Breakingthewall

Yeah i know, maybe Leo goes deeper, it's possible because psychedelic are powerful, but at the end the idea is the same. Infinity, one, you. It can't be otherwise

I'd say that enlightenment for the Buddhist mean to transcend the human completely. the same as zen, or non-duality. not distinguish between good or bad, between you and what is not you, between life and death. then the limitations disappear, the ego stops encapsulating you, and you realize what reality is. reality, being non-dual, can only be one, not created, therefore eternal, infinite. that is, god, and since you are, and there is only one, infinite, you are that. I don't see the difference with what Leo says

money is sacred, it is a matter of honor. is: I change my work for your work. As humans, we alone are worth less than a worm. without the work of others we are dead in two days. That is why money must be earned by contributing, not being a speculative shit. When I ask a guy for a coffee in a bar, I'm performing a sacred ceremony

Thinking is the activity with which we humans create our own artificial world. humans are not beings adapted to an environment, but we adapt the environment to us. the more we adapt it, the more we think. once the medium is completely modified, as is the case, our medium is entirely thought. we live in an artificial world that we constantly create with our mental activity, billions of interconnected processors creating the collective ego. a strangest natural phenomenon. we cannot stop thinking because our function as entities of the hive is precisely that, to think.

appearance is irrelevant. the important thing is what you have inside, your passion, your courage, your intelligence, your integrity, your love for life. but if the only thing you have inside is your concern about how others see you... well, in that case it can be said that yes, you are an average guy

Little by little. What used to terrify me is now nothing. it is a detachment process. each one needs his time, but I think that once you start, the process does not stop

Today I have done 5 meo dmt. 25 mg snorted. It is the first time that I dare with so much. I have had breakthrough vaping but it is very different. it is an instant. the opening is total, but it immediately passes. snorted goes slowly. It has not been enough, there have been moments of opening to the whole, but most of the time it has been the void. A year ago this terrified me. now nothing, total tranquility. I see how everything is deconstructed, my mother, the smell of lemons, reality. okay, no problem. that there is absolutely nothing? okay. The breath stops and death? okay. then infinity opens, the freedom. but only a little, it hints. lacks a little power. the next will be 30 mg. It has been a very pleasant experience, zero stress, zero expectations, energetic release... totally therapeutic. a pity that tonight I fly for work, if not tomorrow I would go for the 30 mg

he means being enlightened to be present, to stop the analytical mind that filters and labels. this is fine because the modern human is completely in the mind, but it is not enlightenment. If it were, it would be like saying that a prehistoric hunter was enlightened, because he did not think, he only felt his body, the smells, the vision of the prey, etc. or a 3 year old kid. It is true that the hunter and the child have a much more satisfying and authentic experience than the average guy stuck in his mental histories today. And I suppose that the prehistoric hunter will have much more possibilities of having awakenings than a retired person addicted to Netflix, but enlightenment is going beyond this finite experience, it is opening up to infinity. and I suppose more than that, to understand that you are god creating this concrete experience and to understand how it is happening

The magic word is deconstruction. you have to get to the foundations of your psyche, the foundations of attachment and rejection that are genetically based and nurtured and strengthened from childhood, and demolish them. your mental landscape should be an empty lot, without walls, paths, forbidden and hidden areas. you must face everything and let everything go. it is extremely difficult (I do not claim that I have done it, only that I am working on it) As the zen poem hsin hsin ming says, as soon as you make the slightest difference, heaven and earth are infinitely separated. It means that the difference between your mother hugging you at 3 years old or being tortured in the most atrocious way is only a distinction created by you. the catch is that life and death are the same. detachment must be complete, loneliness total. the renunciation of the human, absolute. enlightenment is not fast food. requires giving everything

Imo it doesn't work. the problem with meditation schools, like Vipassana, is that they do things by force. his idea is: the problem is thinking, so we have to stop thinking and we will do it for my balls. the question is: why do you think compulsively? that forces you to constantly interpret reality, to label it, to project yourself into the past and the future? it is anxiety. If deep down in your psyche the vibration is anxious, trying to stop thinking will be like stretching a spring. you can do it for a moment, but its inertia will be to return to its position. you have to go to the bottom and understand the mechanisms of attachment and rejection that have created the illusion of separation and with it your entire psyche, face them and unravel the labyrinth. become a being without a psyche. I speak in theory because I am not at that point. I am at the point of deepening day by day, understanding and seeing how anxiety is diminishing and with it the mental noise. meditation is a practice that helps, but it alone is not enough

you have to go deeper into yourself. the first step is daily meditation. You drink to calm your anxiety. your anxiety is the distortion between what is and what should be. This distortion is the product of the illusion of separation that manifests as a lack of love. You need love. You think you'll have love when things are as they should be. they are not, and the distance between those points is pure anxiety, a void of love that is filled with addiction. seeing all this is not something that reason can achieve, you have to get to the bottom of yourself

solid and worked criticism. many valid and real points. but I have many doubts about many things. first thing, the word "teacher" . For me Leo is not a teacher, he is a guy who delves into reality and explains his findings. These hints can be useful for you on your way. I guess if you take the course he's talking about, he'll be a teacher, but he's not for now. second, traditional spirituality. I have the feeling that absolutely no one frees himself from the trap of the ego through any school of traditional spirituality. this may be wrong, but I can't help but think so. As you say, the goal of spirituality is liberation, not knowledge, since you cannot know infinity. but maybe if you can understand it. one thing is to cover and another to understand its mechanics. more and more it seems to me that without understanding there is no liberation, and without psychedelics there is no understanding. psychedelics are essential to be able to delve into the structure of reality, to understand it and thus stop being trapped in the trap of the ego. For liberation there must be understanding, and in this Leo is the pioneer. no one else tries to understand or explain what they have understood. lastly, his unloving attitude. It seems that he is a rather lonely guy, not at all gregarious by nature, who despises everything that is belonging to a group, feeling accepted, etc. and that is very noticeable when interacting with him. It seems that he has the typical superiority complex of a smart nerd who did not feel accepted in childhood for other kids less smart than him. and that shows, it makes him a bit poisonous in interaction with people, the dumbs. but hey, that's his problem, no one is perfect. And i think it's an advantage. It keeps him far of the sectary temptation. if what we want is to free ourselves, his work is of enormous help. That's enough And 4, the environment in the forum. What do you expect? A group of truly awakened people? Not today. Maybe one day.

depends. if she's a adolescent-minded woman (she can be 18 or 45), she'll find it attractive. adolescent I mean focused on liking, experimenting, hedonism, a certain narcissism. if she is a woman of mature mind, focused on giving, family, love, she will find it disgusting. Today we live in an adolescent, narcissistic, immature society. this is not intrinsically bad, it has positive things, others not. so, more and more people will see it as something positive

in the end everything is reproduction. females have intrinsic value because they are a reproductive receptacle. its value is its body, its genetic quality. man does not have intrinsic value, he has to demonstrate his value, his ability to bring his offspring forward, to guarantee their survival, to create individuals capable of surviving. from all this evolves an enormous courtship dance that is the human society.

@flyingwhalee if i where you, i would do a breakthrough of 5 meo DMT. It's going to reconfigure your energy patterns. Try first some small doses and see how you react.

Sure you could dry it. Simply left it open until it's totally dry

a while after that message, I wanted to do a test. since the previous time it was hard, I put a small amount, like 6/7 mg. a tiny line, close to invisibility. when it started to go up it was something like 22mg of 5meo dmt in intensity, maybe more. not enough for a total breakthrough but very close. I saw all of reality as an image in my mind about to fade. Suddenly I saw the misery of human love, its conditionality, its falsehood. the love that is given in exchange for something. The almost impossibility of a real human love, because humans have layers and layers of selfishness. I realized the hunger for love that I have as a human, the need to love and be loved. an enormous sexual impulse occurred, that need for love sublimated in sex. the trap that is everything. The difficulty of being selfless, almost impossible. The misery that human life is. It doesn't send me to infinity, but was not far. the effect lasted almost an hour. I think that if it had been 25 mg it would be an overdose like snorting 70 mg of 5 meo dmt, Maybe really dangerous. Be careful with malt, it's extremely powerful

Exactly, good explanation. But the problem imo is that the thing goes very deep. there are many layers and awakenings are necessary. It is not enough to realize that you are not, you have to realize that you are. And it's not enough to realize once with 5meo etc, you have to be open to what you are always. If not, you always will be attached to the need of human love.

Not agree, the essence of meditation is detachment. what happens is that many meditators strive in concentration and get a forced silence. that silence is worth nothing imo. detachment is realizing that all your mental paraphernalia? is absolutely nothing, software that enslaves you with no real substance. once you see this you can meditate walking down the street. reality takes on color, depth and beauty, and loses meaning. you are in wild territory, without handles for the mind, where life and death are the same

Yeah, i guess so. Working on it

As I told you before, I have little experience with malt, I only did it twice, but it seemed completely different to me. 5 meo dmt takes you straight to infinity. It doesn't matter if you're in a bad mood, in an uncomfortable place, any set and setting. malt, the first time it made any dirt in my house unbearable. As soon as the effect wore off, I spent two hours frantically cleaning. the second time, with only 12 mg snorted (this in DMT is really weak dose), I had a horrible experience. I was dating a girl, I knew she would want a relationship, I made it clear that I don't, even so we date for sex. deep down it was not something fair. well, as soon as the malt hit me, the whole reality was: break that relationship immediately. the feeling increased until it reached a point where my whole being was concentrated in a point of anguish. I left my house (difficult) and I staggered down the street walking nonstop, suffering greatly for an hour. I thought I could have a heart attack and I didn't care. I just wanted the punishment to stop. wtf! As soon as I could I put an end to that unbalanced relationship and since then something tells me: no casual sex. bad idea. impure. We'll see what happens the next time I do it, maybe I'll be forced to give all my money or something...that's why I never tried again. this is my experience, a bit strange. 5 meo dmt is completely different, totally clean, no meanings or ideas, just infinity

@EmergentUniverse i think it was an interesting question.the problem is that few people have made malt. I did it 2 times, and I see big differences. I do not understand why they have closed the thread, it is a subject that has not been discussed at all.

If your mind were perfectly empty, there would be no time, only the eternal present. time is an idea of the mind. for animals there is no time, only the present. They are in the Garden of Eden. humans are in the hell of the mind, and we build time and all the other crazy egoic paraphernalia.

It's so simple that seems stupid. you suffer because you are causing yourself suffering all the time, it is a kind of energetic mismatch. you simply have to get to the bottom of the thing, understand what you do and how you do it, and stop doing it. You have to understand that absolutely everything depends solely on you. you are the executioner and the victim. Saying this doesn't make any sense, you have to see it, but I guarantee you it is. There is no more suffering than the one you inflict on yourself. if you stop doing it, the suffering disappears. There are no more chains than those that you yourself create. do not think about this because you will not get to see it with your mind. just go deeper, understand, deconstruct the walls. play the ego game and pass the phase. Free yourself.

I think you shouldn't commit suicide, you have to keep trying. But having said that, I think that not committing suicide in case this has consequences in reincarnations, is a meaningless story. If you kill yourself, it's because you were here to kill yourself. but since we are here, let's accept the challenge. the challenge is to be present and absolutely happy in a hospital with terminal cancer, in a nursing home, in a Nazi death camp. Let's try to play the game, it is exciting and it is possible to finish it successfully, and if it doesn't happen, we are trying. Suicide is cowardly. you have to keep playing. But if you're not going to play and you're going to be complaining, it seems better to opt for suicide