Breakingthewall

A@Atb210201 Normal, the first time you see that your whole mental world that you are so attached to is nothing, it is quite horrible. Being able to accept it is a more or less long process, it depends on who. You see that everything is empty, then you forget it and you get hooked on the thought again, so many times. I would say that having thought loops like the one you have, about reality, trying to grasp something, understand, is a symptom that you are going to go beyond the mental at some point, since you are on not firm ground. It's Impossible to be in that intermedium point for long i think

silencing it. learning to be silent and to listen to silence. understanding that whatever the mind formulates means nothing, it's a survival tool. Is useful to survive in the relative world, that also is meaningless . I know that it is impossible to do this at will, but at least believe that it may be so. it is logical right? the mind is limited. It cannot understand the unlimited, it is impossible. but of course, If you have not realized the limitless, it is only a concept. This is what psychedelics are for. also meditation, but only this is enough for few

all those thoughts you have mean absolutely nothing. they are the conditioned mind creating concepts opposed to other concepts that in turn are opposed to other concepts ... that mean nothing. a survival tool that you are misusing. the truth is silence. what is not silence is not the truth. forget all those ideas, it does not matter one that the opposite. they all translate to: blah blah blah.

Yeah, that is why the traditional way consists of renouncing. Renounce to everything that is perceived as "good", eat what is essential, no sex, not talk, give up projecting a good image on others, any comfort. in short, to distinguish between good and bad, to relax the barrier and become enlightened. Simon the Stylite for example lived 37 years on top of a marble column . Fortunately today we do not have to renounce so much since we can modify brain chemistry

they are totally relative. they are just survival mechanisms. Obviously they seem very real and are very intense, if it were not like that they would be shitty mechanisms and you would not exist. They are very well done in the work of art that is life. The thing is: what is for you absolute and relative? I think here is the misunderstanding

the illusion as a separate individual, personal history, mental software that differentiates some things from others .... falsehood? I'd say it's true, on one level, like in a pyramid. you are at the bottom of the whole, and you are a separate stone, you go up to the stone of the top of the whole where everything is unified. But when you are down, it is true that you are a separate stone. True, relatively

they are conditions for the monkey to do this and not that and the individual/tribe/ species survive. biological switches, software. they are what creates the illusion of the individual, who blocks the doors of perception

@spiritual memes you have a difficult outlook, which is fortunate. an interesting challenge ahead. There are two necessary tools that you are going to need: honesty and courage. cultivate them every day. make them grow to a total level, with all that that implies. they are what is going to make the difference between a miserable life or a glorious life. Whoever reaches as low as you are, has the possibility of completely freeing himself. the last will be the first.

I believe that God is nothing and knows nothing, and suddenly it is a lot of energy that explodes and it is only that, and it only knows that, and that energy forms protons and God is protons, no more, know how to be a proton, and he is playing with the possibilities until reach a complexity as unimaginable as the human brain, a pattern within a pattern within a pattern ... all shapes in nothingness, and those unimaginable patterns intertwine in unimaginable numbers creating all this perfect and glorious dream that leads to .... maybe God doesn't know. Only divine improvisation

it takes true passion, desire for freedom, intelligence to understand the deception of the mind, courage to loosen any grip

No , I'm just saying that one thing will make your life more relaxed and happy and the other more dark and anxious. is like saying: is it wrong if I hit my finger with a hammer? it's not bad or good, it's painful

Only one meaning: be. The reality is empty, but we create the appearance of content. it's all illusion, maya. the reality is that our life has the same content as that of a lizard, empty. the lizard is closer to the truth, because it does not create an opera of imaginary meanings

If you dissolve your ego as much as possible and undo the knots that bind you, you will stop being a source of negativity and you will become a source of positivity. this is enough help for the world imo. if also, you feel the call to end hunger in the world, perfect, but you could also spend the rest of your life looking at the sea and without talking to anyone.

nothing is right or wrong, but ... what makes your ego stronger? What increases the feeling of separation, fear, anxiety, suffering? Or... What makes you freer, lighter, more at peace? neither is good or bad, choose the option you want

@Holygrail It is your ego terrified of its dissolution. imo the ego has to accept this little by little, understand what it is and accept its place. pounding it with psychedelics ahead of time only triggers a reaction. has to give up smoothly

that of you and the screen is a thought. reality is infinite. infinite cannot be thought, since to think is to put something in opposition to something. infinity has no opposite. It's okay for you to think things, like, it's only me, the earth is round, etc. but the point is to know that they are only thoughts, within infinity. they mean absolutely nothing. do you have fun thinking about them? great! do you suffer thinking about them? unnecessary nonsense. realize infinity. that's what you are and you can't think It. There is no meaning. Only infinity

Thoughts are a compulsion to interpret reality and be able to adapt to it, but they are not the reality. thoughts can cease when you see what is unnecessary to interpret, when you see reality for what it is, something without meaning. As long as the illusion of meaning exists there will be thoughts to interpret it without stop.

when there is no difference between good and bad, and it is seen that anything is equal to something else, and neither means anything, the doors of perception open, to the extent that preference disappears. They were closed by preference, necessary to survive

I believe, it is possible in meditation

try to make it the same for you that they tell you that you have won the lottery, or that you have cancer ... if you can. then there is no ego and you are in heaven

reality is nothingness, in the sense that there is not real content. So right now it's nothingness but it seems to the mind that there is content, many things, ideas, memories, images. they are false. It is not that they are a lie, it is that it seems that they are happening but they are empty images that do not mean anything. a steak is the same as a beggar, or humanity, or philosophy. nothing, empty. but we are addicted to that false content, so if in a moment they take it away, what remains, what we call emptiness, seems lacking in something, absence. It is not like that, emptiness is empty because it has no content, but it is full, it is being. it's pretty straightforward once you see it. The important thing imo is to recognize the adiction to the content, and see it's unreality. After the void is starting to be less threatening

When you are a child your ego is extremely weak, the pure joy of the present is your nature, but as you grow older the ego becomes strong. there are genetic programming that make this inevitable, the tribe must survive, it does not matter anything else, as something as irrelevant as the happiness of the individual. animals have a very simple ego, hunger, cold, reproduction ... the rest of the time, they simply are, in the garden of Eden, empty, just being. what we try, prisoners of the madness of the ego. a twisted and difficult game, interesting

It's hard in any culture. The ego is a survival software, and it becomes strong in any culture. all cultures are meant to survive. they are ego.

and one last question. If you've done 80x salvia, which is something that, after having done 10x, I wouldn't even do it for $ 5000 ... why don't you try friendly 5meo and leave your doubts?

I think you are right, of course it's possible, but extremely difficult. Extremely in a level that you understand only after do 5meo, at least it's my perception