Breakingthewall

being a real man is the same as being a real woman: integrity, total self-acceptance, courage

normal. as a human you are not an independent being but part of a gear. an ant in an anthill. without belonging you would not survive a week. subconsciously you know it and that's why you seek to be accepted. one way to be well accepted is to have money, or good looks. this is why it is difficult to wake up, because this software occupies a lot of memory

If by ego we mean memory, no, you couldn't. you would be a fetus. for example a plant could, which does not need to react, but even a rat has an ego. Another thing is that we refer to the collective ego, to the social matrix. then you could but not very good. maybe you would masturbate in public or kill whoever bothers you. and as a third option, what you could do is live without identifying with your ego, but letting it function knowing that it is only survival software

something like that the absence of limits makes everything potential to be, that is to say that existence exists, and is creating itself now. only that now is always, since what is not now is non-existence, and that does not exist. there is only you, right now, it is an instant that has no limits, so it is eternal

Really interesting perspective about the depression. I think you nailed it

the human mind by its nature forms barriers. a normal adult mind is fragmented, rigid, parcelled, with multiple walls that block the free flow of energy. seeing this is normally beyond what the mind can do, and breaking down those barriers, far beyond. psychedelics remove the rigidity of the mind, make it plastic. they make the energy flow through new channels. then the mind returns to its original form, but somewhat less solid, somewhat less rigid. This deformation and reformation gives the mind the opportunity to understand itself, to smooth out and flow more freely. And the possibility of the total flow, the absence of barriers, enlightenment

shadguru is not a spiritual teacher, he is a kind of politician and influencer. I wouldn't be surprised if in private he was an ambitious tyrant. it seems that he calculates every word, all within a script made by his advisers. I imagine him asking after each session, and his advisors saying: those smiles should be a little more condescending and last a second longer... yes, just like that

try as it is to try to work on your own. if you have been admitted to that job it will be because you are a competent guy, but if you really have those feelings about salaried work, which I share, do what is necessary to avoid it. use your imagination and give your best. it's possible. Regarding the problem of death, awakening is what you need. do your research and do it

what happens to you is normal and happens to all of us. You can't shut up because you're trying all the time to keep up a charade. that of your existence. you need that constant electrical current in the form of chatter to keep the doll going. forget the meaning of the talk, look at it as a constant push of energy that you make yourself to exist. a balloon that you have to be constantly inflating to keep floating. that energy is pure anxiety. All that talk means nothing, it means a thousand times more to look at a plant for a minute. all this you do is a sign that you can not live like this, you have to really wake up. Until the deepest. a revolution beyond anything imaginable. until you see that whatever you think is the same as anything else. then you keep thinking but you don't listen, there is nothing to find out, nowhere to go, just enjoy the life

look at it from another point of view: there is no death of the ego, there is an opening to infinity. Just seems death, but it isn't.

the truth is absolute. is: you are. the infinite depth is you, there is only you, there is always you. there is no other, only you. As the bible says, I am who I am. according to maharishi it is the best definition of reality. what I don't understand is: how is it possible for me to be? but the fact is that yes... I am. infinite, unfathomable, but always me. there is nothing but me. it is unbelievably amazing: I am god

@NatureB I would say no. I have the feeling that it is a test to which I have submitted myself. I have a feeling of love towards my parents. They made it difficult for me but this is a game. the only thing I can do is play the game as well as possible

super interesting, super well told, super honest. I have lived that. my mother was absorbing and my father an absent drunk who made fun of me for being a boy educated by his mother. my mother died when i was 17 and my father when he was 21. i always felt guilty for rejecting my mother. I wouldn't let her get close to me. Always feeling guilty. Not being able to finish relationships with girls because i felt guilty. Always feeling a debt with my mother. I always hated my father. In the past I would have liked to torture him, really. No jocking, without any mercy. I only managed to get out of this with transcendence. with 5 meo, with meditation, understanding what this is, who I am, who they are. I love them! it's all a joke! nothing is of the slightest importance. I don't have hostile thoughts even a minute a day. I am free

@Thought Art congratulations. Hitting rock bottom in this way and coming back is what makes you a person, forges you. You will be a solid guy, without cheating yourself

The same thing happened to me but with mdma. I discovered that all the barriers disappeared, I danced with everyone, I kissed girls and then I didn't even remember who they were, I went to the house of people I didn't know, everything was a party, love, openness. for one day, two, three, liberation! but... little by little, after 1 or 2 years, things changed face. all that love, all that connection, was artificial. it tasted fake. it was...too much. Suddenly, it was disgusting to me. all those people, mentally retarded hedonists (me first). I don't want to take mdma again even if I get paid. But was useful in that time to break some barriers with the people

the only way to be happy is to be detached from yourself, and the only way to achieve that detachment, at least in part, is to realize your unreality as an individual and that the reality is that you are god, permanent, total. if you don't realize this, it's being an idiot to be happy. the logical thing is to be scared, worried about death, about physical decline, about the thousands of possibilities that a misfortune, of an illness, will happen to you. always alert, anxious

there is a subtle way to prostitute yourself. you really want to have beautiful girls by your side, who take pleasure in having you by your side and having you pleasure with them, but this is difficult. there are many girls who really want and need stability. So you give them stability, which you really don't want, to get them around in return. In addition, your insecurity prevents you from another type of more open relationship. then you're not happy, and you don't know why. Well, because you're not doing what you want, you're subdued. I'm not saying that's the case but it's easy to fall in that

It seems that you are focused on the intellectual and not on the sensations, energy, on the real. I would suggest low doses of mushrooms, they can awaken your sensuality in a surprising way

I would do what I really want, and in this case it seems to finishing. it's a shitty situation where doubts drive you crazy, but it's part of the process of understanding who you really are, what you want from life. I would listen to my inner voice and I would not give it more laps

For me, to be honest, integral, independent, brave, and willing to putting the truth before your interest. the opposite seems to me to be a piece of shit, which is what abounds the most

I can explain it to you logically. you are, right? No doubt about that. let's say you're a part of reality. an infinitesimal part. reality has to be unlimited. since for it not to be so, there should be limits. what limits? the only possible limit to existence would be non-existence, but if you think about it carefully, non-existence does not exist. it is not a black limit on the edges of existence, there are no such edges. existence is limitless. nothing can limit it. that is to say: it is infinite. you are a part of infinity. but it happens that any division of infinity is infinity itself. infinity divided by any number=infinity. therefore, you, yes, you, are infinity itself. since there can only be infinity, and it is one, and it is you. there is no other possibility But it's very different when you really realize that. You are alone. Only you are.

@RMQualtrough well, the point is that there is the truth, and we are rejecting the truth because it scares us. that is normal and if we really want to see the truth we have to go little by little to be able to accept what causes us terror, such as infinity, or loneliness. Before, infinity caused me terror, because i perceived it as total death, but not anymore, it seems to me as liberating as possible. What I don't fully accept is loneliness. It is something that has to be done little by little. when you're there, you can accept it and make it wonderful, or you can have a horror reaction. Lately i had the disturbing feeling that God want to hide that there are not other because perceive it as a jail. It's a very difficult feeling, but let's go deeper

Wrong. The reality is that there is only you. it's pretty scary by the way. it is limitless, infinite, but somehow it is limited. it is limited because no matter how infinity it is, it is always you. you. you. you can not escape. everything is you. Always. eternal, infinite, but you. there is no other. I wonder if God finds this unbearable, because for me, when I have gone deep... Well, it has been quite difficult. I hope because there was a bit of my human ego there.

since you were born they have been talking to you. you have built your vision of the world, of yourself, of reality, basically according to the things that you have been told. either talking to you, in books, in movies. Your whole world is made of words. you are absolutely addicted to words. if there is no one talking to you, you talk to yourself. words structure your mind, parcel it out, give it shape. you cannot live without that form, just as the drug addict cannot live without the drug. you need to hold on to a handhold, so you create it yourself, constantly. You can't shut up for a second. if you did, you would see that there are no limits, no shapes

Take 1,5/2 grs of dry mushrooms, it's strong enough, but is possible to control it, not really long in time, and very friendly and nice the first times. Use to be a wonderful experience full of joy and color, that will show you the power of the psychedelics