Breakingthewall

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  1. if you wake up its realized that there never was "before you woke up". all the past is a mental construction that is happening now, the same as everything else. so i would say yes, infinity is infinite and fully conscious right now, what happens is that this i who is writing this is an unreal fiction, a multi-layered structure formed now and thinks it exists as something definite. Imo it's impossible to understand the structure from the structure, it has to be totally dissolved for understanding to take place, and when the structure is created again, understanding is corrupted. a confusing game
  2. What do you mean? it was a rhetorical question to make an argument. I answered myself just after. I thought it was simple enough for you to understand ?
  3. that what is cannot be undone, and what is undone was not, it only appeared to be. So only the infinity is
  4. first, what is god? second, when it dreams? god is the limitless .what happens is that the limits are created. the dream is not a movie that is happening in time. is limits. it is a trap, a labyrinth that is proposed in the absolute emptiness of total existence. a specific game designed to the micron, where infinity plays hide and seek with itself. So, if God is the absence of limits, and I, the dream, am the imposition of limits, then no, I am not God. until i solve the riddle and the limits open. It would be said that God has the ability to stop being God. While there are limits, God is not God. another thing would be to discuss if the limits are real. at least they act like they are
  5. I would say that the real work is to see through the deception, totally, and realize the reality. where will this take you? it is not known. hardly anyone has really done it. will it make you happier? crazy? suicide? no one knows, because there is no one. they are part of the deception.
  6. Life is a labyrinth without the slightest meaning except waking up from it. being in the dream is a nightmare. you have to go out anyway
  7. A little touch of 5 meo right now and infinity opens. what I am is unlimited and cannot be thought. I want to be all the time, I don't want to get caught up in the fucking limitation of being human. what a strange game is reality, being me. there are no references. there is no background. no one has been before me. only i am. it's pretty dizzying haha. there is nothing to hold on to.
  8. Yes, but awakening positive is extremely fragile. many of us access it with psychedelics, and it's a real and full awakening. but our psyche is not perfectly aligned, tuned to flow that way naturally. Almost nobody's is, perhaps very few mystics. then, at the slightest deviation, the glass becomes opaque. it always filters some light, but nothing compared to what reality really is. but there is a fact: I am the reality. nothing is marked or prefixed. there are no mystics, there is no ramana, there is no buddha. I'm. where can i get to? What can I do with this dream? it is not known. any idea is misleading, any trodden path is false. only I can check to what extent I can penetrate the abyss of reality
  9. For me spiritual work is easier if you travel. I am always traveling and I notice the difference a lot. When I spend a week in my city, surrounded by familiar things, familiar people, in a matter of two days, my ego settles, it becomes opaque. as soon as I leave the comfort zone, which is almost always, the feeling of lightness and freedom returns.
  10. Due to the fact of doing 5 meo quite often the phenomenon occurs that the ego somehow loses its consistency permanently, or at least lastingly. It's like a solvent. This makes it so that in moments of solitude the realization of what reality is, or not is, occurs spontaneously. what is the structure of this experience, what are the others, what is your character, in a very clear way. the layers that make up this particular moment are broken down, and you realize the special effect. of how everything is being created, of the limitless emptiness that reality really is right now. what is more difficult to perceive is the true background of reality. what I really am. glory, infinite intelligence. Let's say that it is easy to perceive the falsehood, the special effect, but difficult to perceive the truth, the perfection, since this is of a nature so different from the apparent experience that it becomes elusive. then a negative awakening often occurs, one sees what is not, but not what is, then one yearns for the other, for humans, and maintaining mental balance requires an effort. but for those of us who are on this path there is no possible alternative, so continuing to deepen is the way
  11. Bullshit. Who cares about the lies? the life of the ego is absolutely unsatisfactory. nothing to lose. Just the idea that there was something to lose. zero ties
  12. enlightenment is a very strange process in which you will realize the real non-existence of the reality that you consider real. you will stay in the absolute solitude of existence. You will start this process because you don't feel well, because you suffer. It will lead you to be without handles. This sounds very nice and liberating but it is also destabilizing. nothing you consider real is real. there is no chain of events, no progression. everything is an illusion. our attachment to the process is enormous. we come from orange we are seekers. What happens when there is nothing to look for? Are we still looking for space rats? be careful with all this. You will reach a terrain where absolutely no one will understand you. If you tell your friends, your girlfriend, the reality of your life, they will think you are crazy. It's sad. your friends and girlfriend are just images. the same as your character ,but you are the real depth of existence. Only you are real. It's liberating... but you're walking on the ledge of madness. only suitable for the brave
  13. falsehood does not exist, it is not real. enlightenment is the process of realizing that you are creating the falsehood to make it appear as though you are an individual in a world separate from yourself.
  14. Why do you need others to understand you? The others are there to share and to love. what is deep inside you is the same as what is deep inside them, try to make that connect. Forget about being all the time releasing your special theories. they don't make any sense. Nothing mental matters, it's just a hobby. That is why we are in this forum, as a hobby that also strengthens our mind, an exercise. but it is empty, it is not real. the real is not mental
  15. this is a puzzle that must be solved. Suffering is the fundamental sense that allows you to perceive where you have to work.
  16. No way man, you need psychedelics. the thing is enormously complex. it is impossible to get close without psychedelics, and with them it is extremely difficult. You cannot imagine how well designed the trap that you are is
  17. This strange madness that we are involved in and that we call life, I don't know how it will end. ends? has begun? is it some kind of trap? The only thing I know, or I think I know, is that the objective of this game is love. It's selfless love, and it's really hard. it's all imaginary, it's an enormously complex structure created right now as a kind of puzzle that you have to solve right now, and you never solve it. funny? well... let's try to solve it, or we will be trapped forever in this eternal moment
  18. the absolute emptiness of total existence. Hallelujah
  19. no matter what happens along the way, in the end you are. and you are an infinite well of absolute freedom that can only be described as perfection. more than any expectation that the mind can conceive. It's a good idea to realize that, it makes life taste different
  20. the first time i did a full dose of 5 meo i had a horrible experience that was on my mind for months. the bottom of reality was absolute death. the terror of the meaningless, lifeless emptiness. absence. reality was a meaningless false shiny surface against a background of absolute death. hard to get worse. if i meditated long enough, i perceived that dead absolute, like a bottomless black square that swallowed everything. I knew that I had to go through that, since there is something indubitable: I am
  21. for me, bad. Sad, a shit. but of course, the sexual issue is so complicated... the laziness that the game gives me and all that is enormous, the feeling of falsehood that sex produces in me is enormous. When I cum, I want to dress like an alarm goes off and run right away. What I would really do is fuck 3 different girls with the body of a model every day, without saying hello, prostitutes could be, if possible, all three at the same time, and never the same, but prostitutes that get horny and fuck as a ninpho. but prostitution seems immoral to me, sexual slavery and I don't do it, never, forbidden (i did a lot in my teens). Even porn seems inmoral to me, same sex slavery. Then what do I do? I would like to be gay, really. Or a pill anti sexual impulse. Or get in love with my soulmate and do 9 kids. But nothing...just me and my hand boiling my brain . So about your question...i don't know, if it works for you, do it
  22. don't forget to say that before you have to have done 5 meo 50 times, and all kinds of psychedelics and gone from depressive and anxiety-ridden guy to some kind of sage in less than two years ? congratulations on intelligence and balls
  23. Fantasty?? Well, it's not that you need money to attract women, but the reality is that women are attracted to success. it is a genetic matter. This whole game is about continuing with the species, about bringing into the world competent individuals for survival and reproduction. everything is a courtship dance, like that of birds but thousands of times more complex. Money per se does not make you attractive, but the aura that professional and social success gives you does. You are the alpha, the chosen of the gods, the bearer of the seed that they want
  24. probably she is a narcissist who wants to have her child dependent and inferior to her. what you must do is realize their strategies and disassemble them, detach them from your psyche. she does not do it out of evil, she is like that. like the scorpion and the frog, she can't help it. once you see their pathetic strategies, they stop affecting you
  25. @Vrubel a pretty and smart girl has limitless options. any detail, any feeling, will be enough to rule you out. They are looking for something specific, not just a profile but a precise connection, a feeling, who knows? she lives in total abundance. It is as if you were a famous actor, the music star. I would say that your dates are a total success, you just aim high, that's good. lucky to be able to do it, the only drawback is that that kind of rejections could happens to you. I wouldn't take it personally, something you should change. it's up to her