Breakingthewall

You're right, but human nature makes it easy to be deceived. the fear of rejection is great. and human society is full of claims, of false paths to happiness. it is easy to fall into them, and when you internalize them are imprinted on the person, it is difficult to go back. intelligence is needed, or a lot of luck

I think you need some intelligence so as not to get lost in false paths, dogmas. although many high iq people get lost in them. It is a type of honesty, as @RickyFitts said, that allows you to Let the false away, and the courage to undo any mental anchor

@Javfly33 I'm at the point that meditating for a longer or shorter time identifies a point that creates the separation. In doing so, the separation disappears and there is amplitude, without i. nothing, but something, since everything that is being at that moment is. there is no before or after, only pure now. the problem with this is that it is empty of content. it creates a feeling of lack of anchorage, and if I stay there for a considerable time, when the thoughts come they do so with anger. memories of trauma, identification with the past, the ego in full force. there it is obvious who the separating factor is and how it does it. the ego is the construct formed by all your reality as a social being that gives you a human identity. what you were for your parents, your friends, your judgments on yourself throughout your life. what you are as a professional, friend, brother. it is full of "life", of events, wealth in some way. while the non-ego is empty, mute. beautiful but without content. it is very difficult for this emptiness to resist the force of the ego. The thing is that the ego is a construct, false , and because His falsehood, there is always a sensation of lack of something. The no ego is real, and let a sensation of fullness, but because his characteristic of subtle, empty, it's very difficult to stay there

So, what is the point of saying that God is desperate in his eternal loneliness? in addition to scaring people not as advanced as you, who have not had those realizations. I had many realizations of being the absolute alone, some was horrible, others was bliss. I don't trust any. Any realization could help you to dissolve the ego, but believe them as a dogma make the opposite. No idea is real.

This is false. Unbearable is a sensation of your ego. The void is not bored!

there is only one "thing", the infinite void that takes shape. in a vacuum there is no time, so it does not take forms in chronological order. For you, who are a form, only you exist, as emptiness, and the other forms are in your imagination, and for me, the same, and for each of the forms. the reality is that you are alone because you only exist, the emptiness that exists, but not because the other forms do not exist. it is irrelevant if they exist. for you, everything is in your mind. Realize that is impressive of course, but if you are in the ego mode you are not alone (you, who don't exist have the company of others who neither exist), and if you are in the empty mode "you" don't mind if you are alone

If we accept that time is an illusion, since reality is emptiness, what difference would it make in saying that you are going to live all your lives one after another, or that you are living them at the same time?

Exactly. If you look at yourself from the point of view of death, you will see that your "I", your sense of yourself, never existed. it was a mirage. but being, existence, cannot not be. what happens is that it is impersonal, empty.

you have no doubts about that, maybe you should. friend, reading you it becomes clear that you have no real intention of getting out of the well. be honest, do you want to go out? 1 the well in which you are is been creating by yourself, you know it, right? 2 you don't want to get out of it, you are torturing yourself and you don't want to stop doing it. Why? You have to find the answer I have been in the well of desperation, i got out of it, and now i see that all was my creation, because my vanity. I thought I was the last of the last and the reality is that my vanity was enormous, that's why I was tortured for myself. for my "importance", for my inability to accept what is. for rebellion, pride. As tatsumaru i have gone through a long, difficult, strange way of struggle. I just tell you one piece of advice: be honest

@vedame feel identified, my family history is very dysfunctional, narcissism, addictions and abuse, and my parents died of cancer consecutively in my adolescence, with which there is no possibility of contrasting anything. There is only one solution: you are not your past, there is nothing to fix, nothing was wrong, you do not have to analyze what happened or fight against it, just accept it completely and love it. How? completely eliminating the idea that something had to be different. how to achieve it? meditation. You are the present, you always were. the "story" you tell yourself is pure fantasy. my father gave me a gift, it prevented me from dwelling on the ego. As soon as I start to be there I go into loops of negativity, an alarm that tells me: get out of there. I meditate for an hour, and that's it, there's nothing like that, it's a pure anecdote, a situation like any other. reality manifesting. I feel love for my father, and compassion. any amount of rage, revenge, hatred, feelings of injustice, victimhood ... pure ego. I'm a lucky guy, since I'm forced to come out of the ego, and the ego is a trap, either way. I feel that I have an advantage over people with a healthy ego, they have a hard time getting out of jail

You could do all those things without be enlightened, you only need to do a work of identifying your traumas, repressions, accepting yourself completely, and eliminating any trace of competitiveness in you. it's not easy but you don't have to be buddha

All It is a movie that I am creating at this very moment, about me, what I did, my girlfriend, my father. I am fully aware of it at this very moment. the problem is that I can't stop it. and this movie prevents me from appreciating the beauty of the moment. but I know that without this movie there would be no "me" who would appreciate the beauty of the moment Not true, is totally possible to stop it, just need more understanding

?? It's Impossible, this shit of software is too strong. all the time changing from future to past, and that when it doesn't get worse with humiliation and so on ... damn survival software, it's useful but very annoying

yes yes, THIS is what it is, but I would like to know why, in every second of my existence, there is a slight feeling of ... this should not be exactly like that. Since I'm god, how do I remove that fucking virus from the equation? I can remove it for a while, but it restarts, like a doom. I Know that the fucking virus is me, of course

ah friend, but THIS is not the same as THIS. If THIS is cleaned of all the shit, then yes, there is an unbeatable THIS. but there is shit, and shit, so THIS, very often, being a wonderful THIS, looks a big shit

it is true, birth, childhood, they are ideas, mental constructions. the same as anything else you can think of. I don't think it matters whether it actually happened or not. right now it is a mental construction, it is irrelevant if it happened or not, since "happen" is another mental construction

From the time you are a one-year-old baby you start constructing, until the construction blocks your views to the point where your life is miserable. you want to get out of that misery, and you start to deconstruct, to get to the starting point, but with the software of an adult available. the difficult thing is to disable that software completely.

I have searched about him and it seems the prototype of Christian enlightenment: renounce yourself by yielding your self to Jesus, thus liberating yourself, and reaching the kingdom of heaven, but it is a service enlightenment, missionary, he thinks that without doing what God wants Whatever you do, in his case help anti-communist militiamen, there is no happiness possible. that life has a purpose and a mission

amazing. I'm researching on him and he was kind of a genius. his memoirs have just been published. he dictated 10 volumes on the condition that they be published 100 years after his death

@Girzo have you ever try al lad?

I'm not sure, but I think that for this you have to be born. you have to have a fire inside that wants the truth, because if you don't you will stop before.

It is not a matter of profit or interest, it is about total honesty. If you perceive in you a deep desire for honesty, integrity, truth, there is only one way for you. the rest is poor, miserable, fake gold to adorn and lie

I think that it is apparently changing but its essence does not change. memory allows us to have a vision of before-now-after, in order to function as humans, but this separates us from the essence of reality, from the eternal present. No matter how much it changes, if you are stuck in the present, for you it is simply reality, the same all the time. approaching that is what you try meditating, if the mind stops there is no apparent change, and the essence is closer

It seems to you that it changes because your memory contrasts it. If you had no memory it would always be the same. present, and you would be that

I understand you, it happens to me similar. But at this point, the only possible way is to go deeper. What do you care if human interactions seem pointless to you? you have the reality to keep you company. that of solipism is idiotic. your depth is such that it is company to spare for all eternity