Breakingthewall

Then you could try if you want. The self is an interesting topic

I understood that you imply that you had that realization and me not. We already know that dynamic here is this forum right? Spiritual narcissism. If I misunderstood, sorry

We were having a conversation and then you told me: you can't understand it if you are not awake. Just trying to explain that this is not the way to having a conversation about this topic. Anyway, a pleasure (until the wild card)

Thanks you very much, but as it's clear I'm not in your level i need some detailed explanation. This one: "the self is absolute" deserves being written in stone, I agree, but some of us need special teaching What I was trying is to define self. I'm not an Avatar as people here, then I see it ambiguous, but ok, "the self is absolute". Learned.

That sounds condescending. Better explain, even you are talking with someone inferior in knowledge, saying that quote "the self is absolute", and nothing else is useless. It's clear that you are speaking with someone who is not in your level. Anyway, even in my narrow mind real understanding is impossible, just try.

Then according to you the reality is a designed game?

That's true. When you say, "We're leaving tomorrow," you're no longer a human with preferences; you're an arrow pointing in one direction. There's no room for anything else, which is why I say it's meditative. You can't think, "Well, let's see when this ends, I hope it's pleasant." You only think about the boat, the wind, and the sea, as if you were a robot. If you have to go out at 4 a.m. to the bow of the boat with a headlight and spend hours unhooking a rope while freezing water pours down on you and the wind is brutal, you do it without thinking about anything, only about how to do it, about what needs fixing. It's inevitable, it's going to be fixed. Your will is a laser; there's only your will and that thing that fails. Anything can happen every second, for days. It's like being in another dimension. But it's very different totally alone than with a friend, even the friend doesn't help the difference is huge, even if in days you talk 2 minutes per day, you are sharing. Alone the first 3 days are horrible, it's the worse place where you want to stay, then little by little you get used but if you sleep 3h per day it's a great sleep, once I ve been 3 days sleeping zero, in some moment get dangerous, you can't handle things, and accident is very possible. The feeling is that it's absolutely serious, and the nights are long, then the day comes and you feel it so wonderful. In some point you feel the sea as a continuity of yourself, the boat as your body, if any subtle change happens you perceive at the moment, then you must know what have happened. Many big problems happen, it's absolutely essential to have clean perception of everything all time. Nobody can help you there, there is no internet, you are alone so there is no choice, that makes you sharp. Its beautiful, some moments are absolutely wonderful, your soul opens up. Then other moments you feel absolutely miserable, wet, frozen, but there is zero complain, you are not someone who can complain, just a cog in a system that is running. Then you arrive to destiny leave the boat in a marina, do the passport or anything and go walking in the city and everything seems a dream, irreal ,another reality Once I had small experience and I just started with a girlfriend, and we went from canary islands to south Spain in a wooden boat with the mast of wood, built in 1950, without communication with exterior , no meteo info, in middle of November against the wind with that boat that lick water everywhere, everything grey, like a dream, 12 days. I thought: she's so strong. Maybe she thought it was a movie 😅 the reality was that was a total madness

Nobody knows the structure of reality. Maybe there are other dimensions, conscious reincarnation, maybe no. I have the feeling that what I do in this life have an reverberation, and what I have to do is being absolutely aligned with my nature, totally integral. I feel this game as a serious one, with serious consequences. But maybe I'm absolutely wrong.

It's not about being introverted, it's about not being an idiot. Being a very social guy who acts like a character, hangs out with other people who do the same, travels to cool places, and sleeps with "high value" women or men is being an idiot and a puppet . It might not seem like it, but it's absolutely idiotic. This isn't an opinion; it's a fact. They do that because they can't see beyond the surface, they don't understand the depth of life (since, for one reason or another, they're idiots; it could have happened to you, or to me). Human relationships are real and profound, social reality is the will to live, the drive of what lives, work is excellence, love is absolute, and family is an expansion of life. Life is hard and requires real human connections, not the nonsense of idiots. Idiots are puppets, if you scratch a bit, you will find just nothing.

I guess so, usually ego means the comparative self, not the fact of being. The fact of being is absolute, but being aware of the fact of being needs relativity. Without zero relativity there can't be awareness, but the pure relativity of the reality looking itself could be called self, not ego

Very interesting, truly serious in his practice, and his descriptions of states of bliss are accurate and authentic. I'd like to be able to meditate for a whole day (not 5 months 😅), but for now it's impossible; my ego would start screaming at me to stop wasting my time right now. But in a couple of hours I can achieve a level of dissolution close to total. The thing is, automatically, when you begin meditating, your state changes to: there is no good or bad, no difference. Then your entire energetic structure relaxes immediately, and the boundaries of reality blur. You realize that you're creating barriers all the time with preference, which is inevitable and necessary, but it's essential to be able to deactivate this for a few minutes each day, even just one minute. The difference is total. When the barriers fall, reality becomes limitless. Then what is recognizes itself; nothing more is needed, no infinity, no god, no source, just what is. But there can be more, that is, mystical experience. The mystical experience is the opening to power, to the absolute source, to the sacred that vaporizes your psyche and, with just a fleeting glimpse, tells you: purify yourself. humble yourself. align yourself with the sacred. Then a process begins.

For me the difference is for example If you say, "Reality is God taking forms because He wants experiences," then I ask you, "But if God is infinite, then He must have already had infinite experiences, right?" Then It all depends on how you respond. If you respond in an explanatory way, arguing your point and somehow appreciating that your view is being challenged, then the speaker is a mind that aims for understanding. On the other hand, if you reply, "Brother, you're not awake. Get out of your materialistic paradigm. I'm sending you lots of love, hugs, and ❤️ (and don't write to me again, son of a bitch)," then the speaker is a defensive ego. In the second case, it's not a bad idea to question them enough, just so their true nature is revealed

They find people that is fool enough and low self esteem to believe their performance , and they dismiss the others insulting them as low, stupid, etc. Like bentinho massaro or any other sect leader. Narcissist are sect leader wannabe

Being a narcissist is exhausting, I find incredible how they can maintaining their narratives. Because he was my sister therapist. Then he's a person that validates everything and give you compassion (and hugs). If he were one who analyze and confront my sister would have leave him first day. If fact after I talked with him she left him without saying bye, because he wasn't clean anymore. Those people go to the therapist to lie and invent a character, paying 90€ per hour. Then they are therapist themselves. Yes a lot of adventures not just sailing because in the past my level of introspection was zero, I was like blind to this dimension, then I was totally focused in the exterior, a kind of evasion but oriented as good as I could. For example once I have nothing do do for a while and I bought an old motorcycle 2k euros, and I went from Madrid to Senegal alone with 500€ all nights sleeping in the floor, morroco, Mauritania , Senegal and back to Madrid, I never have done a trip in motorbike before . Then another thing, another more, etc etc. Climbing 200m wall, gliding with worse condition possible, boxing hard if I'm in the city, 3 days party with drugs etc. Absolutely always in some thing like this, never stopping Now I think about that and I think, wtf? That was because I only felt connected in exposure, without that life seemed death or hell. Now. I'm totally focused in understanding the human, the mind, the openess, I find it much more fascinating, connection is everywhere, exposure is the very fact of existing. Have done that shift have been an interesting change of frequency that made me have seen quite deep into myself

Could you give more information? What abilities did you develop, what did you see in others? I'm interested in the topic. I was recently reading about Brian Weiss's cases of regressive hypnosis, and some are impressive. I'm not 100% skeptical, but the problem with siddhis is that no one has ever demonstrated any under scientific observation, just like with any paranormal ability. When subjected to the scientific method, the result is that they don't exist.

Agree on that, universal solution doesn't exist, it depends a lot of the person. My energetic structure was so dense that would be impossible without a solvent like 5meo, and I ve not the patience, the discipline. I can be very obsessive in anything but not by discipline, then without the trigger of 5meo I would die with a dense psyche

It depends of what meaning we give to the ego. Imo ego means self, the perception of being that implies the "I". But also you could say that the ego is the idea that we have of ourselves due the human interaction. Being successful, etc, and the basic pure I am is not ego.

I don't believe nothing, 7 years ago I decided to break the shell of my mind, then I started meditation and I focused in spirituality very seriously . Then I started with psychedelics, not because I believe anyone, just experiencing and seeing what's more effective. I'm smart enough to believe in myself, I don't need gurus or teachers. Then I discovered 5 meo and I used it very deeply, and now I'm talking about it. The change have been dramatic, my mind is open, then I can talk about it .

Yes but we are that life. The drive of life is your drive, the will of survival of life is our will.

Being afraid of death is narcissism. You know that you are absolutely certain to die, so living coherently means accepting this fact completely and keeping it in mind at every moment. All of us have some compound of narcissism or self deception, but it's important to see it, not inventing parallel realities

That's cute that everyone believes those siddhis but no one proved them with scanners and scientist. Maybe I'm a too skeptical, but I don't believe rumors spread by a book seller. Who is enlightened?

At the end the center is the last frontier of the ego. The center means the receiver of the experience. In a given moment the reality is reduced to the absolute basic structure: I am. Perception of being. The fact of knowing that you are. You, me , any conscious being is this structure with added characteristics. The naked ego is the I am. This can be dissolved, that's the real point, breaking the I am then the ocean manifest. The I am is closed, openess requires zero structure. I am is structure

What B. Roberts describes is realizing that reality is God. There isn't a "you" seeing reality; "a you seeing reality" is the reality. Reality is God; there is only one God, the reality, and reality is this now. This is absolutely obvious; it's nothing mystical or special. But then she speaks about good, bad,.God that create humans because a reason etc and that's a Christian mess imo

Because just meditating you wont reach total openess unless you are Ramakrishna I have done 5meo like 70 times before i can manage it and understand what is the idea, what i want with 5meo. I also was meditating 2 or 3 h by day, that were basically a hell until thanks to 5 meo started to be meditation Now for me 5meo is useless, I don't like anymore, I have done hundreds of times.now feels like It's just dissolution, and? And it has like false taste. But in some point was necessary

Because he resisted and breakthrough didn't happen. He wanted to impress the other guy, be the boss, not a surrender to the unlimited