Breakingthewall

I understand you. You mock what I said because you need to be enlightened, then any deeper sight threaten you, and your defense is ridicule to feel safe. You could keep saying all people around you that of the self doesn't exist and that you are enlightened, and only very few are like you, I'm sure that they will get very impressed. Maybe some of them bit bored.

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The observer is the structure that a human is. Is the fact of perceiving. Perceiving is the reality reflected in itself. The observer and the observed are the same, but exist in an structure that allows the fact of perceiving. I don't know what did you read, but denying what's obvious only will mess your mind

I don't see things that way. I'm not constantly defining myself as a self; I don't care if there is a self or not, nor do I want to be enlightened to get a medal and a diploma. I simply perceive that I exist. It's quite strange if you stop to think about it. Let's see, I exist, and right here, now, the fact of existing is happening. You completely empty your mind of ideas and focus entirely on this reality. Then you perceive an energy that is keeping you isolated. If you focus on that energy, your heart starts beating fast. It's primal fear. Not a silly fear you've learned, but the atavistic terror of destruction. Then you stare at this terror; it's fascinating. You begin to see how you are closed in a kind of bubble. Even with your mind at zero, the bubble is there. Then you want to break it. These aren't mental stories; it's absolutely real, it's your current structure, what reality is now. At a certain point, the door opens, and your nature is revealed. Then your eyes open; it's wild, it's fire, life, creation, the absolute power that springs from the boundless abyss that is reality. It's the fire that makes you exist, interconnected with a web of inconceivable proportions, that makes you who you are. In fact, it is exactly what you are. But over all it's open, it's unlimited. Then you could think: how's this possible? But it's obvious that it's inevitable. There are no limits, then you are, and you are that, the unlimited that emits potential in all directions, the absolute being. This is not a mental history, it's the reality. But then your psyche, created by the human tide of which you are a part, shuts you down again and again. It's a process that starts and moves forward, like anything else that exists

By the way, a reflection on openness to the totality. It's not something you know. If yesterday your openness to the limitless that lives was the case, but today, for whatever reason, the structure of your psyche closes, then you don't know what the limitless was. It's impossible because it's not something concrete, it's not someone, an entity; it's the bottomless, boundless from which reality inevitably springs. If you are open to it, it is total light. If you are closed, you start to think...let's see, so I am the inevitable bottomless flow? That seems impersonal, wild, meaningless, an eternal prison, an infinite machine of equations that creates things because it can't help but. Everything turns gray, sad. The mind finds no foothold, nothing makes sense, not even death is an escape. Relationships with people, work, life...what is the point of this madness? It's what they call the dark night of the soul. So you have to be astute and understand how you close and reopen.

This wasn't intended as a method, but rather an explanation to understand what enlightenment is, its nature, where the closure lies, and how to approach the movement that tends toward enlightenment. It may seem like I'm teaching people, but that's not the case. What I write are reflections, and I share them because doing so helps me... let's say, refine the mental scalpel necessary to understand this game. What I say is based on real experience; I'm not making anything up. But having the experience is one thing, understanding its structure is another. I can't help but focus on this for a considerable amount of time each day, then it's great that there is some people to share, even for argues 😅

What we are is a structure that the synchronicity of reality creates, existing in an interconnected relationship with the rest of reality, like everything else that exists. Given our dual nature, as self-preserving processes that interact with an external world, oriented towards permanence, a process called mind appears, which is a link between the inner and outer universes. This universe, which we call consciousness, can open itself to the totality of nature that is its source and essence. This is the eye of the reality.

The observer doesn't vanishes, the observer opens itself to it's unlimited nature. The observer will vanish when it dies, but there are many observers. Infinite more or less. Then if you die nothing important is lost. But the point is not this, is being open to the source. Understanding is a mean to allow that openess. Human nature is such that closes, then real understanding is needed. If not life is shit because you are closed. It's the same if you have everything, you are in the desert

So you are the observer right? The observer is just a structural point that happens in the experience. Enlightenment happens when the observer open itself to what reality is, becoming an eye that see the absolute and realizing that the eye is the absolute in seeing itself. If you want to open yourself to the absolute you have to start from humility. You always have addressed this work from the need of increase your ego, and this doesn't work

I think that the answer is easy. The "I" of the experience is always the same: the experiencer. That is to say, you and I are exactly the same, without the slightest difference: an experiencer having an experience. Can you feel it? It's the "I am." Take away the content, and the difference between you and me is exactly zero. We are "I am," period. So if you die, don't worry, I'll try dating models or something for you. But the point here isn't to be that boring, empty "I am" that's absolutely always there experiencing different funny experiences like the absolute nihilism and the black depression of the lonely oldhood, but rather for that "I am" to open itself up to "what I am." Then the I, that is a structural construction made by the fact of the experience will be the eye of the reality looking itself. Then the I and the reality will recognize as the same absolute unlimited that is everything, the total fullness, the life, the cosmos, the unfathomable that lives. and they will say: Hallelujah, the prodigal son wandered for a long time in a shitty desert of sadness, lack, misery and madness, but he has returned home, and now his cup is filled to overflowing.

Experience is a expression of the reality, the reality doesn't need experience but as it is a possibility, experience happens. You are the experience, but as the experience is an expression of the reality, you are an expression of the reality, then what you are is the reality expressing itself as an experience. Do you get the logic? It's very simple and surely you did. What is not so simple is breaking the shell of the experience and open yourself to your nature as absolute reality, but if you are interested I can explain you for free how to do it. I guess you would appreciate the gesture that comes from anyone that had to listen all your angry thing 5 years😅

Sure but your experience is not the absolute, the absolute is the source of your experience. I think it's quite easy to understand it. "Experience" means awareness, and awareness happens due the human process. But your true nature is not the process, is the source of that process. Then, from the process you can perceive the nature of the process, and realizing that you as a process are an expression of that nature, so what you really are is that nature, then when the process finish the absolute nature remains, and it's irrelevant if it's conscious of itself or not, if your self disappear or not, the absolute is and you are that. Really, not a mental history. If you don't open yourself to it you can't understand it because for you reality=experience.

Then you are saying that it's better for your life being detached than attached, and surely you are right, but that's different to affirm that you are not real. One thing is a preference, the other a self induced psychosis. Your preference can open yourself to the totality, but the induced psychosis will encloses you.

Then if they do that, according to you it means that my previous life didn't exist, because I don't remember it? Look, we are a local process that's going to finish, but you can transcend the process and be the essence. That essence has no memory, will, desire, can't die and never started, it's the unlimited that is absolute potential. The point is not knowing it but being open to it, then it's clear that the process is just a process and you can stop being enclosed in it. That's very simple to understand imo, but not simple to do. The point is do the movement, align yourself to make the action possible. The action is the openess of the actual structure to the nature of reality

I understand perfectly. You're referring to the feeling of centrality, of being an individual in control, a receiver of experience, moving along a timeline, defining itself, fearing, and desiring. Since this is something transitory, according to your assessment, it's unreal. What I'm saying is that this self is a process, a local expression of the global process of this universe, and its drive is the drive that is taking place. So, if this self is an expression of the universe, which in turn is an expression of reality, then it can dilute the density of its local structure until only reality remains. Then this self and reality are one, but even so, the fundamental structure of the self persists. This structure is the fact of reality being conscious of itself.

Do you think that reality is your memory? No, there is reality beyond your memory, spirituality is about transcend the self, the memory, etc, and open yourself to your unlimited nature. Just be humble and start the process

I learned how to talk due the billions of years of learning that life needed to learn how to talk. Your actual life is just a line in a huge process, not an independent reality

Totally agree, the problem for me are the terms illusion, false, true, etc. when I got interested in spirituality I read all this stuff and it didn't help at all, and I see the effect of that paradigm in people and its clear that leads to confusion and closure For a while I mean. If you do often you reach a point where you do DMT of anything and you get more closed than don't doing, then it's time to stop Do you see? That's the problem for me. They feel vulnerable because they really are. There is not a belief in separation, it's real. You could say that in essence everything is the same reality in different expressions relating at all levels, but at the level where we operate, the separation is real. You don't want to be enslaved or locked in an Iranian prison. If a non-dual teacher comes along and tells you that being gang-raped daily in a Congolese prison is the same as being rich and doing whatever you want, and that this is awakening, the best thing to do is tell him to go to the Congolese prison himself to get more awakened. Those ideas only lead to confusion, are a denial of the reality

That valoration is just an opinion, and incorrect in my opinion. Now it matters , and when the body dies an energetic imprint will remain. In the form of your son's structure for example, or anything else. Then he will die, and the planet earth will disappear, but all the information will remain until the big freeze and when the universe restarts it will keep the information of you. This is not new age, just physics. Then maybe you could better say that everything matter What you call the body includes that self that you define as nonexistent. Human structure is a stable energetic process of unimaginable complexity that is happening now in reality; that is to say, it is an expression of reality. This process includes a hyper-complex network of relationships between fields, particles, atoms, molecules, cells, and electrical impulses, which form a self that decides. This self is entirely real. It can decide between burning itself alive with gasoline or eating ice cream. There is a universe of cause and effect that gives this self a concrete form, but ultimately there is a decision that is not predetermined. Reality works this way; it is the principle of quantum decoherence. Nothing is determined until all current relationships occur. Reality in not a determined thing but a wave of potentiality that actualices itself when the relationship take place The self is the visible tip of this cascade of relationships that give rise to movement. An action happen, and it's decided for a drive, a push, an unbalance to a side. The self is that drive. Not other mysterious force but you, the reality happening . All those are conditions that construct the structure that the self is as a manifestation of the reality, but ultimately the self is the final drive. Nothing can be determined, it's impossible. You can't know all the data because the uncertainty principle forbids it; it's absolutely impossible to know all the variables, even with an infinite computer. Reality pushes in one direction or another. You are reality doing that, manifesting as a self that decides. It's the reality knowing that is and what is. And you are that. Why to deny what's obviously real?

Because it's a mess choosing the right food every day? No, you are because you think that it's more healthy, or because it's unfair exploiting animals. You, that "illusion" , made that choice due it's structure. You like to say that this structure is illusory, but it's precisely the structure making a valoration and classifying itself in the label: illusory. Well...you could make any valoration but the reality is that the self exist, it's a real process that's happening in the reality and that decides that being vegan is the right choice

That would be like saying that being at home is false and that going to the mountains is real; it's a confusing mental map. I'm not closed to the unlimited btw, lately it's becoming like normal in some extent. The point is not falsehood vs truth, it's closeness vs openess. What I meant before with psychedelics was getting states of total dissolution, I did some from then, I think I'm done with psychedelics for a while this is the idea that reality is illusory. The absolute is not peace or emptiness, is power, vitality. Formless doesn't exist, when you talk about formless you are talking about a form that is not a square or a circle, but has properties, the property of existing, and that implies everything The space and time will pass and another combination will appear. It's not that the mind believes in separation, it's that is closed by the inherent emotional density of being human. the mind can see the flow of the existence and become one with it because the mind is the flow of existence, you don't need to believe in separation to perceive the dance of reality , the flow that happens is real. It's not false, it's just the manifestation or the unlimited that is always happening Anyway, when you say believing in separation maybe you mean this, but I think its not believing, it's closeness that happens for fear. Being human is difficult Then you perceived that was not formless, was grace as you said. It's an affirmative property, is positive in the sense that is. For me the point is being open to what reality is always at least in some extent, if not life is total shit. Nothing worths if you are closed. I get sad, in lack, isolated , miserable. Then you are careful to not close yourself.

Maybe you didn't read well, he said this:

The point is being open to the true nature of everything, that we are closing with our psychological structure. How does Advaita or non-duality address this? By establishing that everything is the same essence and that the self is an illusion. It's something you create through mental activity. Who is this "you" that creates the separate self through mental activity? A foolish ignorant who has made a mistake? Or perhaps billions of years of evolution from complex molecules to the stable process of unimaginable complexity called human? Who says that's an illusion? Why? It isn't; it's the structure that reality is now taking, giving rise to the fact of perceiving itself. Enlightenment is ceasing to perceive only the mirror of the psyche and perceiving the Absolute, and Advaita practitioners are in a mistake. They say that the Absolute is pure consciousness. The Absolute is the total source, the absence of limits that lives because it has no limits and that manifests in universes, dimensions, and everything that is possible. To open yourself to it, denying what exists by calling it an illusion is an obstacle, and saying that everything is one is irrelevant. If you are in total silence, the illusion, the absence of two, etc., all become irrelevant; it is simply "I am," completely devoid of content. And there, an action can occur: the opening to the totality. This won't happen because you think everything is one because you aren't thinking anything; it will happen because your heart, in its essence, is such that without articulating it, it says: I surrender to whatever comes, to torture, emptiness, death, total nihilism. I give myself . Kill me. It has to turn its emotional gears for a moment so that they align on that frequency, for a moment. It doesn't have to be like that all the time, but it needs to have that tendency, and at a given moment, that tendency materializes in a moment of total surrender. All of this has zero relation to the ego being an illusion and all that. Then if the openess happen, all the structure begin a mutation to become transparent, millimeter by millimeter the movement is to less density instead to more density, until the source starts to be your reality, you become more transparent little by little because it's a total change that can't happen in only a moment

Tolle understands it backwards. To begin with, Tolle hasn't healed anything; he had a mental breakdown one day due to extreme stress, and the next day his self was deactivated. His default mode network stopped functioning as an extreme defense mechanism, and then he tells you that there's something he calls the pain-body, which is the accumulated trauma of your life, activated by your thoughts. Then, through meditation, you can observe it, integrate it, and thus it disappears. It's the other way around. You don't remember your cousin slapping you and calling you an idiot, and then you activate the pain-body. The point is that you haven't been able to conquer your place in society and in reality; instead, you've cowardly adapted, feigning an autonomy and power you don't possess. So your system, which has evolutionary mechanisms stemming from war and slavery, knows you're in a weak, insecure position, that in savage circumstances you would be abused and intimidated. And to manifest this, which is your reality, it evokes your nice cousin urinating on your face. Because your system knows that you are in a very insecure position and that is screaming you: danger. If you had truly earned your place, it wouldn't matter to you. It wasn't that traumatic, it wasn't like the Siege of Stalingrad; it's a symbol that you're still a coward. If you stop being a coward and earn your place, that disappears, but you have to earn it, and that requires drive, courage, struggle, and absolute assertiveness. Otherwise, you'll suffer. This is life, not a video game where the ego decides what to feel. You are the tip of the iceberg of a vast tide called humanity, forged in war, oppression, conquest, and also in genius. Tolle is a painkiller; it works while you're reading it, but then you go out into the world and it's useless.

Incredible, 1 hour ago I thought about you, and I didn't though about you since you stop posting here