Breakingthewall

Women based in fear are attracted by strength and success. Women based in love, by true connection and real sexual energy

boredom is something that occurs in children, to encourage them to play constantly, which is a mechanism of stimulation and learning. in adults more than boredom there is anxiety. almost everyone is addicted to the mind and if we are left empty, we can't stand it, we need to fill the emptiness with whatever, movies, socializing, etc.

I have never been addicted to porn, I have used it to see the girl's bodies, but it always seemed empty to me. but I have been addicted to something else, a paraphilia. I guess I won't be the only one. my addiction was looking for a girl in contact apps to masturbate together with a video call or talking on the phone. and when i got it, to keep searching for another. I could spend hours a day with it, and i wasn't really interested in dating them, i did, sex too, but really i preferred the paraphilia. I thought that I would never be able to leave that addiction, but the solution occurred by itself: real, true sex, of total surrender, divine. makes everything else look like misery. the difference between quality sex is in your partner, she has to be pure in her way of being, without lies, and over all in you, that have to be the same. Now i think i know why I was addicted to that: i didn't really enjoyed sex because it was to many lie in me, but the sexual impulse was impossible to ignore, so it was an scape

Yeah, and beautiful. Much more than be blind

I'm not talking about an ego that has to get anywhere, I'm talking about an ego that must move apart so that reality manifests itself and the story that keeps us on the surface could be detached. Where is the history? In the depth? Do you understand the depth of reality, of what we are? Not understand, realize. There are not histories. Reality exist and is unfathomable depth. It's not just emptiness. I don't mean to know anything, i mean to be open to the depth, to be limitless I read your posts and for you spirituality is : there is no self, nothing can be explained. That is a dead end road, the neo advaita approach. Reality exist, and we are. And it's a door to open. Yes it sounds like to go anywhere but it isn't anywhere to go, is a door to open your mind and your heart to de depth that you are and you always were, just you were closed to it, as if you perceived in 2 dimensions example: imagine that you are a guy who only thinks about making money by scamming people and compulsively looking for sex with prostitutes. one day you take mushrooms , or have a traumatic experience, or anything, and realize the true aspect of human relationships, the depth of the human condition. Since then you see people differently, you make true friends and you have integrity, you set up an NGO to help the homeless. is this real, or is it the ego that has created a story of a path from *psychopath" to "great guy"? It's that you now are able to see a dimension that before you were blind to

Same could be said of the Nazism

it's just that Islam is less evolved than previous religions. and not only that. Other religions have a background of truth, in Islam it is difficult to see it. rather it is a pack of lies. It is true that other religions arose in sophisticated and cultured environments, such as Rome, India, China, and Islam in a very primitive environment and that would be an excuse, but the lack of truth is still there. The religion of the Native Americans, for example, is much truer, and they were more primitive.

in short: transcend your ego. the usual in spirituality, nothing new. only that we, who use psychedelics, know that this ego has enormously deep roots and it is totally impossible to transcend it. you think yes, but no. the last layer, the total emptiness of existence, you cannot go through it, unless you are enlightened like maharshi. for a normal guy it is absolutely impossible. But there's the chemistry. Chemistry gives you the breakthrough, but it also gives you the understanding of who you are as an ego by destroying it over and over again. Seeing the glory of existence lends an underlying joy, but it is temporary, the door closes again in a few days and only the memory remains. you have to repeat the play a thousand times, until for you the structure of the ego is obvious. then you permanently identify with existence, you are open to the deep, when before you were open to the superficial, to the linear, to time. with this you conquer neither more nor less than immortality, completely real and without a doubt

well your point is true, but the reality is that one gets lost in the character and it is impossible to get out of it. attachments are strong, then your existence is fearful and joyless. if you open the door, that is, if you move out of the way of the door, you see that the character is just a character and the attachments are empty, there is no fear of losing anything, since nothing is real, and reality is a unfathomable well of abundance in which you recognize yourself as what you have always been, not someone but the reality itself. The point is about is having this opening 24 hours a day. reason? It is more pleasant, with a huge difference, and true perception come to you. all psychological shit is swept away. it reveals as unreal. indeed what I describe is a great advance of dmt, or 5meo, or meditation, or whatever, but it is reality. the same as reality is what you say, the moment you are living. but the difference is that in your current experience you are, like an inevitable monolith, in the middle of everything, giving everything your limiting, fearful, attached flavor. your present moment is you, when it could be god. they really are the same but they feel very different. One is limited, the other is limitless

And believe me, there is one last door. you have to dive headfirst, without reservation, into the absolute horror of absolute nothingness. this is not a joke. absolute emptiness. you have to disappear really. then the jet reactor will emerge and from it will sprout the inexhaustible jet of the glory of existence and a feeling will emerge: hallelujah. Hallelujah. and your heart will open Sounds wo wo? It's the reality

The absolute truth is that existence exist. they look like trees on the road, me with the phone on a terrace with a coffee, or whatever. we get lost in a linear and superficial view of the fact of existing because we create the illusion of a temporal process, so we navigate on the surface of this supposed process, in which you say that you are seeing trees on the road and then you will arrive somewhere from other place. these are all mental images that create the appearance of "you". if you erase them, what remains? existence will continue to exist, without the road and the trees, without time. this is god. then you say: ah ok, I understand, god is existence, blah blah. No. it can not be understood. understanding is something within it. what you can do is be, and that is nothing that can be thought, anticipated or imagined. it's reality. the glory of total existence, if you allow me language wo wo. realize that is important because it sweeps away the sadness of life, the rumination, and opens the door to true intelligence, since it is pure intelligence. spirituality should be oriented towards realizing that. Many mystics have said it, and I also say it, I am a normal guy who has thought: what they say sounds real to me. I put together the explanations and stories of many and my own insights about reality and come to a conclusion: this is true and I want to see it. then you do what is in your power for it. today there are tools, information, literature, and over all, drugs, it's quite easy, not a big mistery

I think it's not the same. a salvia trip takes you to unimaginable places. It seems that it opens some dimension, or something like that. On the other hand, when you dream at night, everything is related to your waking life. it is basically the same as daydreaming, a function of the mind that reproduces reality in order to anticipate events and increase survival

mushrooms are usually warm, although sometimes they can get sinister. They always have a touch like organic. 5 meo dmt is true that it has that brutal flavor, the divine disintegrating ray without mercy or consideration for the ego. I have tasted the 5 meo malt 3 times and it was much warmer the first two and definitely horrible the third, but it was due to external circumstances. I have the feeling that malt does not tolerate impurities, lies, in your life. expel them as if they were an infection and you will suffer in the process

Everything that we think, as you say, are histories . But reality is not that we think. It's unfathomable depth. When i said a door i mean that you, with all your mental processes, conciouss and unconscious, are creating an appearance of being that is unreal, and this appearance works like a door, blocking the depth. If you remove the door, the depth manifest, and it's not nothing, or infinity, or anything else. Well, it is, but also it's alive, it's an explosion of existence, it's god, and it's you, and you can't imagine until you realize. The last door is the emptiness. You have to face the absolute emptiness with total acceptance to open it

Wrong, god exists, it is behind a door. The door is you. Believe me, I'm not speaking for narcissism and other nonsense. I would like the whole of humanity, including you, to open that door. I don't think my cousin, the far-right lawyer, will do it, but you? Man, you are thinking about spirituality all the time. open the fucking door

I don't understand why he says that. the apparent reality, the history of the ego, is like a dream, because it is unreal. reality is one, organic, deep, and has no meaning, while the history of the ego is multiple, superficial, and full of meaning. but when you dream as an ego, it's different. your dreams are snippets of waking reality, they are not original, they are your mind rearranging its memories and creating an experience. The dream, or creation, of reality, of God, is completely deliberate, completely creative, perfect down to the smallest detail. it is real! in fact, it is god. the dream is the dreamer. in the nigh there is dreamer and the dream, duality. not in reality. God is not dreaming reality. this is reality, this is god. it just seems like a story

This time is perfect for awakening for one simple reason: there is nothing else to do. It has already been seen that reason is a dead end. and wealth. and the couple. and all. It has already been seen that the human condition is dissatisfaction, old age and death. what a scam right? anyone with a little blood will find a way out of this horrible trap

but god is not in front of you, he's under a ton of shit that is you

@Jannes the substance that goes directly to the realization of god is 5 meo. and this does not happen always or easily. try working with 5 meo, it also has the advantage of short duration. When the door opens for you, nothing will be the same. it is as if you had lived mummified and suddenly, you resurrect. your heart opens . your mind opens. there is nothing like it. Push. go for it, with determination. open the door

Yes, we humans are addicted to stories. so much so that we confuse them with reality absolutely always. stories are just stories, but we are programmed to lose ourselves in them. imagine a world where adults are enlightened and tell children that stories are just stories. would produce enlightened children? I think not, that genetics rules: get lost in the stories. be a rat in the maze and contribute to evolution

the pessimism and negativity thing reminds me of my father. the translation for me is: since I lack balls to do what has to be done, and also I'm lazy, well, I'm going to say that everything is horrible all the time, so it's not my fault, it's reality. but no... in the end reality catches you. you have to do what has to be done, you have to put courage in life, you have to give your best , and leave the complaints for 5-year-olds kids

all that is the narrative of the ego. Saying that is the same as repeating any random word for hours. it means absolutely nothing. but yes, according to the narrative of the ego, everything is very unfair. at a deeper level, fair or unfair means nothing. And a little deeper, nothing means nothing. there is only existence existing. and it is extremely beautiful

yes, that is real spirituality. the concept, the meaning, is a very superficial level, a tool of the mind to optimize survival. we are educated like this since we are children since as humans this is our main advantage, but it takes us away from reality. When you learn to recognize this function of the mind, it is not difficult to get out of it and go deeper. the conceptual mind that interprets is superficial and linear. reality is deep and alive. everything lives, everything is organic and in movement. nothing is separate from anything, everything flows together. you are not separate, it is your mind that creates separation with that activity. If you want to feel life, to have a deeper understanding each time, you must learn to stop the separating activity at will.

The first times I did 5 meo I didn't get a total release, and it happened to me that I noticed an intense energy that tried to come out through my hands and feet without success. the feeling was very negative and after this my hands and feet hurt for two days, and I had muscle spasms in my legs non stop. One night I focused on it and I got a shock of energy that made my body vibrate for a minute, and the spasms completely disappeared. now, after many total advances, with only 3 mg I get a total energy release. I am sure that my energy configuration has changed drastically. I am a different person than 2 years ago, when I started with this. there are no knots in me, the channels flow freely, the feeling of the bottom is completely different from what it was. I was a sick person, and now I'm not. that simple and the disease that I had came from an energetic construction formed in fear since childhood, very difficult to correct. There is nothing like bombing your entire energetic being and dissolve it, and later reconfiguring itself, it's like rebooting a computer. all stuck background programs stop, everything is cleaned

There are people on this forum who genuinely seek the truth. obviously we all have an ego that wants to be liked, to be the smartest and all that, but above this, there is a real desire to go deeper, to open up to existence. this forum is alive and there is true selfless intelligence here, and @Razard86 contribute with yours and with your energy