Breakingthewall

the reality is that socializing consumes a lot of memory from your processor. Stop socializing totally for a week. no reading, no internet, since reading is socializing in the sense that another person is putting ideas into your mind. empty yourself of all that and you will notice that your mind becomes sharper, clearer. you will realize that there was a fog in your mind that blurred reality. stop completely and everything will become more crystalline.

integral people who reveal the truth through themselves. the opposite of monkeys that play power games

true relationships, of all kinds, sexual, friendship, a chat, are God looking at himself. they raise consciousness, not lower it. now, if you lack that dimension, and you consider every relationship to be empty stupidity, you will never see it, and you will be awake, but only up to a certain point. do not forget that you are human, and you exist for the relationship

The problem with socializing is that relationships aren't authentic because people aren't. they are more like chimpanzees screaming in the cage establishing roles. this is empty and stupid, and obviously away from the truth. real relationships, with real people, get closer to the truth. the problem is that these people are almost non-existent. They almost... I mean, they exist. you have to look for them and interact with them, not with the monkeys in the zoo

Is say that it is almost impossible, or at least much more difficult for someone who is married and has children to awake. He's too into his own business. that is why in all traditions monks are celibate

Well, because you have to affirm, truly, from the heart, every second of your life: I give up on me. I give my complete self, I offer it. I give up my projects. I give up my ambition. I give up sex. I give up my body. I give up everything. I am a vehicle. I let me drive. I blindly trust. there is no more karma. there is only what is. the full depth. me. I open my heart to myself. I go to the cross with the nails, the lashes and all that, no problem. I am a slave, but a slave to me. I surrender my ego and I am absolute. I make a good deal: I give a dog shit in exchange for the entirety totality of existence. Seems easy but it isn't. every time you choose the ego, you move away from the truth. Being further from the truth, it is easier to choose the ego again...and when you stop to observe it, you don't even remember that it was the truth...an idea perhaps?

2 things.1 Serious dedication, meticulous, intense. and 2, hit the activity that is carried out. global vision, strategic

Madrid! The best city in the world, where everyone is foreign, and where the energy is always high

there is one size: always integral. completely without exceptions. the rest does not matter

the issue is not to do justice but to achieve an end. justice is revenge and it is stage red or blue. If we establish prison or death sentences in an advanced world, it is to avoid certain behaviors. For example, imagine that a much more addictive and harmful drug than methamphetamine appears and spreads. the decision is made to sentence to death whoever trades with it and execute the sentence immediately, since the future of humanity is at stake. or perhaps punish with death premeditated large-scale swindles that impoverish entire countries. On the other hand, a pederast is something marginal, not dangerous for society since there are few. best to imprison him and treat him as well as possible. he has enough with his life. the important thing is that he has no possibility of reoffending, but we are advanced and generous humans, and we forgive. We know that the human condition is complicated. We do not act out of hate or revenge

anxiety is the dissonance between what is and what should be. On a deep level, if you're not awake, your life is basically anxiety. suffering as buddha said. You are an organism that ages and is exposed to a thousand dangers that will inevitably end up killing it, and what it should be is: survive. This is the basic anxiety, and from it all the other secondary anxieties branch off. The only way to equalize the dissonance between what should be and what is is to awake. realizing God and the fact of what is is exactly what it should be. end of anxiety

check to see if your sternum is a little sunken. the ribs are usually elevated due to lack of room in the rib cage. I also had it like that. I was corrected by 80%, strengthening my abs quite hard

One last comment and I'm done with this. My sister has had the same thing happen to you, only with a bufo facilitator, 1.5 years ago. She has been traumatized. I told her: sister, you have to end this because a very serious fear has remained inside you. my sister is a gestalt therapist, quite successful. but since this she has entered little by little in a mental regression that I don't know how far it can go. looks like she's getting retarded. She have hysterical attacks, throwing on the ground kicking and punching, like 3-year-olds, you say anything personal to her and they yell at you, I have chosen to treat them with the utmost care, as if they had a mental illness, it's impossible to reasoning. She only talks about cliches, hippy love and that, it's something shocking. I don't like to talk about something so personal but if maybe it could helps you, i feel i must. I mean by this. Careful with the 5 meo. if you do it and you have a trauma experience, even if you forget it, it will remain in your subconscious and watch out, it's not a joke at all. it can take you to my sister's or like the op, pessimistic crazy ideas, many negative manifestations. You have to reach the end, free yourself totally. The ego is going to set you a thousand traps. If I'd tell this to my sister, she blocks me. It is amazing to witness the process. It can harm your life very seriously. That's why I recommended you that before. It has also happened to me and I was procrastinating for 1 year. In the end I did it but it cost me a lot. You have to go to the bottom, free yourself

Do you listen to that little bitch aka your ego the things it says? please... well i think in deep you know the situation. Your choice

your ego tricking you into not blowing it up. and you letting yourself be fooled. but of course, you are your ego. if you want to stay in no man's land forever thinking crazy things, it's your choice

when you start a path you have to finish it. leave it halfway like the op does, guarantee of disaster. he has already started. has to get to the bottom

@Holykael Look, the matter is very simple. vape 5 meo dmt, 18 mg, two or 3 times a week, as many times as you need, 10, 20, 30 whatever, until you realize god. and when you realize, do it again a few more so you don't forget. and that's it. or, well, keep busting your head with crazy negative ideas until you get seriously depressed . In short: give in to the mean little tricks of your ego that clings as best it can, or blow it up

that's the human mollusk lens you distort everything with.

@Holykael well, that is somewhat close to who you really are, only in your mind you cannot conceive, nor in your wildest dreams, what your reality is. you are the total perfect infinity, and everything that exists is because it is your will. for you everything is perfection and glory. you do not know loneliness since you are unfathomable. your unlimited freedom fills you with unlimited joy. It is something so good that it cannot be better. it is perfect. perfect means that it does not lack or exceed anything, it is exactly as you want it to be, because your will is what it is. you are god, friend, and nothing can be better. your dreams of improvement are a fucking joke of a 3 year old

@Holykael man, maybe the next 10,000 lifes you will be with the virgin whores of alah in love with you, surrounded by rivers of honey, wine and mountains of cocaine, where the hangover is a sensation of freshness and the smell of roses . but you would think: yes, ok, but in life 10,001, what? Eh? Ah what a horror of fate. You are so emo, loving the suffering. Be careful, maybe at the end you get what you are wishing so intense

egos have age, history, virtues, defects, profession, family, and much more. but since they are unreal, all those things that they have, including their age, are also unreal. egos also have a great need for self-validation with sex and socializing. What vital laziness of egos. and to think that over and over again, one day after another, faced with the dilemma I choose: ego. the bastard is seductive, tempting, despite his non-existence. Let's see if it's possible to be less....idk, stupid, traitor, fake, and say: god, i give myself. I do not want nothing for myself, since I am nothing. I just want to be possessed by you, that is, by me. take control of my life, I relax and open my heart and mind completely to your/my will. I don't need to understand, i trust and i don't care about anything.

think of him as a guy who is sick and suffering. his life is hell, and over the years his levels of dissatisfaction and suffering will reach high levels. like a lot of other people. surely he will not begin to understand that the problem is in him and will continue looking for external causes. think of him as a guy who has a curse: a life from hell. have mercy on him, help him if you can, if he yells at you, take it as a manifestation of his serious mental illness, do not take the insults personally. do not have thoughts of hostility towards him. if you see him as a sick person (which is true) you will see how his attitudes stop affecting you by 90%

for me this was a real torture but I had to do it, since my ego was built on radioactive foundations. there was no other way, and as you say, it was to undergo surgery and without anesthesia. It is becoming more of a pleasure, and I anticipate that it will soon be more so. The most obvious result is that my ego currently bothers me zero, and that the door is permanently partially open. And it is just the begining

Less personal, more freedom, at least for me. Personal is ego, and here we are trying to go beyond that

thanks for the appreciation. For me it is more than enough to be able to release my thoughts, if not with this forum, who was I going to tell those things to?