Breakingthewall

Could be, everytime I have done 5 meo, after felt a very strong impulse of sex. what I said above was an interpretation that can be wrong

I would go pick up the trash because I really believe that it is a job that should be done and I would do it with pride and it would not seem like a shitty job to me but rather something decent to dedicate my life to, while I think of something better to contribute with my capacity if i can. but if for me there is only money, it would be the same that suck dicks, the only difference would be the social acceptance.

I think that after doing 5meo a strong tendency towards sex occurs because 5 meo places you in zones of mysticism not proper to your current vibration, and you seek to compensate for this imbalance by lowering your level of consciousness with a dose of animal instinct.

Well, The reality is that the "evil" puts you more in the illusion of duality between you and not you. Selflessness dissolves the illusion and brings you closer to the truth, so in some way good and bad do exist. not because something is intrinsically bad, but because it is a separating agent. separation = unhappiness, alienation, lie, madness. Oneness= happiness, harmony, inner peace, abundance. What do you prefer?

the reality is that doing anything just for money, without really wanting to do it, is exactly the same as sucking dicks for money. there is not the slightest difference. They say that one is not worthy, and the others are, but it is a lie

fear is also the unknown. we are attached to our form, we resist letting it go. without form there is nothing that can be known. freedom is terrifying, since it is indefinite. fear is the attachment to the defined on the other hand, fear is the cement that allows the defined to be defined, as rockyreed says, it is something positive in the sense that it allows the illusion to exist. without fear there is only breadth without limits

But it's the same. When you disappear and the eternal now remains, you realize that the eternal now is you, but that you were under the illusion that there was a you in contrast to what is not you. then you realize that there is no you, therefore...everything is you. And if everything is you, and you are creating this apparent duality that seems to make some sense, who are you if not total reality, aka god?

No , god realization is simply now without histories. delete everything and what remains? this right now. exists, is. the deception is masterfully constructed, the appearance that something is happening. deserves a round of applause. But God is, because existence exist. Couldn't be otherwise.

sounds wonderful, true spirituality, really transcending the ego. true self awareness. This is how we humans should be, perfect. but we are not. that's the problem. That is why Leo's spirituality is so useful, because it allows you spirituality without ceasing to be an ego. because you can't stop being an ego, at least for now. many of us are in a serious war to survive, which requires a middle path.

In true spirituality you transcend self-esteem, where you compare yourself to a mental model to feel worthy or unworthy of being loved, to reach self-awareness, where worthy or unworthy does not make any sense. you are, and that goes much further. It is love and glory to exist, it is right now and it has no limits, and there is nothing else but you, everything is you, and you no longer compare, you only savor the breadth of being now

agree, all is mind, but not a greedy mind that cringes in fear, analyzing everything and needing a hold, focused on a fictitious center, but a mind that flows free, without fear, aware of its non-limitation, of its totality. In the end, the ego mind and the divine mind are the same, only fear changes as a limiting factor. Spirituality is get rid of fear

@Holykael I think you are on the right track, even if it seems crazy. You are a supernova that is contracting into a point, into a black hole of infinite gravity that eats itself and eats the entire cosmos, until nothing is left out of its gravitational influence. a black point of dimensionless horror. then a portal opens to the dimension that is reality itself, total infinity. then you will fall on your knees bathed in tears and your whole being will become a single expression: hallelujah.

my whole life is a spiritual practice. my work, my relationships, sleeping, contemplating reality, contemplating myself. as a formal practice, sit an hour or two every day in nature in silence, and once a week or so do psychedelics, if i have time.

that is reality and true spirituality. when you realize that you are the whole of existence, you have only taken the first step. the next steps are to be. Once you have left the sad and dry path of the mind, enter the path of dancing reality, of unfathomable joy, of pure and spontaneous intelligence.

What is terrifying about the matter is that beings and consciousness are stories that I am creating right now, just in my mind. reality is absolute, what is relative is appearance, that is, it does not exist, it only seems so. What does this mean? It means that you, right now, are the bottomless void dreaming of a world of colors and feelings. can you see it right now? it's very shocking. as soon as you think about it, you get back into the mud of the relative, and if you try to get out using the relative, you sink deeper. it is a difficult game, extremely interesting

Yeah, it's true....in a relative sense . but if you want to step back and get out of the relative, that's just stories. reality is right now, with no meaning to hold on to. there is no personality, there are no characteristics, there is no other with whom to compare to establish adjectives. there is only the reality that is. empty, perfect, without any possible meaning because to establish a meaning you should look for it in the unfathomable depth of the void, and there one thing is the same as another. It's hard to let go of the grips, but they are illusions, are relative

Great description. Yeah, that is, right now. one only has to strip the now of all meaning, and it becomes absolute, perfect, unfathomable.

In most cases, depression is caused by energetic blockages in the pattern that you are, caused by fear of being rejected or damaged, which are deeply entrenched and perpetuate creating habits and preventing the person from flowing freely.

I really like to vape 5 meo. plugging doesn't work well for me, through the nose yes, but it's fucking torture, it always goes down my throat and it's like swallowing bleach. I'm concerned that vaping is actually harmful to the lungs and throat on a serious level. why? because you are putting into your body a cloud of vapor with a caustic pH. the ph of the body and the blood is close to 7. I think the free base is 9 or something like that. that's abrasive. but on the other hand, I think the ph of nndmt is similar. this is so? because many people smoke a lot of changa and there is no evidence (for now) that it is harmful. If someone can contribute something I would appreciate it

it seems that infinity can be divided into infinities infinities that, being always the same infinity, act as independent ones, and that can collapse into one since they are really the same

Now i understand the idea, in part thanks to razard and amanem. absolutely everything that exists will be within your direct experience. if you are thinking of others, thinking of others is your direct experience. Not the others, just thinking in others. there is nothing else and there can't be nothing else. if there is, it would be because it has entered your direct experience, so your pov is the absolute. point. To think that perhaps it is obeler's pov exists, it is something that I am thinking about now. no obeler pov, just my idea of obeler pov. You cannot get out of your direct experience, because if you did, that would be your direct experience, so there is only your direct experience, and that's it.

We call ego to the energy that desires and fears, and that by doing that, separates between me/not me.

No, you could look for business or anything. You just have to feel the inescapable need of awakening

What I wanted to say is that stupidity is not a lack of intelligence, it is something in itself. stupidity is what allows you to be asleep, evading what you really are, focused on meaningless problems, projecting meaningless goals. if there comes a time when your stupidity decreases from a critical point, you find it unbearable to stay asleep, you clearly see the trap that is your way of processing and you seek to wake up with any cost

Yeah , i gave some authority to many people in the relative. at the end, there are two fields: the relative and the absolute. the absolute is that I am, and nobody have authority about this, just me. the relative thing is that razar can have a pov or not have a pov. Amanem says he doesn't have it, I would say yes... but I don't know. In that field, i give some authority to amanem, because it's something relative and impossible to know