speak of substance. The problem here is that you reach a point where you are aware of absolute being. That is still structure. "Consciousness" must disappear. Not the fact of being aware of yourself, but being aware that you are aware of yourself. Only being without structure should remain. So what you are is obvious. After that, in a normal state, it's more or less easy to see the true nature of reality in everything. If you're being chased by a pack of killer dogs, it's more difficult at that moment, but without that kind of thing, it's easy. After that opening, if it happens many times, your experience turns like present, not a timeline but like a expanded presence. It's like the fact of being is in the first plane and the fact of what you are in second plane. It's not false or illusion, it's secondary (until the dogs appear). Then you perceive yourself without friction, and you get aware of the depth of this human reality, the perfection of this happening. Not perfection as you like working as slave but the fact of being in this form, the reality brights like something alive.

Who is generating the realities?

Sure but there are still rats with rat consciousness. You could realize that being is unlimited, but this doesn't means that you as a form is the only form that exist.

Yes but you are conscious of being a person, not a rat. Where is the consciousness of being a rat? Out of your consciousness, right? Then there is consciousness out of your field of consciousness

@phillyvx Your life is entirely real, obviously. You are reality unfolding in a form or dimension of enormous complexity and depth. But at the same time, we are default prisoners of the human matrix. We are evolutionarily programmed to be part of the tribal group. This is as important as the fact of living. This group has become a shifting human matrix where relationships aren't deep and true, they're transactional, and the people we interact with live in a world of confusion, seeking balance as best they can. It's a very complex situation that leads to an emotionally unbalanced life. It's essential to delve into your own subconscious and understand what drives you, to confront yourself and free yourself from the chains you've created. These chains are solid; they are based on evolutionary mechanisms of enormous power. It's very difficult to see them because they are part of you. But if you don't, life becomes hell, unless you're foolish enough to numb yourself with what society offers you. About believing people who present a description of how reality is, well.... better thinking that no one is above you, listening as inspiration is good, but believing is a mistake. Means that you are a believer. Why you believe this and not that? Because it resonates with you, but that doesn't mean that it's true. Only you can see the truth, ant the truth is absolutely simple, direct. Then, after that absolute truth that is absolutely simple, we can make opinions and analysis as accurate as we can, but no one is absolutely true, the only absolute truth is that you are. This seems like obvious, but if you open yourself totally to it, you will see that this implies everything.

Your conscious is infinite? I'd say that no, then where are all the other conscious possiblities?

Idealism and the realization of God say that everything is your mind and there is nothing outside your field of experience; this is absolute. Well, except that God, who is you but in a hidden state, is currently executing a very complicated camouflage operation to make himself believe that experience is real. This fact is outside of experience. For example, the ground you are standing on is being created by you now, but outside of your experience. That is, experience is absolute except for this. It seems you want to believe this solipsism because it makes you feel good, and you invent a chain of arguments that don't hold up in order to believe it. And you explain them to nonexistent people. Why? Do you realize how this sounds for anyone that is listening you?

The actual experience of existing is an illusion?

Why do you believe that? It's very complicated belief where God wants to live an experience, then he design carefully everything to be deceived, and now he's submitted to laws that he created but everything is a dream and you are imagining me, so only you exist and everything that appears is a creation of your mind. Ok, I respect your beliefs. My beliefs are that Putin is the incarnation of Satan and I'm the archangel Gabriel, then he wants to kill me with uranium iny coffee then I have to put urine in all coffees that I drink and do a special dance, then Putin gets weaker and weaker, in some moment he will die and the universe will disappear. Why it's impossible? Maybe it's true.

What believe? Then if you don't believe in them you can fly?

The universe exist and that's it. How do you know that only this consciousness exist? You can know that you exist but not that others doesn't

What is tangible? Energy and everything are properties of this universe, are how the reality appears. Reality is and appears, that's everything, you don't need more to define. Everything else are derivations of that fact

Under the atom there are the fields of reality, the laws of universe, the energy and the relationship between states right? Anyway that's the same, the atom is,Ike anything else.

This is not a dream, a dream implies an structure where a dreamer, the absolute, is doing something, the dream, then the dreamer is real and the dream no, and you can awake of the dream and realize that you are the dreamer. That dreamer would be a subject, an entity, God. The thing is different, what is happening is a possibility of the fact of being taking place, period. The self is real, as a possibility that's happening. Absolute being is not someone who does things, is the quality of reality, what reality is. Reality is, period. Then you shift your focus from happening to being, then the experience changes , becomes alive, the lack disappear.

Are two different dimensions of the same reality. Not one real another false . If you mix them in your mind you could think that you are god dreaming or anything like that.

@Mellowmarsh You are right, or Newman is right in a sense: There are two ways to perceive the absolute. One is absolute being, the total brilliance of what is, sat chit ananda. The fact of being affirmative, radiant, self-aware, and absolute joy because nothing limits it. Total light, what is called enlightenment. The other is absolute emptiness, which is total potential. You perceive yourself as unlimited emptiness, an absence of limits with nothing to hold onto, no reference point, but the very fact of limitlessness perceives itself as total potential. Absolute nothingness in the sense of being unbounded, formless, but open, potential. But saying: reality is nothing leads to confusion

If you don't understand what I'm pointing it's not my fault. Enlightenment is only one, and it's obvious and understandable.

If it's absolute potential it's something independent of the actualization. Maybe it's not something physical but it is.