Breakingthewall

Me too have spent time hating and had to dig deep to find a way to stop, and I found it completely. It is not for me to see that the person who has damaged me when i was a kid is love. love is a word, even an adjective. The reality is that my whole circumstance is me. there is no outside of me. it's absolutely obvious to me. it can be said that everything is love, or everything is existence, or everything is x. is indifferent. everything is me, like a kind of multicolored kaleidoscope that comes out of me and to which I magically give meaning, but that really doesn't have it, it's just a dance that I dance with myself, like a flame that moves. It is something wonderful, beautiful. we call it love? Okay. but it seems confusing to me. better existence, or expression, or life, or me

I do not criticize shadguru. I ask why it is assumed that he is enlightened. Actually, many things that I have heard from him about metaphysics seem very accurate to me, but that does not mean anything. A lot of people on this forum could talk the same way. What I'm saying is that we don't have to be credulous, and less so with public figures. They are usually corrupt. maybe shadguru is not, maybe yes

fighting satisfies the ego, makes you feel powerful, capable, and important. the ego is vanity in great part, and with the fight it grows. there's nothing wrong with that, and a bit of a struggle from time to time is nice, but to say that god is bored and needs challenges...is a completely egotistical perspective.

what is so special about shadguru? the beard and the turban? the stories he tells about his reincarnations? the millions he puts into his account every year? the nonsense he says about politics or sex? his condescending giggle practiced a thousand times with acting teachers? You don't need any genetic for this, only be smart

that's a completely human perspective. if you were a whale you would be out there swimming with your mouth open swallowing plankton and you would not get bored. Being bored is human. If you were a tree, you'd be bored to death then. sex has to be hard to be satisfying. Ah, so, all the stable couples in the world are disgusted by sex, since it has no challenge. too many computer games!

and for saying that no human being is going to suffer what he has suffered, the need of appear as special, and above all for not explaining anything concrete about his awakening. magic, it's wonderful, blah blah.

obviously messianic delirium.

If I were you I would be with her 100% during this time. forget your life focus on your mother. Accompany her in the deepest and closest way you can. all day if necessary, even if it means suffering. become a sworn who is on a mission. It's only a year or two. When my mother died I was 17, and I was a selfish, childish piece of shit, and I have a hard time forgetting it.

sounds a bit delusional. messianic? no matter how much suffering you have endured, it is nothing but suffering. nothing is more common. but I don't delegitimize what you say about your awakening, I'm just saying that saying that no one else is going to suffer what you do, sounds like a derailment, maybe you meant something else What do you mean as full time? Meditation? Psychedelic?

How i could, if there is not i? But still it's happening (apparently)

Yeah, it's absolute, it's me, there is nothing else. Outside have no sense. But I'm doing a constant activity which consists in temporarily projecting towards the future and the past, in deluding myself with ideas of what should be. in short, to avoid being present at all costs. I've been doing it all my life and I can't stop doing it for a second, except if I take some psychedelic. this activity is the veil. this activity is also the truth, like everything else, but it has the ability to create an imaginary world

Could you explain the process?

Yes, but we are all time talking about it because we are addicted to the truth and we don't realize the truth more than some moments. The rest of time the truth is almost here, but veiled. Of course, everything is the truth, but we are lost in the veils

Truth is neither positive or negative. Truth IS ?Man, i mean, tell something about the truth, i really want to know what you have to say, not only what the others are deluded. We have to explain the things right? Have we to say: the total emptiness was manifested? What comes and goes is everything. if they crucify you now, you will not be aware of anything but being crucified.

So, explain it. Mine is simple, I have experiences of total emptiness, of total infinity and of God, me, the sacred infinite source that is everything and in which I recognize what I have always been. Be infinite, total, abslolute... but with 5 meo, and lately with lsd and mushrooms . Right now I don't have that opening, but my mind is not what it was before these realizations. not far. They are there, near the surface. So you, who say to others that they are wrong, I have explained my circumstances in detail. explain yours, expose something positive .

So, are you realizing the infinity right now? mystical experiences, in which the ego dissolves completely, happens, and then you return to normality. each experience is followed by a normality slightly less dense than the previous normality. conceptual memory of infinity has no value, I agree. but after each dissolution the limits blur a little. they erode, and although they are still there they are not so strong, they let something of infinity pass

Realization of infinity happens. And later you remember it. And you came to this forum to talk about it, because although now you can not open yourself to infinity, you are close, you know that it is lurking, right here, now

Well, in other words. Infinity couldn't change because it's infinite so every possible change in already the case, right? So it's immutable. But here I am in a park waiting for someone to have a beer, so a mutation is happening, right? But this mutation is just apparently, the reality is the infinity being infinite

Yes, could be transcended with tons of work, psychedelics to be able to deepen and having been born for it

because we are advancing against a conditioning forged in hundreds of thousands of generations of cain and abel, power, reproduction, slavery, submission. free human chimp is not nice

Maybe you ve start a revolution, who knows .or if not start it, give it a good push

You know and you ve experienced that you are unlimited. Me too. but do you understand how and why you are appearing as limited? Do you understand the reason for everything that has apparently happened to you, and how it's created? I don't . I think it's interesting to go deeper, because means richer and better life. My life is quite good now, but why not to make it better?

Yes , but I'd say Leo is not trying to achieve that. He is an explorer of the infinity, and he's exploring because it's beautiful. the depth is endless, so it's a hobby that never ends. utility? enjoy reality

Still but moving on itself, flowing. although due to the fact of being infinite, any movement is only apparent. everything is apparent in infinity. the only real thing is its infinitude. it is very difficult for the mind to grasp it. infinity, due to its lack of limits, touches absolute zero, they are two faces of the same

I think that what you do is the future of humanity. I think that in a few years there will be personal guides that will take you to full awakening with psychedelics. I imagine something like a personalized therapy, one by one, in which the guide is able to capture the student well and know what they need, the integration times, resolve their doubts. maybe a one year process, 18 months, if the student is brave and willing. surely in a few years, 5, 6, there will be actualized apostles taking the psychedelic gospel to humanity?. It's the only spiritual work that works.