Breakingthewall

Do you listen to that little bitch aka your ego the things it says? please... well i think in deep you know the situation. Your choice

your ego tricking you into not blowing it up. and you letting yourself be fooled. but of course, you are your ego. if you want to stay in no man's land forever thinking crazy things, it's your choice

when you start a path you have to finish it. leave it halfway like the op does, guarantee of disaster. he has already started. has to get to the bottom

@Holykael Look, the matter is very simple. vape 5 meo dmt, 18 mg, two or 3 times a week, as many times as you need, 10, 20, 30 whatever, until you realize god. and when you realize, do it again a few more so you don't forget. and that's it. or, well, keep busting your head with crazy negative ideas until you get seriously depressed . In short: give in to the mean little tricks of your ego that clings as best it can, or blow it up

that's the human mollusk lens you distort everything with.

@Holykael well, that is somewhat close to who you really are, only in your mind you cannot conceive, nor in your wildest dreams, what your reality is. you are the total perfect infinity, and everything that exists is because it is your will. for you everything is perfection and glory. you do not know loneliness since you are unfathomable. your unlimited freedom fills you with unlimited joy. It is something so good that it cannot be better. it is perfect. perfect means that it does not lack or exceed anything, it is exactly as you want it to be, because your will is what it is. you are god, friend, and nothing can be better. your dreams of improvement are a fucking joke of a 3 year old

@Holykael man, maybe the next 10,000 lifes you will be with the virgin whores of alah in love with you, surrounded by rivers of honey, wine and mountains of cocaine, where the hangover is a sensation of freshness and the smell of roses . but you would think: yes, ok, but in life 10,001, what? Eh? Ah what a horror of fate. You are so emo, loving the suffering. Be careful, maybe at the end you get what you are wishing so intense

egos have age, history, virtues, defects, profession, family, and much more. but since they are unreal, all those things that they have, including their age, are also unreal. egos also have a great need for self-validation with sex and socializing. What vital laziness of egos. and to think that over and over again, one day after another, faced with the dilemma I choose: ego. the bastard is seductive, tempting, despite his non-existence. Let's see if it's possible to be less....idk, stupid, traitor, fake, and say: god, i give myself. I do not want nothing for myself, since I am nothing. I just want to be possessed by you, that is, by me. take control of my life, I relax and open my heart and mind completely to your/my will. I don't need to understand, i trust and i don't care about anything.

think of him as a guy who is sick and suffering. his life is hell, and over the years his levels of dissatisfaction and suffering will reach high levels. like a lot of other people. surely he will not begin to understand that the problem is in him and will continue looking for external causes. think of him as a guy who has a curse: a life from hell. have mercy on him, help him if you can, if he yells at you, take it as a manifestation of his serious mental illness, do not take the insults personally. do not have thoughts of hostility towards him. if you see him as a sick person (which is true) you will see how his attitudes stop affecting you by 90%

for me this was a real torture but I had to do it, since my ego was built on radioactive foundations. there was no other way, and as you say, it was to undergo surgery and without anesthesia. It is becoming more of a pleasure, and I anticipate that it will soon be more so. The most obvious result is that my ego currently bothers me zero, and that the door is permanently partially open. And it is just the begining

Less personal, more freedom, at least for me. Personal is ego, and here we are trying to go beyond that

thanks for the appreciation. For me it is more than enough to be able to release my thoughts, if not with this forum, who was I going to tell those things to?

Well, it's true. completely. no one advances on the spiritual path. It is the infinity, which is already the case. and there is the compendium of compulsions that produce the constant thoughts that make up the self, which is a ghostly entity, a whirlwind spinning around nothing. this compendium takes on a kind of ghostly life and is out there thinking about improving its ghostliness. what he doesn't realize is that there is no ghostliness to be enhanced, but simply to be blown away by the air. but vegan is wrong about something: when the ghost disappears, the total infinity remains, which has will and purpose. in fact it is you, and it is the source of existence, aka god, doing god things like existing , creating universes, etc

I'm at the airport and the guy asks for my ticket, and all of a sudden I saw it. He's me. everyone is me. they are light facades, energetic constructions, thoughts. like holograms. soap bubbles that are about to vanish. they don't realize they are me. The stewardesses smile at me because I am laughing walking on the plane. everything is light, and they are wonderful, magical. Now the thing is getting solid again. I'm conceptualizing. Have they a pov? I'd say, of course. When the stewardess looked at me it was me looking to myself in the eyes. Was totally magical. You, i mean, me, are singular and multiple same time

I have never done a meditation retreat but I would say that the mental improvement you can get is enormous. I recently spent a week in total isolation, without reading, internet, nothing, on a sailboat, suffering quite btw, and as the days went by I realized how the fog lifted from my mind, how I had missed the obvious, functioning on the surface. I was stupid! Still i am! but my stupidity, and everyone's, is not a, let's say, genetic characteristic. is acquired. stupidity is not a lack of intelligence, it is the fog that veils intelligence. you can make it disappear. You are feeding it day by day. if you stop doing it, it dissipates, and clarity manifests. if you want to be serious in this work, you have to make retreats. if not, you are playing

friend, it is so obvious that surely you realize it perfectly. At this very moment, what is it to be so horrible? who tortures you? You know that, don't you? yourself. why do you do it? because you are a masochist. Try to find out what makes you do this to yourself. surely you have an anxiety problem and you create these mental dynamics to mask facing yourself. It would be solved if you put a little balls and seriousness in the matter and sit down to meditate 2 hours a day, to be alone with yourself without scaping in nonsenses

it goes against all intuition and all logic, but behind the absolute emptiness and the non-self there is one last door. this is not something that you realize because you have always had it in front of you, or a cosmic joke. it is the revelation of what infinity is. when that door opens, what you find is ....you. but the you that you are is not something that the mind can conceive. Before you opened this door, you were in the dark. only some light filtered through, always mixed with shadows. when this door is thrown wide open, light bursts. and what it is is: you. the one you always were : the total infinity

Its not like that, I think. when you expand your consciousness and break your limits, you see that others are creations of your mind. but who sees that is not you. that is, you are still you, but in an absolute state. what you don't see is that the you of normal consciousness is also being imagined by you, since from your pov you are still you, but this is twisted, since the you that is realizing that everything is in your mind is the absolute infinity that encompasses the entire existence, and when after 2 minutes you return to being the finite you that lives in apparent duality, the idea rains that you are imagining your mother, when your mother is absolute infinity exactly the same as you, with subjective experience as you. everything is, even the ground you walk on.

@LSD-Rumi I would say that since infinity is the case, intelligence is infinite, and power is infinite, every atom is exactly where it should be absolutely deliberately. there is no limit on power. you can control every subatomic particle of infinite dimensions.

yes, but since it is the totality of the possible without limit, it will not be your mother's experience, it will be, let's say, glory, or absolute, or omnipotence. the totality, within which is your mother and everything else, is perceived as total joy, perfection. and inside are the tortures and all that.

Yes. I find it harder to lock a guy in a room for 40 years than to kill him

the thing is much more mechanical and much less mysterious than it seems. It deals with frequencies, mental vibrations. meditation is a mechanical means that works, the same as if you have cocaine and gin for breakfast and dedicate the day to masturbation with bizarre porn you will obtain another type of mental frequency. if you want to open yourself up to infinity, this powerful breakfast is not going to help you. it all depends on what you want to achieve

I think it can be known in the sense of realizing that it is infinite, and realizing its quality. obviously infinity cannot be known in detail, but it is not necessary, since precisely because of its infinity it merges into a unity, and that unity is neither more nor less than you. can not it be a different way. and you can know yourself very well. you can't encompass yourself but you can know yourself

Let think about infinity and eternity. If eternal infinity (they are synonyms) is the case, you go nowhere from nowhere. you are not covering stages and one of them is to experience your mother, until you experience the infinite possibilities. This never started and it never ends, so you will never get to experience your mother. you're doing it right now. Right now, you are experiencing all possibilities. all. infinite multiverses. infinite tortures and pleasures. All possibilities are happening right now. but you have invented a clever trick, a clever engineering, because you are infinitely intelligent, and by virtue of that mechanism, you filter, cover, all the possibilities that are happening right now, except one, the one that you think you are experiencing exclusively. what you are now is a filter that only lets through an experiential spectrum. remove the filter, and you will be everything, always.

@axiom you talk about what it is not, but not about what it is. if they talk to you about what it is, you will say that they are stories. this is because what is has not opened for you yet. you understand that it is infinity, but you have not realized what it is. your approach has a name: neoadvaita